Pam entered fangtasia quietly only to see the short dwarf leaving the office; she shut the door behind her as silently as she could trying her best to avoided eye contact with Eric
'I have an appointment date which you could have I'll be back tomorrow, assuming you're not going to change your mind" the dwarf hinted practically spitting the words at her before making her way out of the door
'Great' Pam said brightly reopening the door to let ludwig out
'Alrighty then guess were done here' Ludwig stated staring up at Pam matching the vampires tone completely
'guess we are' Pam smiled falsly pushing pushing ludwig forcfully out ther door and then slamming the door shut behind her.
Nora looked scowled sinking her face further into the text she was reading. the brunette sat at the Bar reading through some achient holy crap,
'Eric- Nora started looking Around but stopped when she took in the sight of Pam, glaring at her then towards bump,the brunette scraped the stool she was perched on across the floor grabbed the heavy looking book then made towards the exit pratically shoving Pam out of the way, Pam let out a quiet suprised sound bracing herself against the door but then quickly composed herself.
Okay great Nora had fucked off to Pam didnt know where, Tara was out on the hunt with jessica which now left Pam alone with Eric.
Eric sat in his throne staring at His progeny with eyes of glass, it was then the feeling of uneasiness came over Pam and it caused an involuntary shiver to run down her spine.
Pam began walking towards the office but soon changed her mind back to stanf before her maker
"this is ridiculos...Eric Say something" she urged staring at him with pleading eyes but he just stared through her. "Please!" she all but blustered the desperation clear in her voice, he sat forwards in his throne clearly looking for something to say, and just when she thought her would not say anything he did,
"How could this happen" he quiried his voice flat demanding an answer,
"I think you know how Eric and from what I remember you came onto Me" she snorted a substantial laugh, Eric how ever showed no signs of amusement.
"We did this" she said pointing to her enlarged stomach.
"I'm know that but why would you...i dont get why want to get rid of it...her, this is our chance to actually do something right, our second chance and Pam you barely gave her a second glance, when we saw her on the screen just then, just please tell me what your thinking" he urged attempting to get answers from her in the blink of an eye he was in front of her cupping her cheeks, she heisitated before bursting into tears, the crimson streaks staining her porcillin skin.
"I couldnt...it's not just a blob anymore it...it's got a proper little face" she paused
'Pam-' he started but she cut across him
'it was a mistake and everytime i look at it...im just gonna be reminded of that mistake- she bit the inside of her cheek feeling more tears run down her face- you don't love me anymore Eric not in that way...you love her' she shook her head refering to sookie- that's why i can't have this baby...and I am so sorry for that because i know it's not fair on you...but I cannot do it...I'll destroy her, we'll destroy her'
'Pam your wrong, I love you I always have loved you and this baby'- He began wiping her tears with the pad of his thumb she cut in again
"Eric I can't not after everything you did everything you put me through, pust us through how do I know you're not just going to piss off when that faerie cunt snaps her fingers or even when the next Sookie or fucking Sylvie comes along, I can't have her growing up and hating her father because he abandoned her for another fling and completely resenting me for being a complete screw up of a mother" she finished suppressing a smirk seeing his grimace he knew deep down she was right and he hated it she could see it ,and that the thought of his daughter hating him alone must've stung. But the emotion was only brief it then dissolved into guilt his icy blue eyes bore into hers making her involentarily melt a little under his gaze.
Eric lost his calm tone replacing it with that pissed edgy voice from earlier "you are not going through with this termination I forbid it" he said simply turning his back on her after a few moments of a mental debate, Pam looked up at him anger clouding her features over and she shoved him away from her ignoring the confusion on his features.
"That isnt your decision it's my body your not the one that has to give birth to this...this thing its nothing to me and I feel nothing for it it hates me and Im not ashamed to say that I hate it right back, all it is doing is making me fat giving me swollen ankles stealing my o negative making me throw it up and to top that off I'm always fucking crying so forgive me if i am not excatly warming up to the idea of being pregnant',
'YOU'VE BEEN CARRYING THIS BABY FOR SEVEN MONTHS WHAT'S CHANGED NOW?!' Eric roared making her jump
'I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT WAS EXSISTED I THOUGHT I WAS DYING AND YOU LEFT ME ALONE! t You think that you can just show a bit of love, and I'll be all up for raising this child when I know for a fact you you'll be off with the next Sookie in about seventeen years well fuck you Eric Northman. You fucking lied to me for years, fell in love with another woman and on top of that threatened my life while I was probably pregnant satans spawn."she shrieked bloody tears rimming the corners of her eyes, and that was it she flipped, taking her pink pumps off of her foot breaking it then shooting it across the bar to it's destruction letting out a cry of angst she then collapsed to the floor crying rocking herself back and forth like a child her maker watched on in disturbance,
It was then she felt herself being pulled into a tight embrace and realised that Eric was now cradling her in his arms. she gripped his leather jacket burying her face into his shirt and cried even harder letting out a strangle sob, she was a so depressed.
'my pumps' she cried 'those were my favorite ones' Eric could not help the the small smile that quirked his lips despite the seriousness of the situation.
"Pam" she heard Erics voice, she could hear him moving to pull her closer to but nothing stopped the involuntary cry she let loose yet again,
"Pam please just give it a few days then think about it-" came he stated no begged,
'NO- she whimpered pushing away from him- I cant keep on pretending i can tell it's just...-this time she broke down even more- it's not right, i can feel it...seeing it like that properly for the first time... so tiny and vunerable in every way...i just knew... this baby I can't be its mother i...im not doing it because i dont love the baby...im doing it because I already do, its for the best, I can't do this, I've made my mind up and it can't be changed im, sorry,' she wriggled free from his grip and made towards her bedroom.
'Pam' she heard his voice behind her but slammed the door behind her.
it was still spotless how she had left it almost ten years ago, her massive bed still covered with the same coral pink sheets they had always been, the smell of her perfume brought a smile to her face and for a split second she forgot about everything that had just happened, everything that had been going on for the past seven, it was only when she took her shirt off and caught sight of her ball of a stomach was she knocked back to her senses, Pam sighed and threw on her pink silk night dress it, the fabric stretching over her baby bump that poked out proudly, She huffed rolling her eyes tand crawled into bed...
Eric! Pam bellowed down the hall, frantically searching around for were her maker might be, the smell of human fluid itched at her nose, could Eric have betrayed her again, she couldn't believe it, the female vampire tornadoed to the bottom of the hallway; opened the door and was greeted by the sight of Bill Compton's house 'what, the fuck am I doing here?' she thought to herself
'Pam' she heard bill say 'im glad you're here-he said with a smirk,-Eric's this way Pam followed him up the stairs but when they reached the top, she found herself being hussled into a dark room, Pam tried breaking the door but it burnt her hands
'silver- Pam mentally scolded with a rage- I should have fucking known' it was then she realised something wasn't right, Sookie Stackhouse stood in the middle of the room wearing her famous yellow sundress,
'Pam-she said beaming-I've been waiting for you'
'what?' pam mouthed then edged closer it took pam a moment to realise that sookie was standing over a white crib, she hesitated then continued on, the cold women felt anxiety building up as she edged closer to the cot, only to find there was no baby in there '
but where-Pam began, a devilish cry hit her ears, she instantly covered her ears, eyes searching around the room, sookie stood there still smiling like a plastic mannequin.
'what the hell-pam began stopping when she heard the cry even louder this time she looked down towards her feet, there lay an infant baby, still covered in blood and baby gunk.
though she would never admit it she instantly fell in love with what she saw, she made to pick the baby up but her new born daughter disappear from her embrace,
'no' pam said looking around trying to find her baby but all she could hear was her crying, Pam suddenly froze and turned around, Sookie held her new born infant, Pam bared fangs and ran towards the faerie cunt that had stolen her child, but the more pam ran the further away sookie got and the faerie suddenly left the room, with her baby, as soon as sookie left Pam ran towards the door,
'Bitch' she shrieked pounding her fists against it hard despite the burns it dished out pam continued screaming over and over' don't let her take my baby!'
She sat up shaking feeling her airways becoming restricted as she breathed in unneeded air, her breaths were ragged, she instantly felt arms wrap around her, she pushed against the figure in fear from the nightmare that had just occurred,
'no' pam panted, but halted when she realised it was her vampire aunt, although she hated Nora's guts she needed a source of comfort right now and Nora was the only person in the room offering it, Pam put her head against Nora's shoulder
' where's Eric, she breathed' her aunt was obviously taken aback by how vulnerable Pam had allowed herself to be around anyone but her maker and tensed, Pam heard Nora lick her lips and muster up the courage to speak,
'He, couldn't, he didn't' Pam arose from her position and finished Nora's sentence
' you mean he doesn't want to face me after, my decision for fucksake I'm doing this for him' she couldn't help the feeling of anger drag itself up from her core
'No!- Nora said sternly' Eric loves you- she started but Pam looked her up smirking bitterly
'then why are you wearing his shirt' ' -the brunettes words tripped up over each sorry excuse she tried to make- ' just get out Pam said gesturing towards the door
'pam' Nora' launched out getting up from her position on the bed
'you think i dont know what you think of me- Pam pratically screamed at her- GET OUT' Pam yelled running a shaky hand through her hair, and in the blink of an eye Nora was gone, Pam took a seat back down on the bed and felt the unborn baby within her kick, she gagged at the sensation staying as still as she could,
But instinctively she placed a hand on her enlarged front, could she really go through with this? The cold woman laid down tucking herself into her soft satin duvets and closed her eyes.
Pam awoke the next day feeling really…out of sorts, she slid up from her position of sleep groaning but as soon she was on her feet she felt the feeling of nausea creep back up into her throat and stomach, the female bolted towards the bathroom kneeling down in front of the toilet and waiting for the thick pile of barf that was destined to come up.
She spent the first half of her night retching up last night's dinner, but soon left her room, Fangtasia was Packed, Tara had gone was still out hunting? and Nora was…Pam didn't care and Eric...probably bitching her off to Nora while they fucked or he was probably avoiding her, ginger ran to meet her.
' hi err miss Pam. Pam… the doctor came by and she's waiting in …in your office'
Pam rolled eyes feeling a weird sensation in he stomach fear? maybe that feeling you get were your not sure about doing something. ignoring this feeling Pam shoved Past the crowed of jumping bodies, Turning the handle of the office door and then opening it, There in her office sat doctor Ludwig, all equipment out and ready for the proceedure.
' Look who finally got their lazy ass up' the hag croaked
' just shut the fuck up and fix me' Pam spat removing her underwear, the doctor scoffed at her forcefulness, gesturing to the desk.
'make yourself comfortable' the doctor grumbled out nodding putting on some latex doctors glooves,
Pam obeyed padding over to the shiny black desk then laying down slowly atop of it, Ludwig pulled out a sharp looking instrument
'What is that' Pam quieried swallowing hard
'this is going to break your waters' Ludwig answered 'your too far along for me to proceed a normal abortion method' the doctor answered her question
'too far along? breaking my waters I don't understand- Pam shook trembling a little
'Pam If your not sure nows the time to change your mind'
'I AM SURE' Pam rushed nodding her head 'I am'
'Okay then are you ready?' doctor ludwig quizzed
'Yeah' Pam rushed with a quick unsure nod gripping the side of the desk and with that she felt a horrible indescribably pain and caught sight of a metal death stick entering her womanhood, her daughter kicked her furiously as if she knew something was badly wrong, the metallic knife made its way towards her opening and entered pam whimpered in pain covering her eyes with one hand she began cry softly
'you okay docter ludgwig asked pam nodded quickly- you might feel a slight pinch' the doctor ended 'Pam winced then jumped
- AH okay ...stop...stop' she shook feeling the metal prier withdraw from her ' I…I can't let you do this. I can't' she declared looking down at her stomach then back to the doctor, 'is it too late?' she asked
' No but-
then Call it off, Pam interupted slivering off the table
' I…Im still getting paid right' the doctor chided out
' fuck off-The cold woman bellowed in frustration- and the doctor hurried out of the office. Pam stood alone in the room both arms folded defensively over her chest
you can not seriously be thinking of going through with this her mind nagged, The female bit her lip slightly regretting her decision, but she had done the right thing...right? She was doing this for Eric, maybe this would change him, the way he felt about her maybe he would love her again and not Sookie or Nora, Pam growled to herself rolling her eyes which to be completely honest broke her thoughts then left the office in search of her maker.
you better be worth all this Pam muttered under her breath putting on her underwear then exiting.
