Kiba sat there for a long time after she left and heard her words bounce around in his head. Don't break Oliver's heart? Kiba never thought about that being an issue. Was he doing the right thing by helping?
He decided he needed a boy's night out and passed on his pain meds so he could drink tonight. He sent out the message letting them know it was important. 'Someone come pick me up, Hokage's orders.' That was their code. Whenever it was sent out everyone stopped their plans unless they were on shift and went to that person for support. The girls knew about it now so he didn't bother to send it to just the guys and placed it in the group chat instead. Two seconds later Shino called him.
"What's wrong?"
"I need help. I've dug a hole for myself and I need to get drunk to figure out how to get out." He heard the banging on his door next and Shikamaru and Naruto were there. So he opened the door and let them know Shino was on the phone.
"I'm on shift buddy but I'll drop in if I can."
"Thanks man."
"Sasuke said to let you know he and Lee are on shift too but the rest of the guys should be there."
"Alright thanks Shino."
He hung up the phone and hung his head.
"What's going on man?" Shikamaru asked.
"It's hard to explain. Get a few drinks in me and I'll fill you in."
Naruto put his arm around Kiba and dragged him to the car after Kiba took akamaru out a final time.
Kiba was 7 shots in when he could no longer feel the pain in his shoulder and arm. He also couldn't feel his face. So he figured it was time to share.
"She asked me not to break the kid's heart. The kid has gotten attached to me and I don't know how to not break a kid's heart."
"Are we talking about Kate?"
"Yes Naruto keep up." Kiba said slightly tipsy.
"We slept together last night. We've been going back and forth since the last dinner and I wanted her something fierce. So last night we finally gave in. It was perfect, I mean best sex I've ever had. And I was content to just lay with her afterwards. But then this morning she gets a call from her ex-boyfriend. Apparently the kid's dad found them and wants a chance but he's got money and he's being pushy. So he told her this morning since she hadn't let him see the kid yet he was going to push for full custody. I held her while she cried and shared her past with me and then she told me the kid adores me and asked me not to break the kid's heart. Guys I don't do commitment."
"Troublesome," Shikamaru muttered and then sighed. "Kiba maybe this time you should."
"Don't you get it? I don't want kids. I have a damn good reason I don't want kids or a relationship. I don't want to mess it up." Kiba said running a frustrated hand through his hair.
"We all felt that way. Temari still scares the shit out of me with how much she loves me. And my kid? He's more like me every day and that also scares me. I want him to be better than me, I know my faults and I don't want to see them in him. I'm scared I'll do something to screw it all up and I'll hurt them or worse I'll lose them forever. Kiba you have to face whatever it is that's holding you back or you're never going to be happy."
"I feel the same way. Hinata is way too good for me. I'm scared she's gonna see that one day and leave me in the trash bin where I belong. But I try not to think about that because I love her too much to taint our relationship with my fears." Naruto added to the mix.
The rest of the guys agreed as well and Kiba felt like he wasn't as alone as he thought. Kiba spent the rest of the night getting wasted and when they took him back to his apartment Shikamaru took akamaru out for him and after he left Kiba decided he needed to be with her. He grabbed his keys and stumbled upstairs to her door and began knocking loudly. After a few minutes she answered and he verbally stumbled through what he wanted. First in Japanese then finally in English. "You, I want to hold you."
She let him in half scared he'd fall back down the stairs if she turned him down. Plus she didn't want to be alone. She helped him to the couch but he pushed past her to her room to lay down and then pulled her to him. She wiggled free to cut all the lights off and when she came back he had gotten out of his shirt. She climbed back into bed under the covers then let him pull her body to his. He was drunk but she didn't care. She just wanted to be held. "I'm scared" he spoke to the quiet room. "I don't do commitment because I'm just like my dad. He walked away from everything. My family says I look like him, and I've got some of his quirks, and some of his attitudes. I don't want to do that to Oliver. I don't want to break his heart. I don't want to do that to you either. I'll leave you guys out of this but give me tonight to hold you and give me time to tutor him. He needs to learn how to read and I'm gonna be his best bet at this point. I remember how they did it with me. A few weeks and then I'll back off. I promise and I'll do it in a nice way so he understands. I don't want to break his heart after he's had months to build that attachment." After saying that he tightened his hold on her and passed out. Leaving her mind whirling. She listened to his steady heartbeat and eventually passed out more determined than ever to keep him at an arm's length in the future.
She woke up nestled against him with her face on his bare chest. She turned away from him to check her phone but he pulled her back against him spooning her. She needed to get up because she needed to go get Oliver but she wasn't ready to face the world just yet. Kiba made her feel safe and protected like she'd be okay and that scared her more than anything. She couldn't afford to feel that way. She laid there a little longer and then steeled herself and got up. She heard him grunt and moan in pain as he began to wake. He probably has one hell of a hangover. He may not even remember sharing what he did with her last night or where he is.
Kiba groaned as the bright light hit his eyes causing his head to scream out in pain. Why was his room so bright? He adjusted his eyes to realize this wasn't his room and images from last night played in his head. He was drunk but he wasn't so drunk he didn't remember coming to her. He reached out for her and realized she wasn't next to him. He frowned and tried to move but groaned when his body protested. "Owww." He slowly got up and found his shirt and put it on. She was in the kitchen looking worried and confused. He probably messed everything up.
"I need to go get Oliver." Was the only thing she said.
He studied her. "I remember last night, I remember what I told you."
"I think we should keep it friends between us." She started to speak and then "I hate to admit it but I need your help but just until I get everything settled."
Kiba nodded unsure of what else to say. "Call me with the information about Oliver." Kiba said as he left.
