A new Power of three Part 19:
Moody

2037, Saturday

When Lily returned, she handed Prue the things she had asked for and Prue went upstairs to the attic apartment so she could be alone while studying the things. Meghan called Robbie so he'd go shopping with Justin and Jenny. Then Meghan took Hope and played with her. She wouldn't have told her, but she wasn't sure if Lily really was capable to take care of the baby now. Lily and Anna in the meantime worked in the kitchen, preparing already everything they could for breakfast.

"you sure you don't wanna talk about it?" Anna asked while chopping an apple

"yes..."

"it doesn't look like this does you any good." Lily glared at her sister "okay, okay. I got it." Anna told her, as Meghan entered with Hope. She stole some apple from Anna and gave it to her niece

"she can't handle that yet, Meghan, she only has one tooth"

"she can handle that fine well. She did last week as well. She likes the taste and it helps to ease the pain in her mouth with the growing teeth inside." Meghan shot back

Lily put her hands to her hips and challenging looked at Meghan

"i think we leave the babysitting now. I can't believe it Meghan! What if she had swallowed something big. I don't want her to have an apple yet" she told her, her voice raising a little and tried to fetch Hope from her sister

"well she didn't swallow anything. And the apple thing I learned from mom, okay? And of course I was watching her with the apple and I do now too. And now you're telling us, what you and Kevin talked about or I won't guarantee anything anymore" Meghan said all calmly with the baby still in her arms. Though she had loved to slap her sister right now in some vain attempt to snap her out of her unusual behavior. Lily kept silent and continue to put the ingredients for her muffins into a bowl. Anna put a hand on her arm and squeezed it a bit

"Meghan's right, you know. You're not yourself the way you are right now." Lily sighed and looked from Anna to Mags and back to Anna

"Kevin asked me to move to the fort with him. He said he could get one of those family houses there"

"excuse me?"

"he did what?"

"you can't just move three hours away..."

"grandma will move in in two weeks..."

"and I couldn't babysit anymore."

"this is completely nuts. You can't do that Lily!"

"it's mom's and dad's house. What would you do with it? I mean... we can't sell the house!"

"guys... guys! I said no already, okay?"

"but what's the problem now? Did you guys fight?"

"no... no. he said he was completely alright with it. He said he knew my answer already before he asked. He said he just had to ask... and not to mind him" Lily sighed and then let herself fall onto some bar chair which stood in the corner of the kitchen. Meghan put Hope in her playpen and then walked up to Lily and made her look at her

"what is it then?"

"i just... I feel so completely guilty. I mean... it's like I'm denying Hope and Kevin a proper relationship. If we stay here, Hope will never have a dad like we did. She will never really know what a great dad she has, because Kevin... he's sometimes just like dad... he's great with her, you know... it's not right, you know? No matter what decision I make... it's wrong in some kind of way. I... I want to live here. Have grandma here with me and Hope. I hate the thought of moving to the fort. I know already now, I'd feel like a prisoner there... but, how can I say no? He would be there EVERY day. We could be a family..."

"but if Kevin said, he knew you wouldn't want it, and that he was okay with it, then just believe him." Meghan said softly

"besides... maybe Kevin could not right away get a house, but a flat with more rooms... then you could astral orb there every now and then." Lily just hid her face in her hands

"this is just such a mess!" she cried out, pulling at her hair a little

"what is?" Kevin asked walking into the kitchen. The girls shrugged a little startled together

"Kevin, hey, morning" Anna got out first

"ya, hey" Meghan just added. She'd loved to start a fight with him right away, for bringing up this stupid idea, but held herself back, knowing her sister had to deal with it on her own. Kevin walked up to them and on his way kissed Hope.

"hey" he told Lily as he wrapped an arm around her waist

"hey" she answered, forcing a small smile and kissing him good morning

"so what is a complete mess?" Kevin asked

"uuuuh... mom being here" Anna made up very fast

"really? I thought she was supposed to come here. Didn't you say she told you she had been to the future?" he said looking at Lily

"yeah... but... we're not really sure what spell she could use to erase her memory. All we could find were spells to erase everything"

"wait what? Mom told you..."

"i knew she'd come at some point, yes, but I didn't know when. She didn't remember anything about her visit anymore. We just talked once about time travel. That's when she told me she was twice to the future... the first time they changed future completely, the second... well she was still waiting on meeting her younger self one day"

"bu... but... why did you never tell us about this?"

"i... I didn't know when she was coming. I didn't want to put your Hopes up. I mean... since she died I'm waiting like every day... I even slowly doubted she was coming at all. Even was scared she wouldn't. And that way would change the future somehow."

"where is she anyway?" he asked walking up to the coffee machine

"up in the attic apartment. She's reading the book"

"you guys got some more coffee somewhere? I really need it right now..."

"i think mom took herself the rest of it before she went upstairs" Meghan said

"but we have to make new one anyway. Robbie and Mike will be there any time soon as well"

"oh right. How did you plan this anyway?" he asked and looked to each of the sisters, as they just starred at each other "am I interrupting something here?" he asked them. Normally when they starred at each other they were talking in their minds

"yes" / "yes" / "no" all three sounded from one mouth, Kevin looked at his wife, as she was the only one saying no, Lily just looked down

"i need some painkillers" she mumbled and left the room

"why did you just...?"

"Meghan!" Lily yelled from the hall, warning her sisters about finishing this. Kevin sighed

"she told you about what we talked about last night, right?"

"yes!" "no!" Meghan and Anna looked at each other "Anna!" "Mags!" Kevin sighed and left his sisters in law to fight and went after Lily.

"you talked to them?" he asked leaning on the doorframe in the downstairs bathroom, where they kept all the medicine stuff. Lily sighed. "honey, I told you, we don't have to move. I just felt like I had to ask... I'm perfectly fine the way our life is right now"

"if you were, you wouldn't have thought about it" she said lowly after swallowing some pill to ease her migraine

"Lily, I told you, I thought about it already for a good while. You were pregnant when James suddenly asked, if I'd rent something on base ground now"

"but you never asked! Two years and you didn't say a word... god Kevin, you have no idea how I feel right now. No matter what I choose... as you seem to leave this decision entirely to me... it feels like I choose wrong! I can't make a right decision in this... because..."

"Lily! Stop! Okay?" Lily shrugged together, as he had slightly raised his voice at her "i told you last night already. We don't have to do this! Like I said... James once or twice asked me about it. I never found the right time to talk to you about it... so I kept it to myself. But still, I kinda liked the idea and couldn't let go off it. I needed to ask you, because some tiny little voice in me said, you afterall. still could say yes... I don't mind how our family situation is now. I love you. I love Hope. I love my job. And I sometimes even love you're not exactly with me every second of the day, because I don't have to feel guilty over when I come home or on some group march have to worry about Hope being sick or something. But sometimes a night at the barrack is long and in these times I wished you and Hope could just be there. Sometimes I have a bad day and just wished I could hold you... or Hope to make me forget it. But i'm also happy now. Sometimes I'm worried about you. Because you have to do this all on your own. Sometimes I feel like I just leave you hanging. But that's gonna change as soon as your grandma is here." he told her

"i needed to ask you, because it would be unfair to you, not to leave you that choice. I never wanted to hear from you, oh Kevin, why did you never bring it up? In an all regretting kinda voice. I just wanted to tell you, there's this possibility. And if you ever feel like, that would be what our family needed right now, we can go for it. And now stop worrying. I told you it is fine by me. Why can't it be fine by you as well then?"

"i just feel like... with saying no... I'd take your daughter away from you"

"you are not. I'm glad she doesn't know much about my profession. I mean... I'm educated to kill other people. Do you think I want her to face that every day? I don't want her to hear the shoots and bombs we sometimes practice with daily. It's in no way that there are only pros to living on fort ground. So just stop worrying and trust me, if I say, that it's alright!" Kevin told her and now cupped her face with both his hands "let's just say I never brought it up, okay?" Lily closed her eyes for a second "Lily..." he said softly and she looked again at him "i love you." Lily cracked into a small smile

"i love you, too" she whispered into his lips before he kissed her. Their kiss very fast becoming very passionate again. Lily eventually pulled away and tried to catch for her breath and keeping a certain distance between them

"we got a whole week for this. I promise, as soon as everyone is gone again I'm all yours" she told him as the doorbell rang "but now I have to help fix that brunch..."

"we could lock the door. Noone would notice we were even in here" Lily laughed, even was barely able to hold back her giggles as she saw his mischievous grin

"you're crazy" she told him and leaned in for another kiss. Kevin pulled her closer again and then reached for the door locking it. Lily tried her best to stop it, but she just couldn't. Ever since she met Kevin her life was full of these kind of things. Sometimes she thought Kevin lived so much more than other people. He always was the kind of guy to say "don't wait. Live now. Maybe there's no tomorrow" and so her husband pretty much always did what he wanted, when he wanted it. When he got up in the middle of the night and wanted a steak, he'd go at 2 am out to the backyard and started to barbecue. And when her husband wanted to make love to her while their whole family was gathered in their house, he usually did exactly that.