Authors Note:
So, please don't rip me a new one for the way her therapy session went. I know it would never happen that way, I mean, I never got that close to my therapists, but this is fiction! So I can do whatever I want! Any way, please let me know how you like this chapter, and I promise that I will update my other stories and get your one shots done when I can. It's the third day of classes and I'm already swamped! :)
Chapter Eighteen
Time Jump – Home Therapy Session
Clary POV:
Jace and Danni had just left for their daddy daughter date, and I was a little nervous for this session. I wanted to help her so badly, but that was only going to happen if she opened up to me, and I was scared she wasn't going to. When 11 rolled around there was a knock on the door, and when I opened it Madison was standing there in her black attire. I ushered her inside and she started looking around the house. She was looking at the pictures on the walls of Jace, and Danni, and I and she looked like he had never seen a family before.
"This your husband?" She asked and I nodded. "He's hot." She said and I laughed.
"Yea he is. The most gorgeous man I've ever met, and somehow he picked me." I said and I smiled at her.
"You're daughter is cute too."
"I hope she takes after my husband. She's bald right now, but I hope she has his blonde hair." I said and I motioned for her to follow me. "My office is right through those doors. Would you like something to drink?"
"Can I have some coffee?" She asked.
"How would you like it?"
"Black." She said and I smiled. Just like me. I went to the kitchen a brewed a pot of coffee and filled two cups up. When I got back to the office she was looking at the pictures I had hung around the room. When I put her coffee down and sat down on the couch.
"How was your day?"
"It was alright. I was only in school for about 2 hours before I had to leave to come here."
"How do you like school?"
"It's alright. I don't have many friends, so I just go along with the school day."
"What are you interested in? Favorite subjects? Least favorite subjects?"
"I'm really into law. I think the system is shit, and I'd like to try and change that."
"That's a great goal."
"Nobody believes in me."
"I doubt that."
"My teachers have all said it. I don't speak up in class, and I try to make myself invisible so that nobody will try and befriend me."
"Why?"
"It's easier to be alone than to have people to rely on that will eventually let me down."
"You don't know they will do that."
"Yes I do. Everyone lets me down."
"Like who?"
"My father, every time he beats me, my mom every time she believes him over me, my sister who thinks she is god gift to this earth, and my….." She started but she cut herself off.
"Who else Madison?" I asked and she shook her head. She clearly wasn't able to talk about it. "Okay, you said you have a sister?" I asked and she nodded. "Tell me a little bit about her."
"Her name is Darcie." She said with a lot of venom in her voice. "She is 5 years older than me. Always got straight A's, played 3 different sports, and was homecoming queen at our high school. Everyone loved her, and I was just the disappointment." She said and I knew exactly how she felt.
"I know how that feels." I say and she looks at me. "My parents felt the exact same about me. They wanted me to be exactly like my brother. I understand how that feels."
"How did you deal with it?"
"I didn't. You know my history." I said and she took a sip of her coffee. "Do you self harm?" She simply nodded her head. "What are your methods?"
"I cut, and sometimes burn myself."
"Have you ever tried to take your own life?" I asked and she nodded. "When?"
"I was 15. My father came home one night trashed, and she wasn't happy with me. He beat me bloody that night. The next day I went to school, and people were whispering about me, and I just couldn't take it anymore. I jumped off a bridge on my way home from school."
"What happened?"
"Someone guy in a boat saw me, and he dove in and gave me CPR until I was breathing again."
"How did you feel about that?"
"I was angry. He had no right to do that, but he was just trying to do the right thing. Once I realized that, I gave up being angry. There was no use for it."
"Do you wish you were dead?"
"No. Things have gotten better in the last couple years, but not by much."
"How have they gotten better?"
"My father got a better job and it forced him to quit drinking. Just like my mom though he works all the time. My sister got a job in Japan, and her and her husband moved out there a couple years ago. Haven't seen or spoken to her since. It's just me now."
"How does that make you feel?"
"Lonely."
"So, why can't you fill that void with friends?"
"I guess I don't want to be vulnerable to someone else."
"Sometimes people can surprise you. My husband did."
"How so?"
"Let's just say, he was kinda a player." I said and she laughed.
"Well, with his looks, that's not surprising." She said and I smiled.
"Yea, and we didn't go to the same school but all the girls would practically drool over him. I knew his reputation, and I was skeptical of him, but when it came to me he was nothing but sweet, and encouraging. He was nothing like I imagined, and he was easy to talk too. I opened up, and he listened without judgment. He truly saved my life." I said and I smiled. I couldn't help it when it came to Jace. He just made me so happy.
"But what if there isn't anybody out there like that for me?"
"It doesn't have to be a romantic relationship. Jace and I started out as acquaintances. We talked, and than went months without communicating or seeing each other. It evolved to us being friends, and than it grew. It can be that simple Madison." I said and she just kept drinking her coffee. "If I'm the only one you talk to, that's okay, but I think having someone who is your age, and you can trust would be beneficial." I said and she nodded. We heard the door opened followed by a fit of giggles and I looked at the clock and noticed we were about 25 minutes over our session. Madison and I got up and made our way out into the living room where Jace and Danni were.
"I'm sorry. I thought your session would be over by now." Jace said and I smiled as I made my way over to him and grabbed Danni.
"No problem. We lost track of time. How was the date?"
"Perfect, but I had an amazing date, so I expected nothing less." He said and he kissed Danni's cheek. I looked back at Madison and she looked fairly awkward.
"Madison, this is my husband Jace and our daughter Danni. Jace this is Madison, my newest client." I said and she waved.
"It's a pleasure meeting you Madison, I was going to make some lunch, would you like to stay?" He asked and I smiled.
"I don't know. Isn't that like conflict of interest? Me eating lunch with my therapist and her family?"
"I'm not your therapist anymore. Our session ended 25 minutes ago. Right now, I'm just a friend offering another friend some lunch." I said and she smiled. The first genuine smile I've seen from her since we met, and I was planning on making sure that became more frequent.
She nodded and Jace headed for the kitchen while we stayed in the living room. I put Danni down and she was playing with her various toys while I put on the TV. Madison was very good with kids, and she was smiling a lot more. I was getting farther in just sitting around playing my with daughter about what truly made her happy, and I was enjoying watching Madison open up a little bit, and now I knew what kind of sessions would be beneficial for her. This might be challenging, but I knew that I was getting somewhere with her, and I was planning on getting everything out of her and making sure she was helped in any way that I could give her. That was a promise.
