This one is a little more on the depressing side, Rayna writes a song about how Deacon misses her 21st birthday party, Watty had thrown her after they got back from a small tour with George Strait. She performs it a couple days after the party at the bluebird where Deacon ends up hearing it.
The Moment I Knew
Rayna ended up at Tandy's after the party knowing there was no way she could face Deacon after he just hadn't shown up to her party without so much of a phone call saying he wouldn't be there. Rayna tried to be quiet going in to Tandy's house but as it always goes Tandy heard her come in.
"Rayna what are you doing here?" Tandy asked meeting her sister at the door.
"I just couldn't go to Deacon's" Rayna said trying to hide the tears.
Tandy took a deep breath trying to figure out the best way to navigate the conversation. "What happened babe?" Tandy finally ended up saying
"He told me so many times he would show up tonight. That he would be there to celebrate but he never showed up Tandy! How could he do that to me?" Rayna sobbed against her sister
"I'm sorry Rayna but you know how Deacon can be" Tandy said as she rubbed her sisters back trying to comfort her.
"I think I need to break up with him" Rayna said through the tears. Tandy just sighed knowing the cycle these two would get into; break up then get back together then break up again. She knew it was only a matter of time before she went crawling back to Deacon.
"Whatever you think is best honey. Let's get you to bed, you've had a long day" Rayna nodded in response and walked to the guest room at Tandy's. As Rayna laid on the bed she couldn't help but think about the party and how much Deacon had let her down once again, so Rayna decided to do what she did best; write a song.
A Couple Days Later
Deacon was sitting at the bar at the bluebird since he had nothing else to do since Rayna stopped answer any of his calls after the night of her party. He heard the chairs on the stage start to move so he turned to see who was starting off open mic night, he shouldn't have been surprised to see Rayna sitting there on a stool with the small band behind her. He ordered another drink as he knew this was probably gonna be a song about him. He could see from afar just how red and puffy her eyes were from crying and not getting any sleep.
"Hey y'all, how are you tonight?" she greeted the small crowd, and was met with a small round of applause "I'm gonna start off with a song I wrote the other night, I haven't performed it yet so be kind" she said with a small laugh and looked at the man at the piano to start playing.
You should've been there,
Should've burst through the door,
With that 'baby I'm right here' smile,
And it would've felt like,
A million little shining stars had just aligned,
And I would've been so happy.
Christmas lights glisten,
I've got my eye on the door,
Just waiting for you to walk in,
But the time is ticking,
People ask me how I've been
As I comb back through my memory,
How you said you'd be here,
You said you'd be here.
And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
As I'm looking around the room,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.
And the hours pass by,
Now I just wanna be alone,
But your close friends always seem to know
When there's something really wrong,
So they follow me down the hall,
And there in the bathroom,
I try not to fall apart,
And the sinking feeling starts,
As I say hopelessly,
"He said he'd be here."
And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
And asking me about you,
But there was one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.
What do you say
When tears are streaming down your face
In front of everyone you know?
And what do you do when the one
Who means the most to you
Is the one who didn't show?
You should've been here.
And I would've been so happy.
And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all standing around me singing
"Happy birthday to you",
But there was one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.
Ooh, I knew.
Ooh,
You called me later,
And said, "I'm sorry, I didn't make it,"
And I said, "I'm sorry too,"
And that was the moment I knew.
Deacon tried to make eye contact with her through the whole song but she was looking down the whole time. He couldn't help but notice how haunting her voice sounded due to the sadness he had caused her and the lack of sleep she'd had. AS she got off the stage Deacon quickly got up from his seat at the bar to follow her.
"Rayna! Ray! Rayna stop!" he yelled as he chased after her, he could've sworn she hesitated when he yelled out Ray but she just kept walking.
"Rayna please stop! Baby I'm sorry, please talk to me!" he called as he followed her out the back door of the bluebird.
"What Deacon?!" she yelled as the mascara ran down her face from the tears.
"I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to miss your party. Vince wanted to go out looking for Vanessa and he started drinking and then roped me in to drinking with him and before I knew it, your party was already over." He said taking her small hand in his bigger hand.
"Deacon, this isn't the first time you've missed something. How am I supposed to know that you're gonna show up at shows when you promise you're gonna show up at my party but don't" She yelled trying to pull away from him.
"Please Ray you gotta believe me. I got you a present and everything, I planned on coming."
"I can't deacon. I need time away for a while. I'm sorry" she said pulling her hand away and walking over to her car. Deacon just watched her walk off and eventually drives away before slamming his fist against the wall of the bluebird.
