Title: Without Harm
Author: kiraloverless
Account: u/6023476/k…
Fandom: Ed, Edd, 'n Eddy
Musical Recommendation: watch?v=8Z5EjAmZS1o Yiruma's Greatest Piano Hits
Setting:
Hotel/ Apartments
Pairing: Kevin/Edd (lil bit of Nat x Rave)
Genre: Hurt/comfort, some smexy in later chapters.
Rating: M
Chapters: 15
Type of Work: Multi Chapter story
Status: Incomplete
Warnings: Gay sex, angst,
Disclaimer: I don't own Edd n Eddy belongs to cartoon network and Danny Antonucci, Rave belongs to kirakurryart, Nat belongs to c2ndyac1d

Chapter 12

They were kind enough to support me knowing what Kevin had explained to them. I thanked Rave and Nathen for letting us stay the night.

Not many questions were asked but I felt the need to explain what was going on. Rave also felt it was necessary to call the police, but I had to explain why that wouldn't help anyone at this point. I can't safely say that if they had wanted me dead I would have already been so a while back. Maybe they would burry me next to my unborn child if they were so kind.

'Morbid Eddward, don't go down a road of no return'
I thought.

"It's not fancy but you guys can stay as long as you want." Rave appeared from the hall carrying blankets and towels in his arm, lightly squeezing me on the shoulder. Kind eyes and gentle smile complementing his darker complexion and dark violet hair.

"Thank you, so much. I'm sorry to have caused so much trouble" I had hoped Kevin and I staying the night wouldn't draw them here, to hurt these kind people. I'd never forgive myself if they were hurt because of me.

I had decided to go back to my apartment and face my demons. I had to figure out a solution, and hopefully the end of this massive dramatic dark cloud over my life.

-Late that night-

Kevin's P.O.V:

That night I had a very hard time getting sleep. Toby was laying on the floor between Edd and I on the other couch. I couldn't understand how he could sleep after today. But then again he must have gotten used to this already after so long.

Knots and nerves still twisted in my stomach from the gory details earlier.

"Mutants…clones….what ever " I mumbled to my self trying to get comfortable. The thought was insane, but to know that actual people, human beings being experimented on, clones and god knows what. It was cool to think of it in a movie scene but for some reason it was just morbid because a failed experiment meant someone was living in suffering.

It scared me senseless.

Edd's voice echoed in my mind, the way his face twisted in pain like that.

' "...It was never meant to harm them..." '

I sat up because I couldn't calm down. I needed a distraction; something to occupy my mind, anything but this.

"Kevin? Is everything alright?"

Edd was awake; he must have heard me moving around. I couldn't really look him in the face. I know he's a good person, but what he was doing was just messed up. What's worse was that I was now judging him for it in the back of my mind.

"Couldn't sleep."

He sat up facing me. "Do you judge me Kevin? I'd understand if you do. I'm not proud of what I've done and I realize that I was wrong to have dragged you into this, along with your closes friends. I am truly sorry."

It was a quiet whisper, almost eerie in the middle of the night.

I let out a breath of air.

"I don't know how I really feel about that part of your life. I know you're a good person on the inside, but I have to have some time to think about this. It's not my place to say, but I don't want anything to happen to you, or to my friends. But I do have a few more questions about this guy, what you were doing and, I have so many questions and if this is gonna work… I have the right to know."

Edd sighed, and came to sit on the floor across from me.

"I am very happy to have met you. You do deserve to know, and I'm going to go back there in the morning and find out what it is they want from me."

"Edd, you said they wanted you dead. Running and hiding for a year and a half, putting your friends in danger and all their efforts will be wasted when you're dead. Maybe you don't care about me that much, but I'm in love with you and I care about you, don't you understand how my life would just lose meaning if I lost you. Have you thought of that?"
I was mad. I mean, he got himself into this mess and everyone around him gets sucked into it somehow but I don't want him dead.

"It's because of everyone's efforts and kindness that I cannot allow this nightmare to continue. It's me they want, so I'm going to take care of it myself." That to me sounds very much like a suicide statement.

Something wasn't right, Edd was scared to death this morning and wanted to get the hell out of there. It didn't make sense for him to change his mind in one day and want to go back there.

"What are you not telling me?"

"Kevin, don't trouble yourself with this anymore. It will be over tomorrow"

"Bulls shit! tell me what's going on, there's something you're not telling me." we were whispering but I had out right demanded and answer a little louder than intended.

Edd rolled his eyes and huffed, standing to gather his things. He left. Straight up, middle of the night left!

Eddward's P.O.V

So that's where I found my self, in my apartment sitting on the couch. Staring at this box wondering what had been inside.

"Well done Eddward, you've gone and destroyed every effort in your life to come to this. Mother and Father would be proud."

'I should call Eddy.'

I had refused to listen to common sense in the back of my mind. Determined to handle this myself by not having Kevin with me or call the police as any sensible human being would have done. The truth is that if the authorities were involved I would also be arrested for my own implications.

Frustrated I let out a heavy breath and held my head.

I was tired of course, but I had to stay awake to see what was inside the box.

A few thoughts had run through my mind. What could have been inside this box that was so important for Bard to have taken the trouble to get into my apartment and leave it here.

At first I thought it was a bomb, maybe a large amount of pictures of someone spying on my every move through the past year and a half. Bard wouldn't just break into my house to leave a box of office supplies I had left behind. If he wanted me dead he would have done that already

If it was a bomb, and it hadn't gone off yet was because I had to interact with it to set it off. So I picked it up ready to toss it out the window.

'What if Bard left you something you'd find valuable? Something he'd know you'd appreciate'

That thought made me stop what I was doing and I stared down at the blank white lid.

'Maybe if not to kill me, to give something back?'

It had a considerable weight to it.

'… My baby?'

'My own flesh and blood, being left in such a box on my living room table?'

'Bard would never do such a thing. He did help them. He did come after me with them that night. But he would never do something so sick… like this? Right?'

Despite myself I was in near tears, trembling slightly.

Carefully I set it back down on the table, my vision strained and my heart hammering, I had to back away or I would collapse.

I needed to know.

With a heavy disappointment in myself I sat on the floor just staring at this box. This box that was now the sum of my life. I don't know what the future contains, but the past of it was not all that welcome. Imagining a clear tube inside with mangled bloody human remains of what once ... an unborn infant child.

"Maybe …"

I was aware of the texture of the wooden floor on my feet and shins, the twisting fear and confusion in my stomach, the deafening sense of danger and yet I just knew that I had to find out. The blood in my body rushed so fast that my ears were numb to the clocks ticking and my own breath.

I lifted the lid.

My heart shattered and I couldn't help but slump over slightly.

A bottle of red whine, a few files, a baby onese I had bought a while back with Bard and the hand written note from before.

My tears fell anyway.

'Of course it's not here!'

So many painful emotions savagely rushed through my body that I couldn't control how hard I threw the bottle of whine and watched it shatter. Not even remotely satisfied with that the glass coffee table and reading lap were poor victims to my outrage. Even the leather couch was now toppled over.

I was utterly devastated and hurt.

Rage and pain battled in my core being as I screamed out and cried.

I didn't much care for the glass lodged in my feet and hands, but the fact that I had foolishly hoped that maybe Bard would have returned to me … my baby.

Setting down on the ground none too gracefully, leaning back to survey the damages, allowing my breakdown to come to a sputtered closing.

Heavy sobs jolting through my lungs, I could almost feel my heart breaking again.

A knocking came at the door soon after.

"Edd, I need to talk to you. Please open the door" It was Kevin's voice.

'Should I let him see me like this?'

Despite my current state of loosing my mind I selfishly needed him right now.

Taking painful steps to open the door aware of the glass lodged at the bottom of my feet, knowing full well I would get an earful from Kevin.

"Look, I know that you're stressed and scared out of your mind right now but you can't just up an leave in the middle of the night and…. What the hell happened here… You're hurt"
"It's alright Kevin"
"Is he in there? I'll kill him"
Before I could get any control over the situation Kevin had made his way in the door looking for the 'intruder'. I sat down to relieve the pressure on my feet.

'How have I become so incredibly stupid?'

With a heavy sigh I told him that there was no one here but myself. "I … eas upset because there was nothing in that box but paper's , whine and an article of baby clothing." Tears slipping down my cheek again.

He noticed the bloody footsteps, never mind the catastrophic mess around us. He was focused on me. Coming closer crouching down.

"I got'chya, let's get you cleaned up alright" as though I didn't weigh much at all I was lifted in his arms, and whisked off to the bathroom, crunching glass under his shoes.

"Um.. Where's your first aid kit?" he asked seating me down on the counter by the sink.

He was giving me his full attention. Setting a few gentle kisses on my face and stroking a hand gently on the right side of my face. The scent of blood was in the air, but I could smell him. His scent and I couldn't help but need his touch a little too much, even as he pulled away.

"Edd, where is it?"

"… It's in the kitchen, beside the microwave." a gentle smile, it was gentle but I could see how scared he was.

"Just wait here a minute, don't go any where… ok?" it was a joke obviously.. to lighten the mood.

He left the bathroom to rummage the kitchen cupboards. "Got it!" his voice echoed down the hall.

I had started to pick out shards of glass and toss them into the trash, missing a few shots before Kevin showed up again.

An agonizing thirty minutes later, all the glass was gone, iodine and bandages on my hands and feet I slowly reached for his hand.

I didn't deserve this man, who so kindly comes to rescue me in my darkest hours.

"Kevin, I… I'm sorry for being stupid lately… and .. I'm sorry for causing you so much trouble. I wanted to die… just before you showed up. I'm sorry for being so selfish and stupid. You were right, I was thinking selfishly and ignoring how hurt you would feel. I'd waste all of everyone's efforts if I had landed my own demise tonight.
Can you forgive me?" I had been tracing the inside of his hand with my thumb avoiding his eyes as tears of guilt and shame ran down my cheeks.

"I… love you so much, so very much, and I don't know what I'd do without you."

"Edd, look at me. There is no one on this green earth, that I have ever cared for more than you. Except my parents of course." A gentle chuckle, he held my bandaged hands to his chest. Where I could feel the heart beat supplying his body with life and love.

"I understand that you're living a painful loss and a horrible experience, but please don't abandon me. Promise me"

The beating of his heart was frantic and thumped so hard against his rib cage. "Promise me, that's you'll never leave me, Edd." His forehead resting on mine.

'I could never leave you, Kevin Barr, my soul has been scorched to you for all eternity'

A nod was all I could manage. I couldn't trust my voice not to break. We stayed that way for a few minutes.

Just … still.

Very aware of how easily I would have been hurt very badly by my own hands, kidnapped or even killed.

"I want to kiss you so badly right now Edd" a shuddered breath passed his lips. Time slowed.

"Then what are you waiting for" I lifted my lips to softly meet his. They were chapped and dry, but only in a sweet way that masculine lips would be in the weary hours of the night. A light tremble broke out though me.

The sweet kiss wasn't our first but somehow, it scared and excited me in a way that I couldn't possibly describe.

All too soon he pulled way.

"I uh… I'll clean up. And I'm going to stay here tonight. So, um" clearing his throat then lifting me gently I held onto him. He took me to the bedroom and set me down on the bed. I patiently waited for him. I was blushing madly.

This tremble I was feeling was very intense and strange.

I listened to the glass being swept up, the couch being moved and plastic bags shuffling.

My head had begun to feel a dull numb ache, matching the feeling in my hands and feet, the adrenaline in my body was starting to wear off. Realizing how stupid it was of me to flip over an entire couch five maybe six times larger than my self really was.

"I'm going to be in a lot of pain tomorrow" I groaned to my self as I lay down.

Watching my reflection on the glass window with a view of the outside night life in the trees I recalled a memory of Bard, when I was at his home, and made love for the first time.

'How bitter you must be to think of that right now Eddward?'

Soon after that I heard footsteps coming down the hall.
"So, I didn't bring whine, because you smashed it all over your floor, but I brought some grape juice" Handing me the whine glass, with the dark liquid inside, I couldn't help but chuckle a little, looking over to meet the red head's eyes I felt very nostalgic of the first time we drank together.

'Ah, how sweet a memory'

"It's perfect Kevin, thank you for continuously taking excellent care of me." Handing me the glass and seating himself next to me he looked into my eyes. I could see his worry uncertainty and fear, but his love was the most overwhelming feature.

"Look, I think you're worth every effort, just in the future when you get upset don't flip over any more couches ok? Otherwise you might get seriously hurt"

His warm hand covering my own on the soft covers, so badly I wanted to feel his heart again. His words bringing me back to a sensible place.

Leaning into him I whispered softly "I can't promise you that yet. I may have been a little stupid today, but I am determined to get to the end of this mess. But I promise to not get myself killed, if I can help it."

"Alright, that's enough ou'of you" Kevin had finished his 'drink' and placed my glass down to tackle me with kisses.

The sun would be up soon, but we were too tired to have seen the time before we fell asleep in each other's arms.

'Please god, let me live happily with this man forever'