Chapter 12
Magnus' POV
We went back to my apartment in a slow pace to make sure nobody crosses our way. Why didn't my glamour work anymore? Because of the mix of alcohol and panic? Katarina told me once that her glamour sometimes is hard to hold but than she had been working for over 16 hours in the hospital and felt that the glamour was vanishing. In my apartment I went to the second guestroom, the door was still locked. I breathed out shakily, the Chairman was in that room and I was afraid that he got hurt in that chaos. I opened the door and picked the little fur ball up from the bed where he had slept it all out as it seems.
In the living room I snapped my fingers to clean everything and put some furniture back into it. I greeted Izzy, Clary and Simon just with a nod. I didn't want to get closer to them so they sat down and I stood in the corner of the living room with Chairman Meow on my arm. They sat there in their party clothes and watched me like an animal in the zoo. Alexander gave everyone something to drink and than stood beside me. "Okay, what the hell happened here? When we came to the house the half of the people seemed to search for something outside. We told them and the rest inside that the party was over." Clary said. Izzy looked pissed cause she wasn't allowed to party and drink her ass off. "And I thought you want to use a glamour. I can see everything." "Yeah... We already know that... I just don't know why the glamour wore off so fast. Maybe the mixture of alcohol and panic. They all got crazy in here, wanted to reach me, we just had to leave. I'm going to lock myself in here and find the right spell to turn to normal again. Nobody will get in here."
Jace looked at his sister, sitting in one of the loveseats with his borrowed black jeans and t-shirt from Alec and said: "They didn't even bother to go against two shadowhunters in the same room and believe me, everyone recognised us tonight." Then he looked at Clary "Do you think that maybe it's possible for you to create a stronger protection rune?... I lost the control too, it was like a dream you could hardly wake up from. When we can't get protection from that influence, we couldn't come over here anymore." Clary looked from Jace to me and back to her boyfriend. "Jace... don't you think you're overreacting? I mean, we are here now and yes, I want to touch him, caress his ears or tail, but I can control it..." Jace bit his lip and looked down, shaking his head no. I thought I had to explain it a little more, I never saw Jace embarrassed, it was a picture of sadness... "Alexander and I danced and it got a little... heated... between us. Jace thinks that the sexual tension made my attractiveness even higher or like he said it, the... forget it. I think he's right when I get aroused it's harder for the people around me to resist."
Jace fiddled with his jeans and the others looked at me as if I'm totally stupid. I sat the Chairman on the floor and looked at Alec. "Alexander baby, kiss me..." He looked confused but kissed me back as my lips locked with his, closing his eyes immediately and reaching for my head with one hand to deepen the kiss. After a few seconds our bodys were pressed against each other, his tongue played with mine and his fingers tightened in my hair, pulling at it and making me moan. I pressed my hands into the small of his back pushing him even harder against me, feeling the vibration in my throat and purring into the kiss. I felt his other hand slide down to my ass but instead his fingers caressed the base of my tail, I broke the kiss to throw my head into my neck moaning loudly and trying to get much needed air in my lungs.
A small part of me recognised the gazes and it took all in me to stop. I took Alecs face in both hands and made him look at me. I knew it was hard for him to stop, too. I licked my lips and turned my head to the side looking at the others. Clary and Izzy who sat on the couch, were watching us over the back of it, Clary biting her lip and with blushed red cheeks, Izzy grabbed the cushions so tightly her knuckles turned white and had red cheeks too. Simon and Jace were sitting at the edges of their loveseats as if they wanted to stand up every second, both slowly getting problems with to tight jeans at places they fitted right, before watching our kiss. "I know we are both hot and watching us has to be... sexy as hell. But that reaction..." I made a move with my hand in the direction of all of them. "... from women in relationships and straight guys?" I pecked Alec on the lips and turned to the spell room. "I go into my spell room, then you can talk without me as a distraction. Please be so kind and leave afterwards. All except Alexander, of course."
Alecs POV
I took the seat next to Izzy on the couch after Magnus left the room. I don't have to say that I felt more than a little uneasy, do I? They all watched the floor as if the secrets of the world would be revealed there. "Okay... let's just pretend I'm the only one here who wants to fuck my boyfriend and talk." I earned shocked glances for that, but we needed to talk and clarify who has to or could do what next. "I'll try to create a stronger protection rune, but I can't promise something, you know that, Alec." Clary said. "We will only call you to the institute or hunts when we really need you, otherwise you can help Magnus to find everything that could help." came from Izzy. I nodded at that and said: "I think Magnus is right. As long as you can't protect yourself from Magnus' influence, you shouldn't come over here. When it always looks like today... not everyone would leave this flat again alive." Jace looked at me, his hands closed together in his lap. "Alec, listen..." "Jace, it's not your fault so don't tell me you're sorry. I really believe that. Don't worry." "It's my job as your parabatai to worry." "In battles..." "Every time and always. You're not only my parabatai, your my brother, too." Simons gaze drifted from Jace to me and back "Are you sure that you're straight? We could leave you alone if you want to..."
Jace shot him an angry look and showed his middle finger to him in a not too nice gesture. Clary and Izzy laughed at that, Simon just raised his eyebrows. "Clary, you have to find something, I'll miss you too much if you don't." I laughed to show her that it wasn't completely meant serious and she smiled back at me. "No, you won't. It would be like vacation for you. You can confess it, I already know." Jace looked shocked, than as if he had been hurt, his gaze wandering with his pointing finger from Clary, to me and back to Clary. "You're a traitor! My girlfriend!?... If you want a vacation from me, you can stay here." Everyone raised their brows at him, but it was Clary who said what everyone thought. "Stay here? With Alec and Magnus? You're giving me the accreditation to cheat on you and sleep with Magnus? Because we don't have a good working rune? Mmh... let me think about it..." Jaces jaw dropped down and we all laughed as he answered: "Noooo!... Oh screw you all! That's not my day with that fucking Kuri demons, a party without my own clothes and without my girlfriend, flirting with a sparkly glitter cat although I'm straight... I'm not in the mood for your jokes."
"I think it's time for you to leave. I want to look after Magnus before he makes himself another pair of cat ears. It was nice seeing you at that party." I walked them out and went to Magnus' spell room. "Hey. How are you?" Magnus just sat on the floor, a pentagram formed burning decorated the middle of the room. He didn't psalm a spell, read a book or draw symbols to the ground, he just sat there. "I'm good." "Yeah... You really look like you're feeling great." He moved a little but didn't stand up or look at me. I sat down next to him and took his hand in mine. "Alec... What have I done? I can't be in the same room with you and your family and friends anymore. I can't throw partys anymore... I ... I waited for you, for being allowed to kiss you whenever and wherever I want... I can't do that anymore..." I watched him shocked because he started crying. Magnus Bane, High Warlock of Brooklyn it broke my world down like it broke my heart.
I pulled him into my arms, leaning my head on his and rubbing up and down his back slowly to sooth him. "Shhh honey... It's okay ... We will find a way..." I lifted his chin with my fingers so he had to look in my eyes. "I love you, Magnus. More than anything else in my life. We get through this. Understand?" He nodded softly. The kiss I gave him was light as a feather but he returned it and in my head I just felt relief. "What do you think about getting some sleep?" "But I have to search for a ..." "You don't have to do it tonight. Let's go to bed, honey."
A few weeks passed by with Magnus nearly never leaving his study or spell room. Sometimes it became so late or early that he didn't make it to bed. Catarina Loss came over a few times, working on a new spell with him. I made a lot of errands, buyed the ingredients for a spell or searched for books everywhere. I just felt useless to be true. The only thing I really helped with was saving time, helpful yes, but nothing important. I wasn't allowed in a room together with Magnus when Catarina was there. She protected herself with a spell but Magnus didn't trust himself when I was around and didn't want to build a sexual tension.
Today I was running through lightly falling snow to get a book from the institute Izzy found there. The little voice in my mind was happy about that, I missed my family and friends and somehow felt isolated. I've only been hunting three times with them, they didn't enter the apartment and Clary couldn't create a stronger protection rune until now. Catarina was with Magnus again, they wouldn't miss me, they forgot everything when they started working on that spell. I knew my mother was in Idris but I will see Jace, Izzy, Clary and Simon today.
Entering the big room of the nave, illuminated by the rest of daylight falling through the windows, I took a deep breath, smelling memories and smiling. I took a look at my watch and decided to go to the training room. Outside I already heard the sounds of two people fighting, as I entered the room I saw Clary and Simon on training mats in a hand-to-hand fight. Both were sweating and panting heavily. Jace and Izzy were standing a few feet away, watching every move. Simon made a come hither motion to Clary and said : "Come on, you know I'm stronger." I had to watch very closely to recognize Clarys next move, damn that girl had become fast! She made one step in Simons direction with a grin in her face, within a jumping move into a handstand, she twined her leg around his neck, let herself roll over and pushed Simon with her and to the mattress with a loud thud before he knew what even happened Clary sat on his back and said: "But I'm way faster, don't you think?" She patted his head, Jace laughed loudly and proud for sure, Simon made a moaning ouch-sound and laid his head down.
I made a few steps toward them as Clary jumped into Jaces arms and he swung her around in a circle. "By the angel, tiny. You became damn fast." They all looked at me and Clary was the first to let go of Jace and running into my arms, she got a lot stronger, too. "Alec! It's so nice to see you. But never call me tiny again!" She slapped my shoulder but still smiled brightly as she let go, making space for Jace and Izzy who cuddled me together. "Jace has to be a great teacher, who would have thought that?" Again I got a hit on my shoulder. "Ouch... What?" I looked to the mattress where Simon still laid with his face buried in the material. "Is he still alive?" Simon waved his hand in our direction without lifting his head and mumbled: "Hi..." Clary waved her hand in Simons direction and rolled her eyes. "He's okay. He just still thinks that 'playing dead' is a tactical move that really works." Everyone laughed and Simon looked at us now. "Not funny, Fray. You're hurting my heart... and everything else with that fucking move. What the hell do you teach her, Herondale?" Jace pulled Clary in his arms and said: "Everything that's worth it to learn. All the right moves to push someone down to the mattress hard." His grin said everything before he kissed her. Izzy, Simon and I just made our "Ugh!"s and "Ew!"s and coughed until they stopped kissing.
Clary and Simon went to the showers and we went down to the kitchen getting something to eat. We talked about everything that came to our minds and I left a few hours later with the book in my hands. I really missed them and appreciated that we didn't talk a lot about Magnus today. I knew they could see how tired I was, how useless I felt but talking about it wouldn't help.
I entered our house and smelled in the floor that they spoke a spell today. I wondered if Catarina already went home and forgot to close the door but when I entered the apartment I saw that I was wrong. "Magnus?!" The cushions of the couch had holes surrounded from burned material, the small table was broken, books lay everywhere, blood was on the floor at the bookshelf. I stormed to the spell room and saw Catarina laying on the floor, blood dripping out of a deep cut on her forehead. I sat on the floor, searched for a pulse on her neck and let out the breath I was holding when I found it. I laid her head onto my lap trying to wake her up but failed. I put my jacket under her head, stood up again and searched every room for Magnus screaming his name but finding nothing but a shaking Chairman in the bedroom. I tried to calm the little man down and placed his shaking body onto my arm and carried him with me. I picked out my phone, dialed Magnus' number and heard his phone ringing. I found it in his study on his desk, hidden under paperwork. I called Jace then, telling him in panic to come over as fast as possible. The whole apartment was a mess, I went back to Catarina and hoped Jace would be here soon, cause I didn't even know my own name anymore. The first one I called for help nowadays was always Magnus, so what could I do when he's not there? I crawled the Chairman who laid in my lap and pressed a towel to Catarinas wound, waiting...
