Ooooh :3 Thank you so much for aaall those awesome reviews! I mean, I didn't expect it to be very succesful and still didn't think of the end (not really the end, I just mean the background and all... You know what I mean, right?) To be honest I find it both wonderful and frightening, knowing that you guys expect a lot from it and I think of that... if I screw up, I will disappoint you. I mean, I am very scared of disappointing anyone and get pretty depressed about it... Oh, Anyway, here is the next chapter. Enjoy!
Note: Please, in this first part where those various opinions/answers are written, read the boldface text first and then the normal one looking like this: (blah blah). It will make sense once you are there :)
Chapter 2: Maybe tomorrow
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"I'm sorry, Izayoi-san"
Those words... whom did they belong to? Whose was the shaky and scared voice? And why did it sound so hurt?
"I had no choice, I am... I am sorry"
Again.
The way it spoke was breaking my heart. It was someone important, someone precious and irreplaceable... and yet, why did I feel such a rage toward it? What was that 'it' talking about?
Numb.
I felt numb. Not able to open my eyes, not able to move a finger or say that everything is okay... or is it?
Why?
Why was it that I had no control over my body? Why was it that I felt so dull? Why couldn't I remember anything? Why did I feel so... dead?
"Forgive me..."
(I won't.)
I forgive you, so please...
(Go away.)
Don't sound like that.
(Don't talk to me anymore,)
Don't cry anymore,
(don't let me be reminded of what you did.)
don't let me feel those tear drops falling on my face.
(You betrayed us)
You are very precious.
(It hurts to know you were... lying.)
It hurts to know you are... crying.
Izayoi's P.O.V.
Tears? Why am I crying? Why do I feel so sad?
"Izayoi-kun?"
What happened? What did I dream about? Why did it hurt to breathe? Why did it hurt to think?!
"Izayoi-kun!"
Snapping out of it, I blinked a few times and noticed a worried face hovering over me. But... who was that woman?
"Thanks god..." she sighed and leaned her face into her palms.
Before I got to say anything, she took a glass of water and let me take me few sips which made me realize just how horrible my throat felt. Wait... deja vu? Didn't this happen before? Oh, never mind... I felt so lethargic and tired that I didn't care.
"Who...'re u?" I asked and immediately regretted it as a wave of pain hit my head. Why did everything hurt? And why did my tongue feel like jelly?
She was quiet for a while as if thinking about how to answer and then whispered plainly "A doctor".
A doctor? Ah... I started to remember. She was the one who asked me about some things... but when was it? Everything... everything was just so hazy!
"How do you feel?" her voice was very gentle and silent which I really appreciated with that harshly throbbing head of mine.
"Fine..." Well, if I skipped the fact that my head was near to exploding, that breathing hurt and my whole body was screaming, then yes. I was fine. Perfectly.
The doctor eyed me with that look at her face clearly saying 'I'm not buying it'. Well, no one would. Even I didn't believe my own words so why would a professional doctor would?
"You should sleep" she mouthed.
Sleep? Duh, no thanks. I didn't want to sleep. That dream made me feel horrible. Even though I didn't even know what it was about that I was so scared... not really scared but more like depressed. God knows why. And god knows who- Wait.
"Where'm I?" goddamnit! What was with this ridiculous pain and weakness I felt with every single stupid move?!
I didn't even let her answer and started with another questions. And hell, why didn't I notice sooner that I knew nothing about this place or her? Or why I couldn't remember anything?! What the hell was happening?!
"What hap'nd? Why'm here? " I felt my heart rapidly beating. "Why can't I r'member an'thing?!"
"Izayoi-kun, calm down. Everything is alright" she assured me but I didn't believe her. Something was pretty screwed up! My head was completely screwed up!
Every cell in my body was screaming at me to get the hell out! I couldn't get rig of the feeling of danger in my guts and the pain I felt as I tried to move was worse and worse. It was getting harder to breathe, my chest started hurting. Grey dots were now invading my vision and happily dancing here and there and everything went blurry. However I still felt panic overtaking my body as cold fingers touched me and I tried to get away. To move. Move!
Before I even realized it, I forcefully was dragged into that empty and dark place again. This time not relieved to be welcomed by the nothingness but terrified by what it might remind me of.
Takane's P.O.V.
Three days. It has been hellish three days since he woke up and when today, finally, he came to, the first thing that happens is that he has a panic attack? Was this some kind of joke? Yes, yes, I knew he would be very confused and scared but really?! Panic attack?! I had to sedate the boy to prevent him from hurting himself...
Sighting, I leaned back at the chair which has metaphorically become a part of my body as I have been sitting on it for the last five days... maybe not straight but it still made my butt feel pretty much numb.
"Takane-san?" an uncertain voice behind me drew my attention. Turning my head, I looked at the sorrowful and worn out figure standing by the closed doors.
"Black rabbit" I whispered, gesturing her to come in.
The girl seemed a hesitant but after a while she slowly walked toward me, eyes locked at the floor.
"Did you need anything?" I asked and smiled a little.
"Shouldn't we... go out?" whispered the girl.
"Don't worry, I just put him to sleep. He won't be waking up sooner than a few hours from now even if we would be screaming" my answer seemed to make her relax a little. "Well?"
"I just... came to see how he is doing" replied Black rabbit absent-mindedly, gazing at the sleeping boy.
"How long were you standing there?" trying to confirm my suspicion, I asked.
"A while" was all she said.
"Then I take it you know that he woke up just a little ago?"
With that single nod of hers, I continued: "He's healing fine, the progress is satisfying but right now I am worried about his mental state. Waking up, not knowing who he is, where he is or who we are has to be more than horrifying for him." my eyes were fixed on Izayoi again. "I need him to know and remember that he's safe and there is no danger here, but it seems like his memory is still off duty. It would be best if he wouldn't wake sooner than before he would be fine enough to think clearly."
My rabbit friend remained silent and I didn't intend to interrupt her. It had to be very stressing to see a friend like this. But the look in her eyes told me it had to be something more... was that guilt in them?
"Black rabbit, it's not your fault. You couldn't know something like this would happen and you also couldn't do anything to help him in that time. It happened and you just found him... it is just thanks to you he is alive" I tried to console her, guessing she felt useless and guilty.
"No, I... yes, you are... probably right" and with that she gave me the most forced smile she had ever made. I just didn't know why she was feeling like it was her fault which clearly wasn't, but I got that she needed time and decided to give it to her. I was a doctor and that meant looking after everyone, not only my current patient. To look after his worried friends who barely slept or ate and to make sure they don't end up as her patients too.
"Black rabbit, what about we go out for a while? I'm starting to hate this chair" I chuckled and stood up.
"Yeah" she agreed and the two of us got out of the No names mansion for fresh air.
Asuka's P.O.V.
Jeez, five days. He spent five days in that bed just sleeping... wasn't he tired of it? Wasn't he usually unable to stay still for longer than three minutes? Why didn't he get up and start complaining about the boredom? I would do anything right now to hear his usual complaints or sarcasm again. Anything just to get rid of the sight of that motionless body of the irresponsible pervert.
It was already evening, sun had set half an hour ago and now it was pitch dark outside. You, Black rabbit, Jin and doctor were still having dinner in mess hall and me? I had nothing to do so I decided to go see the oh-poor-boy-who-got-himself-almost-killed-who-knows-why-or-how confined to bed.
Walking closer to his bed, I noticed that bandages on his head were removed and now there was only that too calm and pale face. Too calm and peaceful that it didn't fit him even in the slightest. He was supposed to bug us now, he was supposed to play those childish tricks on Black rabbit, whatever, but he was not supposed to... to be like this. I just... this was all so wrong! I couldn't comprehend the feeling, the feeling that this couldn't be truth. Yeah, of course people could get wounded heavily like him, but not Izayoi! Not him! Izayoi-kun was that invincible immortal idiot who couldn't die even if he wanted to. How could have this happened? And who could have done this to him?!
"Could you please stop with this?" I asked the sleeping boy with a frown. I knew he couldn't answer and that's why I did so.
"Worrying us like this... are you stupid? Or just trying to kill both us and you?" I got closer to him and started gesturing with my hands. "Cut the crap, damned pervert. I need you alive and well enough so that I can kick some sense into your dense head!"
"No kick'ng" suddenly a hoarse and weak voice protested. Oh god, he was awake! "head... hurts"
Just as he mentioned his head, I remembered what doctor said. No speaking in his presence... Takane-san was seriously gonna kill me. But anyway... What should I do now? Call doctor?
"Who are you?" this time, his voice sounded better. He was also perfectly aware of me and lucid. I couldn't leave now... it might confuse even more, right?
"Do you remember anything?" I whispered, careful not to inflict him pain.
"Just few hazy moments here... and there" he sighed and looked like he was trying to sit up.
"Stay still, you're injured." He glared at me with that 'screw you' face. Maybe he was back to his old self? "That is if you don't want to hurt like hell" And with that he gave up.
"Again, who are you?" Izayoi-kun asked again, his face demanding a proper answer. He looked much more better and awake than how Takane-san said he was a couple hours ago.
"Kudou Asuka, your friend and someone who's gonna spank you when you are back to yourself" I managed to say without doing it right now.
He eyed me a little and I though for a while he might confuse me for enemy or threat... he had no memories after all, no memories of our usual fights and sarcastic answers.
"Sounds legit?" to my surprise he grinned. "What?" he questioned as I gazed at him in disbelief.
"I just... did you just agree with me spanking you?"
"Yeah? I also want to spank myself for doing... whatever I was doing, 'cause my whole body hurts like hell" the blond explained. "I swear even my hair hurt"
Well, I didn't expect that. With a chuckle, I whispered "Idiot" and saw his face relax a little. However I forgot he was still injured and even neglected the fact he felt pain now. I shouldn't be talking at all!
"I'm gonna get the doctor" I already headed toward doors but his urgent voice stopped me.
"Don't" Izayoi-kun looked at me seriously but I saw in his eyes that it wasn't an order, but plea.
"Why?" was my immediate question.
"...Just because" he said, trying to hide something. "I don't want to be laboratory rat" looking at the ceiling, he finally answered.
" What the?" I asked confused by that lab rat thing. "Oh, whatever" I gave up trying to understand him. There was a short silence and he glared at me again with those hard eyes.
"Fine," I sighed and went toward him again, sitting down on chair. "but you'll see her sooner or later. There's no way you can escape her" I smiled, not sure if he really saw it in this dark room.
"I will think of something" Izayoi-kun assured me and grinned.
"Anyway, Mr Idiot, how do you feel?" observing the blond, I started with questions. "And the truth please, or I'm really gonna get doctor" I added before he could say that his stupid 'Fine'.
"I hurt like hell? Just kidding, I feel wonderful" he smiled sarcastically.
"Good" I nodded, observing his slight frown. "Head?"
"Hurts like hell"
"Chest?"
"Hurts like hell"
"Arm? Since you broke it?"
"Hurts like hell"
"Is there anything that doesn't hurt like hell?" I chuckled a little.
"Actually, yes" he answered to my surprise. Didn't he say that even his hair hurt?
"And that is?"
"My brain. It doesn't hurt like hell, just hurts and feels like a cocktail"
"That's quite obvious with your amnesia" I facepalmed and realized that noone actually explain him why he was feeling like... ehm, excuse me, crap. Not yet.
"So that is the reason I can't remember a thing?" his face turned dark as he started questioning me.
"Hello? You hit your head so hard the doctor was glad it was still in one piece. So yes, amnesia. And concussion" I added.
"How?" he looked a little tired... or did I imagine it?
"I'd like to know that too" I sighed with serious face and crossed my arms. "We found you half dead somewhere in the outskirts of Little Garden. Thanks god Black rabbit found you"
"Is that... so?" Izayoi-kun did seem like he was fighting back to stay awake. "Wait, who is Black rabbit?" there was something more than curiosity in his eyes. Did her name ring a bell and he recalled something?
"Do you remember anything about her?" my question was a little more loud than I assumed it would be and made him flinch a little. Sorry for the that, Izayoi-kun.
"No, but" he paused with an uneasy face. "no, nothing" he sighed and closed his eyes.
He was so still and quiet I though that maybe he was already asleep. Standing up, silently. I headed towards door to be called back once again by the blond. Apparently he still hasn't fall asleep yet. Unfortunately. But he was close.
"Go sleep already, you look horrible" my voice sounded harsh. Good.
"No need"
"Say that again after you are well enough to stay awake for more than ten minutes" I snapped and turned to see his face of defeat.
Well, maybe next time. Maybe next time he doesn't fall asleep in the middle of my argument. Gah, I didn't expect him to be awake this soon and even more not to be this aware of his surroundings. That was a good sign he was healing fine, wasn't it? Maybe tomorrow we would be able to have a normal conversation again. Black rabbit smiling again and telling us how troublesome we could get, You-san laughing cheerfully with Calico in her lap, me commenting every single stupid thing Izayoi-kun did and him... him being there with us, alive. Yes, maybe.
"Good night," I whispered with a gentle smile. "Dummy"
AAND? DONE! Yes, second chapter done and now starting with the third. I hope it won't take too long! So please, pleaase, be patient! :) As I said, school is demanding...
