Hi people's. I'm sorry I took long, but sadly I have no excuse. This chapter is a little jumbled and OOCed but I still posted it! Tell me what you think and yeah that's about it.
Disclaimer: Don't own anything
Warning: Torture, blood, self harm, suicide attempt
Allen POV:
"Ah, home sweet home" I exclaimed happily. I finally returned home from the hospital after being there for nearly a week. It's already Thursday and of course I missed almost the first whole week of school, besides being there on the first day.
I had orders from the doctor to keep it easy, and try to stay calm, otherwise my anxiety would kick in. Cross demanded I stay home from school tomorrow, and go back on Monday. Apparently he had already informed Komui. Link also told me that Lavi, Lenalee, and Kanda are our neighbors.
'Just great' I think sarcastically. I lay on the couch, an arm over my eyes. Link had to go back to school, I appreciate it that he stayed with me for a few days though. Cross is in the kitchen, cooking something for dinner.
Yep. Cross cooks. Surprising eh? While the delicious aroma of chicken filled my nose, I felt myself drift off to sleep.
In Allen's Dream
The sound of a whip hitting flesh could be heard in an echo throughout the room. A boy seeming to be age 11 cried everytime the whip came down on his back.
"P-please ahh s-stop" the little boy cried. The man above him just grinned darkly, making his ashen gray skin seem even more sinister.
"Now why would I do that Allen-kun?" The man laughed insanely.
"OOHHH I ALMOST FORGOT! I HAVE A NEW TOY!" He exclaimed happily. The boy, Allen, started sobbing uncontrollably and shaking his head in a no motion.
"No p-please!" The man seemed to not hear him or chose to ignore him. He took out a four inch dagger with a black substance out of a box. On the handle it read Earl and glinted dangerously. The dagger came down right into the child's chest.
"AHHHH-
End Allen's dream
"-HHH" I woke up screaming. I breathed deeply and tried to calm down my heavy breathing. I heard footsteps running over to me and looked to see Cross standing above me. He crouched down, not saying anything, which I appreciate, and pulled me towards his chest.
I grabbed a fistful of his shirt and started crying. We sat there, me crying, and Cross rocking me back and forth, for a good 30 minutes.
"Which one was it?" He asked me softly. I looked up, teary eyed still, "Earl" I put my head back into his chest. He hummed and stroked my head softly.
"I have dinner ready. You were out for a good hour. " He took my hand and pulled me up. I stumbled before he quickly righted me.
"Go wash up and come to the kitchen when your done" He walked away. I did as told and went into the bathroom. I looked into the mirror, my face was splotchy and I had tear tracks on my cheeks. I hate it when have nightmares like those.
One time, it was so bad and seemed so real that I almost tried to commit suicide. Luckily, Cross stopped me right before I slit my wrists. Sadly that happened not too long ago. I would say maybe about six months ago. All of a sudden I hear a voice call out my name.
"Allen! Hurry it up will ya!" Cross shouts.
"Okay I'm coming!" I quickly rinse my hands and face and walk out of the bathroom. I join Cross in the kitchen and he hands me a plate of roasted chicken and rice.
"Thank you Master" I start eating at a steady pace. He sits down across from me and starts eating his share while drinking a glass of beer.
"Oi brat, you okay now?" I rolled my eyes, though I did give a small shudder.
"I'm fine Master" I resumed in the devouring of my chicken. Cross gave a barely noticeable nod and got up to put his dishes in the sink. A few minutes later after I finish eating, the doorbell rings.
"I got it Master!" I ran to the door. When I opened it I saw Lenalee, Lavi, and to my upmost surprise, Kanda.
"Hey there short stack!" Lavi grins stupidly. Lenalee gave me a warm smile, while Kanda just looked annoyed to be here. I glare at them, "What do you want?" I nearly growl.
"Woah their tiger!" Lavi puts his hands up and backs away a step.
"We just came to check on you, we saw you get put in a ambulance. Your friend with the blond hair told us a bit on what happened" Lavi's voice took on a serious tone while he looked concerned. I just signed and banged my head on the wall, "Just come inside" I muttered. The trio walked inside and sat on the couch, after I gestured them too.
"So what do ya want?" I looked at each of them expectantly. Lenalee glanced at Lavi, seeming to agree on something then looked towards me.
"Allen, I know you don't trust us very much, we understand. You have not been the only one with a past" she spoke. Seeing I was about to say something she put a hand up quieting me and continued on speaking.
"Before you say anything, we did not go looking into your past, we just assumed by the way you were acting that you don't trust people easily." I just looked down and thought about what she said.
"How do I know I can trust you?" Lavi stopped her from speaking and answered himself, "You don't know, but the only thing you can do is try to give us a chance." I thought about this. No one ever gave me an answer quite like that one. I guess I can try, but why would they want to befriend someone like me? Seeming to read my thoughts Lavi looked at me smiling.
"We wanted to be friends because you are a mystery. We love mysteries and love interesting people even more. If you decide to give us a chance then maybe we can show you the true love of friendship beansprout." He grinned and slung one arm around Lenalee and one around Kanda who was sitting on the other side of Lavi. I felt something welling up inside my eyes.
I panicked and turned around, not wanting them to see me this way. "Allen? Hey buddy you okay there?" Lavi asked.
I started to panic, hyperventilating. Oh crap! Not now, I can't have an attack in front of them! I need Cross, and I need my pills. I fell to my knees, facing away from them and clutched my chest.
I started coughing, covering my mouth with my hand. I started coughing harder and harder, not able to stop. Soon blood starting staining my hands red. I saw blackness in the edge of my vision and felt myself start to give away.
Cold and strong hands suddenly grabbed on to the sides of my face. I looked up blearily, not really able to see. My chest was aching heavily and I felt like throwing up. I felt someone call out to me and saw cobalt eyes stare back at me.
Kanda? What's he doing in front of me? I'm so confused I could just sle- "MOYASHI, GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF!" I gasped. I sat up not knowing when I layed down and coughed a few more times, before my hyperventilating and chest pains faded away.
I looked up with wide eyes at Kanda who stopped me from having a really bad attack. His eyes seemed scared and distant, like he was remembering something he didn't want to.
All of a sudden someone taps my left shoulder and I break my gaze away from Kanda to see Cross.
"Be careful brat, you just got out of the hospital, let's not make it a habit" He hands me a pill. I nodded, my voice not ready to use. I take a glass of water that was on the table and drink the pill.
I see Lavi and Lenalee looking at me with worried and wide eyes. I suddenly feel a wave of dizziness and stumble onto something soft, yet firm. I look up with half-lidded eyes to see Kanda staring down at me with horribly masked concern and something else?
"Sleep Moyashi, we'll be here when you wake up." He pulled me down into his lap and stroked my white hair.
I don't get any of this, what am I feeling for these people? My eyes slowly close and I fall asleep, hopeful that Kanda wasn't lying.
Okay I'm done! I hope it was okay. If you don't understand something tell me. Please review and tell me how I'm doing!
Thanks for reading!
Next Chapter: Allen spends the weekend with Lavi, Lenalee, and Kanda. Fluffiness and happy times are happening! Has Allen learned to trust?
