Disclaimer in first chapter.
Sorry this took longer than usual, I've been busy/sick. I'm back now though and with the longest chapter so far!
Lorelai stood in front of her open closet doors while she made quick work of putting away her purchases from this weekend. Instead of letting the bags possibly sit around for days and clutter up her house, she decided that the act of putting her new clothes away could potentially serve as a distraction to get her mind off of the thought that she and Luke could have possibly created a new life. Although she tried to focus on anything other than her pregnancy scare, she already made the decision that she would tell Luke about her scare. It was her effort to show him that she was trying to be open and honest in their relationship.
Lorelai felt that telling Luke was the wisest decision. In her heart, she knew that she wanted to be with him and work on fixing their relationship so she figured she would start by showing him that she was being open and honest by sharing the fact that she thought she might be pregnant with him. If she were to keep this from him and he find out at a later date, it would only serve to cause more problems on top of the problems they were already trying to fix. And that was something that they definitely did not need. Now she just had to figure out the best way to bring this up during their talk. If he freaked out over the scare then he freaked out and she would just have to find someway to deal with it.
Satisfied with her overstuffed closet and not at all focused on the fact that her wedding dress was shoved in the back of the closet so she didn't have to look at it every day, Lorelai shut the doors and made her way out of the bedroom. As she descended down the staircase, she heard the sound of knocks coming from the front door.
"Come in," Lorelai called out as she reached the bottom of the staircase and made her way to the front door.
As soon as Luke came into her vision, she was going to tell him that he didn't have to knock especially since she knew he was coming over but she stopped short when she noticed the bags he held in his hands. Obviously take-out from the diner. The smell that emanated from the bags made her stomach rumble and also made her realize that she was so focused on other things that she actually forgot it was closing in on dinner time.
"You brought over dinner?" Lorelai asked even though it was obvious that he did indeed bring over dinner.
"Yeah. After I finished with the repairs on the diner for today, I noticed the time and figured that I would make us a little dinner and bring it over. I thought since we didn't set a particular time for us to talk that we could have dinner together first," Luke replied. "I just made some burgers in the diner."
"You cooked in the diner?" Lorelai asked as she walked past him and headed towards the kitchen. "Your diner has a giant hole in the wall. In fact, it is kind of missing an entire wall."
"The hole isn't in the kitchen," Luke replied as he followed her into her kitchen. "The kitchen still works. If you don't want this though, if you've already eaten, then I can just put it away."
"Oh no I want, I definitely want," Lorelai said as she turned to face Luke. She had a smile on her face that could mean a few different things in regards to what she wanted. "So what did you bring?"
"For you I brought your favorite, cheeseburger and chili-cheese fries," Luke answered. "But for me a turkey burger and a side salad."
Lorelai thought it should feel weird with Luke bringing over dinner given all that happened over the past few days and with their important talk looming overhead but it felt strangely normal. Almost like they hadn't fought a few days ago and he hadn't just let her walk away and they didn't have so much to work through. Yet she knew that this was just the calm before the storm. Later things could possibly take a turn for the worse but for now she was content to enjoy dinner with Luke.
While Luke unloaded their food and set it out on the table, Lorelai grabbed drinks from the refrigerator. She took two bottles of water from the refrigerator before she joined him at the table. At first, conversation seemed to be at a standstill while they ate but then Lorelai asked about how it was working with TJ on the repairs and Luke had plenty of things to say about his brother-in-law. Most were not good. When Luke asked about Rory, Lorelai opened up about their trip to New York. The other topics they moved onto were in the same vicinity of safe topics.
Lorelai felt a sense of relief during dinner when she didn't have the slightest urge to take a bite of Luke's salad or turkey burger. Since she craved apples when she was pregnant with Rory, she took not wanting Luke's salad or anything remotely healthy as a sign that her pregnancy scare was nothing more than a scare.
"You lied to me Luke. For two months, you lied to me!" Lorelai tried to keep her voice even and at a reasonable volume but it seemed the more they talked, the louder she became. "We made a promise, no more secrets and then you lied to me! Two months Luke!"
After dinner, they retreated to the living room since they deemed it the most sensible place to begin their talk. At first they were both quiet, neither one sure where to start. But after a few minutes of silence, Lorelai was the first one to speak. She decided to start with what she thought was the obvious starting point, which was Luke not telling her about April in the first place.
Luke turned to Lorelai who sat on the opposite end of the couch from him. "I'm sorry. You know that it was never my intention to keep that from you."
"Really? So it was never your intention for me to find out about April by me coming into the diner and have her tell me that she's there visiting her father who happens to own the place?" Lorelai retorted.
"Come on Lorelai," Luke replied. "You know that's not it. I was going to tell you that day. That's why I wanted to talk with you but you were busy and then you were just there in the diner and April was there and you two talked..."
"I remember how things happened," Lorelai interrupted She sighed, "And I know it was never your intention for me to find out that way. But you kept this from me for two months. Two whole freakin' months you knew that you had a daughter and you kept it from me. There had to be time in those two months where you could tell me that you had a daughter."
Luke shook his head and let out a deep breath, "I know. I shouldn't have kept it from you for two months. I should have told you about April sooner. There was a lot going on and then I got caught up in my head. There was just never a good time."
Lorelai scoffed and resisted the strong urge to roll her eyes. "Of course there's never a good time to tell your fiancée that you just found out you have a twelve-year old daughter. But you tell her. You don't keep secrets. Especially when we had just promised each other no more secrets."
"I wanted to tell you, I did," Luke argued. "You were just so happy about Rory coming back and planning the wedding in one day. I didn't want to ruin that. Then the day I called Anna and told her I wanted contact, I came home to tell you everything but you came down the stairs in your wedding dress and you looked so beautiful and perfect, I lost all my nerve to tell you that day."
"I should of believed the stupid superstition of not letting the groom see you in your wedding dress before the wedding," Lorelai tried to joke. She blinked back the tears that started to sting her eyes. "That doesn't matter. You still should have told me when you found out."
"Don't you think I know that I should have told you?" Luke questioned. "I know that. I knew that the entire time before you found out. There's no good reason why I didn't tell you. I was trying to process the fact that for twelve years I had a daughter that I knew nothing about. I had no idea what to do."
"And that's just more of a reason of why you should have told me when you found out," Lorelai emphasized. "If you would have told me when you found out, I would have helped you figure out what to do. I would have been there through all of it, you know that." She looked away from Luke and softened her voice. "At least I thought you knew that."
"I do know that Lorelai," Luke replied. The soft timbre of his voice caused her to turn to face him again. "I know that you would have helped me if I told you. I never doubted that you wouldn't. I just..."
Luke didn't get to finish his sentence before Lorelai interrupted him again. Her voice was more accusatory this time, "Then why didn't you let me help out once I did find out? I wanted to help Luke. I really did. I wanted to be there for you and for her. I was already planning out things that you could do with April and that we could both do with her to make her feel like part of this family. But you just shut me out. You didn't even allow me the chance to help. You made the decision by yourself that I wouldn't help. That I couldn't help. I had no part in that."
"She's my daughter. My daughter that I didn't know about for twelve years. I wanted to get to know her better myself," Luke shot back. "I needed to get to know her. If she got to know you, she would like you better. It would be all over for me once you were in the picture."
"Oh my god, not this again!" Lorelai argued. She found that she could no longer sit on the couch and have this conversation. "That is probably the most ridiculous thing that you have said to me regarding this situation."
Luke felt if they were going to argue, it wasn't going to be with Lorelai standing and him sitting on the couch. He followed Lorelai's lead and got up from the couch. "Why? Why is it so ridiculous that she would like you better than me? Everyone does."
"You're insecure about this," Lorelai pointed out. "It's ridiculous because you're her father Luke. It doesn't matter that I could possibly bond with her over things that you can't because at the end of the day you are still her father. I'm just the woman in her father's life. She's never going to like me better. Christopher was never around for Rory, he screwed up many times, but she still loves him because he is her father. April will always like you better than me because you're her dad. Every little girl needs their dad. God knows my dad and I have had our ups-and-downs over the years but he is still my dad." She thought back to a few nights ago when her father comforted while she cried. "And I don't always like to admit it but I still need him sometimes."
Luke stayed silent and took in Lorelai's words. They had a similar but shorter conversation conversation not too long ago. It was right before April's birthday party. This time, though, Lorelai's words bared more weight. This time he was listening and taking what she said into consideration instead of just trying to have things his way. This was one of his ways of trying to fix what went wrong in their relationship. He figured that Lorelai was right since April did enjoy spending time with him even if all they really did was hang out in the diner. Maybe he was just being insecure about this.
Lorelai's voice cut through his thoughts. "You're not saying anything because you know I'm right. At least I think that I'm right so I'm going to think that you think that I am right as well. April liking me better was never a good reason to keep me away. She would never like you better than me."
"I just needed time by myself with April," Luke replied. "I thought, as her dad, that I should get to know her first before I involved anyone else in her life. I spent twelve years not knowing I even had a daughter. I missed out on so much."
"And I hate the fact that you missed out. I hate that Anna never told you about April. I can understand you wanting to get to know her a little first before you introduced her to me," Lorelai acknowledged, her voice soft for a moment before it turned just a bit harsher when she continued on. "But you never did that. I couldn't even come by the diner while April was there, which by the way meant that everyone in town got to know her better than I did. I never had that opportunity. You just shut me out of your life, over and over again."
"I know," Luke sighed. "You've told me all of this before."
"Well I'm telling you again because I still don't think you got it Luke," Lorelai commented. "I don't think you understand how that made me feel. You didn't let me in. You kept me from the diner while she was there. That hurt Luke. Really hurt." She angrily swiped at a few tears that rolled down her cheek. She was not going to cry right now. "I racked my brain and I sat up late for several nights trying to come up with a reason for why you wouldn't let me in and the only thing I could come up with is that you don't trust me."
"That's crazy Lorelai. You know that I trust you," Luke replied.
"No! No, I don't Luke. I don't know that," Lorelai exclaimed as she started to pace around the room. "I don't know that you trust me. You kept the fact that you had a daughter from me and then you continued to keep me out of your life with her. So, no I don't know that you trust me when I'm not even a part of your life anymore."
"You are still a part of my life!" Luke argued back.
"In what way? In the way that I'm only allowed in the diner when you say? In the way that you have a separate life from me that I'm only allowed in when you need help?" Lorelai halted her pacing and looked across the room at Luke. "In the way that I have been continuously hurt by the one person that I thought would never hurt me like this? In the way that I poured my heart out to that person only to have him let me walk away?"
Luke knew he deserved the way that Lorelai was looking at him. He had seen that look on her face many times before. He knew that was probably the look that she had on her face the past few months that he, for some reason, never saw. It was the same look she had on her face when she came back from many a Friday Night dinner in which she verbally sparred with Emily Gilmore only to come out utterly defeated. He watched other guys cause that look on her face, Christopher being the one that did it the most frequently. The look that she only let him see when Rory was living with her grandparents. He hated the pain on her face with that look. He hated every time someone caused that look on her face. By extension he hated himself at the moment for being the one to cause that look on her face.
Luke crossed the room to stand in front of Lorelai. He took both of her hands in his. "I never meant to hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you." He let go of one of her hands and used his thumbs to wipe tears from her cheeks. "I hate that I made you cry. You still are a part of my life. I never wanted to make you feel like you weren't."
Lorelai pulled her hand free from Luke's grasp. She took a few steps back and crossed her arms. "I know you would never purposely hurt me. But I don't think you realize that I'm not that much a part of your life anymore. You're keeping me separate from your life with April and I don't know why Luke. So please enlighten me and tell me why."
Luke sighed heavily and averted his gaze to the ground. A shrug of his shoulders gave her his answer. He still followed that up with a few words. "I don't know. I know I said I wanted time and right now that just seems idiotic. I've done a lot of thinking over the past few days and I think I was just scared."
"Scared of what?" Lorelai asked quietly.
Luke looked up to meet her gaze again. "I don't honestly know. Maybe I was scared of losing you, of losing April, of losing everything."
"Well you sure had a great way of showing it."
"I know I went about it in the wrong way, I get that now," Luke replied. "I just had so much going on with April that I shut you out and...I..." he stammered. "I just still don't know why I was scared, but I was."
"I have a theory I'm willing to place up," Lorelai replied. She continued on not giving Luke a chance to ask her what her theory was. "You've never fully committed in a relationship. Yeah, you got married once but that was a cruise ship marriage that ended almost as soon as it began. You never really moved in with Nicole. All of your stuff was still in your apartment. Then when Rachel came back, you said you could get back together with her but you spent all your time at my house. You hardly ever spent time with her. I think you were scared because this, our relationship, is serious. We're engaged. I had the wedding fully planned out. I think you wanted all of this..."
"I do want this," Luke cut her off. "I do want to marry you. I want a life with you, kids and everything else that comes with a marriage."
"But I think as much as you want it, you were still scared. Scared that it might not work out or scared that you couldn't be what I wanted you to be or something," Lorelai continued. "I don't know. I think you were just scared. I was scared too because I've never had a relationship like this. I've never felt like this in a relationship. You are the only person I've really loved. But still as scared as I was, I didn't shut you out. We renovated my house for the both of us so it could be our house. For once in my life I wasn't running from something. But you...you used April to push me away."
Another silence fell between the couple. Luke wasn't sure how Lorelai did it but she managed to put what he was feeling into words. It was probably because she was constantly talking so she was naturally better than words than he was but that wasn't the part he needed to dwell on. He lost so much throughout his life, to him nothing ever seemed permanent. Then there was Lorelai. From the moment they became friends, she was a stable force in his life. Then they began dating and then they were engaged and she was officially cemented as a permanent fixture in his life. For once, he had something that he couldn't bare to lose. So, naturally, he retreated. He figured that she knew that she was permanently in his life so it wouldn't matter if he focused solely on April. He couldn't lose April. But by not wanting to screw things up with April, he screwed things up with Lorelai. That was painfully obvious now.
"You're right," Luke finally said. He started to pace around the room. "You're right about all of it. I was scared. I used April to push you away. I never meant to do that. I didn't want to talk about it. I was so scared of losing you that I thought if I faced all of this that what is happening now would happen to us. I don't know. I thought that I had to fix everything with April before I could move forward in our relationship. I couldn't screw things up with her. I had to focus on her. I thought you know how much you meant to me so it didn't matter that I was so focused on April. I thought I could fix things with April and it wouldn't matter. I didn't want to screw things up with April but I screwed us up."
Lorelai sniffled then let out a small chuckle. "You stole my moves. Avoiding problems is mine, you know that. I have claim on that one."
Luke let out a small chuckle as well. "Sorry about that."
Lorelai shrugged her shoulders, "Eh, I read somewhere that couples take on each others traits. As long as you don't start trying to borrow my clothes we'll be fine."
"You don't have to ever worry about that," Luke replied quickly.
"Good to know."
Luke walked over to Lorelai, took one of her hands in his and led her over to the couch. With her hand still clutched between his, they took a seat. "I don't want to push you away anymore. I want you in my life, full time. You deserve that. I know that I screwed up so bad by being an idiot but I want to fix this, fix us."
Lorelai nodded her head as a few tears escaped her eyes. "I want to fix us too Luke but I can't do any of this anymore if I'm not really in your life full time. I can't be pushed away anymore. It hurts too much. I don't even recognize the person that I have been the past few months. I'm not the girl that bites her tongue when she doesn't like something but that's who I've been. I can't hurt like this anymore."
Luke wiped the tears from her eyes. "I know. I see that now. I see how much I've hurt you. I hate myself for that. For years, I've seen other people hurt you and I never wanted to be that person but now I am that person. It breaks my heart to know that I did this to you. That you let me hurt you this way. I don't know why you didn't say something earlier. Call me out for being an idiot."
Lorelai chuckled and managed to smile. "You are an idiot."
"That I know."
"I was just scared to push you Luke," Lorelai admitted weakly. "That's why I didn't tell you. I pushed you before and then we broke up. I thought if I pushed you this time, that I would lose you. I couldn't lose you."
"So we were both scared but we didn't tell the other one that," Luke said.
"We have serious communication issues." She sniffled again. "I just thought you knew that I was hurting. For years you managed to see through the front I put up. You knew when to push to get me to talk or you knew just to be there with a cup of coffee when I was hurting. You always knew when I was more upset than I let on. No one else ever did."
"This time I was just too in my head to notice anything. I think I just took you at your word because I was afraid to look any further," Luke replied. His hand gently grazed Lorelai's cheek before he cupped it. "I'm so sorry for ever hurting you. I see now though. I see that I hurt you. I want to fix this. I need you to know and trust me that I want to fix this."
"I know and I do. Trust you that is," Lorelai responded. "I want to fix this. I want us to get better. To work through our problems. I really want to work on this."
"So we're on the same page."
"Seems so."
"Any idea on where we should start?" Luke asked.
"I think we already did," Lorelai replied. "In total honesty, I want to be involved in April's life. I'm not talking about spending every moment with her because you can have your own time with her but I think to really know that you won't push me away anymore that I should spend some time with her."
"I want you to know her. I want you to spend time with her. She still talks about her birthday party," Luke said which earned a smile from Lorelai. "Things are just complicated with Anna."
"Your April's father Luke, you have a say in her life just like Anna does," Lorelai pointed out. "I know how Anna feels and I get where she's coming from, we share the whole 'single-parent' thing but you need to have a say in April's life too. You're her parent too."
"I need to talk with Anna," Luke concluded. "I need to make sure that she knows that you are a part of my life which means you will be a part of April's life. Anna needs to know that I want you to be a part of April's life."
"I'll help you talk to her if you want," Lorelai offered. "Or at least come up with what you should say."
"We'll figure it out."
Lorelai leaned on Luke's shoulder. "We'll figure it out."
"I think I might be pregnant."
A deafening silence followed the bombshell that she just dropped. She hadn't meant to tell Luke in that way. She hadn't mean to blurt it out but a natural lull just fell in their conversation...or...well fight, whatever it was at that point and she couldn't take the silence. The confession just burst forth from her lips. When she realized exactly what she said, her eyes averted to the ground. It was a much better picture than the look of shock on Luke's face.
She planned on telling him earlier, in an effort to show him that she was being open and honest with him yet she didn't mean to tell him this way. She hoped that it would somehow come up organically in conversation but that didn't seem like it was going to happen.
They had moved to the kitchen now. They stayed sitting in silence on the couch for several moments before Lorelai admitted that their talk made her very thirsty so they retreated to the kitchen for something to drink. There were other things to talk about, they both knew that but it was getting late now. Still they figured after a drink they could talk some more. Lorelai leaned against the counter while Luke took a seat at the kitchen table. Her arms were wrapped protectively around her waist.
"You think...I don't..." Luke finally stammered. "Pregnant?" he finished. He couldn't even form a full sentence. Which wasn't always unusual for him with news of this nature. "What?"
"I think I might be pregnant," Lorelai said slower this time, taking the time to enunciate as clearly as she could. Her eyes flitted up from the floor and focused on Luke. "If we want anything to work between us we need to be open with each other. I'm trying to be open and honest with you so I'm telling you that I think I might be pregnant."
"You think you might be pregnant?" Luke questioned, finding the last word very difficult to get out. "Why?"
Lorelai sighed. "I'm late," she confessed. "Late as in a woman's monthly visitor hasn't showed up yet, late. But I'm not late-late where it's very real possibility that I could be pregnant. Just late as in a few days. Which could be anything," she rationalized.
Luke couldn't wrap his mind around the idea of her being pregnant with his baby. Not that he didn't imagine kids at some point for them but it was always in the future. Definitely not at the point where they were now. He couldn't wrap his mind around it because they were always careful. Beyond careful. Since their first night together, they always took the necessary precautions. They both insisted upon it.
Luke folded his hands together and pressed his fingers to his lips, trying to process this new confession that was thrown at him. He didn't know what else to say besides, "How?"
"Well Luke, when a man and woman love each other very much," Lorelai said, putting on what she thought of as a teacher voice.
"You know that's not what I meant," Luke said bitterly. "I mean, we're always so careful. I don't understand how this could have happened.
Lorelai pushed away from the counter and moved to sit at the table with Luke. She shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know. Maybe we weren't so careful one time. Maybe we slipped up. All it takes is one time. I'm not saying that I'm pregnant though. I might be. This could just be a scare."
"A pregnancy scare," Luke stated.
Lorelai nodded. "It's probably just a pregnancy scare." She thought for a moment if she should tell him about her previous pregnancy scare but wrote it off. She could always tell him later. "Rory just asked me the other day if I was pregnant because she said I was acting weird and we were talking about when she was a baby. Then today you told me about Liz, so pregnancy is just on my mind. A few days doesn't have to mean anything. Like I said, it's probably a scare."
"How long have you thought you might be pregnant?" Luke asked, an accusatory tone to his voice.
"Just today," Lorelai answered. He had a skeptical look on his face at her answer. "I'm serious Luke. I mean it occurred to me when Rory brought it up and I thought about it then but it really occurred to me today when you mentioned Liz."
"We talked earlier, why didn't you mention it then?"
"You mean when we talked in the middle of your diner that is currently missing a wall?" Lorelai quipped. "I wonder how that would have worked out, talking about something very touchy in a public place."
"We could have went upstairs," Luke accused. "You could have told me earlier."
Lorelai groaned. "Look, don't be mad at me for this. I didn't mention it earlier because...I don't know why I didn't mention earlier. I was trying to deny it. I was trying to convince myself that this was nothing more than a scare. But we need to be honest with each other so I'm telling you now."
"I'm not mad," Luke replied. His tone suggested otherwise.
Lorelai scoffed. "Yeah, you don't sound mad at all," she said sarcastically.
"I'm not mad," Luke tried to soften his voice. "I just don't understand why you didn't tell me earlier. We talked earlier. You could have told me. You were talking about being open and honest with one another yet you kept this from me."
"For a few hours Luke," Lorelai stressed. "I kept it from you for a few hours. It's a hell of a lot shorter time than two months."
"I apologized for that," Luke shot back. "We just finished talking about that. I apologized over and over again for not telling you. I told you why I didn't tell you. I was scared about telling you. Then everything just caught up to me before I knew how to tell you about April."
Lorelai brought a hand up to her face and rubbed at her temple. "I know. But now you know why I kept this pregnancy scare from you until now."
"Why?" Luke asked.
"Because I'm scared Luke. I was afraid that when I mentioned the possibility of me being pregnant to you that you would just bolt," Lorelai admitted, the vulnerability made her voice waver. "I know we mentioned once that kids would be nice but we never had the talk like most couples do. So I was afraid...I'm still afraid that you'll just decide to bolt."
"I wouldn't..."
"Don't finish that sentence," Lorelai interrupted. "Don't say that. You freaked out enough over the April situation...you're still freaked out over that so you can't promise me that you wouldn't bolt. You barely have a handle on April, you couldn't handle me being pregnant. You couldn't handle a baby right now, we both know that. You may want kids but not right now."
"Lorelai."
"Tell me I'm wrong," Lorelai tempted.
Luke sighed and concentrated hard on the table instead of looking into Lorelai's eyes because she was right. He couldn't promise that he wouldn't freak out. He could promise that he wouldn't bolt because he already missed out on so much with April that he didn't want that for another child. But Lorelai was right, he wasn't ready for a baby. He was still trying to find common ground with April, a baby just wouldn't be a good idea at this point. And now he was trying to meld his life with Lorelai with his life with April, a baby would mean even more complications.
Lorelai took his silence as confirmation for what she already knew. "See I told ya." She sniffled and wiped at a few stray tears. Since Luke was still silent, she decided to go ahead and say what she thought needed to be said. "You and I both know that we're not ready for kids, at least not right now. There's already so much going on that a baby would just complicate things even further. We don't need this." She cleared her throat and knew that she had to face the possibility that she might be pregnant. "But if I am pregnant..."
Luke looked up to meet her gaze. He couldn't promise that he wouldn't freak out but he needed to show her that he did love her and that he was committed to her. "If you are pregnant then we will deal with it together," he interrupted. "I don't know how or what we'll do but we'll deal with it together."
"Together," Lorelai whispered.
"What do we do now?" Luke asked. He noticed the confused expression on Lorelai's face so he thought he needed to clarify. "I mean when will you know if you are pregnant?"
"Like I said, I'm just a few days late so it's still too early to tell anything. Home pregnancy tests won't tell us anything at this point, at least I don't think so. We have to wait a little while for that," Lorelai replied. "Or, you know, good ol' Mother Nature might decide to show up and tell me herself that I'm not pregnant. It could still be a few days though, a waiting game."
Luke nodded his head. "Okay."
"Okay."
After they left the kitchen and returned to the living room where they sat on the couch, Lorelai decided that in another effort to be completely open and honest with Luke that she would tell him about Christopher's appearance at Friday Night dinner which she assured him was only because her mother was trying to set him up on a date. At the mention of Lorelai's mother, Luke confessed that Emily did stop by to see him to talk about his relationship with Lorelai. Lorelai learned that Luke knew about the house her parents wanted to buy them and that she went to them on Friday Night when she left his apartment. Lorelai said those all were true and were both weird bonding moments with her mother that she admitted to him that she actually enjoyed. She then threatened him that her admission was not to leave the room because Emily wouldn't let her live it down if she knew.
"I'm serious Luke," Lorelai said as she playfully swiped at his chest. "That does not leave this room. People can't know that I might be actually getting along with my mother."
"I'll keep your secret," Luke promised.
"As long as you don't keep secrets from me," Lorelai countered. "You can keep secrets from others but not me. We can't keep secrets from each other."
"No more secrets," Luke replied.
"Good," Lorelai said with a smile. "I know that everything's not magically fixed and we still probably have things to talk about and work on but I think we did pretty good for tonight. Do you concur?"
Luke nodded. "I concur."
"We've argued a few times over the past few days and we argued again tonight," Lorelai said. She leaned close to him and pressed a soft kiss to his lips. "But I think we made up tonight. Do you concur on that as well?"
Luke nodded again. "I do concur." He captured her lips in a kiss, needy this time not soft like before. "I think there's one thing to do now that we made up."
Lorelai played innocent. "And what would that be?"
Luke pulled her into his lap and kissed her hungrily. "Make-up sex," he said before kissing her again.
"Fantastic make-up sex," Lorelai mumbled against his lips between kisses. "I think we're very deserving of pretty fantastic make-up sex."
"You're definitely right about that," Luke replied before he attached his lips to hers once again. While his hands moved over the buttons of her shirt, he feathered a trail of kisses down her neck and over her collarbone. A soft moan escaped her lips as he kissed, nibbled, and sucked at the skin there.
"Luke," Lorelai moaned. Her hands were steady at work trying to remove his shirt.
"Hmm," Luke hummed against her skin.
"Upstairs. Bed. Now," she demanded.
Luke gestured for Lorelai wrap her legs around his waist before he stood up and carried her across the living room to the stairs. Luke carefully maneuvered up the stairs since his vision was limited and Lorelai was sucking on his neck. He tightened his grip on her when she started to nibble on his earlobe.
"You're killing me with the ear thing," Luke said. "If you keep that up, I might end up dropping you down the stairs. That would not be a good way to make-up."
"Then hurry up and take me upstairs. Show me just how much you love me."
Luke was more than happy to oblige.
I know this kind of jumps around but it is the way that made sense to me while I was writing this chapter. Hope you enjoyed!
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