Ch 7 Only In Your Dreams
"LEO! LEO!" Raph grabbed Leo's shoulders and shook him awake. "Wake up, your having another nightmare!"
Leo's eyes shot opened and he stared horrified at Raph. He grabbed him in a fierce hug and cried uncontrollably, the images of the nightmare still playing over and over in his mind.
"Oh God Raph!" Leo cried out as he buried his face into Raph's plastron and cried hard, the tears flowing along his cheeks wetting Raph's chest. "You're still here." Leo sobbed. "You're haven't gone anywhere."
"It's okay Leo." Raph soothe, running his hand up and down Leo's shell trying to calm him down. "I'm right here, it's okay."
He looked up as their door opened and his Sensei and brothers filed into the room looking concern over the screams coming from inside.
"Is everything alright Raphael?" Splinter asked, coming closer to their bed.
"I'm not sure Sensei." Raph replied, still trying to calm down Leonardo.
Leo hiccuped and shook hard as he slightly moved himself away from Raph's chest. He looked up at the others, trying hard to control himself. "I'm sssorry everyone." He stuttered. "I…I don't know what came over me."
"Leo." Raph made Leo look up at him. "We know you've been having nightmares for almost a year now."
"Yeah bro." Mikey sat on the bed next to Leo. "Open up and talk to us."
"We're all here for you Leo." Donnie said, as he too moved closer to the bed. "Tell us what the nightmares are about."
Leo looked away from the family in shame. "I'm so sorry." He said as he finally calmed himself. "I didn't realized I've been disturbing you all with my foolish…."
"Don't Leo." Raph said, his eyes hard. "Don't go telling us that your some kind of burden and your problems mean nothing to us." His eyes soften and he rubbed his cheek gently. "I…we love you." He motioned to his family "And we want to help you so please, talk to us…tell us what's going on." He pleaded
Leo took a deep breath and his shoulders sagged in defeat. "Your right Raph." He told him. He looked around at the rest of them and shook his head. "I've been trying so hard to deal with everything by myself, I've got to start remembering you're all family and I can come to you with my problems."
"Come, let us go down to the kitchen for some tea and then Leonardo can tell us what has been upsetting him." Splinter told them. They followed him down to the kitchen and while Splinter made the tea, Leonardo sat by Raph and took a deep breath. He smiled when Splinter placed the small cup full of the calm smelling liquid in front of him and began his story.
"It always starts out the same way." Leo began. "I'm fighting Saki and he dies, just like it happened so many months ago. But then things change." Leo got a far away look in his eyes as the dream came back to haunt him. "I'm at the cemetery looking at my mom's grave and I look up and he's in front of me. Staring at me, mocking me, reminding me how much of a disappointment I am to him and how much he hates me." Leo looked down at the cup of tea in his hands and the others saw a tear escape his eyes.
Splinter put a paw on his shoulder. "You have never been a disappointment to anyone Leonardo." He told him. "We are all very proud of you." He forced Leo's head up to look at him "And I know your mother is as well."
Leo wiped the tears from his face and smiled at him.. "Thank you Sensei." He told him, sniffling. "Anyway." Leo said continuing. "Usually in the dream, after Saki is done speaking to me, I'm usually running through the woods trying to get away from someone. But I can never see his face. But this time..." Leo took a breath and stared at Raph. "In this dream…."Leo swallowed hard.
"Go on Leo." Raph urged. "What happened in this dream."
"Instead of running through the woods, we're at our wedding." Leo's began to breathe heavily. "We all look so beautiful. We're in our tuxedos and we're happy. I turn to look at Rev. Honeycutt and when I turn back." Leo's began to shake and he grabbed Raph's hand hard. "You and everyone else is no longer there."
"What happened to us Leo?" Mikey asked anxiously. "Did you dream we got taken by aliens and beamed up to their ship and... ow." Mikey looked at Raph and rubbed his head.
"I don't know what happened to you guys Mikey."Leo told him. "I'm now at the cemetery and in front of me is a tombstone." He looked at Raph with a wide eyed frightful look. "Your tombstone...and...and it shows you're death as being on July 14!" He cried out. "The same day as my mother but it's your tombstone Raph!" Leo began to sob again as he continued. "In the dream, I look like I'm alone in the cemetery but then I turn around and see this person dressed in black just standing behind me, just staring at me!" Leo grabbed at Raph's hands desperately and held them tight. "Oh God Raph!" He yelled. "I'm so scared I'm going to lose you!"
Everyone quickly gathered around Leo and brought him into a hug. "You are NOT going to lose me Leo." Raph said vehemently as he and his brothers pulled Leo into a fierce hug. "In less then two months, you and I will be married and we will be together for years and years and years to come!" He told him.
Leo looked at him with red rimmed eyes. "Oh Raph." He whispered. "I want to believe that so bad."
"We'll make sure Raph will be okay." Donnie told him, they each pulled away from him and looked at Raph. "We all can pitch in and make sure Raph's gets to work and home okay and…."
"Donnie can get him one of those bullet-proof vest." Mikey interrupted excitedly. "Oh…or put him in one of those really big balls that he can run in or maybe...ow!" Mikey rubbed the spot where Raph hit his head again.
"Now your just getting ridiculous Mikey." Donnie told him, rolling his eyes. He turned back to Leo. "We can stay by Raph's side til the wedding." He told him. "You'll have nothing to worry about." Leo smiled at him but the frown on Raph's face had Leo worried.
"Look everyone." Raph said standing up. "As much as I appreciate you trying to help Leo get over this nightmare." He gave everyone a stern look. "There is no need for you to be on a constant guard around me." He looked at Leo. "Everything will be fine when you realize that these nightmares are nothing more then you not being able to come to terms with what happened between you and your father." He knelt in front of him. "You need to let it go and get past what he did to you." He pleaded. "If you would just come to terms with it, these nightmares would end."
Leo hung his head and wiped his eyes. "You're probably right Raph." He admitted. "I'm sorry I woke everyone up." He stood up and went to leave the kitchen. "Let's all go back to bed." He took a deep sigh and left.
Raph let out an annoyed huff and followed Leo up the stairs. Mikey, Donnie and Splinter watched them leave and then looked at each other, worry clouding over their faces.
"What do you think Master Splinter?" Mikey asked him.
Splinter stroked his long thin beard. "Some believe that dreams are visions of things to come." He turned to his two younger sons and nodded. "Perhaps we should find a way to guard Raphael so we may keep him safe." Splinter turned to leave the kitchen. "I too am sensing something dire on the horizon."
The other two turtles looked at each other, worry etched across their foreheads. They nodded and walked up stairs to go back to bed.
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Leo walked into their bedroom and watched as Raph massaged his temples. He leaned his head back and took a deep breath before going back to his book. It was the last week of school and Raph was working hard on his finals. He had to keep his grade above a 3.5 average if the Veterinarian clinic would take him on and give him the job he wanted. There was one more class and he would be done. And this class was the toughest.
"I think you need a break." Leo told him. He walked up behind him and began massaging his shoulders.
Raph shook his head. "No, I'm just having a hard time remembering this last bit of information." He looked back down at the biology book and read. A few seconds later, he slammed his fist on the desk in frustration. "Ughh!" He yelled out."Why can't I get this?"
Leo pulled Raph's chair away from the desk and walked around to the front of him. He straddled his lap and sat down. "You need a break." He told him, more sternly. He leaned his head close to Raph's and pressed their lips together. He churred loudly into Raph's mouth as they kissed deeply and hungrily. Eventually pulling away and pulling his t-shirt above his head to take it off before pulling Raph's off his body. He then brought their lips together and they continued to kiss.
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Raph felt his body begin to relax and a growing bulge inside the lower region of his plastron began to form. He put his arms around the lower part of Leo's shell and very easily stood up and walked them over to the bed. He laid them down and began to rock back and forth on top of his mate, forcing his shorts and undershorts down his legs and kicking them off.
They kept the kiss going as Leo removed his pants and shorts as well. Their churrs continued to mingle as Leo wrapped his legs around Raph's middle. He broke the kiss and reached over into their nightstand and pulled out a rather large bottle of lube.
"I'll top." Leo said. He was just about to open the bottle when Raph took it from him.
"Uh uh." He said as he sat up and and quickly began lubing Leo's entrance. He eagerly looked at Leo and he pushed his fingers into his ass. He watched Leo grimace in slight pain. They stared at each other as Raph moved his fingers inside him. Leo threw his head back and grunted as Raph roughly shoved his hard dick inside him.
"God I want this so bad." Raph told him, looking down at Leo with anxious eyes. "I've been wanting to make you scream and beg me to make love to you for so long."
Both boys had to admit, between Raph's studies and making the wedding plans, sex between them had been few and far between. So with no one in the house, they relished this time together and quickly got themselves in the mood.
Leo put his hands against the head board and panted hard. "Oh God yes Raph!" Leo cried out as Raph shoved himself hard. "I want you to hurt me!" He begged. "I want you so badly inside me!" He grunted as Raph moved himself inside and they pushed against each other. "Make me scream for you!"
Raph grabbed Leo's hips and held Leo against his groin with his hard long dick shoved as far into him as possible while Leo pushed against the headboard and kept his legs wrapped around his middle. They stared up at each other with intensity as hard rippling waves of passion swept through them.
Leo finally threw his head back hard and let out a long and very loud churr. He let his cock slip out and Raph grabbed it eagerly and began pumping him hard with one hand while his other grabbed the sheet beneath him. He continued to lean into Leo while Leo continued to hold him with his legs.
Sweat poured down their faces and bodies as both refused to relent. Raph grunted and held fast as he pumped Leo's cock erect and pre-cum began to leak out. Leo churred and panted hard as Raph's dick pressed against his prostrate and he felt his cock being played with, still he would not remove his legs.
"Scream for me Leo." Raph urged, desperate to move himself back and forth. "Let me hear you."
At first Leo attempted to stay silent, but Raph's constant movements of his hips and slight wiggling of his cock deep within him finally had him begging. "Uhhh….Raph!" Leo cried out. "Uhhh….I can't…uhhhh..Oh God!" Leo finally removed his legs from Raph's waist and they began to flail. "PLEASE MOVE!" Leo begged.
Raph grinned evilly down at Leo and began thrusting back and forth while he pumped his cock. He thrust hard and both boys loved every minute of the rough love making. Leo had tears flowing out of his eyes as he felt Raph bring him to the brink of ecstacy and pump him to completion. Raph then laid down on top of him and kissed him hungrily as he thrust deep and hard into him. Several minutes later, Raph filled Leo up with his seed and churred long and loud.
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Leo panted hard and laid his head back against his pillow. He could always count on Raph to make their love making extreme, and yes, he had to admit that he did love it. But he also had to admit that Raph needed this and he was willing to be his outlet. He had been feeling guilty about his nightmares having a bigger impact on Raph then even Raph was willing to admit, but now he knew and now he was determined to push away the fear and continue with the wedding plans.
"You okay?" Raph asked.
"Yeah, you?" Leo turned to look at him and saw Raph nod. "You want to get back to studying?"
"After a nap." Raph grinned at him. "You wore me out."
Leo smiled at Raph. "I'm sorry." He told him
"Nothing to be sorry about." He told him. "You always wear me out."
"No..I'm sorry I didn't confide in you earlier about my nightmares." Leo looked away from him and back at the ceiling. "I should know by now I shouldn't hide my weaknesses from you…or our family."
Raph looked at him and grinned. "Our family?" He asked him. "You're ready to accept everyone as being your family now?"
"Shouldn't I?"
"Yeah." Raph gave a light chuckle. He yawned and closed his eyes. "I just wish you had done it sooner." He moved his hand and placed it on Leo's. "And I forgive you." He said, giving his hand a gentle squeeze. "And…I'm sorry too."
"For what?" Leo asked in surprise.
"For not helping you out with the wedding plans."
"That is nothing to be sorry about." Leo told him sternly. "You are finishing up with school and studying hard." He rolled onto his side and leaned on his elbow to look down at him. "I want you to concentrate on school." He told him. "I don't mind taking care of the wedding plans." He laid back on the bed. "Besides, both the wedding and the honeymoon is all set to go so stop feeling guilty over it." He said. "I want it this way."
Now Raph sat up and leaned over Leo, he put his hand on Leo's face and gently stroked his cheek. "I love you." Raph said. They looked at each other and kissed tenderly before snuggling in each other's arms. "Love you too." Leo said as they both closed their eyes and let sleep take over.
