She sat in the office, shaking like a leaf she was herself but not herself she didn't know who the hell she was who were these strange people she didn't know but all she knew one thing she had to get away and fast she shakily to her feet sucked in an unneeded breathe, and started for a chair when found a one she slumped into it putting her elbows on wooden desk, she put her head in both hands and blinked away tears, her head pounded with so much intensity that it almost made it difficult for her to move. She sat there for a little while just thinking, feeling alone in a way she had never before, she just wanted to remember but she couldn't, it was as if some kind of wall had been put up in her brain blocking everything, blocking all her…memories she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, the room was insanely warm it felt somehow familiar in a home sense, she sat forward putting her head on the wood, which was cold and comforting then closed her eyes, she dozed off for about five minutes but was awakened by a scent a metallic yet advertising smell…blood she really smelt it as if she were in a hospital room full of blood bags she looked around the room then her vision focused on a male he looked like he had come straight out the shower, wet golden hair with beads of water running down his neck he wore a black vest that ran perfectly over his muscular body not that she was looking…much and to match black jeans, she had seen him before briefly at the door about a half hour ago, she held his gaze for a few seconds then shot from her seat, the man stood where he was and continued to stare at her
'Pam its- but she cut across him
' No I don't know you…I can't trust you…I don't know who you' she bleated.
'Pam you know me, you don't know it yet but you do' he went on her eyes searched everywhere in the room but then bore into his again he continued to speak but it blurred out, she smelt the blood again and peered over his shoulder he stalked towards her slowly like a predator circling its prey, she backed up until the back of her legs hit the chair, steadying herself she spoke
'okay I'm sorry I know your probably a nice guy but you can't just- the words died in her mouth and she tried again
'you can't just…I can't- she put a hand on her head and wavered squeezing her eyes shut and willing the pain away
'Pam' she felt the strangers cold hand on her shoulder my head hurts she thought then said it out loud 'my head hurts- she looked into his eyes-
I'm sorry I have to get out of here' the female stuttered
'Pam just slow down' he commanded
'No get off me…stop calling me Pam…just leave me Alone!' she shrieked
it's okay everything's okay said the voice in her head a man's voice which sounded almost god like she looked up confused then looked to the outside of the office 'Where are you' she called out shaking free from the males grip and striding out of the boiling hot room it's okay the voice said again
'I need more than a voice- she screamed- I don't know how to find you' she cried running both hands through her hair her gaze shifted to the door when it opened letting in a harsh breeze
'Eric I forgot my bag- the woman said she had a halo of blonde hair and wore a white dress, white dress…the white dress Pam thought the image flashed in her head sookie someone I dislike…someone who ruined my life 'sookie!-she burst out vamping over and grabbing the blonde by the neck.
'Stop' Sookie chocked out in a southern drool the female vampire suddenly felt strong arms snake around her waist pulling her away from the poisonous bitch 'she ruined my life- the female screamed- she ruined my life' she sobbed feeling tears
'Sookie go' the man roared,
'But Eric' Sookie pouted 'go!' he warned Sookie huffed grabbed her bag and left, she spun around grabbing the man's shirt
'she did something I know she did' she bellowed at the top of her lungs 'okay, okay just calm down' Eric soothed pulling her into a hug
'I don't know anything she whispered 'we'll fix this pam I promise'
'why do you keep calling me that she frowned 'it's your name' he stated
'no it's not my names- she paused Pamela- Pamela that's my name isn't it?' she questioned cocking her head to the side, '
Pam, Pamela it's the same thing isn't it?' Eric laughed; she gave him a small unsure smile.
Eric's pov
'So I know you' Pam smiled up at me she was beautiful, a blonde strand of hair covered her eye and I couldn't resist moving it from her face
'yes you do' I nodded absently 'Who are you' she asked her eyes traveling from my face to my feet I smiled arrogantly,
'your maker' I answered her question 'I don't know-' she bit her lip
'I can't remember' she shook her head
'you will I promise pam'. Then my phone rang, shit it was Sookie
'Sorry I have to take this' I breathed I made to walk away but she grabbed my arm
'please don't leave me' she begged and it broke me 'she had uttered those words a mere day ago before she had given birth
, she had uttered those words a month ago when I had sold her out to bill, I didn't deserve her, I had taken her for granted, she was Pam but no the Pam I knew, she had no memory of our hundred years together, and it was my fault. I could only hope she would forgive me for it when she eventually did remember, if she remembered. I swallowed the uneasiness in my throat and kissed her forehead.
'I'll be right back'.
Pam smiled falsely and watched him stalk away, as soon as he was out of sight, she vamped into the ladies room, and shut herself into one of the toilet stools window, window there must be a window she thought looking around she caught sight of a small but big enough opaque exit smirking she climbed on top of the toilet and broke through the glass which shattered in one blow, she vamped out of the window and into the fresh night air. The cold hit her with so much force it brought a gasp from her lips , the wind blew in her hair causing it to fall wildly over her face , sucking in an unneeded breathe she sprung out into the dark abyss.
