Guess who's back? Back again? Valagor's back, tell your friends XD. Sorry for the horrible update speed, my dog got hit by a car, and passed away. I've been pretty down lately, so bear with me. Love you guys!
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The dark wraps us up in it's comforting embrace, leaving us to think. Ben is sleeping soundly, his mouth slightly agape as he breathes lightly. I can't sleep. I feel like a thousand weights are pulling my body down. I'm exhausted, but I can't close my eyes. I'm afraid that if I close them, I'll never see the light again. My heart beats at it's slowest speed, trying to keep my energy, while keeping me alive. My blood seems to creep slowly through my veins. The light has turned grey, the promise of another day appearing through the cave entrance.
"Mal?" Ben asks groggily, his slumber forgotten.
"Yeah?" I say in my tired voice.
"Sleep." He says the same thing he's been saying for days. It's broken me. I've snapped.
"Don't you think I want to?" I mumble.
"What?" He asks. I break.
"DON'T YOU THINK I WANT TO?" I scream. He's obviously taken back, but he regains his composure.
"If you want to, then do it." He says calmly. I turn to face him.
"If I close my eyes, all I can see is his face. His face standing over me." I say quietly. Ben has no reply, he just wraps me in a hug, pressing his lips to my forehead, trying to comfort me.
"I'm a lost cause. I'm broken. I'm flawed. I'm impure." I say, tears leaking out from my tightly closed eyes to make their way onto Ben's shoulder.
"You're strong, you're brave, you're flawless." Ben says, combating what I'd said. "You aren't broken until you let yourself crack." He tells me.
"Then I've let myself crack." I say, pulling out of his grasp. I stand up as well as I can, gasping at the sudden burst of pain in my sides. I walk to the entrance of the cave, and step out for the first time in days, just as the sun is rising out of the island's gloom, dully, not able to break through the fog.
"I know who I am." I say. I see the others' sleeping on the ground in various spots outside, unaware that I'm here. I feel Ben's presence behind me, and feel his warm breath on my neck.
"You're not broken. You can live through this. No one will hurt you anymore, I won't let it happen. I refuse to. If you are hurt again, I die." Ben says. I relax into him, feeling his warmth encompass me, feeling his love.
"How do you do that?" I ask him.
"What."
"Bring me back from the brink of insanity." I say
"Just a gift, I guess." I can feel his smirk. We look at the sunrise together, my episode forgotten, our location forgotten, our condition forgotten. All we need is each other.
"What happened?" I hear Jay ask, groggily.
"Not much. All you did was sleep. I can honestly say that nothing has happened." I say
"Good. That's nice for once." Jay grumbles, wiping the sleep from his eyes, squinting in the light.
"Will you shut up?" Carlos says. "I'm trying to get some much needed sleep here." He complains, turning over and throwing an arm over his face to shield it from the sun.
"Shut up and deal with it. Ignore it." Evie says.
"Sometimes you can't just ignore what people say" I tell them, looking up at Ben, and I see that he knows what I mean.
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Sorry if its crap. Love ya!
I've just started writing the final chapter... This story is coming to an end. I have literally the biggest twist coming in the last one, and you'll hate me for it. ANYWAY,
BEAST OUT!
