I walked next to the stream on my way to the guild hall. A light wind blew through my long black hair and the sun shone down brightly causing my single blue highlight to glisten. I'd been in Fairy Tail for five mouths now. It was really something. The harmless fights between guild members that happen frequently, the amount of times Juvia's accused me of being a 'love rival' between her and Gray since I use water magic. It's all fun if not a little annoying and I wouldn't want to leave it for the world!

I finally reached the guild hall and entered quietly, not wanting to draw much attention. I'm not really an all eyes on me sort of person unless I'm thunder struck angry, in which case I don't care what people think. Master Makarov says that's why I'm most powerful when I'm angry, kinda like Natsu.

I smiled and blushed a little at the thought.

"Hey, Ren!"

Speaking of the devil, there he is. I smiled and sat at the table next to him.

"Hey Nat" I giggled

"Do you have to call me that?" He asked unimpressed but still cheerful.

"I dunno, I think it suits you, Natsu" The blue cat, Happy, said from across the table."

I laughed a little

"It's OK, Natsu. I'm only messing with you."

"Well, I wanted to ask you a question." He announced, a little more serious.

"Yes?" I was a little un-eased by the situation. What was he going to ask?

"Join our team? We picked a quest this morning" His smile was big as he asked and I was forced to smile back from the joy and excitement that spread through me.

"I...um...yeah! Why the hell not!" I exclaimed.

This was brilliant! But then I remembered Magena. She was Natsu's girlfriend and not a part of his team.

How would she feel that Natsu hadn't asked her but had asks me? Maybe I should go talk to her.

"That's great, really, thank you but I just have to go deal with something."

Natsu looked a little shocked but I continued to get up. I scanned the guild hall and saw Magena at the request board and made my way over.

"Magena!" I called

"Oh, hello Ren" she replied a little bitterly.

I was starting to think she didn't like me. I hadn't exactly spoken to her much, I hadn't even seen her since her birthday party. I don't even think she knows I'm a member of the guild now.

"I joined the guild. Look."

I held my hand out to show her the purple mark on my wrist.

"Fantastic, so are you taking on any jobs?" She smiled sweetly but I could see through it, though maybe she was making an effort to be friends.

"Hell yeah! Natsu, Happy and Lucy picked one this morning." I smiled brightly in hope she would too.

"So Natsu, Happy and Lucy picked a quest too?"

I knew this was going in a different direction than friends.

"No, they're going on the same one as me. Natsu ask me to join their team. Isn't that great?"

"Not particularly" She said coldly.

This was definitely the wrong direction but we were here now.

"WEATHER DRAGON TORNADO"

Her attack hit me, not full on but enough to send a piercing pain through my body along with an overwelming anger. I fell to the floor, letting her think I was hurt more than I actually was. She was definitely strong but obviously holding back.

She didn't want a fight any more than I did. There was still a chance we could get along so I would just have to hold back my anger and see what happened next.

"Oops, my bad" she said sarcastically.

She then turned away and took a seat. She had her back to me but I could see she had her head in her hands.

Natsu came up behind her and I watched from the floor as everything kicked off.

"Magena, what's wrong?" He asked sounding worried.

"Oh, not much. Only that you spend all your time with that Highfire girl and invited her to be a part of your team" She choked out.

"Oh.. Um... I was meant to talk to you about that..."

"No. You don't need to. I know you like her so just go be with her instead. Honestly it isn't like it used to be any more"

This wasn't right! I felt terrible. They couldn't break up because of me! I wanted to get up and tell them both this was stupid. That they had to sort things out, but I couldn't, I couldn't stop them from doing this simply because of my feelings. This was what they wanted I guess and too be honest I think Magena has something for Fried.

"Really? I mean... I was thinking the same thing but... That's it? This is how it ends?" Natsu seemed a tiny bit shocked

"I'm not going to force you into something you don't want to do"

Who was I kidding? I couldn't watch this! But I couldn't move, I was too shocked from what was happening. I continued to watch from the floor holding back tears of guilt.

"I just hope you have a nice time with her and I hope we can still be friends"

"Of course we can!" He said happily and hugged her.

Then she left.

I suppose she wanted some time to think. I don't blame her.

I continued to sit on the floor in shock. Everyone seemed shocked, especially Natsu. No-one spoke, no one moved. No-one noticed the few tears leak from my eyes. I had no clue why I was crying. Was it guilt or was it sadness or a mixture of both, even a little happiness that was over. I had no time to work it out.

"What's this little pity party for? Natsu broken up with his little girly?" The voice was mimicking. It came from the hall entrance.

"How pathetic! I'm gone for a little while and come back to a guild of silence? A guild where not a single pewny member can help an injured girl off the floor!"

They were behind me now. Pulling me to my feet. I knew who it was. I knew that voice. When I turned around to look at him it was confirmed.

Laxus.

He didn't tend to talk to many people unless he was being a jerk but he's different with me. It's not flirting. I know that. It's almost like he kind of cares about me. A little protective. It's nice, nice to have someone care like that. We don't tend to talk much but he subtly smiles at me when he sees me sitting on my own or feeling a little down. But right now? Right now he was talking to me. Everyone else had gone back to whatever they were doing and the silence had ended.

"You ok?" He asked

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just... just a little shocked. That's all."

"That's not all" he replied "is it?"

How did he know. He could see right through my lies. No-one has ever done that. Ever. Not even my own...not even Hydra, the dragon that raised me. But I don't even know where he is, or why he left.

Damn it Ren! Your not helping your self!

"That's all"

"No its not"

He wasn't giving up.

"That's all!" I blurted out angrily.

I couldn't help it. I wanted to talk to him but I couldn't. I couldn't knock down my wall. Not now. I had to clear my head.

I regained myself and calmly said "Sorry, but Iv got to go"

Then ran out the guild hall back to the stream.


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