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Maisi
It's nearly Felicity's birthday and Oliver has spoken to her less and less. He still picks her up and drops her off at school but they barely speak. Its difficult having him gone most of the day and only seeing him for about 10 minutes each day all of which are spent arguing over the radio.
"What's happened to him?" Felicity's voices her fears to Sara who's sat in their attic with her a hand in hers "I mean, one minute he's happy and talking with Thea and I every day after school and the next I never see him and when I do we argue." She's ranting and she knows it but Sara's the only one who will listen "I-it's my birthday next week and I want him to be there"
They're silent for a while and Felicity nibbles at her apple as the tears arrive, they're streaming down her face by the time Sara has her wrapped in a hug "I told you he'd leave" she cries into her shoulder and Sara says nothing just hugs her back.
"How about I ask Laurel to see what's wrong with him?" Sara offers and Felicity looks up at her before nodding silently "Then we can kick his butt can't we?" Felicity smiles and squeezes her best friend tightly before pulling back and taking an actual bite of her apple.
They work silently on a paper due for next period when Sara suddenly squeals "Oh my god! I totally forgot I had something to tell you!" Felicity looks up silently "Tommy asked me out!" Felicity gapes at Sara.
"You said yes didn't you?" Felicity groans and Sara nods with furrowed eyebrows "It's just he's like Oliver in practically every way and I don't… I don't want you to be treated like Oliver treats your Sister. I just don't want you getting hurt" Sara nods then shrugs- she's always running head on into danger and nothing Felicity says or does can change that so she just sighs and accepts the fact. "You're coming round, right, Friday night? Moira said that I could have a few friends round to celebrate my birthday and I wanted you to come?" Sara nods.
The bell rings not moments later and they head out into the busy hallways. They head to class and take a seat next to each other, thankfully the extra hours Felicity used to spend with Oliver and now spends studying paid off as she's able to entertain Sara during said class and still know the answers for the worksheets that get handed out. They draw pictures and write short stories in the back of their notebooks and then hoard the paper to read in years to come.
One day there was a girl and she was abandoned on an island where she had to learn to fend for herself.
She joined the CSI to help solve the worst crimes possible around the world and got known as THE BLACK BIRD.
She was a hero to everyone but herself. She thought that she was a monster but relied on her friends to keep her from going insane.
Then one day she met a young girl with dark hair and her whole world was turned upside down.
It took a while but the dark haired girl took her and they trained and became famous warriors together.
They lived happily ever after.
The end.
When they re-read the story they had to conceal their laughs as coughs. The teacher looked over and gave them a short glare but couldn't say anything as they had both finished far ahead of everyone else. Thanks to Felicity Sara's grades had shot up and most of the teachers were amazed at the change in the girls.
Felicity relied on Sara, they told each other everything and Felicity's attacks were becoming even more rare much to the relief of Moira and Robert Queen. However, that only meant they had more room to worry about Oliver.
When he was with Felicity he was a whole other person. He was loving ad Kind everything he used to be when he was a young boy but then he changed and no one could understand why. Oliver began to drink and go out, he cheated on Laurel again and his future became dimmer and dimmer. Felicity changed as well, she became quieter in the house. It was as if she wasn't there. She still spent a lot of time with Thea every night, talking and helping with homework but she seemed hollow. Worse than she was when she first arrived.
It was difficult on everyone.
Then that day after school when Sara was waiting with her for Oliver she received a text:
Can't pick you up, sorry-O
Felicity froze and looked up at Sara panic evident in her eyes "What's up?" Felicity showed her the text and Sara grit her teeth and clenched her fists at her sides "You can come back to mine tonight and Laurel can drive you back when she goes round later" Felicity nodded gratefully and hugged her lightly.
Great, thanks for the short notice, Laurel will drop me off later- F
She showed Sara the text and her blond friend raised her fist in a fist bump and knocked her knuckles with her own. They walked to Laurels car and Felicity twisted her hands around her wrist nervously which didn't go unnoticed by Sara who pulled them away.
"Hey Laurel, think you could drop Felicity off when you go to Ollie's later? He just sent her a text, now, that he can't pick her up?" The older girl nodded and muttered something. "Huh?" Sara questioned.
Laurel looked behind her to the girls throwing her brunette curls over her shoulder "He's an ass" she repeated earning a small laugh from Felicity. "Where to girls?" she asked and Sara looked at Felicity who shrugged "I fancy a milk shake, you up to it?" They both nodded and she drove towards the town centre.
They got to big belly burger in a matter of minutes Sara and Laurel sharing an easy conversation. They sat down and all ordered a milkshake and a fries to share. Her phone pinged in her pocket and Felicity reached to grab it when Sara grabbed it first and read the text "God, I could snap his neck"
"What's up?" Laurel asked and Sara passed her the phone while Felicity whined that she hadn't seen it "God, what a… It's not a problem, you can come home with us and I'll drop you off every night" It didn't take a genius to figure out what his response was but when she got her phone back she read it anyway.
Won't be picking you up/ dropping you off anymore, speak to mom or dad about arrangements-O
It was like being stabbed with a branding knife. She looked at Sara in despair "I'm sorry, I know what I said a couple of months ago but look on the Brightside, he made it easier for you. Or are you not up to that plan anymore?" Felicity sighed and bit back the sobs that were working their way up her throat.
"What was the plan?" Laurel asked and after a nod of consent Sara retold her doubts to Laurel.
"When she first arrived with the Queens she was really close to Oliver and was scared. Everyone else had left and she decided that for the first time she had a say so she decided she wanted to distance herself from Oliver so when he left it wouldn't hurt as bad or at all. I talked her out of it and everything was fine for like three weeks, he's speak with her and then with Thea and they had a cute routine. And then he starts drinking and going out again… He left her when I told her he wouldn't-I'm sorry Felicity" Laurel listened intently and smiled softly at Felicity who shook her head at Sara's apology.
They drank in silence occasionally letting out cries of anguish when they dropped a fry in their milkshake but they'd laugh it off and scoop it out. Then when they'd finished Laurel dropped Sara off at home before turning to take Felicity back.
"Thank you, for taking me home" Felicity said when they were alone in the car.
"Its fine, I'll see you in the morning at 7?" Laurel answered dismissively and Felicity gaped at her earning a smile from Laurel when she saw her face in the mirror.
"Why are you being so nice?" She wondered and Laurel finally stopped outside the Queen mansion "Because it's my boyfriend who got you into this mess, you make my sister really happy and I think you deserve some kindness is your life." Felicity's eyes teared up and when Laurel got out the car she hugged her gently in thanks.
They walked in side and found Oliver and Thea in the front room "Where have you been?!" Oliver yelled when he saw her. Thea silently came and hugged her tightly round the middle.
Felicity cowered slightly at his loud voice but answered in an equally strong voice "Well, I got you're text and Sara and Laurel decided to give me a lift home but we stopped for milkshake. So, DON'T yell at me when you were all for leaving me at the school gates" He stood there glaring at her.
"You could've texted me!" he growled "God, you're so stupid sometimes!"
"God you're so stupid" CRASH a bottle came flying at her head and she moved just quick enough to not have glass shatter the base of her skull. "I asked for a beer!" Another bottle this one did cut her head and she felt the warm blood trickle down her face framing her face in a red sticky substance.
Felicity scurried from the room in order to fetch the beer and she grabbed a handful of ice before hurrying back into the room with his beer. He motioned for her to leave and Felicity only just made it to the bed when the world span too quickly and she collapsed in a heap.
She woke up with him kicking her in the stomach. Her head was taped but the blood was still coating her skin dry and itchy. "Get up, we're going out and you need to make yourself dinner" she nodded and he slipped out her room not seconds later she heard the front door slam shut.
Felicity stood with wobbly feet and stumbled towards the kitchen black and white spots were dancing in her vision. She made herself some toast and walked back to the dining room with a small sigh and the quiet around her. Once it was eaten she hobbled to the kitchen but on her way back to the living room fell and tripped into a pile of smashed beer bottle.
She groaned in pain and looked at her bare skin. Glass was impaled in half of it and the other half was caked in gushing blood. With a small cry she crawled to the bathroom and sterilized a pair of tweezers before pulling the glass out and covering it with gauze. It was a bloody situation and when the couple came in later he screamed at her "God you're so stupid sometimes!"
Felicity went to bed and that night when he came in he didn't bother harassing her just sat and pressed on the healing cuts all over her skin. She flinched but learned not show pain because as soon as she winced he's press harder.
"Felicity?" Thea's worried voice brought her out of it "You're okay, Felicity, I promise" she whispered. Laurel was supporting her head stroking a hand through her head with a soft rhythm.
Her head felt heavy and there was a dull familiar ache at the side of her head "I collapsed?" she asked in a croaky voice, Laurel nodded her dark curls tickling her face "I'm sorry" she whispered and Laurel and Thea both shook their heads.
"He should be sorry, not you" they whispered and she turned her head to see Oliver pacing in front of her but she had to turn away as he was making her dizzy. "I told you he was an ass" Laurel muttered glaring at her boyfriend. Felicity smiled and started to get up refusing to acknowledge the fraying of her vision and the spinning of the room. "You need to be careful, you have concussion" Laurel advised but Felicity shrugged with a sad smile.
"I'm used to it" The two of them go quiet "Thanks for the lift, I'll see you tomorrow?" Felicity wonders and Laurel nods smiling widely. "Thea?" the younger girl stands and follows her upstairs. "Have you done your homework?" She asks her and Thea nods smiling "Go you!"
Thea stops and sits down at the top of the stairs out of view leaving Felicity staring at her confused and then the words float up the stairs and Thea grins as if she's won a prize.
"YOU REALLY ARE AN EMOTIONLESS ASS, AREN'T YOU?!" Laurel's voice echoes up the stairs to where they're sitting and back down again. Thea grins again and past the floor next to her.
"I DIDN'T KNOW SHE'D REACT LIKE THAT, DID I?" His response is harsh and Felicity knows it's a lie just as Laurel points it out.
"EXCEPT YOU DID. YOU KNOW HER BETTER THAN ANYONE IN THIS ENTIRE HOUSE AND YET YOU PUT THAT KNOWLEDGE INTO BEING AN UTTER ASSHOLE. SHE CARED FOR YOU, LIKE REALLY CARED FOR YOU. BUT, YOU KNOW WHAT, SHE MUST'VE KNOWN YOU BETTER THAN I OR ANYONE ELSE KNEW YOU BECAUSE THE FIRST THING SHE TRIED TO DO IS SEPARATE HERSELF FROM YOU SO THAT WHEN YOU LEAVE HER IT WONT HURT SO MUCH!" Then Laurels voice quietens and they have to strain their ears to listen "Infect I think I recall hearing that she told you what she planned to do and you promised you'd never leave. Look, Oliver, this girl, this amazing wonderful girl has had enough crap in her life without you bringing her more pain. She needs someone who will look out for her when… when no one else will. She trusted you enough in the end to not worry if you'll leave. She trusted you enough not to leave Oliver and you blew it up in her face."
It's silent and then "I was scared"
"That's bull," Laurel answers "but go on, why were you, the great Oliver Queen, scared?"
"I was scared because she got know me more than anyone else. She knew I wouldn't leave, she knew I wasn't what the papers say I am. She knew me better than you know me and she's only been here for a few weeks. I… I couldn't keep someone that close without hurting them so I cut her off." His answer shocks Felicity to the core.
"YOU CUT HER OFF. PRECISELY MY POINT. OH MY GOD OLIVER! Her face when she read the last text, she just broke. The amount of pain you caused her with that simple text, I don't think I've ever seen anyone that emotionally hurt in my life. Don't you think she deserves a break? Just think about it if not for me, then for her… She told you some of her past, you know how bad it was, think about her"
It went quiet downstairs and Felicity looked at Thea who was looking straight back at her with a soft unreadable expression. She reached forward and enveloped Felicity in a warm sisterly hug that she couldn't help but return.
"I'll be going now just think about it please, Oliver, please" the sound of her shoes against the floor was getting quieter and then "See you at seven Felicity!" Felicity looked at Thea for help and she yells down "She said thankyou and bye!" Felicity smiles at her in thanks "What are sisters for?" that brings more tears and she hugs Thea closer.
Then heavy footsteps get louder and they're coming closer to the stairs "C'mon, quick!" Thea ushers her up and into her room which fortunately is only down the hall. They sit holding their breaths until his footsteps are long gone before breaking into uncontrollable laughter. "What are you going to do?" Thea asked when she'd sobered up.
"I don't know. Especially after his confession?" Thea nods and then her face sharpens slightly "Wait for him to come to you, you never did anything wrong did you so…give him time and then just forget about it"
Felicity pulled at her hair in frustration "How do I… How do I forget about him? That's not how my mind works, I let someone in and there isn't many ways to get them out. I let them in for a reason, a stupid repeated mistake, but I let them in and let them hurt me" Thea makes a small smile and asks if she's been let in "Of course you have… You were let in the moment you walked through the door" She smiles
"I hope I don't hurt you" Felicity smiles sadly and nods "Me too, Thea, me too"
The rest of the night is spent watching Disney films while Felicity completes her homework. She tucks Thea into bed as Moira isn't home yet and Robert is somewhere unkown, kisses her forehead and goes back to her own room. She's awake for a long time, on her laptop or phone or just staring into space think and over thinking, decisions and situations. Her phone buzzes from beside her and she absentmindedly picks it up.
Hey, I'm really sorry. I know how I acted earlier was out of line and I want to apologise for that without sounding like an ass, can I come in? - O
Felicity groans and types back a small Okay. Not seconds later he walks into her room a sad look on his face rubbing his thumb and forefinger together as a nervous tick. It makes her smile despite everything and she past the space next to her on the bed. She's lying down and makes no move to sit up when the bed dips considerably next to her.
"I'm really sorry Felicity" he whispers drumming out a rhythm on his thigh. She nods and continues hacking into a website to rid herself from her old school's files. "I didn't mean for us to get so close, you probably didn't either, and when I realised how much you knew me I freaked out and acted… drastically. We're you really that upset when I sent you that text?" Felicity has the sudden urge to hit him.
She grinds her teeth together and stands up almost knocking him over in the process good she thinks. Her pacing gets more and sloppier before she collapses on the bed pulling at her hair in frustration. "You don't get it do you Oliver. Think about this for a minute without interrupting. I didn't plan for us to get that close but I'm extremely careful about who I let in and how close they get. I knew you were reaching my stopping point but I let you cross the line. Then suddenly you're gone. You get close to me, promise you'd never leave, but to be fair even I knew that was a long shot, and then you completely disappear. I receive a text saying the only few minutes I see you are now gone and imagine how that feels. The one person you actually allowed to get to know you all the way turns it around and removes themselves from your life. Then, they yell at you for being late when their person who made them late in the first place triggering a panic attack. How do you think I'd feel Oliver?"
He sighs and burrows his face in her duvet.
"Sorry isn't going to fix this one, right?" he mumbles and she shakes her head. "What will?" he asks and Felicity shrugs "If I… if I make you trust me again?" he offers and she shrugs again "C'mon Felicity give me something! You're important to me and I don't want to lose you" She smiles sadly.
He makes a move to stand but just as he's at the door she shouts "Wait!" then covers her mouth remembering Thea being asleep "Stay with me, please, at least until I fall a sleep?" His grin lightens the whole room and he smiles.
"Of course" he slides onto the bed again this time laying down on the covers next to her "I missed you" he whispers and she mirror his statement softly. His fingers are dancing softly down her forearm to her palm and backup again. He repeats the motion again and again until it's not only lulling her to sleep but him as well, and they fall asleep.
The alarm rings bright and loud in the morning startling Felicity. There's something heavy around her waist pinning her to the matrass and despite how hard she struggles is doesn't move. Then he's there, moving his arm apologetically his lips moving frantically but she can't hear him. He stops saying things then and strokes her face, his fingertips moving the hair from her eyes and gripping her hand. Her breathing is laboured but she's not entirely sure it's from her mini episode.
Felicity sits up and checks the time. 6:20! "Oh my God! I'm going to be so late! Oliver pack my bag while I get dressed!" she mutters as she shoots from the bed to her closet. She gets changed quickly in black jeans and a light grey T-shirt with some writing on it then some sparkly dolly shoes also with a bow on them. She walked out and grabbed her bag from his awaiting hand "Thanks Oliver, you meant what you said right?" He smiles and nods with a chuckle. They, well Felicity, runs downstairs and does her hair in two messy French braids while he makes them breakfast.
Thea dances in and looks up in wonder when she sees Oliver making them breakfast "He came to me" Felicity whispers and she nods holding out her fist in invitation. They bump fists and Felicity puts an intricate braid in the young girl's hair before wolfing down her breakfast and hugging the two queens before meeting Laurel and Sara outside.
"Thanks so much, for last night, he's snapped out of it" Felicity says as she climbs in the car. Laurel nods with a smile while Sara looks on confused "Your sister yelled at him last night and told him to think of other people but himself and he… went back to normal I suppose? Well he made Thea and I breakfast so it' a start" She explains earning laughs from the two sisters. They arrive at school quickly and both thank Laurel who waves them off and drives to collage. "I officially love your sister" Felicity states as they walk into school earning a quiet chuckle from Sara.
"Yeah, she's alright" they head to the cafeteria where their group is stood round a table looking deep in conversation. "Hey, what's up guys?" Sara calls when they're close enough to be heard. 6 heads all turn and look at them in relief and all start talking at once.
Felicity winces and Sara shuts them up quickly "We're talking about the future" Caitlin answers from Ronnie's enclosed arms. Felicity smirks at her and her eyes flit up to Ronnie then back down at her face receiving a small blush "About what jobs and stuff" she mumbles.
"I want to be a forensic scientist" Barry grins from the corner showing off his boyish charm.
Cisco frowns "How boring! You'd be staring at dead bodies all day, that can't be that interesting. I want to be a scientist or inventor. Think about it, being able to make things that would change the world… or maybe not the world but it would be so cool!"
Caitlin smiles at the two boys before adding "I think I want to be a scientist too, not an inventor, but like a medical scientist or something?" Cisco grins and shoots his tongue out at Barry who returns in childishly. "Iris what do you want to be?"
"I want to be a reporter or journalist. I think it would be interesting to find out about the local news and be able to choose the parts the public can and can't know about… That's just my opinion though, Eddie?"
The blond boy sits quiet and Felicity feels like he's not going to answer until he says "I think I'd like to be a detective or a cop or something. Like Barry solving crimes and stuff would be really interesting" Sara grimaces.
"My dad's a cop… I think I want to be a vet or a doctor, I want to be able to help someone?" Her statement is more of a question but Felicity nods in acknowledgment. "Felicity?"
Everyone laughs and she blushes "am I that predictable" Sara grins and starts counting back form 3.
"SOMETHING IN I.T." They all cry and the blush flames up again making her smile sheepishly. "Least we all have some Idea?" Cisco mumbles. "Oh my god we only have one year of school left!" Cisco cries after a moment of silence. "And we finish soon, we have like a month left!"
Felicity freezes, what happens then? Do I leave the Queens when I'm of age or do I stick around? Do they only want me until I can leave or can I stay until I'd like to leave? Oh god, what do I do. The internal argument sets her breathing short and she grips Sara's hand in support. Sara looks down at her panicked state and back up to the group. "I'm going to take Felicity for some air" with a nod she's off dragging her to their attic.
"What's wrong?" she asks when they're alone.
Felicity rubs her face "What happens then? Do I leave the Queens when I'm of age or do I stick around? Do they only want me until I can leave or can I stay until I'd like to leave? I don't know what to do, presuming they let me stick around long enough to find out. There's only so much happiness the world can allow, right?" She babbles.
"The Queens aren't going to force you to leave at all. You'll go to MIT and get an IT degree or whatever you get when you want to do what you want to do and you can work at Queen Consolidated where Robert secured you a job?" Sara answered as though it was nothing. "It is nothing, Felicity, I've practically grown up with the Queens they aren't going to throw you on the street, in fact it's the polar opposite actually, good luck leaving" Sara adds after she spoke her worries aloud.
Felicity nods at the girl and begins to gradually relax "so you and Tommy?"
"Yeah, this weekend he's holding a party and invited me to come? You want to drop by too?" Sara asked but Felicity shook her head furiously.
"Nope, I don't do drunk people, not after…"
"Oh god, I'm so sorry! I didn't even think!" Thankfully the bell rang out cutting off Sara's apologies. She hopped down from the attic and grabbed her time table "Free period, what you want to do?"
Felicity raised an eyebrow at her friend as they walked down the student filled halls "What do you mean? I'm going to do my homework and study. What are you going to do?" Sara scowls but nods and reiterates what Felicity just said. "Funny, I thought you were going to do that too" Felicity grins earning a small glare and round of giggles.
They sit and work (well, Felicity tries with no avail due to Sara bugging her every five seconds) until the bell goes. Sara drags Felicity outside and towards Laurels car where both Laurel and Oliver are stood smiles across both their face.
"What are you doing here?" Felicity asks Oliver and he says nothing just grins and hugs her which she returns slightly confused. They get in the car and Laurel drives away from the Queen mansion "Where are we going?" she asks aloud then to Sara "where are we going?" Sara shrugs but the grin edging onto her lips tell another story. "Ollie?" Felicity asks in a small voice earning his head to whip round nodding "Where are we going?" It took a small pout but he answered her.
"To get a milkshake,"
Laurel tries to conceal her laughter but after Oliver demands to know why for the length of the drive she finally answers "You have him wrapped right around your finger" to Felicity. Felicity laughs slightly nodding but hugs Oliver when he opens her door.
They sit in the booth they did last time and everyone orders the same, Chocolate for Oliver and Felicity, Strawberry for Laurel and vanilla for Sara. A portion of fries later (they were meant to share but Oliver couldn't hold back…) they get in the car and head to the queen mansion.
Oliver opens her door again and this time covers her eyes with his hands before leading her inside, Sara and Laurel following with twin smiles.
They walk inside and Oliver removes his hands just as everyone jumps out from their spots.
"Happy Birthday Felicity!"
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Love y'all for all your amazingness.
Maisi
