Kuroba Fumiya

Admiration

It wasn't a secret that Fumiya, one of the possible heirs for the next head of the Yotsuba, openly admires and adores Shiba Tatsuya, a person within the family that had lost his number and is now merely a guardian to his more superior little sister.

For Fumiya, he does not care.

He does not about the opinion of others.

Whenever Fumiya gazed at his older cousin, the only thing he sees was someone who was the very epitome and the very crystallization of what a Yotsuba.

Whenever Fumiya looks at Tatsuya, he sees the perfect Yotsuba, a Yotsuba that he wanted to emulate as much as possible.

It was frustrating to him that only a few could readily admit this fact.

Denial

Fumiya could hear the whispers of his family, of his clan.

And he hates what he hears.

They have always commented him about his magical talent, power, and potential, and Fumiya appreciates this.

But he knows that aside from his magic, his family looks upon him very poorly.

They always assume that he was too kind to be a Yotsuba. Too softhearted to be truly be consider as a successor to their current leader, and too naïve to make the truly harsh decisions expected for the next heir.

Fumiya hated hearing those words, because they were correct.

Fumiya was still in denial but he knew, to the very bottom of his heart, he did not have what it takes to be a Yotsuba.

Unlike his sister, unlike his cousins, he would never be jaded or ruthless enough to truly lived up the to the mantle of their clan.

Fumiya hated this about himself.

Jealous

Fumiya was somewhat jealous of his twin sister.

He was jealous of the magic that she was born with.

Considering the bloodline, Fumiya was favored in the eyes of the clan because his magic was that of Outer-Systematic Magic, the magic that can manipulate the mind.

This heritage allowed him to be in line as a possible successor to the Yotsuba.

Fumiya would trade the honor of being consider as a possible successor and his magic for him to have the magic of his twin.

His ability may have been more favored by the family, but the magic that resembles the magic of his idol, Fumiya would admit that he would kill for such ability to be his.

Loyalty

There was a point in time when his twin was in the verge of losing her number.

For a descendant of the Ten Master Clans, losing their number is equivalent to death.

The shame that one would experience after losing their number would be excruciating that one would likely forfeit their life rather than living as a pariah in the Magical Community.

Regardless of their father's attempts and efforts, it was clear that his twin would loss her number and after that, they would not be considered siblings anymore.

And that would be tortured for Fumiya and Ayako.

And in their darkest hours, their savior appeared before them and provided Ayako with all the tools necessary for her to user her magic to the fullest.

Tatsuya gave the time and taught Ayako how to properly use her magic, and due to his tutelage, Ayako became a treasured member of the clan.

On that day, Fumiya's admiration for his cousin grew to leaps and bounds and the gratefulness that he felt for him was insurmountable.

The day Tatsuya gave his sister her place in the family was the day Fumiya's undying loyalty change from the family, who was ready and willing to rid her sister from the clan, to Tatsuya, who provided the means for his sister to remain his sister.

Disgust

He watched as a man scream for his life after being hit by his magic.

At the sight of the man's anguish and tortured expression, Fumiya was disgusted to the point of vomiting.

But he held the bile that was on the verge of rising to his throat.

He fought to keep the bile into his stomach and for his disgusts hidden from anyone within range.

Fumiya did not want this.

In fact, Fumiya hated this, but he kept firm and continue torturing the man.

The Yotsuba is dark because there is a need for them to be dark.

Fumiya, who was a candidate for the next leader of the family, knew this. He knew the necessity for them to be dark better than anyone did.

But it didn't change the fact that he feels disgusted that he can cause such anguish at a whim.

It did not change the fact that he was disgusted with himself for not being strong enough to stomach this simple task.

Kindness

Kindness, it was the trait that defined Fumiya.

And it was also the trait that became his undoing.

Fumiya knew that he was kinder than a normal Yotsuba.

His twin has a ruthless streak that was downright terrifying.

His cousin, Miyuki, can be very selfish to the point of cruelness.

His favorite cousin, Tatsuya, is very much willing to level an entire country if his sister is threaten.

Fumiya was incapable of becoming so callous.

He valued life more than anyone in the family.

He was the only one in the family that does not have a 'kill all' and/or 'take no prisoners' mentality.

He was the only one in their generation and in their family as a whole who would spare an enemy rather than burying them in a ditch where no one would be able to find the remains.

And that shortcoming of him was the reason why he would never be the next leader of the Yotsuba.

In a way, Fumiya was ok with it.

The core of who he is would never change, and he doesn't have the means or the will to change the Yotsuba from within. He didn't even have the desire to make some changes within the family.

Fumiya will not change who he is.

He will not attempt to change the family, the clan to fit his ideals.

And he will not allow the Yotsuba to change who he is.

Envy

Fumiya hated his reflection.

He hated his body as a whole.

He was a boy and he was going to be a man.

But he look so feminine that most would mistake him for a girl.

And he hated it.

He hated his appearance because he was envy of girls.

He was envious of his sister and his cousin Miyuki.

He was a boy, a male with a face and, some would even say, a body that most girls would wish for.

Fumiya did not want the body that he was born with.

He also had a dislike for the gender that he was also born with.

With the anatomy that he was born with, he wished for a body that was more masculine than feminine and a face that was more handsome than beautiful.

With the body and the face that he was born with, he wished for a gender that would match his overall appearance.

Fumiya always thought to himself that if he were a girl, with the face and the body that he has, he would have had a case do be with his idol, and that was something that he was envious of his sister.

Reflection

Whenever Fumiya gazed at his sister, all he could see is a reflection of himself.

A distorted reflection that he wanted to become.

The source of his love for his sister is the fact that she was everything that he wanted to be.

From her personality to her magic, to her ideals and to her outlooks, Fumiya craved to be his sister in ways that no boys his age should feel.

And because of this, because of the reflection that Fumiya could see every time he gazes at the eyes of his sister, whenever his eyes gazes upon his sister, he loved her more.

She was living a life that he could possibly have in a different world, and just witnessing it is something that Fumiya considered a privilege.

Happiness

There was one indisputable fact within the Yotsuba, and that is Tatsuya would never ask the Yotsuba for any assistance if he would help it.

That is why Fumiya felt blissfully happy whenever Tatsuya request for his help.

It was clear to him that his idol will never look at the Yotsuba as family, that is why he was so hesitant to ask help from them.

And he was not asking help from the Yotsuba.

He was asking help from him, and this filled Fumiya with happiness.

With Tatsuya asking assistance from him, that was a testament that he considers him family, and Fumiya was honored that his idol considers him family.

And with that in mind, Fumiya was determined never to fail him.

Death would have been favorable than disappointing his idol.

Relief

When Maya announced the engagement between Tatsuya and Miyuki, a wave of relief washed over him.

When Maya formally announce Miyuki as the next leader of the family, that relief was multiplied to a ten.

He knew that the family was in good hands now that Tatsuya, not Miyuki, would be leading them to the next era.

Fumiya knew, as well as everyone in his generation, that Miyuki would just be a dummy head for Tatsuya to give his commands to.

Everyone in his generation was fine with that, and Miyuki was fine with it as well.

Fumiya was also relieve at the fact that his idol would have the best wife in the world for him.

Miyuki was a beautiful woman that would make him happy, and that was enough for Fumiya to give his future Patriarch and Matriarch all the support in the world.

But for now, there was someone else in need of support, someone else in need of comfort.

Going to his sister's side, he ushered her in his arms, before telling her that her heart was not the only thing that shattered with this arrangement.