Disclaimer: not mine…
A/N: So this is a little overdue… I'm sorry. I was busy… But I went to see Mockingjay Part 2 the other day and oh my god my mind was blown! So amazing! I cried. But anyway, thank you to all those who fave/follow and review. You're all awesome and legends and all that, now imma stop rambling and let you get on with this! Enjoy :)
...
Alec froze for a second before making a decision that he wasn't sure whether or not to regret. But he flew off the stage and out the back door, bypassing the screaming mobs of girls who were always there. He burst into the spring air, feeling the chill as the cold washed over his sweaty hair and the bare skin of his arms. He took a deep breath and ran out into the main road, stopping under the dull yellow light of a lamp post.
He whipped his head side to side, desperately searching for Magnus. He breathed hard, cursing himself for what he had done. Maybe he should have kept his feelings to himself.
But then he caught a glimpse of royal blue skinny jeans and a bejewelled black and white leather jacket and he smiled reflexively. He didn't stop to think as he ran after the retreating figure of Magnus, his converse slapping hard against the ground as he flew through the street.
When he got within hearing distance he called out, winded by the exertion of the evening.
"Magnus! Wait! Please... Wait... Oh god... Can't breathe. Hang on."
He held up a hand and clutched his side as he got a bitch of a stitch and gasped hard, doubling over and catching his breath. Magnus had stopped walking but he hadn't come any closer.
Alec took a deep, steadying breath and stood up straight, walking on jelly legs to Magnus. The man was stood there looking defeated and tired, worried with a hint of something else entirely behind his wide eyes.
"Magnus."
Alec said as he finally steadied himself. He licked his lips and cleared his throat.
"Magnus, why'd you leave? I was hoping to talk to you after the show."
He decided to go with calm and indifferent, but he may have overstepped that what with the whole running after him thing. And Magnus knew it. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair again in frustration.
"You know why, Alexan- Alec."
Alec squared his jaw, his stubborn nature beginning to surface.
"No, i don't, Magnus."
Magnus tucked his camera in his bag and unlocked his car door behind him. Without looking, he threw the bag on the seat and turned back to Alec with hard eyes.
"Really? Oh, so, you didn't just sing a song about going after a guy to said guys face. A guy that i can only assume is me, unless I'm mistaken."
Alec licked his lips nervously and flicked his hair from his eyes.
"Well, ok. Yeah. I sang a song to you. What's the big deal? I thought you'd like it. It was the song we sang on the bus remember?"
Magnus growled a sigh.
"How could i forget?"
He said in a defeated whisper before anger clouded his mind.
"But if you wanted to share a memory, you should have sung it normally. Why did you change the words? What the hell were you doing?!"
Alec threw his hands out in an exaggerated 'i don't know' kind of gesture.
"I don't know! I wanted to! So i did! It's not a big deal! Why are you getting so angry?!"
Magnus threw his head back and kicked his car tyre, sighing dramatically.
"Because it is a big deal Alec! You sang a bloody love song to me! About me! Don't you see how wrong that is?!"
Alec laughed spitefully.
"Wrong?! Oh, so it's wrong for me to have feelings for you? It's wrong for me want to share them with you?!"
Magnus' eyes widened and he huffed angrily, clenching his fists.
"Yes! You can't feel that way about me, Alec. I'm 26. 11 years older than you! You're a kid! It's illegal for anything to happen between us!"
Alec growled, his blue eyed darkening as he spoke roughly, low in his throat.
"I am not a kid. I know how i feel. I'm not ashamed. And i know you feel it too. Don't say you don't. Because you'd be lying to us both."
Magnus sighed and clawed at his hair.
"This can't happen. You need to go back in there and forget about me."
Alec took a step closer, eyes blazing as his hands were shaking.
"Do. You. Feel. It. Too?"
Magnus groaned and slumped his shoulders and repeated his earlier words.
"This can't happen."
Alec sighed an angered laugh, moving closer to the man.
"Do you feel it? Do you want me, Magnus?"
Magnus put his head in his hands and bit his lip, well and truly at war with himself.
"Alec... You and me... It's not going to... It can't... I can't."
Alec sighed and felt his anger ebb away, replaced by something that burned that little bit brighter. He reached out slowly and gripped Magnus' wrists, sharing a light gasp with Magnus as their skin touched. He pulled Magnus' hands away from his face and stared up at him with ardent sincerity.
"Cant? Or wont?"
He asked softly, watching Magnus' green eyes shimmer like cats eyes in the darkness. The man bit his lip and he shrugged his shoulders helplessly. Alec held his wrists loosely and blinked before answering for him.
"You won't. Because it would be legally wrong. And you can't. Because you don't trust yourself to say anything else."
He swallowed thickly but held Magnus' gaze, staring at him with such genuine emotion. Alec always had worn his heart on his sleeve, Magnus had seen it the minute they met. Magnus nodded slowly and Alec smiled the smallest of smiles.
"It's ok. You can say it. I want you to say it. Please, Magnus, tell me the truth."
Magnus looked at him softly, his eyes bright and wide and terrified. He was shaking a little as Alec held onto his wrists and smiled at him. Magnus took in a shaky breath and gulped, his voice rough and whispered.
"I- i like you Alec. A lot. And it scares me half to death because i shouldn't."
Alec licked his lips and took a step closer.
"Do you want me? Yes or no? If it's no, I'll walk away and never see you again, we'll go back to our lives. But if its yes..."
He let his voice trail off and they stared into each other's eyes for their own little infinity. Magnus took a deep breath, falling into those blue eyes. He could either walk away, go find some other guy his own age and live out his predictable days in comfort. Or he could fall deeper those eyes, take the leap into god knows what with that boy by his side and live out unpredictable days in wondrous fascination. It was no contest. He jumped.
"Yes."
Alec's eyes shone brighter than any star above them and his beaming smile was enough to move the very foundations upon which they stood. Magnus smiled too, clutching at Alecs hands as they gripped onto each other like a lifeline. Alec bit his lip and blushed hard as Magnus stared at him with a mischievous smile, all hints of pain or confusion gone.
"Hey Magnus? Would it be ok if i kissed you now?"
Magnus grinned and was about to lean down and capture Alec's luscious red lips when he pulled back quickly. Alec looked stricken but soon laughed as Magnus took his phone out his pocket and switched it off. He pocketed it once more with a cat like smile.
"I don't want any interruptions this time, baby."
Just using that one word made Alec go weak at the knees. He felt that heat pool inside him and blushed deep red as Magnus took hold of his hands and kissed the backs of each one before leaning down, pressing their foreheads together and whispering softly.
"Are you sure?"
He asked, feeling obligated to ensure that this was not one sided, that Alec wanted this too. And by the way he rolled his eyes, Alec knew what he was doing and he sighed, cocking an eyebrow with a rush of teenage of sass.
"Seriously? Am I sure? If i weren't sure, i wouldn't have sung to you. If i weren't sure, i wouldn't have run out after you. If i weren't sure, i wouldn't be here right now. And i swear to god, if you don't just get over yourself and kiss me, i will actually walk away and never see you again."
Magnus stared at him with an open mouth before closing it and clearing his throat. Smirking as he spoke, unleashing just a tiny controlled amount of his raw sexual prowess, just enough to excite the boy, not enough to scare him.
"Well then, with options like that, what choice do i have, Mr Lightwood?"
Alec smirked but blushed hard as Magnus giggled playfully and winked before tugging Alecs body right against his and bending down for a kiss.
Finally.
Their lips met and the world fell away. Magnus had kissed many people in his life. And kissing them had been pleasant. Like the way laying in a hammock on a beach with a Pina Colada in hand was pleasant. But kissing Alec? Now that was sublime. Like the way being burned with fire and frozen with ice at the same time was sublime. Like the way staring down at the earth from the tip of a mountain top was sublime. Like the way life begins and ends and like the way every second in time brings forward a new adventure and like the way the world turns and the tides roll and the sun rises and the stars shimmer and the wind blows and the rain falls and the snow melts and the supernova explodes and the heart beats.
Kissing Alec was the single most earth shattering experience of his entire life. It was sloppy and unpractised and perfectly imperfect. It was theirs. It was Alec. And nothing else mattered.
He moaned low in his throat as Alecs hands stroked his hairline and twisted his fingers in his messy black hair. Alec gasped as he rolled his body against Magnus' and opened his mouth when Magnus' tongue playfully licked over the seam of his lips. Magnus crushed Alec against him, holding him close, his hands slipping underneath Alecs jacket and t shirt. Alec's skin was burning under his touch and shaking as he shyly flicked his tongue out, not really knowing what to do. But Magnus' lips parted and he groaned as Alec gently slid his tongue inside, brushing along the roof of Magnus' mouth and making his knees buckle. Alec smiled and wrapped his arms tight around Magnus' neck, pulling himself closer as Magnus leaned down more, plundering Alec's sweet mouth with his fiend of a tongue. Magnus moved forwards, making Alec stumble backwards until he was pressed firmly between Magnus' hot body and the cool metal of his car. He gasped as Magnus slid his hands down his chest, around his sides, and gripped his thighs. He used the leverage to lift Alec off the ground and perch him on the hood of the car. They broke apart for the smallest of seconds, panting as their eyes met. Magnus smiled as Alec blushed and hooked his legs around Magnus' waist, pulling him closer.
Magnus smirked and leaned his hands either side of Alecs hips. He bent his head down and placed little kisses on the side of Alec's neck, tasting the salt from sweat and arousal on his skin. Alec threw his head back and groaned as Magnus grazed his teeth over Alecs Adams apple. Alec slid his hands up Magnus' arms and tugged him closer by the lapels of his jacket. Magnus smiled and kissed the corner of Alec's mouth, breathing hard before he swooped down and licked Alec's lips, kissing him teasingly.
Alec grinned as Magnus sucked on his lower lip slowly. Magnus' eyes were closed and he was breathing hard as he kissed Alec deeply, all slow and hot, exciting feelings in Alec he had never felt before. All he could do was hold on to Magnus and try and keep up with his animalistic yet classy way of kissing.
The moon was high in the spring night sky above them as they slowed down to simple pecks and soft caresses. They were both panting hard as Magnus rested his forehead against Alecs shoulder. He was breathing harder than Alec. His body was shaking. He knew he had probably gone a little crazy for a first kiss but as soon as their bodies had met he lost control. He felt like he'd just gone three rounds with Woolsey. That left him gasping at the thought of what it would be like if he went one round with Alec. If just kissing did this to him, then what the hell would going all the way do to him?
"God, Alec... How do you do this to me?"
He whispered roughly, clutching at Alecs jacket, pressed up against him, Alecs legs still locked around his waist. Alec blushed and stroked his hair, pulling it and twisting it gently between his fingers, causing a weird sound like a wounded puppy to erupt from Magnus' throat.
"How do i do what?"
Alec asked breathlessly, overcome at the thought and feeling of kissing Magnus. After almost a week of fantasizing, he finally had his man in his arms. He smiled lazily and felt his body just melt against Magnus'.
"You make me so weak. You tear down every wall I've built, every moral I have and wipe my mind of all rationality. You shouldn't be able to do this, but you do. And god, do you do it well."
He moaned and kissed Alecs neck softly, inhaling the boy's sweaty scent and smiling as he pulled away, but kept his arms around his boy protectively. They stared into each other's eyes and the gravity fell away from the ground and moved until suddenly they were each other's gravity. They were the only things holding them to the earth, tethering them to life. The spark between them was undeniable and now that they had lit the fuse, the fire would burn eternally. Like a wildfire in a desert, there was no extinguishing their light.
Alec smiled up at Magnus and blushed hard, biting his lip. Magnus groaned and laughed, shaking his head, as Alec looked at him in confusion.
"What?"
He asked simply. Magnus smiled down at him and licked his lips.
"You. You're just so... You're so innocent, i couldn't begin to tell you what I'm thinking."
Alecs eyebrows rose and he flushed deep red, stroking his hands down Magnus' chest.
"Tell me."
Magnus moaned softly and bit his lip before leaning down and whispering in Alec's ear with hushed tones that left Alec breathless.
"I was thinking that you are so sexy. I shouldn't think it, but i do. When you blush. When you bite your lip. When you look at me with those amazing eyes. You make me feel like I'm a horny teenager all over again. Everything you've done, since the minute i met you, has made me want you, Alexander Lightwood."
Alec was burning up. His mind falling apart as Magnus whispered to him, boiling his blood and making him so hot. The man leant between his legs still, his hands on Alecs hips as his lips teased his ear and neck. Alec was beginning to lose control. He moaned softly and kissed Magnus' temple before whispering in response.
"Magnus... You may feel like a horny teenager. But i am a horny teenager and, well, you know... Maybe we should stop for now."
Magnus pulled back smirking as his eyes travelled slowly down Alec's body, landing on his skin tight jeans. If he stared hard enough, in the shadows of their bodies under the light of the moon, he could make out the outline of a fairly sizeable bulge beginning to take form. He looked in Alec's eyes and winked before smiling.
"Ah, gotcha. I'll stop."
He said lightly, grinning as he raised his hands in surrender and took a step back. Alec laughed and leaned back on his hands, looking up at the sky. They fell silent as Magnus leaned next to him, his elbow resting on the open window of the car.
"By the way, that show tonight, was awesome. You guys are incredible. Seriously, I've seen a lot of bands love and i can you're one of my favourites. You, Alexander, are amazingly talented."
Alec blushed and smiled with pride.
"Thank you. That means a lot. I'm glad you liked it. I thought... After what i sang to you... I thought you hated it."
Magnus shook his head and laughed softly under his breath.
"No, Alec. I loved it. I just freaked ot because of how i feel about you."
Alec smiled bashfully.
"Well that's alright then. I meant it as a compliment you know."
Magnus shook his head and laughed.
"I know. And thank you. It was epic. You did well tonight. I got some awesome shots of you guys, and a few videos. I'll show them to Ragnor on Monday. And with any lucky, he might you in as the feature for the In New Music We Trust section."
Alec beamed. It was his dream to be in the pages of that magazine. And as the feature for the new music section, they would get a lot of attention very quickly. Some pretty big international bands and been born on those pages.
"Thank you, Magnus."
He said sincerely, looking at him gratefully. Magnus took his hand and smiled back.
"You're very welcome, Alec. Now, i need your phone number."
Alec's eyebrows shot up and he smirked a little. Magnus glared at him and then winked playfully.
"For professional reasons. I'll call you when Ragnor sees the photos and stuff. Let you know what he thinks."
Alec nodded slowly, his eyes sparkling mischievously.
"Ah, ok. Purely professional reasons. Got it."
Magnus took his phone from his pocket and handed it to Alec. The boy programmed in his number with a smirk on his face and Magnus grinned as he tucked it safely away again.
"Alright. So, I'll call you when Ragnors seen the pictures."
Alec nodded and felt that dull sense of disappointment at the thought of Magnus leaving. But as he felt it, Magnus leaned down and whispered in his ear.
"I'll call you for business. But ill message you for pleasure, baby."
Alec blushed hard as Magnus slipped a finger around the waistband of his jeans, licking and sucking at Alec's neck before pulling back with a glittery wink.
Alec blushed hard as Magnus pulled away and he sighed regretfully.
"I should probably go back inside now."
Magnus nodded slowly.
"Yeah. Probably. And. I should go home. I've got those videos to edit into one big reel of awesomeness to show Ragnor."
Alec smiled and jumped off the good of the car, adjusting his jeans and stretching as Magnus' eyes unashamedly rolled over his body.
"Ok. Well, ah, thank you for being here. And for doing those videos and stuff. The guys don't know yet, i wanted it to be a surprise if anything came of it."
Magnus smiled and hugged Alec close, kissing his forehead.
"You're so sweet. It's adorable. Sometimes i forget you're only 15."
Alec pulled back and blushed a little.
"I'll be 16 in a few weeks. Then this won't be as weird, i promise."
Magnus smiled softly, a steady glow in his green eyes.
"I don't think it's weird. It would be to the outside world, but all i see is you and me. Not age and numbers and convention. Though, I've never been one who was bound by convention so maybe I'm just freewheeling it."
Alec smiled and kissed his cheek one last time, blushing like a sailor as he did so.
"Well then, I'm joining you for the ride. I should go now, but i await your phone call, Mr Bane."
Magnus winked and opened the car door, slipping into the seat while running a teasing finger around Alec's waistband.
"Alright. Go on then, get back inside. And yes, I'll call you when he's seen the videos. But if you're lucky, ill text you later."
He ended with a flirtatious wink and a smirk as he closed the door and sped away into the night, leaving Alec on the sidewalk. He smiled widely to himself, an inch from doing a happy dance, and blushed hard, tracing his lips with a light finger, the feeling of Magnus still all over him. It had only been a kiss. One slightly not quite PG-13 kiss. And he knew, despite he was only 15 and only just really joining the world, that he was well and truly taken.
He walked back inside, whistling off key and grinning like an idiot, as the spring moon shone down on the world. Was it just Alecs tired mind, or was it that everything was suddenly so much clearer that made the light so much brighter, so much more intense?
Either way, Alec knew that this night had just, for better or worse, changed his life.
...
A/N: So? How was it? ;) Let me know what you think guys :) Any predictions? Or general ideas? I love to hear from you… :)
Also, random question, but to any of you Star Wars fans out there, do you think that Luke Skywalker will be part of the dark side in The Force Awakens? Because he has to be in it, but he's not in the trailer, and that apparently is 'not an accident'. I'm thinking that maybe he's the bad guy in black in that says he'll finish what Darth Vader started… I don't know. But if anyone has any theories I'd like to know because me and my friend were talking it about it today and we were curious about it… :)
Anyway, thank you for reading, as always, I love you all :)
Anna…XXXX
