I know one thing. I'm not supposed to be in Abnegation. I'm... I don't know. Idon't know. I'm different I guess. I feel like I'm gone most of the time. Like I'm invisible. Gone forever. I might sound crazy. People think I'm crazy, and I know it's
/true. I know I can be selfish. I try not to be. But, it's just what comes out of my mouth sometimes.

I get in trouble with our leader, Marcus. He is my "father" as I shall say. I call never put quotes around his name. When I did, I got scoldings. I don't know everything. But, I know one thing. I will be factionless if I stay. It's like faction, but I
/say otherwise. It's just a place where stupid people come to ask us for food. Them will be my new term for Abnegation. Them. It's not us, it's them. I will leave.

But, will I stay? What if my results are Abnegation?

I don't know.

After Tobias, my older brother who I have only a vague memory of, and Beatrice and Caleb Prior, children of Andrew Prior, one of their council members, who helps out their leader, Marcus. Not our, their. Makes a lot more sense. Their. They. Them. I like
/the ring to it. It's like heaven in my ears. I need to leave. Will I locate Tobias and Beatrice in Dauntless, Caleb in Erudite, or go my own way? Be brave, kind, intelligent, honest, or selfless? I know I'm not selfless. I remember all my friends
/asking me numerous questions about my life. I never answered. They thought I was selfless. They actually thought I was being selfless! But, instead I was afraid. I was rebelling. I didn't know that at first. Now, I know.

I'm a rebel. I will always be a rebel. I will be forever.

Today is my day. I looked at the school building and just wished it would crumble to minute pieces.

My friend, Isabelle, asked, "Catherine? Are you alright?"

Oh, I guess she saw the burn on my face. Oh, shucks. I need an excuse.

"Yes." I reply shyly.

"How did you get that burn?" Isabelle asked.

"I bumped into the stove." I lied.

Isabelle nodded.

"How clumsy are you, stiff." A random Erudite asks.

"Hey, don't talk to me like that!" I yell.

"Don't." Isabella mumbles.

"Hey everyone, stiff being an insurgent." The Candor girl from beside the Erudite boy mumbled.

"Just tolerate it." Isabella mumbles.

I hear someone clearing their throat.

"Rainbow Black and Catherine Eaton." The principal, Andrew Prior, called.

"Who is called Rainbow?" I think to myself.

I walked to the aptitude test room. The administrator pushed me down onto a chair.

"Hi," She said, "My name is Tori Wu. This is the aptitude test."

She handed me a liquid.

"What is that?" I asked.

"Bottoms up." Tori replied.

I drank the liquid.

I was in a room, surrounded by cheese and knives.

"Choose." A reflection of me said.

"Make all the selfless choices, Catherine." I feel Marcus mumble in my head.

I push that thought away, it's over now.

"Why?" I asked.

"Just choose." The voice said.

"Why?" I asked again.

All the tools disappeared. I saw a dog. How cute! I look at it slowly, my eyes concentrated on it. What if Marcus is here? What if he's right behind me? What if the dog is Marcus? I looked at it like it was mentally retarded. Marcus told me what to do.
/No, I will not follow his lead. The dig runs towards to attack me. I guard myself. I grunt.

"Ugh!" I yell.

The dog suddenly runs away. I sigh a sudden sigh of relief.

"Be selfless." I hear Marcus say.

No. I will never. I will follow my instinct and rebel. A girl appeared. The dog turned into a puppy.

"Puppy." The girl said.

The puppy changed back into a dog and ran towards her. I run towards the dog, following my instincts. This girl... She's too young to die. I suddenly feel a feeling of adrenaline as I sprint to catch up to the dog.

I was on a old bus.

An old man asked, "Do you know him?"

The old man held out a picture of Tobias.

"Yes." I replied.

"Are you sure?" The old man asked.

"Yes!" I yelled.

Tori Wu yanked me out of the seat and pulled me to the corner.

"Go home and tell your parents that the serum made you sick and you were sent home." Tori mumbles.

"What were my results?" I asked.

"Abnegation," She said as my heart sank, "And Erudite, and Dauntless, and Candor, and Amity."

All 5 FACTIONS?!

"That's impossible." I whispered, "The test tells me where I belong. The test..." I said madly.

"The test doesn't work on you." Tori whispered.

I ran home.

"Ugh!" Marcus yells as I arrive in the door.

"Hello, Father." I mumble as I run to my room.

I just plop down in my bed when I get into my room.

"Tobias." I mumbled, "I need your help."

"Randomly appear, Tobias. Just come! I am shattering slowly. I'm sorry, Tobias. I am a rebel." I think to myself.

Marcus stomps around the house.

"Catherine!" Marcus roars loudly.

I sprint like a cheetah down the stairs and stand up straight, shoulders back, high still breastbone.

"Hello, Father." I reply.

"Your brother died." Marcus said.

A tear streams down my face.

"Are you sure?" I ask.

"Stop that!" Marcus yells.

"I am deeply sorry, Father. Is there anything I could do?" I reply.

"One thing." He replies.

"What is that thing, Father?" I ask.

"What was your test result?" Marcus asked me.

"Abnegation." I lie.

"Are you lying to me?" Marcus asks.

I bite down, harshly, on my poor lip.

"No sir." I reply.

"Are you sure?" He asks.

"Yes, sir." I reply.

"You're lying." Marcus pointed out.

I hate it when he's right.

"No, I'm not." I replied.

"I was trying to help you." Marcus mumbles.

A tear streams down my face.

"I am sacrificing myself. This is my big sacrifice. Take off your shirt." Marcus orders.

Tears stream down my face as I do what I was asked to do. The belt strikes against my back and creates a stream of blood. It strikes my back once, twice, thrice. Blood pours down my back, creating a river with all that blood.

"Tobias." I mumble, "You hurt him."

"What did you say to me?!" Marcus asked with rage.

"I'm deeply sorry, Father." I mumble.

"Baloney." He mumbles.

The belt strikes my skin for fourth time. More blood streams down my back and pools onto the floor. I suddenly stop crying. I am stronger then I was. After seeing what happened to Tobias, I am stronger now. Watching Mom sing the Hanging Tree right in
/front of my eyes, chasing the way I think about things, when I was just six years old. I feel bad for Tobias. I never got to forgive him about not letting me run away with Mom. I know Tobias regrets it. He has told me many times. Now, Tobias is dead.
/I stand up and punch Marcus, square in the face.

"What did you just do?!" Marcus yells with rage.

Marcus pushes me down to the cold, hard, ground. His belt strikes me for the fifth time. More blood builds up in my wounds as the belt keeps gripping onto my skin.

"I want to die." I mumble, "Tobias won't let me."

"You are done!" Marcus finally yells.

I ran to my bed.

"I'll find you, someday, Tobias." I mumble.

I toss and turn in bed until I fall asleep.