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Krissy
Chapter 17
Ziva sighed as she stared at Tony and realized he was not going to back down until he knew what was holding her back. "I'm afraid." She said simply and winced. It was really hard for her to admit that she was afraid of something.
"Ziva is actually admitting that she is scared of something?" Tony asked, trying to put her at ease.
"Tony." She said with a sigh.
"Why don't you tell me what you're afraid of?" Tony asked her as he walked back with her towards the bed and sat her down and then sat down next to her.
"What happens if we get married and we have a family and he gets to you? I keep picturing us being a happy family and then it all gets taken away and you and the kids get killed because of me. I couldn't handle it if something happened to you or any kids we might have because of me." Ziva said in a soft whisper.
"Ziva, look at me." Tony said patiently as he waited for her to lift her eyes to meet his eyes. "Baby, we are a team and a family, no one is going to let anything happen to you, me or any kids we might have. You and I both know that if kids are involved Gibbs will go above and beyond to keep them and us safe. We are a family at NCIS."
"I know, that's what Abby said that as well." Ziva said biting her lower lip. "I want to marry you Tony, I love you." She said softly.
"Then marry me Ziva." Tony said, understanding that wasn't an answer to his question just a statement but she was still holding back. "Ziva David, will you marry me?"
Ziva was nervous, she was weighing her options and her wants and needs and what she felt was a good idea or not. Finally she had no other choice, knowing how she felt and what was going through her mind and his, she knew he wouldn't back off now that he knew she loved him and that the only thing holding her back was her fear for his safety and the safety of any kids they might have together. She knew he would push the issue and keep on asking her to marry him over and over again, and she realized it was what she wanted to do more than anything. "Yes." She finally answered him and the grin that broke out on his face made a warm fuzzy feeling enter her chest and she felt whole and truly happy and relieved as she said the answer, and that told her it was the right answer.
Tony tackled her back to the bed with a wicked grin on his face, showing her exactly what his intentions were at that moment. "I think it's high time we celebrate our engagement the right way." He said just before he kissed her hard on the lips.
That night everyone in the house was toasting the newly engaged couple and eating some really good food that was cooked in honor of the engagement. As everyone celebrated and drank wine, Ziva didn't drink any of it, mainly because she and Tony weren't sure if they had conceived a child together or not and she didn't want to take any chances until she knew for sure. As she watched them toasting their glasses and laughing and joking, she felt happy that she was a part of the team and the family. There was still a small part of her that was nervous and scared, she felt like she had just thrown Tony into a situation he shouldn't be a part of.
Ziva excused herself from the table and went to the bathroom in the hallway, and she locked the door and leaned against the door before going over and putting the lid of the toilet down and sitting on it. She felt her hands shaking and she felt tears running down her face and she realized what was going on, she was so terrified for Tony because she loved him so much that she was afraid of losing him and the thought of him in such danger was causing her to have an anxiety attack and the tears were falling down her face.
She wasn't sure how long she sat in there but as soon as she was sure that she could keep it together she got up and went to the sink and washed her face, patting her face and eyes and making sure no one could tell she had been crying. Ziva David didn't cry, it was not something she could do in front of anyone because they thought of her as the big bad tough Mossad agent, but she wasn't that person anymore. She was an NCIS agent, and soon she would be Tony's wife but she was also a target and now so were the people that were so important to her.
When she went to open the door she frowned, she hadn't noticed it but the window into the bathroom was open, and she didn't think anyone in the house opened it. She turned back towards the bathtub and the window. She reached behind her to unlock the door, just in case and she slowly walked over to the tub and pulled the curtains back, and came face to face with the one man she didn't think she would ever see. Before she could scream his fist hit her face and then she felt something cover her mouth and nose, and then she knew no more.
Tony frowned as he realized Ziva had been in the bathroom for way too long. He slowly got to his feet and knew in his gut something was wrong. He could feel it inside him that something bad had happened, and yet he wasn't all that sure what it could be. He walked to the bathroom and knocked on the door but there was no answer.
"Ziva, baby, open the door." Tony said into the bathroom through the door, but he got no response.
Tony turned the knob and was surprised when it opened and then his heart nearly stopped as he saw blood on the wall and the window that he had hated in that house, wide open. He thought it was weird that there was a regular window in the bathroom connected to the tub, but it was said that it was important in a safe house in case of emergency, but now it was clear that the window had been their downfall.
"Gibbs!" Tony shouted loudly and heard running footsteps. "He has her." He whispered when the team stopped near the door. "Maliek has Ziva."
