A new Power of three Part 13:
Liliana
A/N.: I'm apologizing already prior for any mistakes that belong to Kevin and his military status. I tried to research best possible, but there were no information on how the training there works. So please don't shoot me if I did something wrong. Lol! I liked the idea he was a soldier, but know nothing about the army... sorry again!
2037, Friday (late night) till (early hours on) Saturday
"Nothing" Anna and Mags said out of one mouth
"sooo this Kevin guy, what exactly is he doing?"
"he's a soldier at fort hunter liggett" Lily answered, sitting down on the sofa again
"and you're okay with that? I mean... your dad was 'only' a cop and I seriously didn't like that"
"well, maybe not completely, but... I dunno. I met him like that. I can't imagine it another way. Kevin signed up for the army right after college. And it's been already a lot worse than it is now. I mean now he's 'just' some kind of teacher. He's right now not involved in serious fights. And only like... 3 hours away from home. When we met the situation was completely different. I never knew when he'd come or had to leave again. Never knew for how long he was going to be away. Each goodbye could have been the last. And each hello was some kind of party. His longest mission lasted six months and that really was hell on earth. I cried almost every day. Not just cause I missed him, but also because sometimes he just couldn't call. And if he couldn't call I had no news of him. I flipped each time the doorbell rang, scared someone would tell me he didn't make it. My mind was constantly imagining things... like he being shot or stepping on a mine or something."
"having such pictures pop up in our minds sometimes means we're 'receiving' them. We're telempathic. We can move feelings, thoughts, pictures, memories... anything alike from one mind to another. As close as Lily and Kevin are, there always could have been the possibility that what she saw was true." Meghan explained for her mother to understand
"but I love him... I rather have him this way than not at all" Prue just nodded slowly. She kinda knew that feeling, knew what Lily meant with her last statement.
"and he's a great guy. Really mom. A saint just like Lily..." Anna added
"with a REALLY nice body" Meghan said smirking "we all started drooling when Lily first brought him along. Much to the dislike of the other men" Meghan laughed
"and dad didn't like the idea of them dating at first at all. He saw her suffer when he was gone and just wanted them to break up instantly" Lily looked down. She remembered how her dad had reacted when he figured Kevin and her were going serious. Her parents had gotten into one huge fight, because Andy wanted to protect her and Prue just said, if someone protected herself from this 'fate' they wouldn't be married. Afterwards Andy just ignored Kevin completely, showing clearly he wasn't okay with the relationship at all
"when Kevin, all classy asked you guys about my hand, dad said, he'd only give his blessing if Kevin got himself another job. He told him, he was sick of seeing me suffer and that this somehow had to end now. That's how he got the job at hunter liggett" Prue just nodded, understanding Andy's attitude completely. Especially after hearing about Lily's condition when he was gone.
"soo, if Kevin signed into the army after college, how did you meet anyway?"
"i was on a holiday with some friends in Hawaii and at pretty much the same time there was some remembrance ceremony for pearl harbor. We met at some bar kinda late that night. My friends and I all were already slightly drunk and I tripped over my own feet... right into his arms" Lily said first smiling, then laughing "we danced the rest of the night."
"so you really like FELL in love..." Prue asked now laughing a little as well
"i didn't see him after that night for three days. Some of my friends even said I had imagined him"
"well, I would have, too. Kevin sometimes really sounds too good to be true" Meghan mixed
"yah. I agree. They never even fight!"
"well unlike you guys, I only have my man on the weekend and we just don't wanna waste our precious time together with fights"
"sooo what happened then?"
"well on that fourth day we were at the beach one last time and Kevin had some training there. We rather enjoyed the sighed of the group of well trained men like in front of us. I didn't know Kevin was a soldier back then. So I didn't think about anything. The more surprised I was as one of the good looking ones, when they finished, jogged towards us and approached me. I couldn't hide a small smile as I recognized him. He was all in uniform." Lily smirked slightly. Sometimes Kevin dressed up in his uniform at home just for her. She really couldn't resist him dressed like that and he never wore it really long, when he dressed up for her. "My friends' jaws dropped completely as he told me he had the next few days off and would like to meet up with me"
"but Lily's holiday was over" Anna said grinning
"she gave him her number and address though and he followed her a day later to San Francisco."
"we then met every second we could and really just talked. One week. Our first kiss was when I told him goodbye again. Afterwards he was gone again. After that week I just put it off as some harmless flirt and tried to forget about him again, telling myself there was no use in falling in love, even though I already had fallen way too deep to just get out of it again" Lily laughed "two months later he just suddenly called. He acted like no time had passed since we last met. He told me he couldn't get me out of his head and really needed to see me again. He again came to San Francisco a week later and again we met every day. But this time we couldn't leave our hands and mouths off of one another"
"then letters and phone calls followed. She was completely out of it. Constantly daydreaming"
"like you were any better when you and Robbie started dating."
"didn't say that. I just said you guys were completely cute"
"half a year later he gave up his flat in San Diego and moved to San Francisco. The rest is... I dunno... somewhat obvious. I mean... somewhen he moved in here, because it was absolutely stupid for him to have an own flat, when he was like never there and I lived in the attic apartment back then already. We somewhen got engaged, married and then Hope was born 2 years later."
"this almost sounds like a love story from a book" Prue told her smiling
"i always said she just tells us this story and hid the truth. This is for sure just one of her short stories..." Meghan teased her baby sister
"short stories?" Prue asked
"she's writing wonderful stories! You should read at least one of them, mom..."
"no, mom needs to read her book!"
"a book? You wrote a book?" Prue asked surprised and looked at Lily
"well... it's nothing, really. They're just making this a huge thing..."
"you wrote a book about mom and we're making this a huge thing?"
"about me?" Prue asked even more surprised than before. Lily just sighed
"you guys really are stupid, you know?!" Lily asked, completely upset, got up and went for the kitchen
"Lily..."
"come on, sweetie..." Meghan sighed as there was no reaction from Liliana whatsoever. "she's shy. She doesn't like to be the center of attention. Never did" Meghan explained and then followed her sister, leaving Anna and Prue alone.
"Lil..."
"leave it, Mags, really!" Lily almost yelled furious as she threw some tableware into the sink, starting to do the washing up
"what's so wrong in telling mom about it? Anna and I told her about our things as well. Things we partly aren't proud of... even are ashamed of. Do you really think it was easy for me to tell her, I didn't finish school but got knocked up? Do you think Anna liked telling her about her getting abused? We didn't mention your illness or anything else bad. We just told her about the book! A book you can be very proud of! A book which helped us all when mom died! I simply don't get how you can be this way. This... I dunno... ridiculous! Be proud! Tell her!"
"it just feels not right to tell her, okay?!" Lily yelled furiously and turned around to look at Meghan. But she also met with Anna's and Prue's eyes, who both stood in the door to the kitchen, while Meghan was just a step away from her. She again sighed and looked down
"I'm sorry, mom" she whispered lowly "it feels so weird to tell you... so... wrong. When we were kids you started to make these memory boxes for all of us and as we grew older, you gave us the keys to our trunks..."
"the boxes turned into big wooden trunks somewhen..."
"we then also added stuff on our own. I always wrote... I always enjoyed it. Books... reading... writing... it relaxes me. When something is on my mind I just need to write it down and I feel better. Sooo... sometimes I put stories of what happened here... of our family into that trunk." Lily finally started spilling.
"the night after we found you... it was all too much for me. I couldn't write, because I couldn't deal with the chaos in my head. Kevin still was at the fort and I didn't want to make it even harder for anyone else with my own grief. So I wandered to my box and looked at the things inside. Read my old stuff... and suddenly that paralyzing pain and grief was gone. Replaced. My mind just filled with these wonderful stories of you" Lily said and now started to cry. Meghan, who was still closest, wrapped an arm around her in a vain attempt to support and console her
"before I knew it, I was writing. I sat in my old bedroom, door locked, at my desk and wrote. I totally forgot about time and space. I barely even noticed the people outside, trying to get to me. I mean... I was in there almost a week. I was pregnant. Everyone was worried. I knew that. I felt that. I dunno how or when I ate or drunk. I dunno when or if I slept... all I remember is writing. I remember how they all wanted me to go to your funeral and I kinda did as well, but I just couldn't. I couldn't leave this kinda pain free space and go into that grief filled cemetery, where I not only had to deal with my own pain, grief and sorrow but also everyone else's. I already felt like suffocating with only the presence of dad... or Mags... or Anna. I couldn't even deal with Kevin, even though he was less effected than anybody else close to me. I kinda hided from it all. From everyone. I even hided from the fact you were gone, because it felt so good not to think about it. How could I even think about your funeral? I feel worst, I wasn't there. But I couldn't. The next day I was done. I printed and bundled it. Then I just lay empty minded on my bed, starring at the ceiling. The book still laying on my desk." she sobbed trying to stay breathing while talking and crying.
"and then dad knocked. He knew I had found a place where I didn't hurt and he desperately searched for such a place as well. When I heard him on the door, I knew, he didn't want me out of there. He wanted in. We didn't talk. I just gave him that so called book and he just read. That's when we started to talk a little... well not really talk... we just said things... shared memories. Showed our emotions over the stories. After we found you... dad had gone really weird. He was... I dunno. Dad always was this very loving and caring man... but these days... the things I got from him... he turned so emotionless. He like turned to stone. He wasn't that... cold... zombie when he read. But when he finished he thanked me and then he again turned that switch around. He left me alone again. Somehow... Kevin after that got through to me again... somehow Anna and Mags found out about the book... then the aunts and grandpa... they all act like it's some kind of bestseller... but it's really just... I dunno... I guess like some sort of diary to me... I'm glad it hel... helped... ev... every... everyone... but..."
Lily now broke down completely and Meghan couldn't keep her standing anymore. She landed on the floor, pulled her knees up to her chest and hid her face. Brianna and Meghan didn't know what to do as this immense grief washed over them again as well. They were just as desperate for that love of Prue as their baby sister.
Prue felt helpless as well. She didn't know what to do or say. It broke her heart completely, but as Lily broke down, she finally closed the space between her and Lily and carefully approached her, then softly wrapped her arms around her. Lily after a good while repeated the hug and even kinda clung to Prue as she sobbed uncontrollably into her mother. She never had let that pain go. She never knew how to. She never wanted to turn to anybody, not wanting to make it worse for them, as they all seemed to cope somehow. And so she always like replaced the pain with another feeling.
"it... it just feels so wrong to have that book AND you... it's just a lame try to have you here when you REALLY aren't! I... I feel... I feel like... I... I dunno..." she still cried, not letting go of Prue. No one really understood what she was saying anymore, but she didn't care. When Lily finally started to calm a little, Prue pulled her daughters to the sofa and they laid in silence there for more than an hour. Just one big huddle as the girls just tried to suck in as much of their mothers love, presence and attention as possible. They didn't have time to say a proper goodbye. Prue just died so totally unexpected.
Prue kinda knew the situation from when her mom or Richard had died. She caressed, kissed and crawled them in total silence. Even though she kinda didn't know them, she felt for them deeply. She cared about them in more than one day. She felt a strong connection to them. Felt how they seemed to heal with her love around.
"it was a long day, especially for you guys. Maybe we should all go to bed now. Take a break, get some rest." Prue whispered, seeing it was already 3am. As the girls didn't really move, she telekinetically put some blankets over and covered them. It didn't need long for all four of them to be deep asleep. They didn't have the most comfortable positions, but they all had what they really needed just that moment and that way also found the peace in their minds to finally go to sleep.
