A/N Wow I cannot believe this story is almost at an end. I now know which Officer will make it off the ship alive with Felicity. No offence intended to the real Ismay. I'm going by what the movies say about him wanting to speed up the ship.
Sunday 14th April 1912
Felicity woke up bright and early and immediately got out of bed as she had a lovely morning to look forward too. She was going to the Sunday service with her mother and then meeting Will afterwards.
She had a nice hot bubble bath and then she dressed in a blue dress and red heels. She wanted her hair in a chignon again because Will loved her hair like that and she wanted to impress him.
As soon as she was dressed she went next door to her mother.
"Good morning Felicity,you look lovely this morning" Rachel smiled at her daughter.
"Hi mother. Can you do my hair again please?" Asked Felicity.
"Of course I can" Rachel said.
Felicity sat in the chair and her mother did her hair.
"What are your plans for the rest of the day after Church?" Rachel asked finishing off her daughter's hair.
"Will is going to be at the service on duty but he finishes work after the service so he is picking me up afterwards and he is taking me to lunch" Felicity answered.
"That is lovely darling. So have you both discussed your plans for when the ship arrives?" Asked Rachel.
Felicity was dreading this moment but she knew she would have to tell her mother soon. "I'm going back to Scotland with Will" Felicity stated hoping to not cause her mother too much upset.
To Felicity's surprise her mother smiled proudly "Are you really?".
"Yes mother. He wants to introduce me to his family and then he wants us to settle down and get married" Felcity said "Are you alright with that?" She then asked her happy mother.
"Of course I am thrilled for you both! Why? Did you think I would be upset you are going back?" Rachel asked surprised.
"Well,yes to be honest I thought you'd be upset that I will not be staying in New York with you like we planned" Felicity replied.
Rachel hugged her daughter "I support all your choices darling. I want you to be happy sweetheart and if that means you move to Scotland with your future husband then I am thrilled for you. Just make sure you send a wedding invitation in good time so i can book a ship back".
"I love you so much mother" Felicity exclaimed. "It won't be for a while yet. Probably sometime next year. We haven't really discussed it yet".
"Right come on,we had better get going otherwise we are going to be late" Rachel said trying to hide the happy tears falling down her cheek.
Felicity took her mother's arm and they walked to the church service held in the first class dining room.
They took their seats and Felicity looked at the front and could see the Captain in his uniform,she could also see Bert Pitman,Joe Boxhall and then she saw her handsome Will on the end.
Their eyes met and Will gave her a big smile and winked at her whch made her blush. He then mouthed "I love you".
She mouthed "I love you too" back to him which made him smile.
Rachel was watching the interaction between her daughter and future son-in-law and couldn't help smiling.
The service then began and then ended 30 minutes later.
The passengers began filing out. Once Felicity and Rachel got out of the room they said goodbye to each other. So Felicity was standing by the door waiting for Will.
She exchanged farewells with both Bert and Joe and had come to see them as good friends of hers. A few minutes later Will came out and smiled when he saw her and immediately pulled her towards him in his arms and kissed her passionately.
"Hi Felicity. How are you today my love?" Will said.
"I've been missing you a lot. But I have great news" Felicity answered as they began walking holding hands.
"What is that my love?" He asked.
"Mother said she is happy for us to live in Scotland aslong as we let her know in good time when we are getting married" Felicity replied excited.
Will's eyes lit up "Really? That is fantastic news! I was sure she would hate me for taking you away from her".
"No,she really likes you and she is thrilled for both us" She stated.
"Well that is great. Come on ,let's get some lunch. I haven't eaten all day" He said.
They walked to the cafe and had sandwiches for lunch and a hot steaming cup of coffee each.
They spent an hour and a half together before Will announced "I need to get some sleep before my shift starts this evening and it's going to be a difficult one so I need to be fully awake" he stated disappointed that he would have to leave her.
"What is special about this evening Will?" Asked Felicity curiously biting into a tuna and cucumber sandwich.
"Well I do not want to alarm you but we have received several ice warnings today and this evening we will be travelling through ice fields so we have to be alert" Will stated.
Felicity then asked a very sensible question "Why doesn't the Captain just stop the ship tonight and then continue in the morning when it's light?".
"Oh you do not want to go there believe me. It's that bloody Ismay fool. He wants to get into New York Tuesday instead of Wednesday so we make headlines" Will said.
"Who is Ismay?" Felicity asked.
"He's the chairman and managing director of the White Star Line. He's also arrogant and pompous and we all cannot stand him." Will smirked.
"But surely it's up to the Captain what happens to the ship not Ismay?" Felicity asked.
"He's been pressuring the Captain" Will said. "And the captain does not want to say no to him".
"Well I hope for his sake we will all be OK" Felicity said in a worried tone.
"I'll be in charge tonight so you can count on me my beautiful fiancee.I'll be working with Joe and James tonight" he stated.
"Oh" She said at hearing James's name being mentioned. She had forgotten about him until Will mentioned him.
"Would you like an escort to your room?" Will asked.
"I think i'll take in the fresh air on deck Will but thank you for offering" She said.
"OK well I shall see you tomorrow then. I have the whole morning off so we can spend the time together" Will suggested.
"I cannot wait" She said as he stood up.
He bent down and kissed her on the lips "I love you so much. You will be in my dreams my love".
"And you will be in mine tonight" She said smiling as he left.
She took a deep breath and sighed as she finished off the last sandwich and then headed up on deck for some fresh air to clear her mind.
It was a lovely,sunny sunday afternoon but she noticed the cold chill in the air.
She walked over to the rails and leant on them looking over the edge at the water.
Meanwhile
James was checking around the deck that everything was in order before his shift ended when he noticed her. He knew it was her from behind. He slowly approached her and whispered quietly "Felicity".
She was startled and quickly turned around and said "What do you want James?" She asked sharply.
"Can we talk?" he asked.
"I have nothing to say to you James" She said.
"What is wrong?" he asked concerned that she was upset.
"YOU. YOU ARE WHAT IS WRONG!" She screamed at him "YOU HAVE TO STAY AWAY FROM ME FOR BOTH OUR SAKES!".
"Why? What have I done?" He asked upset and trying to hold a tear in.
"You know exactly what i am talking about!" She exclaimed.
"Please,we need to talk" he pleaded.
"Fine!" She said dragging him away and sitting down on a bench.
"Felicity,please listen to me. Look" he said struggling to string a sentence together as he was extremely nervous "I know it's wrong to feel like this,but my god,I love you Felicity and I want you to be my wife,not Will's. I'd marry you right now if you would let me".
She was shocked "James... I.. can't do this. I'm marrying Will, I love Will".
"Do not deny you feel nothing for me. I know you do, I feel you do". James said.
Felicity knew he was right. She may be engaged and loved Will but she felt a spark and connection with James.
"Look, ok I do feel something for you but I don't know what it is. All I know is it is nothing compared to how I feel about Will. He is going to be my husband, not you" She said.
James's heart felt stung "I just want to hold you against me. I want to feel your heart beat and know it's beating for me like my heart beats for you. I can't go on without knowing there isn't a chance that you will be my girl. How do you truly feel?". He then asked.
The truth was she did not know how she felt about James. Was it a mutual attraction or something more.
Her lips suddenly spoke for her as they crashed against James's in a fiery and passionate kiss. He ran his hands through her hair and smelt the shampoo in her hair. His lips felt soft against her's. They felt perfect like they were always meant to be against hers.
She quickly broke the kiss as she needed oxygen "What did we just do? I just kissed you. I'm sorry,I have to go!".
"Felicity please don't go!" he exclaimed grabbing her arm but she managed to get away from him.
His head was full of emotion. He felt warm and bubbly having just kissed the girl he loved. The first girl he truly loved. And then he was racked with guilt having just betrayed one of his closest friends. And unknown to him someone had seen the whole thing. Harry Lowe had been watching them from up on the bridge and could not believe what he had seen. And he was going to tell Will what he had just witnessed. Harry felt disgusted with the pair. Will Murodch was a decent and honourable man and did not deserve to be hurt.
Felicity ran back to her room sobbing and slammed the door shut and threw herself on the bed and clutched her pillow tight sobbing into it.
What have I just done? I have just cheated on the first man i have ever loved. She said in her head.
And if she thought she had problems now,it was only a few hours until the ship would hit and iceberg and sink and she would lose either Will or James for good.
