Here's the eighth chapter. Last time, Rin and Len were beginning to work together over the presentation they're going to do in a few days. I wonder how that'll turn out. Enjoy. ^-^
Chapter 8
This sucks.
It was Monday once more. Back to school. Great.
Normally, you would see me looking out the window, never paying attention to class. However, today was different. I was hooked into every lesson given to me.
Why, you ask?
I'm not really sure. Maybe it was the fact that Rin wasn't here.
I know, right? Like where the fuck is Rin? A nerd like her wouldn't miss school for the world, would she? Of course not.
I would casually catch myself looking over to Rin's empty desk and imagine her sitting there with smile on her face. You know, I guess that's why I was taking notes. I guess it was because she might attack me later about getting the notes for her for missing out. But it could really be anything. I'm just thinking it too far...
Oh God.
That girl better not be missing school for the project. She better not be. We were both on it on Saturday and were able to get the lyrics down. We were done with that, but we still needed the music. Unless she could make music herself, which I doubt it. That would be the reason why she wasn't here.
But she didn't call me yesterday even though she said she was in order to finish things up. Since she hasn't called me at all, I couldn't call her to see what's up. I could've always gone to her house, but her parents would be there and...yeah.
I shook my head.
I don't know. I was having too many thoughts going through my aching head right now. Most of them being too much to handle. I mean, why am I even worried? It's Rin's fault for missing class, not mine. Why should I take notes? It's not like I'm ever going to review them. Even with these thoughts, something was telling me I should keep at it and make Rin smile. Her smile was the best after all.
"Did you really scare poor Rin from the hang out?" Kaito said as he took out some ice cream out of thin air.
I sighed. "She probably scared herself."
Gakupo, after chewing an eggplant, said, "I saw you actually taking notes today."
"Oh yeah! What was that all about, Len? I thought you hated school?" Kaito said as he gave me a suspicious eyebrow.
I waved him off. "I wasn't taking notes. I was doodling stuff."
"I bet he was taking notes to pass them to Rin," Kaito smirked.
"Totally!" Gakupo said.
I huffed. "Why would I waste time on doing something for her?"
"Don't know. You tell us," Kaito chuckled.
I rolled my eyes and took a bite from my banana.
"Silence means yes. He must like Rin," Kaito nudged at my side.
"Wait, Kaito. Len's a player. He can't possibly like someone," Gakupo said.
I growled.
"Rin's probably the other girl he's trying to get. She is the new girl," Kaito said.
"She's still fresh. Makes complete sense," Gakupo said.
I stopped eating my banana, which is something big because I rarely do that. I glared at both of the idiots and was about to say something until...
"Hey guys!" Miku and Luka arrived and hugged their respected pair.
"That's enough," I said with a stern tone as I stood up. I didn't even look at anyone as I growled and threw the half eaten banana on the table. If I wasn't as pissed as I was right now, I would've be crying over that banana.
I walked away and exited the cafeteria. I stormed down the hallway that lead to the outside. Once out, I calmed down and took a deep breath before walking around without an actual direction.
Why was I feeling this way? Why do I feel offended? Kaito and Gakupo said nothing offensive...did they? They're were just stating the facts. They've done it before, and I even tagged along. So then, why do I feel like I cared what they said? Man, this was just weird.
As I walked around, I stumbled across a bench. I felt myself hesitate as I recognized this very spot. It was the place where Rin ate her lunch all alone until Luka and Miku arrived. I glanced the bench, not sure if I was trying to find something or just crazily thought it was the best bench ever. Whatever the reason, I found myself sitting down on the bench. I rested my arms on my legs as my eyes zigged-zagged the ground below.
Just what the heck is wrong with me?
I looked back up to see the window of the cafeteria. I saw Kaito, Gakupo, Miku, and Luka giving me strange looks then smiled at me. I glared at them and looked back down.
I need help. That's what I need. I feel lost for some reason. A very awful feeling if you ask me.
The end of school and, surprisingly, it went by faster than usual. Was it because I was actually wasting time with writing notes? I actually learned something today which is freaky. It has been a long time since I've learned anything useful. I was mind blown and actually couldn't wait to learn more tomorrow.
I shook my head.
What are you saying, Len? Don't let your old self kick in. Stay cool. Don't lose it. Stay. Cool.
But at the same time, I want to learn like old times.
You know what happened once you did that. You'll end up being the loser once more.
Does it matter? I love to learn, so what? I'll be someone in my life than have to spend the rest of my life getting hookers.
Bro, you have no idea what you're saying. This is your life now. You have money, looks, and girls. People become famous because of that.
But I won't have the knowledge. I don't want to be a rich, dumbass.
Dude, you're losing it. Calm down.
I-
"Len!"
I blinked out of my thoughts as I noticed a girl running towards me and hugged me tightly.
"Uh..." I could only stutter out. I looked down to see the beautiful Haruhi.
She smiled to me. "Hey cutie!"
I put on my best fake smile. "Hey there."
Haruhi looked around. "Good. I don't see her anywhere."
"Who?"
"But just in case." Haruhi grabbed my arm and pulled me away towards the back of the school to the Make Out Place. Other couples were already getting it down. I suddenly felt confused and lost being here. Maybe because I haven't been here in a while.
"Now, we can have some time for ourselves," Haruhi said as she gave me a seductive look and wrapped her arms around my neck.
Instantly, I would've held her close and began sticking my tongue inside her mouth, but I sort of hesitated.
"Len?" Haruhi said.
"Uh..." Was all I could say.
Haruhi giggled. "I see. You want me to do the first move, huh? Sexy." She began closing in on me little by little. Her eyes were closed and her cheeks flushed.
I felt my heart beat increase but not because I was excited. I was actually nervous. This was my first time feeling like this before a kiss. I usually don't think and just do it, but now I'm having second thoughts.
"Sorry, Haruhi," I said as I gently pushed her away.
What?! What is wrong with you?!
Haruhi blinked. "Huh?"
I looked away. "I gotta go home."
I felt Haruhi glaring me down.
Dude, if I was her, I would be feeling the same shitty feeling.
"Again with that lame excuse! What is it? Is there someone else you're seeing? Is that why?" Haruhi said.
"There's no one else," I said.
"Then why? Why don't you ever want to be with me?"
"I don't know why."
"Am I not pretty enough?"
"You're gorgeous."
"Are my boobs too small?"
"They're perfect."
"Is my ass too flat?"
"It's fine the way it is."
"Then what is it? Give me a damn good reason, Len Kagamine."
I sighed.
Give her an answer, scum.
"I don't know why, Haruhi. I just haven't been feeling myself lately," I said.
Haruhi rolled her eyes. "That's rich! Do you really expect me to believe you?"
"No, but I'm not lying to myself. Believe me if you want. I know I'm telling the truth."
"Len, I love you. That's my truth."
I shook my head. "I gotta go home." I began walking away.
"Len Kagamine! Don't you love me?"
"I like you."
"I said 'love'."
"I...I can't love you."
Silence.
I shook it off and exited the school. As I walked down the side walk, I heard my other side being completely speechless...well, at least for a while.
What is wrong with you? She was freaking hot!
I don't care.
She's the girl version of you.
What a horrible girl.
What is wrong with you? Why aren't you feeling your usual self?
I didn't answer myself and walked in silence. But something strange happened. I knew I set myself to walk my path to home, but somehow, I ended walking the path that lead to Rin's house.
I stood by her house, looking to see if anyone was home. Shockingly, the house seemed deserted. If there was just a way to contact Rin and tell her I'm here then...
Oh, now I see.
What do you see?
I never thought to myself in a million years.
What?
You're in love.
I growled and began walking away.
I guessed right, didn't I?
I have no idea what you're talking about.
She must be the reason why you feel lost, isn't it?
Shut up.
You're here talking to me, yourself. She must be the reason you're losing your mind. Without her, you're lost.
You have to be my stupid side.
Everything makes sense now.
I completely ignored myself after that. Dear God. I was crazy.
Len completely lost his marbles. Poor Len. He misses Rin even for just a day. He began talking to his other side when his real "reflection" was gone. He's lost without his right side. Haha. Oh me.
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