Hey everyone! I know I took a while to update but I have my reasons.
I also got a comment that I "finally" updated and that the person was annoyed that I was going to take long to update. Well news flash, people have lives and can't update all the time, if your unhappy then don't read this.
That's all, now back to the chapter.
Disclaimer: I do not own DGM
Kanda POV:
I looked at the moyashi in shock. He actually loves me? No, he couldn't. It's probably all just a joke to get me mad. That stupid little beansprout thinks he can mess with my feelings like that! Who does he think he is! What a dumbass.
"Che, moyashi" I walk out of the room. As I walk down the hallway, I can't help but think of what it would feel like to actually be loved again. Alma and I used to be lovers, well until that happened.
I can't help but shudder and blink some water from my eyes, thinking about it.
No! I'm not pitying myself like a baby right now.
I sit on the couch and start to meditate. I'll kick the moyashi out as soon as he wakes up, and not just from the house, but from my life.
Allen POV:
I wake up, seeing the room spin as soon as I open my eyes. I groan quietly and close my eyes once more. I rub my face, and open my eyes again, seeing things relatively more normal. I stop in my thoughts for a second to see I'm in a unfamiliar room.
Oh no, please no! D-did they get me again? Maybe I'll actually die this time. Well I would be doing everyone a favor... I shake my head ridding of the thoughts. I stand up, swaying a bit and check to see if the door is locked. To my surprise and luck, its open.
I quickly open the door and walk into a hallway. I reach the end and see what looks like a living room. Then I see...Kanda?
I stop, my memories returning to me, I came to his door, ad then...OMG I BLANKED! I lost it in front of him!?
What the hell did I say!? Crap... OMG I TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM! I blush darkly and stand there awkwardly, not knowing what to do. Does this mean we could become...lovers? My blush grows even more in comparison, if that's possible.
A voice quickly rids of my thoughts, "Finally awake moyashi? It's been 2 hours" Kanda says, eyes still shut.
"O-Oh r-really? I'm sorry for everything again"
"You better be god damn sorry, now get out"
I blink a few times, not registering his words. "W-what do you mean?" I ask confused.
"Did I freaking stutter? Now get out!" He opens his eyes and glares at me. "But I thought that you-"
"What? Love you? Don't make me laugh. Get out and take your lies with you!"
"I'm not lying!" I glare. "I do love you! What makes you think I'm lying?!" I practically shout at him.
"To be honest, who knows what you tell is a lie and what's the truth! We know nothing about you! Your like a book filled with secrets, and I HATE secrets." He looks away, at the last part. "Just get out, get out of my house, and get OUT OF MY LIFE!" He glares murderously. My eyes fill with tears, knowing he's right about the secrets.
"Fine, if you all wanted that so bad, I'll do you a favor. You won't have to see me again. Consider me gone." I barely whisper out.
I turn and run of of his house, never looking back. I knew it was all to good to be true. I can never make friends, much less have someone love a monster like me. I run into my house, and see the last thing I expect.
Cross is sitting on the couch with a women making out. They quickly spring apart, seeing what made the noise.
Cross looks at me, and sees me scratching my arms. He whispers something to the woman and she nods, leaving the house.
"Brat what's wr-" I cut him off, running into his arms.
I hold him tight, and sob. I sob for losing my only friends, I sob for hurting Kanda, and I sob for being a monster.
"I want to die" I whisper to myself, not seeing the way Cross's eyes widened and how he hugged me tighter.
Kanda POV:
I see the moyashi gather tears in his eyes and run out the door. His last words haunt me.
Consider me gone
Consider me gone
It rings throughout my head. I stare at the closed door, and look throughout the dark empty house.
I feel a stab in my chest and wonder, did I do the right thing? One part of me says yes while the other part is screaming no! I clutch my head, feeling a headache form.
I head into my room and flop onto my bed. It smells like him.
That night I go to sleep early feeling my chest ache right where my heart is, not knowing the tears that fell down my cheeks as I slept.
I seriously did not mean to make the chapter this way. I literally had something entirely different in mind but once I got going I couldn't stop. I hope the chapter is still enjoyable, it has more drama now.
Please review and tell me what you think! It's always nice to hear what you guys think!
Next Chapter: What will happen to Allen now? Will he be okay? How can Cross help? What will happen when Lavi and Lenalee find out what happened? Find out next in Chapter 13!
