Okay I'm back people! I hoped you guys liked the last chapter, to be honest I'm a bit proud, just a bit though.

Anyway I know most people hate authors notes so I'm gonna start the chapter now...

Disclaimer: I do not own DGM

WARNING: Suicidal thoughts, cutting, depression.


Cross POV:

Shit! That was the first thing that came to mind when I saw Allen walk through the door. The kid looked so miserable, and I could see the tear tracks on his face. What really had me panicked was when I saw him scratching his arms, and when he muttered about himself dying.

My eyes widened considerably when he said that, and it made me think back to the first suicide attempt he tried...

Flashback

"Tch, that brat better have paid the debts, it's only been two weeks, how much trouble could he possibly get into." I muttered to myself as I unlocked the front door.

"Yo brat! Where are you? Do me a favor and get me a bottle of sake will ya?" I said into the quiet house.

After taking off my coat and shoes, I decide to look around to see if my idiot apprentice is even here. I check his bedroom and mine, then go look into the hallways and kitchen. I can't find that stupid brat anywhere. Just then I hear a quiet cough.

Oi, is the brat sick? I check the bathroom and see something horrifying, the brat was lying on the floor, eyes half lidded and wrists bleeding severely. I saw something glimmer in his left hand and see a knife.

"Oi! Allen! What the hell did you do?!" I check his pulse seeing it's weak.

A shaky cough brings me out of my panicky state, not that I'm actually panicking on the outside, only inside of me.

"I-I'm sorry m-master. I-I know y-you s-said that you w-would be back soon, b-but I lost track of t-time and t-thought you l-left me a-alone. K-kids at school k-keep bullying me for m-my appearances a-and hurt m-me" He says, tears escaping his eyes.

"I-I'm tired Shishou, and I-I don't, no c-can't be alone a-again!" He cries brokenly. I hug him close to my chest, muttering how it will be alright and I will support him.

When I see him pass out I'm both relieved and worried. I can finally call an ambulance, at the very least. I put pressure on his wrists, until the ambulance finally arrives. After that, it all feels like a blur.

I had a very hard time even considering to leave Allen at home by himself, much less re-enrolling him into school. It took months, until he assured me he would be alright.

Flashback Ends

That was only six or seven months ago. Now I'm scared he will fall back into that habit of his and attempt suicide.

"Allen." I grumble out. He looks up at me, red rings around his eyes along with the puffiness we both grew accustomed to.

"You will take a week off of school for recovery, alright?" I give him a stern look. He just nods and rests his head on my lap. I stroke his head of white hair, while gazing outside. If anyone dares to hurt Allen again, I will kill them. I glare at nothing, continuing to pat Allen's hair until he falls asleep.

Allen's POV:

When I wake up the next morning, I'm oddly comfortable and I feel something tickling my face. I glance up with bleary eyes, and see my master sleeping under me, a hand resting on my upper back protectively. I just snuggle back onto his chest, which might I say is pretty comfortable. I then remember the events of yesterday and start tearing up, a sob threatening to escape my throat. "Allen." My master says, startling me. "Forget about it all." He mutters. "I can't Shishou! It's too painful. He thought I w-was lying t-to h-him, when I w-was telling t-the truth!" By then I had begun crying again. "Shishou, I need Link." I say, curling into him. "Alright, I'll give him a call" He says. I just nod quietly.

Later...

I hear the doorbell ring and quickly run to open it. I see Link standing outside, with a worried frown. I step aside to let him through and we both go sit on the couch.

"Allen, whats wr-" He never got to finish, as I cut him off by jumping onto him, hugging him like theirs no tomorrow.

"I fell in love with someone, and they loved me as well, at least that's what they said. When they confessed their love for me I was overjoyed, but I guess my silence made them get the wrong idea. After that I attempted to resolve things but he thought I was lying and said he never wanted to see me again!" I started crying for the second time today. Link knows I'm gay so he doesn't care about the gender which is soothing to me.

"Shh Allen, don't cry." He strokes my hair, in a lovingly brother way. I snuggle into him for comfort.

"Link, I just want to die!" I scream out. His hand stops momentarily, before restarting their movements of stroking my hair. "No Allen, that is not what you want. Your just not thinking straight right now." I knew he was right about me not thinking straight, after all a jumble of thoughts were running through my head. But one thing was for sure, I did want to die. I'm not ready to go through pain again. I just escaped it.

Third Person POV

Later that night, everything was calm, quiet and nice.

Birds were singing their quiet tunes, families were tucking their children into bed, and couples were snuggling to each other lovingly.

But this quiet was one that wouldn't last.

The reason was because of a small white haired boy, scratching his arms severely.

Blood would spill that night, and old habits would start once again.


Well that was depressing. But don't worry it will get better...eventually.

I know I said Lavi and Lenalee would be appearing but the chapter ended up differently, as you can see.

*Shishou- Master

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If you really did enjoy it, I promise to update faster!

Next Chapter: This time Lavi and Lenalee will find out the details of what happened with Allen. Is he alright? Find out next in Chapter 14!