Motivation

Chapter 5

Disclaimer: I do not own blue bloods I only own my own ideas.

A/N: Before I go into the story I just have a few things to say. First off I want to say thank you to everyone who has read, favorited, followed or reviewed this story all of your support means so much. Finally, it is your lucky day because today you get two chapters! I really hope you like these chapters.

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Frank Reagan had spent weeks looking for information on his youngest son Jamie to explain what had happened to Jamie and to find out if he was alright. However, there was no unusual results coming from the search. He even had Garret watching the new outlets and online sources for information; that was almost two years ago from the first time he vanished. In those years Jamie had graduated from law school, joined the family business and finished his rookie year. Frank was starting to think the whole problem was in his head that Jamie's explanations were the truth and that there was nothing hidden that was until this week. Danny and Joe were out getting a drink together when they ran across a tipsy Jamie who said, "Danny, Joe you don't understand." After their brothers told him they thought he had enough. When they asked him discretely if he remembered what he said his only reply was, "what are you talking about?"

That Sunday like all Sundays family dinner was going well; even though Jamie hated it he sat there and listened quietly to his sisters and brothers arguing about whatever current case they had been working on. Only commenting when he had to. Although, this day was different, Jamie could not just treat this like any of the other multiple arguments when he heard Danny say, "What I just hate are the stalking cases we get called on. I mean they usually figure themselves out….."

This was Jamie's last straw, and before Danny could finish his thoughts Jamie said," You are kidding right?" as he glared across the table at his ignorant brothers.

"Kid do not look at us like that; you have no idea what this job is like till you have experience with the matter we are discussing."
"Yeah and let's face it you are a rookie and well to be blunt you just don't understand."
"Oh I don't understand! Let me guess because you think I lived a sheltered life and attended an Ivy League school I did not have any problems?" Jamie said his voice only slightly higher but if you were looking at him like most of the table was while he spoke you knew one wrong move and Jamie's calm demeanor would be replaced by the Reagan wrath. Unfortunately, for the table, Danny was not watching his brother instead he was stuffing his face full of food as he replied while cutting another piece of his roast into bite-sized pieces, "Exactly."

That single word, was the last straw that broke the camel's back and Jamie looked his brother dead in the eyes while saying, "You know what you guys are the ones who have no clue! Excuse me."

However, before Jamie could escape and leave the past in the past. In the process avoiding the cynicism of his family. He was stopped from leaving by Joe's voice saying, "Jamie you know just because you read about the outcome of a case..." However, Jamie had heard enough so he said," You think I am pulling the Harvard card. Newsflash Joe we are not ten."

Frank could see there was something wrong with his youngest son and knew from experience that this was going to get uglier before it got better so he said," Nikki why don't Jack, Sean and yourself go eat in the sun-room." The grand-kids left the room with seconds to spare, because Jamie stood up to leave and before he reached the door he said, "You know nothing just listen to me for once and treat the victim with some respect."

"Of course kid we always do." Joe replied with a confused look on his face.
Jamie scoffed then replied, "Really? Then how come every week it seems like the only thing you care about is closing cases."

"Where do you get that impression every detective and officer under my command treats victims as they should be and nothing else is tolerated."
"Then I guess you are as bad as them. I really shouldn't be surprised considering the story I heard."
"Kid what are you talking about?" Danny replied totally confused.

"Oh come on you know exactly what I am talking about." Jamie shouted totally forgetting all table manners that he had learned. He started again to walk for the exit but this time he was stopped with force as both Danny and Joe blocked the exist and Joe said, "Oh no you don't we are getting to the bottom of this."

Meanwhile, Linda was sitting at the table wondering to herself how come a simple calm Sunday dinner turned into this mess and what story is Jamie talking about? Wait it has to be the one with the dog but that makes no sense that was a cute happy story of course everyone would smile and laugh." Deciding it was time to speak up she said in a clam voice to try to ease the tension in the room because it clearly was at a boiling point, "Jamie are you talking about the story Danny said he told you when they visited Boston?" Jamie did not reply but looked almost relieved that someone understood where he was coming from. However, that relief was short lived when he heard Danny say, "You got to be kidding me the reason you are all worked up is because of one story about a stalker I told you what two years ago? What is going on with you?"

"Nothing is going on with me! I never should have come here." Jamie replied as he walked passed his stunned brothers inwardly he thought," I should have worked like last year or just used up some vacation time."

However, he did not get too far before he felt a pair of hands wrap around him and pull him back. It took everything in him not to scream. As he inwardly told himself, "This is not like before." But he knew something was wrong because he could feel blood trickling down his shirt from his old scar. Once Jamie was back in the dining room he could hear the voice behind him say,"Alright kid no one leaves hear until you tell us what is going on." Danny's tirade for answers was cut short when he heard his wife say, "Danny you're bleeding."

"What no I am not." Danny replied as he quickly looked himself over. But then he realized it was Jamie who was bleed so his said," It's Jamie's." with fear etched into his face.

"What how is that possible? Danny what did you do he's not a suspect you were supposed to convince him to come back not manhandle him."

"I didn't hurt him."
"Then why is he bleeding?" Erin countered. In all of the confusion, Jamie knew he needed to leave else Linda would insist she look at it. So he snuck out of the house and started his car besides he knew that since he was not in Massachusetts he would have some explaining to do. As Jamie arrived at the hospital the family's argument had died down and everyone was looking around for Jamie who was nowhere in sight. Nikki entered the room and said, "Uncle Jamie left a little bit ago I heard the door close."

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"Why would he, you know what, never mind this day is almost like we are in some other universe." Erin voiced for the first time.

"I agree what is going on with Uncle Jamie it almost sounded like a screaming match in here."

"We don't know" Frank replied with confusion and concern etched on his face. "Right now the important thing is to find him and make sure he is okay."

"He probably went to the hospital." Joe replied hoping he was right.

"Okay but why? He knows I could have looked at it and taken care of it I used to do that all of the time." Linda replied.

"Only reason I can think of is he is hiding something." Danny replied.

"We need to find him." Henry voiced concern for his youngest grandson etched in his face. With that said everyone starting calling everywhere they could think of, after about five minutes they learned that Jamie was in a hospital across town. Everyone wanted to know what was going on so they all piled into the commissioner's car, had the driver hit the lights and sped off to the hospital. Upon arrival they informed the emergency room nurse, they were there to see a patient by the name of Jamison Reagan. The nurse looked confused but said," Have a seat I will let the doctor know you are here. After a few minutes Jamie's doctor emerged and said, "Jamie is fine he just needed a few stitches. He will just need to avoid strenuous exercise until the stitches come out in seven to fourteen days. He told me he is a cop so I gave him the documentation necessary to be placed on desk duty but besides that we are waiting on a test result."

"What test results?"
"Oh nothing to worry about just some routine blood work."
Frank did not like that answer but decided not to question it so he said, "Can we see him?"
"Sure he is in cubicle two."

Jamie's back was to the curtain as he grabbed a shirt from his gym bag not hearing the curtain open he turned partly around only to see the shocked faces of his family taking in his scars. He quickly turned back around put the shirt on and sat down on the gurney knowing that he had a lot of explaining to do and inwardly thinking of all the ways he would be able to hide the truth and avoid the disappointment he would bring his family. Although in the end he had a feeling he would have to tell them the truth. So he said two simple words to his family, "Not here." Everyone seemed enraged and like they had a million questions but thankfully they were too confused to speak. A minute later the doctor came back and informed Jamie his blood work showed his tetanus shot was up to date so he was free to go." Jamie thanked the doctor signed the paperwork and then said," Dad I will meet you back at your place." Jamie could tell he did not like this but after seeing a nod he left knowing he had a few calls to make and most importantly he did not want to get into all of this in a hospital of all places.

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Once in his car, Jamie pulled out his cell phone and when the person on the other end answered he said," Just so you know my old scar opened up I needed to go get stitches."

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah could you just handle the paperwork and tell the judge."

"Will do Jamie but you know this means you have to stay on that insurance for another year."

"About that I want off it's already been two years."
"I will talk to the judge I am actually outside of his chambers right now I will call you back."

Jamie sat in his car and waited after five minutes his phone rang. He knew it was the Ada so he answered and said, "Well?"

"The judge said he doesn't totally understand considering you were traumatized by one of the richest men and the money is part of his punishment, but said he will agree. However, you will be receiving additional money for the total cost of the insurance plan and quadruple the estimated expenses for the next year since you were supposed to have that under the terms of the original agreement."

"But Stan I do not need the money." Jamie replied as he thought," I know I did not ask for this and it is part of his punishment but still I have more money than I could ever imagine using thanks to the help of my friend Spencer helping me to invest."

"Jamie I know, but that is the condition besides you are the only one I know that complains about receiving money."

"Yeah I know I am an odd duck but Stan please like always I don't want him to be able to find me." Jamie replied with a little frustration at the situation especially since he knew he had no choice.
"We understand trust us keeping you safe is our number one concern."

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Meanwhile, at the house all of the Reagans were pacing the floor wondering where Jamie was for it did not take this long to drive here and let's face it there was a lot to talk about. Especially with how Jamie was acting and the scars on his chest they saw. Joe was trying to keep his niece and nephews calm and most importantly get them out of the room. Although, he soon learned he had to settle for calm when he heard his niece say, "We are not going anywhere he is our uncle." At that moment there was the noise of a car parking outside. Looking out the curtains Frank could see it was his son Jamie and knew all the focus had to be on him if they were going to get to the bottom of this, and as much as everyone else hated it that meant the kids stayed.

However, everything changed as soon as Jamie arrived the first words out of his mouth were," Waiting outside is one of my best friends and he is going to go take the little ones fishing." Jamie could see his nieces concern and desire to know what was going on but he said in a desperate voice, "Please." That simple word was enough to get her to begrudgingly agree and head outside to spend the day with Spencer. After both Danny, Erin and Linda had all the numbers possible and knew Spencer would take good care of their kids they all headed back inside. Jamie was the first in and for a moment they could not find him but then they heard silverware falling against a plate. Everyone headed towards the dining room and saw Jamie eating Sunday dinner like nothing had happened. Joe was the first to speak, "Jamie we need to talk."