A/N:
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Chapter 6
Bella's POV
He slowly turned his head towards me. His attitude was different. Whenever I have seen him before, his back was upright. But at the moment, as he sat there on the bed next to me, his shoulders were down.
When his eyes met mine, I gasped. They seemed to be empty and he wasn't able to focus on me completely. Finally, he said something.
"Bella?" "What are you doing in my room?" He had a bad breath. I smelled alcohol. Oh my god! What is wrong with him? I wish I could help him.
I felt sorry for him and it hurt myself to see him like this.
"I was looking for you. I wanted to ask you if you have some free time?"
After a long moment he answered. He spoke slowly.
"Ahm,…Y-yes. Yes, I guess." He stumbled. I think he was so drunk that he wasn't even able to say one sentence at once.
"I, I have some free time."
"What can I do for you?" He babbled and a big grin appeared on his face. This smile made my heart beat faster. He suddenly approached me.
What is going on right now? Is he just trying to kiss me? I was confused.
Before he was too close I screamed and pushed him away.
"Edward, stop it!" He looked addled.
"Please, just stop it. I know you are drunk as hell right now! Don't you think I recognize it? I am so disappointed of you! Your smell is awful and you look tired and sick. And by the way where have you been?" I said in a raised voice.
His look hasn't changed.
"I am sorry." He babbled after a moment. That's all he had to say? Seriously? I was waiting for a further explanation. But he didn't say more. I was getting impatiently and then I kind of lost it. His behaviour made me so angry.
"We all care for you, okay? And we really try to help you, to stop drinking, but you must want it too! We don't want to lose you, Edward. You must stop it! Please get that in your head! I care for you; I really do but it is getting tiring. You now what? I am here every week, because of you! Everyone tries to spend as much time as possible with you to help you, but all YOU do is drinking and making out with random girls. Please stop it, because if you don't, I don't know if I have the energy to be your friend any longer."
As I had said it I suddenly had the need to get out of his room.
"Bella, please stay." He begged with a clear voice before I had reached the door.
I turned around and looked at him. His facial expression changed between sadness and desperation. I, again, felt sorry for him. Before I could turn around and leave, he went on.
"Please don't go right now." He reminded me of a little child, as he sat there on his bed begging me to stay.
"Why do you even want me to stay?"
"I don't want to be alone." He paused for a moment and breathed deeply.
"I am lonely very often. I don't want to be lonely at the moment. I need you to accompany me. Come on Bells." He babbled.
I didn't know what to do. I had an inner conflict with myself. "How about a movie?" he suddenly interrupted my thoughts.
"What?" I was surprised.
"Do you want to watch a movie with me?"
"A movie is a sequence of moving images, which represent" – "I know what a movie is, genius." I rolled my eyes and laughed.
"You choose." He immediately answered and gave me a sweet look.
So, I chose any action movie. We made ourselves comfortable on his bed, with a small but important friend-zone between us. He sometimes laughed loudly but he never tried to approach again. And that's good. Although, there may was a part of me that would have liked to kiss Edward Cullen.
While we were watching the movie we laughed together and he finally started talking. He told me about his hobbies, his commitment for literature and classic music. I told him more about myself; he always paid attention and seemed interested in what I said. I wanted to talk with him about his addiction problem, but I didn't have the guts for it.
We have been talking for a long time, when I realized that it was already dark outside. I should go home.
After I have told him that I wanted to leave, he tried to convince me to stay.
But I didn't want to. I guess he still wasn't completely sober and I didn't want to be one of the many girls Edward Cullen loved for one night. He suddenly hugged me. What's that supposed to be?
I looked at him and tried to find out what he was thinking. His look was strangely. I didn't know what this look meant; until he leaned in to kiss me.
That was too much for me right now. What does he think who he is? He annoyed me. We had spent such a nice afternoon and all he thought of was sex?
I took a step backwards, struck out with my right hand, slapped him in the face and screamed. "You are such a bitch! Can you just not think about making out with a girl for one day? You're a drunken fool! I believed in you."
I immediately left and went home. I was disappointed, angry and sad.
Edward's POV
Her words hurt more than everything else, ever. She believed in me. And now, she doesn't anymore. I messed it up.
At first I tried to drown my sorrows with alcohol. I did the one thing I was already famous for: Sleeping with many women. I tried to forget her and the reproachful and disappointed look on her beautiful face.
After a while I realized that it wouldn't help me anything. Especially not getting Bella back. Therefore, I had to change myself and the way I acted. It was extremely hard in the beginning to not go to the tree in the woods after school every day. Instead I tried to focus on something else.
School, of course, was the first thing that came to my mind.
I tried no to miss a lesson again. And after a while people were already getting curious about what had happened to me. Oh, if they only knew what a Bella Swan can do.
The second thing I tried to focus on was relationships. I spent more often afternoons with Eric and Jessica and I surprisingly enjoyed it a lot. But the one person I really wanted to spent more time with, was still avoiding me.
So, I also tried my best at lunch time. Because we had our seating plan at the table, Bella always had to sit opposite to me. Once, she tried to convince Jessica to change seats, but Jessica refused, like I had told her to. I have thought about everything.
Of course, Bella has recognized that I was trying to change, but she never lost a word about it. She barely spoke with me. But I was sure I would get her back.
I finally managed it to stop drinking. Now, already two months have passed since I drunk the last time.
At Angela's birthday the whole gang, wanted to go out together. That would be my chance!
Angela wished to celebrate at her favourite restaurant, the Rumiero. Before the celebration, I told the others that I wanted to sit next to Bella and they assured me no one of them would sit on her right side. Good.
At the day of Angela's birthday party, I took on a grey shirt and black trousers. I went in the garage to get the car. Thankfully, I was allowed to drive again. After about ten minutes I had arrived at the house.
I got out of the car and rang the doorbell. "One moment." I heard her screaming upstairs.
She ran down the stairs and opened the door. She looked amazing! At the moment she saw me, she made a shocked face and sighed.
"What are you doing here?" Bella asked irritated.
A/N:
Did Bella act correctly?
Or are you Team Edward?
Let me know what you think about this chapter.
I am looking forward to the next chapter:
There will be a leap in time! :)
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