I would like to apologies in advance for how long this chapter is. Believe me I didn't intend for it to be so long but it was all vital to for this final chapter. I've worked on this for days as I wanted to make it perfect and capture the ending of 'The Love That Blinds Us'
So my amazing reader I would strongly recommend to have a box of tissue to the ready as this is going to be an emotional roller-coaster of a chapter…..
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Star P.O.V
I knew leaving was the best thing to do as hard as it was and this time there wasn't any point of return I wasn't going to go back because of the love I held for him nor would I go back to make some kind of point. I was freeing myself from that world the world that had in the end destroyed me. I knew my love for Niklaus would never fade away because a love that strong wouldn't. A part of me wished that I could have been compelled that all these feeling that are deep beneath the surface would disappear. When I asked him to do that it was more of a test than anything else to see in a way if he would steep that low. Nik didn't because he knew as well as I the life we would have lived would have been a lie. That when I knew that my Niklaus wasn't fully lost that he was fighting to come up to the surface, he had shown me that even as much as I long to see him when it came down to it I just couldn't look at him in the same way.
The memories of the aftermath of his discovery of the betrayal from Rebekah and Marcel scarred me deeper than I thought. I had forgiven Niklaus for many thing some that were truly unforgivable in some people's eyes. This was a betrayal of the heart of my heart. When your heart has be shattered and you piece all together there still piece that will never sit right again. As tiny little fragments stop it from being whole again. Nik was truly a great man and he could be even greater and become the king that he deserved to be and I his queen by his side. With his impulsiveness and how he act to a situation it will always be his immortal flaw.
Flashback—London 1490
The day had finally come July 23rd 1490 the day that Niklaus and I were to be wed I woke up feeling excited, but also nervous at the same time. I was new to all of this to fall in love to make a life with someone who you couldn't live without I had walked this earth with a curse upon me for nearly 500 years felling un-loves unwanted. In one evening that all changed when I met my true love I never knew the meaning to love or what it felt to be loved by another. On this day I was going to make a vow and commitment to the one man he stole my heart from the moment I had laid eyes upon him. I had been alone the majority of my life and I haven't had many friends. The one friend that I had made a true bond with and spoke to about my secret that was Bethany who had turned on me. She spoke of Niklaus and his siblings to be of evil that they had a darkness of true evil. Of course this upset me as I wouldn't allow her to speak in such a way about the man whom I loved.
On a day such as today I wanted her to be here I had even attempt to go and see her to ask her to attend and put all this madness behind. It didn't work out like that she told me that I was truly blinded by love, and I didn't see Niklaus for the beast that he was. As I sat here while the maids did my hair and prepared me for this important day where I would become Lady Star Mikaelson my heart was filled with sadness. As I had no family or friend that will be here to witness a joyous day.
"Star you're not meant to be so glum on the day of your wedding." I looked up to see Rebekah entering the room. She was truly beautiful and many of the men in London wanted to capture her heart Rebekah was a little unorthodox at times as she bedded many but she claimed none of them were suitable. I wasn't sure if those were the words of herself of her brother Niklaus. He adored her more than anything I could see how he wanted to protect from heartache I guess the way that he was towards her made me love him more as family meant more to him than anything.
"I apologies it just the nerves of it all. Today meant to be glorious day I just—" I felt I couldn't speak the words that were in my heart right now I think a part of me knew I couldn't live in this fairy-tale forever that my new family would see I wouldn't age. That was something I did not want I felt for the first time in my life that I was home.
"Could you please give us a moment?" Rebekah requested and the maids stopped what they were doing and left the room. "Star come with me." Rebekah walked away from me and made her way out into the balcony. I was a little hesitant to follow because deep down I was frighten of what she may say to me I shook those fears and followed her as I approached her she was looking out into the beautiful countryside. "You have doubts, and I understand that." She turned to me and smiled I wasn't having doubt I was fearing for the future when I knew I had to walk away.
"It's not doubts Rebekah, It's just—" I felt my tears raise to the surface as every part of me wanted to tell Rebekah the truth of who I am. That I wasn't this young 21 year old girl who moved here because her family had passed. I wanted to tell my secret but in doing so I may lose everything that I've truly ever wanted. "Nerves. I suppose I fear that I might not be enough for your brother…." Rebekah began to chuckle lightly while shaking her head in disagreement.
"Star my brother is truly smitten with you." Rebekah spoke in a teasing tone then turned away looking at the courtyard that had been terraformed into something you would read in a fairy- tale. "I truly thought there was no hope for my brother. That the chance of him ever finding love was impossible." I looked to her frowning as I didn't understand why Rebekah would think such a thing. She looked to me with a gapping smile "Then you Star entered his life, and showed him what true love was about. Something that Elijah and I thought would never happen to him." Did they truly think that Niklaus would never find happiness? "You truly are his salvation." As touched as I was by her words it just seemed like Rebekah thought that Niklaus didn't know how to love. I had seen what he was like towards his siblings how at times the way he showed his love was a little out of the ordinary. But he loved them both deeply and it sadden me that they thought he didn't know how.
"Rebekah you speak as if Niklaus never knew how to love." She gave me a heartfelt smile as she placed her hand into mine taking me back into my bedroom chamber.
"Niklaus has many side Star. Side that he keeps buried….." She spoke a little absent minded as she sat me down on the chair in front of the mirror. "Nevertheless…What is important that you be ready in time, or Niklaus may worry that you changed your mind." She smiled as she looked into the mirror and I did the same. She turned to walk away and I knew I couldn't keep this secret no long I had to tell her the truth about myself.
"Rebekah…." I called out as I stood up and turned to her. She stood there with a smile and as much as I wanted to tell her. There was something that wouldn't allow me to bring the words I needed to speak to the surface. "Thank you for being so kind towards me." I spoke to her with sincerity as I was grateful for her being so kind to me I had heard over the centuries how sibling never get on with the person that marries into the family. But Rebekah and Elijah had made me feel more welcome as if I was part of their grande family already.
"That's what sister do. Family does not have be bound by blood."
Present Day
I was taken out of my thoughts by voices in the other room. Since leaving the compound Damon wanted us to leave New Orleans but there was a little issue with that. As I was heavily pregnant and due to give birth at any moment. I didn't want to be stuck in some car for hours on end. I didn't want to be flying half way across the world either. So I said to Damon until the baby comes we would stay here which didn't best please him but he accepted it. We were staying in the same grotty apartment from a few weeks back Damon was going to get something better. I didn't see the point in nesting anywhere as once my son was born if I was alive after I would leave this city all together.
As usual Damon was smothering me in the nicest possible way I guess he just wanted to make sure that I was okay and would ask often if I felt any pains or if my waters had broken. I assured him I would definitely tell him if any of that did happen. I got up from my bed and opened my bedroom door quietly as it lead straight into the living room I peeked through the crack I see Damon and Elijah talking well more whispering than anything else. Which meant there was something that they didn't want me to know.
"Damon I understand you seek revenge but this has to be done tactfully." Elijah spoke calmly while Damon stood there with rage filling his face. Fear overcame me as I knew Damon was angry at Nik for what he did to me but I didn't want him to seek revenge. I knew that I had to intervene but then Damon spoke and stopped myself going out there.
"Tactfully? You're kidding me. All that need to happen is to break her neck, or better yet I'm pretty good at torturing witches." Damon spoke vengefully. This wasn't about Nik it was about the witches. I knew what witch Damon was after for blood that would be Genevieve for what she did to me. Well no way I was going to let him have all the fun I want the pleasure in torturing her myself.
"As much as I would like to approve of this there is something you're not considering here. Star is pregnant. Due at any moment, you do anything to arouse the witches of the French Quarter they will seek there vengeance upon her and the child." Elijah was right those witches would only come for me and my son. I was tired of this game that they kept playing where the witches always got away with their evil deeds. "Hasn't Star, and that unborn child been through enough?" Elijah was trying to make Damon see sense while my blood was boiling as I reached a point now that I had enough.
"So you want me to sit back and not do a thing when knowing that it was that teenage witch tried to kill Star!" Damon raised his voice slightly while I was stunned to hear that he wasn't speaking of Genevieve. It wasn't her who tried to kill me and send me to the other side. "Elijah I get your noble and all. That you're trying to keep to this treaty that you all signed. I will kill Monique Deveraux for what she did to Star." I put my hand to my mouth to stop myself from gasping as I heard Monique was the one who put me with Mikael. That little witch had gone too far and I didn't blame Damon at all for wanting to kill her. As right in this moment I was after her blood myself.
"Damon I'm warning you. There will be consequences to those actions. Consequences that may lead to the death of the one woman that we both care about." I was touched that they were both trying to protect me and my child. Damon was right Monique couldn't get away with this there was no way in hell was I going to allow her to. She made me face the devil who was ready to kill me all because of his hatred towards Nik. That one action alone was a death sentence even if I somehow managed to escape. "Your impulsive Damon, and it's honourable what you're willing to do for Star. I ask of you not to be like Niklaus." Elijah spoke to Damon with compassion in his voice. He was right Damon and Nik were alike maybe that why I had a close connection to him. Cause in ways he reminded me of Nik but if I was ever to tell Damon that…. Well let just say he would not be pleased with me. "Star needs you here by her side. Let me deal with the witches." I watched as Elijah was about to walk away but Damon stopped him.
"What you planning to do tell her off? Elijah you would not hurt a child that I know of you but this can't just be swept under the rug." I had no idea what Elijah would do and Damon was right he wouldn't hurt a child. The thing is things had been swept under the rug and the pile beneath it has become viable. "Maybe Klaus has a right to know—" As soon as Damon spoke of Nik needing to know my heart began to accelerate as I knew he would be happy to kill a child. This was about me and I was the one who needed to deal with this problem and no one else.
"You tell my brother a war will start Damon. A war which in the end the casualties that maybe be the ones closest to you." Elijah warned him. Yes there was going to be casualty and that will be one person Monique Deveraux. I was not going to sit back on this one not after everything that has happened I will be the one that will deal with her once and for all. I'm not having no one fight my battles no longer I need to prepare myself for this. A way to be prepared is to think negatively. Yes, I'm a great optimist. But when trying to make a decision I often think of the worst case scenario. I call it the eaten by wolves factor. If I do something what's the most terrible thing that could happen? Would I be eaten by wolves? One thing that makes it possible to be an optimist, is if you have a contingency plan for when all hell breaks loose. There are a lot of things I don't worry about because I have a plan in place if they do.
Klaus P.O.V
After Damon stormed out of the room I stood there no speaking a word. Elijah tried to speak to me but there was nothing to be said. This was all down to my own actions. I brought Star to this city to start a new and fruitful life together not to tare it apart. As much as I didn't want to believe anything that told to me it was the truth. Even the words that Star spoke of that Mikael spoke. That my impulsiveness will stop me from being the man I needed to be. How was I meant to be that man? I had no idea I couldn't control my tendency of my anger and rage. This maybe an excuse but the werewolf side of me was something hard to control even as hybrid. This pain I was feeling was something that I had to endure because there was no hope or chance of anything changing. Pain is the feeling. Suffering is the effect the pain inflicts. If one can endure pain, one can live without suffering. If one can withstand pain, one can withstand anything. If one can learn to control pain, one can learn to control oneself. It's an Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't.
But love is much like a dam: if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the whole structure, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current. For when those walls come down then love takes over and it no longer matters what is possible or impossible; it doesn't even matter whether we can keep the loved one at our side. To love is to lose control. Any woman who is sure of her own wits is a match at any time for a man who is not sure of his own temper. That in truth is my Star because even from the moment we met she knew who I was. Like I said before she could read me like no other.
Flashback- London 1490
The day had come after nearly 500 years I was going to be made into an honest man. I had met the love of my life Star she was something truly special. I thought when I was human that Tatia was the true love of my existence that her aura and persona made me feel truly alive. I was mistaken from the moment that Star entered the room on that night my undead heart began to beat again. I thought I would never love another, but it was like love at first sight. From the moment I saw her I knew I wanted to spend my whole existence with her by my side. So in the short time knowing her I wanted to ask for her hand in marriage this was something that my own Siblings were astounded by. Elijah and Rebekah could see the changes within me since Star had entered my life. They thought it would be a splendid addition to the Mikaelson family. Who would have thought asking the woman that I had fallen in love with for her hand in marriage would be so terrifying. Yes I Niklaus Mikaelson fear this beautiful creature because rejection from her would be something far worse than death. My fear were all taken away when Star instantly told me yes. The look up on her face and the way her eyes sparkled with such happiness.
The day had finally come July 23rd 1490 the day where Star would become Lady Star Mikaelson. A day that that I had been counting since she accepted my proposal Elijah was dealing with the servants making sure that everything was going to plan. I wanted to make this day special for Star as I knew she had no family of her own nor friends. I had tried asking her friend Bethany to attend but she denied my request, every part of me want to kill her but I knew that she was Star closest friend and her death would bring Star only heartache. That is something I do not wish upon her I intend to not let her feel that kind of pain. As you would do anything to protect the one you love even protect them from the beast that festering inside of you.
The ceremony was about to begin and the courtyard looked absolutely amazing I had to give my brother some credit. He truly knew how to impress. Due to Star not having family and it was traditional for the father of the bride to walk down the aisle. Star went with a different approach as her father had passed she wanted Rebekah to walk her down, as Elijah was my best-man she felt that Rebekah was perfect person as she saw her as a sister. I was truly touched by this because I never thought that someone would accept me let alone my siblings too. Star looked absolutely stunning in her white lace dress her hair up exposing her swan like neck. The smile upon her face as she approached me made my heart truly melt.
The service began and throughout it I couldn't help but smile like the cat who had got the cream. Yes I had something that was going to be a part of my life that I thought I would never have. That I Niklaus Mikaelson who was known as the bastard child. Who had been tormented by the man whom I called father from a child until this very day. That I was finally getting what everyone should have a happy ending.
"I Niklaus take you to be my wife and my spouse and I pledge to you the faith of my body, that I will be faithful to you and loyal with my body and my goods and that I will keep you in sickness and in health and in whatever condition it will please the Lord to place you, and that I shall not exchange you for better or worse until the end." I spoke as I looked into her sparkling blue eyes that were filled with excitement it felt I was falling in love with her all over again. Who thought that could even be possible but then Star was something truly unique something I've not come across before.
"I Star take you to be my husband and my spouse and I pledge to you the faith of my body, that I will be faithful to you and loyal with my body and my goods and that I will keep you in sickness and in health and in whatever condition it will please the Lord to place you, and that I shall not exchange you for better or worse until the end." As Star spoke you could see that she was speaking from her heart. She stood there with her hand in mine with a smile that made the sun seem it was dim. The priest asked for the rings and thirteen pieces of silver. He gave some of the money to charity then put the remainder in Star's purse supervised the exchange of rings.
"Niklaus with this ring I wed you, with my body I honour you, and I endow you with the dowry agreed upon by my friends and yours." She spoke as she place the ring upon my fore finger. It didn't fell like a burden been placed there it felt right and perfect.
"Star with this ring I wed you, with my body I honour you, and I endow you with the dowry agreed upon by my friends and yours." As I spoke I placed the ring upon her finger as I looked up I could see a teary eyed Star. As much as she couldn't believe this was happening neither could I. As I had found my soul mate my lover for all eternity.
Present Day
I couldn't stand to be around the compound right now as everything that I looked at reminded me of Star. I know it's sad and possibly impossible to think that something like this could actually destroy me but I still have a shed of humanity left in me even more so when it comes to Star. So I spend most of my night in the bar with a bunch of night walker. They were really low of the low at times and of course seeing me there they acted even more stupid to try and impress me when all it did was annoy me so I found a table where I could sit alone and drown my sorrow. That what I was doing drowning out what I was feeling I knew I could just turn it all off. That was the simple way to deal with it all but how could I? It didn't exactly help me last time what it did was brought all this that had happen. My brother wanted me to fight for her to not let Star walk away but it was a battle that I knew I could not win.
"Dude I'm telling she went full on psycho on that witch." My ears perked up as I heard one of the night walker talking at the bar. I wondered who had gone all psycho as he put it on one of the witches. Well I'm sure whoever it was that witch probably deserved it they always concocting some dastardly plan and it seems that they messed with the wrong person.
"That's hard to believe every time I've seen her she been so sweet. Always smiling and being polite." The other replied. So they knew who this person was? This was getting rather interesting conversation right now.
"Wouldn't it drive you crazy in the end being married to Klaus?" I placed my glass down as I heard them speak of my name. Where they trying to imply this person was Star who was after this witch?
"Joey come on. You could see that she loves him, and isn't she carrying his kid or something." I got up from my seat and stormed over to these two imbeciles as I wanted to know the facts to all this.
"Yep she was full blown pregnant….Arggghhhhh." I grabbed hold of him forcing this Joey to face me and his face was filled with horror as soon as he saw it was me.
"It seems the both of you are having a very interesting conversation." I looked between the both of them while tightening my grip around Joey throat. "Would you divulge about this incident you are speaking of that involves the mother to my child." I growled at the both of then snapping this Joey arm.
"Arghhh!" He cried out in pain. I wanted to know what they meant by Star was going crazy at a witch because if she had gone after Genevieve I knew there would be blood spilled.
"It's Joey isn't it? I would start speaking now before I rip out your spleen?" I threaten him while twisting him arm once again and hearing it crack in several places.
"She was near the Cauldron. She was yelling at that harvest girl…." What the bloody hell was Star doing with a harvest girl? I knew she wouldn't be having an argument with Davina she loved that girl far too much to be screaming bloody murder at her.
"Which harvest girl? Be more specific." I wanted a name or something. What worried me what had gotten Star so upset that she was after a harvest girl of all people?
"I don't know…." I punched my fist into his chest and grabbed hold of his heart. "Okay the one with brown hair….Arghhhhhh." I began to slowly tare out his heart as the information he was giving me wasn't exactly clear. "The one with an attitude and bug eyes." I knew exactly who that was Monique Deveraux but why would Star even…? None of that mattered right now all I knew is that I needed to find her before she did something incredibly stupid. Like get because herself harm or worse risk the life of our child for whatever nonsense this is all about.
Star P.O.V
After hearing what I heard that little bratty teenage witch bitch had done to me I was angry believe me it wasn't the normal type of angry that I felt before it was a rage like no other. I literally felt like I was going to lose it, and the more I thought about the more I couldn't keep it under control. I guess because I thought it was Genevieve who did that to me like I expected it from her. To hear that it was Monique was the one behind it all just because I put her in her place she tried to kill me. No I wasn't going to stand for that she wasn't only trying to take my life away but the life of my child. That something that was typical with the elders or whoever thought that my child was of evil, but her after everything she been through all that she had lost and she tried to kill an innocent. It wasn't going to be Damon who would be dealing with her nor will it be Elijah in his tactful way. No it will be me, and she will regret attempting to do and she will wish that I had died. I'm going to be coming for her nothing will stop me from taking her down.
As soon as there conversation was over with Damon came into my room with all smiles different from before where he was filled with rage. I knew I had to get out of this apartment but I also knew Damon would be like my guard dog walking by myside. So I asked him if he could get me some gumbo from the restaurant on St Clark Street as I was craving for it. He teased how I couldn't be sick of gumbo after the amount that I had eaten already I gave him my best puppy dog eyes and slightly pout and he gave in and told me he be soon. As soon as I heard the door close I jumped off the bed and put my shoes on and my jacket.
I grabbed some cash from the side and made my way out of the apartment I walked a little down the street and caught a cab to the French Quarters where the witches hung out at that cauldron. I paid the cab driver and got out of the car as I did I felt a slight twinge on my lower stomach towards my pelvis. I took in a deep breath and stayed still for a moment and it passed I began to walk towards the cauldron where the witches hung out to impress the tourist. I didn't know if she would be here but I knew the girls didn't stay at the house all day but even if I didn't find her here it wasn't too far to walk. As I began to walk toward the square I was getting looked from various witches while they muttered to one another. I knew I looked like a woman on a mission right now and I was. I didn't care that I wasn't meant to be here I was after one person only and that was Monique Deveraux. I stood in the middle of the square as each of them looked at me with a look of disgust but I didn't care.
"Monique Deveraux! I know you're here. You and I have unfished business little girl!" I yelled out into the street and I still got the same looks and whispers "MONIQUE!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as now all I saw was red. With what I learnt from today I was going to pave these streets with her blood. I notice a circle forming around me with frowning witches. "What your coward now!" I screamed once again and I watched as the circle split and the little bitch approach me with a smile.
"Star, I see you have a clean bill of health." She spoke smugly as her eyes looked around the circle of her coven surrounding me. "Maybe I should change that." She began to smirk as she raised her hand and I was waiting for some kind of impact from whatever magic she was going to use on me, but nothing happened all I felt was like a warmness around me. I looked to see Monique looking frustrated as she chanted even louder but still nothing so I began to approach her slowly.
"Oh dear, I think your ancestors have cut you off for being naughty." The closer I got to her she kept stepping back, then I could hear the crowed of witched chanting the same words as Monique spoke, but whatever they were trying to do wasn't working on me. "You are going to pay for what you did to me and my baby!" I felt all my anger just rush to the surface then the next moment Monique went flying into air landing down on her front. The circle parted and I began to approached her and she tried to move but couldn't as she clearly had broken something. "By the time I'm finished with you Monique Deveraux, you're going to beg me to kill you." I was about to kick her when someone grabbed hold of me and I felt a breeze then it I came to a halt, I felt a little light headed as I looked up I saw Nik standing in front of me. "What the hell are you doing? She's the reason I nearly died at your father hand." I yelled at him. I stood there and couldn't believe that Nik stopped me from kicking the living daylights out of her. I turned to walk away as I was going to go back there and finish her off but suddenly Nik was in front of me.
"This isn't you Star. You would never hurt a child. You go back there and do what you intended to do it will destroy you." Nik spoke calmly but I wasn't in the mood for this I came here for one reason and one reason only to the paint the streets with Monique blood.
"Well I'm taking a page out of the Niklaus Mikaelson book." I snapped back at him as I did I watched his face sadden.
"Have you fallen from such a height? To become me?" Nik spoke with disappointment in his voice "The Star I know isn't like that. You are pure of heart there not a bad bone in your beautiful body. You are so innocent that is what I love about you." Nik spoke with sincerity in his voice. Those words he spoke brought back a memory…
Flash Back- London 1491
The New Year had just turned and the field around the castle were blanketed in white snow. Niklaus and I had been married for nearly six month and it had been blissful. Well until Christmas came around and he began to behave a little oddly I would ask him what was bothering him, and he kept telling me that it wasn't my concern. That it was business of men not something for a woman to know I actually got offended by this as I thought that now we were husband and wife that we share the burden that he could talk to me about anything. It was like a different man before me he would lose his temper at me so quick but he never raised his hand to me. At times Elijah would intervene and make his brother see sense that he didn't need to take out on me what was bothering him. Those times I would thank my lucky stars that Elijah was around as Rebekah had gone on some trip.
Even on the day of Christmas it turned into a disaster I spent most of my day in my chambers crying as I didn't know what I had done to upset him. Of course like always Niklaus would realise that he had taken his anger out on me, and would speak sweet nothing to stop me from being upset. It was like he bewitched me at time because as much as I wanted to stay mad at him I just couldn't. Elijah knew all of this was hard on me that I couldn't adapt at time to Niklaus temperament, he assured me in time I would and that Niklaus didn't mean to snap and lose his temper at me. That being a lord at times could be stressful. There was nothing I could really do because I loved Niklaus and I stood by my vows I spoke those months ago.
Elijah suggested that today we did something to get out of the castle which I was quite happy about. As at times it was boring around here and there was only so many books I could read Elijah wanted to take me hunting, I was not happy about that and handling a weapon which wasn't very lady like. He laughed it off and assured me that it would be a great experience I was hesitant at first but I agreed to go because anything was better than spending another day alone while Niklaus was busy with visitor that came and went. So I changed into something that was warmer than what I was currently wearing I place on my winter cape to keep me warm and met Elijah down the stairs.
We entered the wood by the castle and Elijah showed me the weapons that were available there was a firearm and crossbow. I thought it would be safer for me to use the firearm as the crossbow I would only injure myself. Well this little hunting expedition went horribly wrong I kept telling Elijah I couldn't do it to kill an innocent animal it just wasn't in my nature. He spoke of just using the firearm for aiming and not to fire for now. Which I was fine with as I knew all Elijah wanted to do was keep my mind occupied from the sadness I had been going through, so I did as he asked he pointed a tree in the distant and told me to aim and fire at it more for target practise. Which I was fine with. As I did do that and focus and fired at the tree a fawn was running by and I had hit it I watched as it fell to the ground and shook for a few moments before passing. I stood there horrified by what I had done that I just killed a tiny innocent animal. Before Elijah could speak I ran off heading back into the castle I threw myself on to the bed and cried because it broke my heart that I had done that.
"What has got you all upset?" I heard Niklaus speak as he entered in to the bedroom chamber I sat up and began to wipe away my tears as I knew that he didn't like it when I was upset.
"Nothing." I stated quietly as I could see that he was in a foul mood and I didn't want to get into an argument with him.
"Oh heavenly father! Please do not tell me you're crying because I haven't spent any time with you? Star this is getting beyond ridiculous. I am a lord I have responsibilities." He raised his voice to me and I knew that if I didn't pull myself together it would only make matters worse. I got up from the bed and fixed my dress wiping away the remaining tears.
"I know Niklaus, I'm not upset about that. Just leave me be." I just wanted to be left alone not for him to come charging in here making his demands. I loved him there was no doubt about that but at times Niklaus could be so heartless to my needs.
"Niklaus, I don't think now is the time to be upsetting Star further." Elijah spoke as he entered the room giving me a sorrowful look. He knew what had happened out there had affected me as I requested not to hurt no animals. Even in my attempts of not doing that I killed a fawn the image of it dying before my eyes was etched into my mind.
"Oh here comes big brother to save poor Star as always." Niklaus spoke in a mocking tone as he disliked when Elijah would defend me but he only did that when Niklaus was in the wrong. "Are you going to answer your husband? Why are you crying?" He demanded and I knew if I didn't tell him he would anger more towards me.
"Elijah took me hunting and I didn't mean to do it….. It j-just ha-happened—" I couldn't even speak of it as just the thought of it all brought an aching pain to my heart. It may be silly to some but I have never taken a life before not of an animal nor human.
"Elijah what nonsense is she talking about?" Niklaus spoke bitterly as if I was some kind of mad woman crying over nothing I guess I knew if I told him he would think that I was stupid crying over such a thing.
"Niklaus, do not speak of your wife like that. She terribly upset because—" Elijah spoke firmly towards him as he began to approach him but I didn't want Elijah to tell him.
"I-I ki-killed a Fa-fawn." It was so difficult to say it but it came out and as it did my tears began to over flow once again. Niklaus turned to face me and I didn't know what he was going to do because his expression was one of indifference.
"This is what has upset you so much?" Niklaus spoke a little calmly as he slowly began to walk to me. Part of myself was a little frighten to answer that question but this was the man I love I should be able to be open with him.
"I killed an innocent creature it wa-was only a ba-baby." The tears began to flood down my cheeks as I replayed it all back in my mind. How could I have been so foolish? How couldn't I not see it coming?
"Star…"Niklaus spoke with compassion and the next moment I was safely in his arms.
"I'm a monster Niklaus. A true monster." I spoke as I buried my head into his chest. That exactly how I felt. A monster that had taken a life of a poor innocent fawn that was just wondering around aimlessly.
"Star looked at me." Niklaus cupped my face so that I was looking up at him. "My beautiful Star you are by far a monster you would never intentional take a life. That not who you are my precious Star." He spoke so lovingly towards me as he began to wipe away my tears. This was the Niklaus I had been searching for over the recent days that I had felt alone. "You are pure of heart there not a bad bone in your beautiful body. You are so innocent that is what I love about you."
Present Day
"Star this isn't you. Please just let me take you home." Nik spoke softly towards me which wasn't helping with my emotions right now. I was an emotional wreck for many reason and he was the main issue so I couldn't be around him.
"I can make my own way home." I spoke calmly as I began to walk away from him and he didn't stop me. Which I was quite happy about because I didn't need another day filled with my mind going crazy. I went towards a cab when I had this excruciating pain shooting from the top of my baby bump all the way down the my pelvis. "Arghhh!" I buckled over in pain and wasn't stopping it was like continuous it felt like a stabbing sensation.
"Star…."I heard Nik call out my name in fear. "Star is it the baby?" He questioned as I tried to regain my composure. The pain was still there but not as intense I think this was the first of those bracks and hicks.
"I'm fine, I just need to go home." I just needed to rest as what I did just took it out of me now the adrenaline had gone. I just needed to lay down and rest then I'll be fine. I looked up to see Nik not looking convince and he was about to pick me up but I pushed him away in time. He looked a little upset by my action I didn't need him to play concern husband to me now.
"You look far from fine. I'm bringing you to the hospital." I knew he was trying ever so hard to control his temper I could see that. But then once again he attempt to pick me up and I stopped him.
"I told you I'm fine!" I yelled at him the walking away getting into the cab that was waiting for me. It was too late for Nik to attempt to show me his love and devotion now. I knew from those pains moments ago that this baby is planning on making an appearance very soon. My focus was on my child and my survival through this not anything else.
Klaus P.O.V
Once I heard of what Star was doing I knew I had to act fast with the way that those two idiots spoke it seemed that Star was on some kind of vengeance mission. Which wasn't like her that wasn't how my Star was not matter how angry she may become, she wouldn't hurt a child that is something that I would do in my moment of rage. I do not know what happened while she was on the other side and faced Mikael but Star changed like there was something dark growing inside her. This what I was told was proof that she was acting out of charter. So I had to do whatever it took to stop her from doing anything that in time she would regret I know it will make her feel good to hurt Monique for a moment or even for a short time. Once that adrenaline would be gone and she realises what she has done it will destroy her in many ways. When I arrived at the cauldron I was stunned beyond belief the crowed that appeared around Star.
I could hear them chant there witchy words as she continue to threaten a broken Monique on the ground it didn't seemed to be affecting her whatever they were doing I had two option here to massacre the lot of them. Or to grab the woman I love and save her from this fate. I chose the latter as in this moment in time it seemed that Star was a fallen soul. If she was too succeeded in what she came here for it would change her forever, she will not be the Star Mikaelson that we have all known and loved. To say she was not impressed with me taking away from what she wanted to do was an understatement. She was acting out of charter she wasn't thinking straight and I hoped to try and get through to her. Which in the end I did.
As she walked away she buckled over in pain and my instant reaction was to help her. The thing about my beautiful Star she tends to forget that she's with child that her action going to the witches may have caused her strain. I tried to help because I was concerned I didn't want anything to happen to her or our child. The both of them meant a great deal to me and I couldn't see my life without one or the other Star and her pride assured me that she was fine but I found it hard to believe as she looked as if the life had been drain from her. Once again I had to hold myself back and I let her drive away in the cab, if it would have been anyone else I would threw them over my shoulder and they could kick and scream as much as they wanted. I wouldn't have backed down but this was Star my ultimate weakness.
Of course I wasn't just going to go back home and put my feet up and carry on with my day. I knew that the werewolves were counting on these moon rings. I will fulfil my side and have their curse removed from him. This is where the problem lied in my relationship with Star I always put matter that were a gain for myself for power before her. I had done this back in 1490's when we first married and now we were united once again I let history repeat. Sometimes the best and worst times of your life can coincide. It is a talent of the soul to discover the joy in pain thinking of moments you long for and knowing you'll never have them again. The beautiful ghosts of our past haunt us and yet we still can't decide if the pain they caused us outweighs the tender moments when they touched our soul. This is the irony of love.
Flash Back—London 1491
Star and I have been married for over a year and we truly had our ups and downs. Most of the arguments that occurred were down to my own doing I thought it would be easy to keep my dark secret of being what I was from the woman who I truly loved more than anything upon this earth. It wasn't because when you love and care for someone so deeply you know there shouldn't be secrets I knew my secret in breaking the curse that laid upon me was slowly destroy my marriage. Elijah spoke to me about telling Star what we were as the days and weeks that went by. Each of us had for such a bond with her that the secret of our immortality becoming harder to keep from her. With Rebekah she had to take breaks away going out of town as lying to Star was something she hated. Elijah at times would need to gain his composure in the solidarity of his room.
Whereas I kept my distance and focused on the matter of finding the doppelgänger to break this curse, it became my obsession even more so now than it had been centuries before. In my obsession I was treating the woman I loved not fairly I didn't like to see her upset but when I did my temper would rise to the surface and then I would look into her eyes at times and see fear. That something I didn't want my beloved to be, I didn't want her of all people to be frighten of me. I knew that this secret of whom I was truly a creature that preyed on blood. That took countless lives and monster some may say. Will eventually allow me to lose the one piece of goodness that I had received in my life for the last 500 years.
So I knew I had to tell her about what I was, Star reaction would not be one of good that I knew. I also knew that once I told her as frighten as she maybe I could compel her to stay. That isn't what I wanted because if the love she held for me was that strong she would love me for my perfections and imperfections. The only person who was frighten right now was myself because I feared the worst. That would be that she wouldn't be part of my life no longer. I got up from my chair in my study and made my way to the east wing where I knew that Star would be. I had to do this. I had to let her know who I was because either way this marriage was doomed either way. As I entered into the library where Star was searching through the book case. I approached her and kissed the side of her cheek, she turned to look at me a little surprised then her beautiful smile stretched to her eyes.
"You are in a pleasant mood today Niklaus. Did your meet with Sir Davis go well?" She spoke lovingly as she placed her hand on my cheek. Even after all this time when Star would merely touch me she still sent a shiver down my spine.
"Yes Sweetheart it went very well indeed." I moved her hand from my face and held it into mine. "Star come sit with me." I began to towards the window where there was a bench so we could sit. As I knew what I was going to tell her was best if we were seated. My heart was racing at the thought of telling her my dark secret but I knew it was the right thing to do I didn't do the right thing often it was a rare occurrence but this was something I had to do.
"Niklaus is there something bothering you?" Star spoke as he looked into my eyes and touched my cheek affectionately. "You look…. Riddled with worry. Is everything okay?" I knew she was worrying because of my expression that I was giving her I never thought it would have been so hard to tell another of what I truly was. I used to relish in tell a person I was a vampire and seeing the fear in their eyes. With Star I did not want to see that I want her to still look at me in the same way as she had always.
"Star you do know I love you unconditionally?" I needed her to know that because at times I may have not shown that. I held her hand that was pressed to my cheek I could see that she looking at me bewildered as she couldn't comprehend why I was speaking like this.
"Niklaus I do not question your love towards me. It's just at times…." She began to speak but stopped and I knew it was because she worried that I might react badly towards her.
"Please speak. Don't ever be afraid to speak you mind my beautiful Star" I watched as she seemed a little hesitant to speak and I kissed her soft lips to assure her that I would not be mad. "Please tell me what going through that beautiful mind." I spoke as I cupped her face and she still had this look of uncertainly which sadden me, as I've allowed my Star to fear me that she felt that she could not speak her mind.
"A-at times it's like I don't know what to predict from you." She slowly moved my hands from her face and held them tightly while looking down. "I know being a lord is extremely stressful, I do understand that Niklaus." She looked up at me and I could see her eyes glistening as I knew the truth to all this was my behaviour. It was nothing to do with being a lord it was my temperament that drove her to be so fearful towards me. "I feel that you forget I'm your wife, you can share your burdens with me. I know you may think that you doing that will make you less of a man—" Star way of marriage was very different from any woman I met as most wouldn't want to know there husband thoughts. They were quite happy to carrying on with their day with no concern with what worried there husband. "—But it wouldn't Niklaus. I'm not just your wife to comfort you in your bed. I want you to be able to turn to me and tell me what is on your mind." She spoke with such compassion in her voice and I knew I had to tell her. As much as I did it was that fear of losing her but I have never allowed fear to hold me back before. Then I've never loved another as much as I loved Star before.
"I think it would frighten you what in my mind….I have far too many demons." I took my hand out of her and walked away to pour myself a drink as I need something to ease these nerves.
"We all have demons Niklaus." Star called out. I turned to her and couldn't help but smile as she couldn't have any demons. Someone as sweet and kind as Star wouldn't even know the meaning of demons.
"Someone like you. I highly doubt it." I drained my drink then I notice she was in front of me. Waiting for me to tell her and I knew I had to. I will not allow my fear to stop me as if I love her as much as I say I do. Then she deserved to know the truth about me that I'm a creature that most feared. "There is a part of me that I do want to share with you…." It was like the words wouldn't come out. Star came a little closer and placed her hands on my chest one directly over my heart. I felt it skip a beat as she did.
"Then do so my love. Whatever demons you think you have they are mine too. When I married you I promised you I will love you always and forever, with demons or not Niklaus that will never change." The words that I longed to hear from her. Star was woman of her word and she stood by them but something as drastic as this I wasn't sure if she would. The door the library open and Fredrick who was our butler.
"My lord. The duke of Kent has arrived." He announced. This duke had important information on the where about of the doppelgänger. This was the closet that I had been to getting in reaching distance from finally being rid of this curse.
"Thank you Fredrick. I will be there in a moment." I turned to look Star who was still waiting for me to speak of what I wanted to tell her. "Duties call my beloved." I saw the disappointment in her eyes as I spoke. I kissed her soft lips as I pulled away I rested my forehead to hers. "I stand by my word too Star, I will love you always and forever.'"
Present Day
I often wonder if I had told Star that day what I was if she would have stood by my side, something tells me she would have ran a mile. Then again she and I were like two magnets that were drawn to one another. We both collided into each other's world to make the other a better person. Star brought out the goodness in me the goodness that had been buried with the years of betrayal. Whereas I brought out in Star the fighter in her that was always there. Star very different from the woman I knew in 1490's and when she discover what I was and my family was. She turned into this warrior that faced that there are such things as demons in this world. Maybe the reason why were brought together was because of that and because of the fate she had bestowed upon her. I recall a comment that Damon made once we moved here about how Star and I were. 'The way you move you orient yourself around him without even thinking about it. When he moves even a little bit you adjust your position at the same time. Like magnets… or gravity. You're like a… satellite, or something.' As I just spoke of Star and I were like magnet drawn to one another no matter what. So she choose to push me away but I can't let that happen. Not now with her being with child I couldn't just stand back.
I knew that Star was still in the city back at that apartment that Damon and Star had stayed after I threw her out. I stood on the roof top of the building across the street where I could see into the room where Star was laying. She didn't look good whatsoever there was clearly something wrong. As I listen in I heard her speak to Damon telling him that it was time that she knew the baby was coming, her voice was weak as she groaned in pain. This was something I hated to see, to see the woman you love to go through something like this is truly heart breaking. Even if in the end something so beautiful would come of it all it doesn't stop you from wanting to take the pain away. Every part of me wanted to go into that apartment and be there for her but I didn't want to cause her further distress. Damon spoke words of encouragement to her as he placed a cold compress to her forehead. He cared for her dearly that why one of the reason I respected him because of his loyalty and admiration he held for her.
Silas came into the room and asked Damon if they could speak. There was something about the tone of his voice that intrigue me more than anything. They both left the room and I was ready to jump down to get closer so I could hear there discussion, it wasn't needed as they both came out of the building and walked into the alley at the side. I jumped across to the other side to listen in and as I did I couldn't believe what I was hearing. They both spoke of how Star didn't have much time left and that Silas needed to do his part to assure she wouldn't die.
I million emotions filled me in that one moment the thought of losing Star once again was something I knew I couldn't deal with, it would truly destroy me in far too many ways and what was left of my humanity would be gone. There was far too many emotions to deal with right now most I didn't know how to control. I was about to jump down when I saw that Damon and Silas had gone I jumped to the street below I made my way into the building using my speed and kicking the door open the apartment. Damon turned around and horror filled his eye as they met mine.
"When were you going to tell me that Star is dying?" I growled at him as I vamp-sped to him grabbing him by his throat.
"Like you even care?" Damon spat as I continued to tighten my grip "You think this is what she needs right now?! You coming here barking your orders." With my free hand I swung it and punched him in the face causing him to bleed from the mouth. "She don't want to see you Klaus!" He yelled as I went toward the room and he was in front me stopping me going into the room. Once again I grabbed hold of him throwing him across the room making him land on the table and breaking it.
"As honourable as your intention are Damon. That's the woman I love in that room who is about to give birth to my son. How can you expect me not to do anything to stop what you knew all along?" I tried to keep my temper under control as I knew on the other side of that door was Star. From what I saw before she wasn't looking good. I wanted to see her and be there for her but this arrogant Salvatore wants to play bloody hero.
"Yeah and keep beating me up going to make her change her mind." He spoke as he got to his feet. Damon wasn't going to back down from all this but I couldn't allow him to stop me seeing her. "Klaus your own actions have made her not want to see you. It's not me who stopping you. It's YOU." He raised his voice to me and I knew he had every right to because he was right it was my own actions that had placed me in this predicament. To hear it from another wasn't what I needed right now as I knew what I had done and didn't need reminding.
"I do not need to be reminded how I treated her Damon, I know what I did. That not what important now we need to find a way to keep her alive." That was the important part because I honestly didn't know how long we had. There was only one way of her survival and that was to get a witch involved maybe they could stop the inevitable from happening. "I better go and grab myself a witch. They know of a way even if I have to beat it out of them." I began to make my way to the front door that was barely on it's hinges I couldn't stand around here arguing with Damon I needed to find a way to save Star.
"Klaus it's all in hand." Damon spoke calmly as he intercepted me. "Look here not the best place to talk." He indicated for me to follow him and reluctantly I did as I needed more information about this. My brain was racing along with my heart with all that I found out because I was going to lose her again. This time I could stop it from happening I've grieved far too many times for my loss of Star and I intend for that not to happen again.
"How certain is it that she will die." I asked as we reached the roof top of the building. As I needed to know how accurate all this was. "How long have you and Star known of this?" I demanded as my patients was wearing thin by now.
"When I was in Italy. Some kind written prophecy or whatnot. I told Star when I came back but of course she didn't believe me. She doesn't want to believe that the one thing she longed for was going to lead to her death." That was something typical of Star after what she had learnt about her own prophecy she didn't believe in all that. "You know how we wondered how Star suddenly became human—" Damon spoke with a little humour in his voice and I recalled how he and I were concerned about this transformation. While Star saw all as a blessing that she had been given the chance to be like any other human to live a life. "—Well that all down to her daddy." Once again Damon used sarcasm to hid his anger from this situation.
"Silas?" I questioned as I didn't expect for him to be the one to had done this to her. He had made her mortal? Why would he do that to her?
"Yep! And the douche didn't realize that fulfilling his little girls dreams would be her death sentence." As Damon spoke that this was the reason why she was going to die. I had to turn away because this was getting far too much for me. So many regret began to fill my mind as if I wasn't so preoccupied in taking New Orleans back I would know all this. We could have done something sooner to stop all of this from happening. My love for power outweighed my love for my Star that what hurt more than anything because it was untrue. She was my world my absolute everything and I failed her. "Klaus I don't want to lose her as much as you do. Even though you're an ass and you treated her like she was nothing—" Damon spoke and I turned to him ready to attack him once again as I wasn't here to be reminded of my terrible deeds.
"I don't have time Damon for—" I began to yell at him but he stopped me in mid-sentence.
"Can you just stop listening to the sound of your own voice, and shut the hell up!" He raised his voice to me and it did not please me whatsoever. I needed to know what he knew and ripping his tongue out wasn't going to give me my answers. "Star not going to die Klaus. Silas made sure of that. He found a way to save her, some kind of spell called animam pro anima….." Damon tried to pronounce the name. As he did I recalled what the spell was.
"A soul for a soul…. whose soul is he intending to use to replace Stars?" That what it was. The spell would be cast to replace a soul that about to leave with another. In most cases it was a sacrifice of a loved one who would want to allow the other person to live a long fruitful life.
"It seems that Silas stepped up to being a father." I didn't quite understand what Damon was getting at. That Silas was stepping up to be a father. "It will be his." I stood there shaking my head as it was impossible for Silas to do such a thing. Damon was deluded if he think that Silas will be the one to save Star.
"That's impossible his immortal. Souls are only obtained by humans." Which was a fact as when you are immortal you have been touched by death your soul is gone. Silas has been immortal for two thousand years it was impossible for this even to be achieved.
"Well that's what he is now. Silas for two thousand years had refused to take the cure for immortality, but for the life of his daughter he would. His mortal now." I was stunned by this revelation as I never expect for Silas to do such a thing. But there many things that a father would do for their child that even includes give up there life for there's "He give his life for hers. Some would say that selfless act, but I say he owes it to her after all he was the one who did this to her." I tried to process all this in my mind and it could work that now he is mortal but a spell such as this would need a witch with great power. Even if you had that the chances of it working wasn't exactly high or everyone would be doing it.
"I've heard of this spell and its success rate isn't exactly high. You would need a witch with impeccable power to attain such a spell. It doesn't look like there much time left." My voice was filled with sorrow as I began to walk away. I knew I needed to find some witch that could perform such as spell and the witches of the French quarters were not the friendly of bunches when it came to the two women that carried my children.
"Well that's been covered." Damon spoke as he appeared in front of me. "Davina is the one who will be doing it. Silas believes she has enough power to do this I know his not the most trusting man after everything, but one thing I've witness with my own eyes is how much he loves his daughter and is willing to do whatever it takes to keep her alive." What enraged me more than anything after hearing that was that Davina knew of Star fate.
"Davina she knows of all this too?!" I raised my voice to him as any moment I about to blow. "Who else know Elijah? Does the whole bloody French Quarters know apart from me?!" That how it felt to me right now that I the man she was meant to be in love with. The man who is the father of the child she carries finds all this out now and it may be too late for me to help save her.
"Just the people who needed to know." Damon spoke calmly as I shot him a look as I was one of those people who needed to know. "Don't give me that look Klaus. You haven't been exactly husband of the year…. Are you even that anymore? I heard about you burning your marriage certificate." I looked away from him as he was right I hadn't be the man that Star needed. I have failed her in so many ways and it all been brought to light on this night. "Look I'm not here to fight you. I'm not even hear to feel sorry for you. I'm here for one person only who in the end of all this will survive, but she will lose the one parent she has ever known." I knew that Star would be utterly destroyed with Silas intension as honourable as they were I didn't see her agreeing to all this but then again what do I know about the woman I love.
"Does Star know of Silas intension?" I watched as Damon looked at me clenching his jaw which meant that she had no idea about it all.
"No. And it needs to stay that way. She finds out what he is doing it will block the spell and it will be her in a casket not him." Damon was right if she knew it would stop the spell. I stood there trying to think of other options so she didn't have to lose her father. As much as I didn't like Silas I knew how much Star loved him and I didn't want her to go through the heartache of losing him. I couldn't think of a human that would be willing enough to give there life for her. Even if I was to pick a random stranger from the street and compel them it wouldn't work. As this spell contains one vital ingredient 'love' for the dying person. "So Klaus all I'm asking from you is to back away. Let me talk to her. Maybe I can make her see some sense to have you there." Damon spoke with compassion in his voice and I could hear the sincerity that he would speak to her about my presence.
"Damon believe me or not. I do love her." Damon stood there and nodded he's head in understanding. There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known or everyone you have ever loved for the sake of something greater.
Star P.O.V
As I got into the cab I didn't feel right it felt like something was pushing hard down on my pelvis and I knew that was a sign that my little boy was planning to make an appearance. I felt excited but also frighten at the same time as Damon words began to spin around in my mind. That this child would bring my death. From the so confident Star that I was saying about it was a load of rubbish to now where I can feel the life being drained from me. Maybe this was what meant to happen meaning that most women felt like this when they are preparing for child birth. The one thing that made me different from other mom's to be is the fact that this child was clearly not human. From the bruise and how I had to drink blood to actually not feel the pain that it gave me. Made me open my eyes that there was some form of truth behind all this.
The cab stopped outside the apartment block and I paid the driver and got out of the cab. As I did I had one of those unbearable shooting pains again but I held my screams in this time. I slowly made my way up to the apartment what would have taken me a few minutes normal took me nearly twenty instead, I was trying to open the door it flew open and there stood an angry Damon. He was about to yell at me but stopped as soon as I let out almighty scream from the pain I had been enduring. The anger from his face disappear in a moment and he helped me into my room placing me on the bed Damon kept asking me if the baby coming fear began to overwhelm me and I couldn't help but cry. Damon embraced me telling me everything was going to be fine but I didn't see the light at the end of this tunnel. Nor did I share my feeling about all this to him as he was trying to be strong for me.
I began to get feverish and Damon tried to keep me cool with cold compress he kept telling me each pregnancy was different that having a fever could happen. Damon and his googling he really believed this was normal procedure during child birth. I knew otherwise as I had felt this once before, back in 1492 when I faked my own death the symptoms of dying and this was what was happening right now. There was no point in denying it as I had to accept what was coming to me. Damon had left me to get some rest so he can get everything prepared for the birth. The way he was acting it was like he was the father to my child. Whereas the father to my child sulking at home or plotting away some dastardly deed to retain his beloved city.
I managed to eventually fall asleep until I heard loud voices and crashing of something breaking I felt my heart accelerate in fear but as I regain my composure I listen and the two voice were of Nik and Damon. Niklaus had found out about my secret the one I've been wanting to tell him but never had the courage to tell him. The raised voice finally stopped and the apartment was filled with silence. My heart was aching because I knew what all this was doing to Nik I also knew that he would hate me for keeping this from him but he didn't make things easy for me. Each and every time there was something that would occur I know that was no excuse. But how do you tell the man you love that you are going to die? I laid there crying thinking of what was going on as I knew Nik and how he return and end up yelling at me. Damon was right I didn't want to see him as all of this was hard enough to deal with I couldn't look him in the eye and confirm what he knew. I heard knock on the bedroom door as I turned I expect to see enraged Niklaus, but instead I saw Davina who looked at me with tear filled eyes as she came closer to the bed.
"Oh my god Star, it's happening isn't it?" As she spoke her voice terrible. I tried to smile and held her hand and my to her was cold to the touch. She sat beside me and I need to assure her not to worry because I didn't want her to know of my fate.
"If you mean the baby coming the yes." I tried to keep my tone pleasant as if I was excited for what about to come. Deep down the fear was brewing deeper I looked to her and I could see that she looked away and I could hear that she was crying. "That isn't what you meant, is it?" She turned back to me with tears streaming down her cheeks while shaking her head.
"No. Damon told me about what will happen to you….." She spoke through her tears and all I felt was anger because I didn't want her to know. Davina was young only 16 and she had been through more hardship than anyone her age should go through.
"Damon had no right in telling you Davina." I tried to raise my voice but as I did I began to cough. Davina handed me a glass of water and I took a sip from it.
"He told me because he knows how much I care about you Star." I knew how much she cared for me I just wanted to protect her from all this. "You were more of a mother to me than my own." I was a little taken back to hear her say that considering I hadn't been in her life for the last eight years "It's been so hard for me to not speak about this to you….." She began cry even more than before and it broke my heart as after all this time we finally reunited once. I sat up and hugged her and she let her tears continue and this was the reason why I didn't want to tell her.
"Please don't cry sweetie." I pulled away from her and began to wipe away her tears. "I would have loved to see my son grow, and turn into a young man, but that not what the fates ask of me" She looked at me while her bottom lip quivered as she tried to attempt to speak.
"You know this is because it's Klaus child. It's because of his bloodline that this is happening to you." Davina tone changed as soon as she brought up Nik name I sense a lot of anger towards him. Now she felt that he was to blame for all this but he wasn't.
"I wouldn't want a child with anyone else…."
Flash Back- London 1492
It was the night before Niklaus grande party and as every other year we had guest that would come to dine the night before it was what Niklaus would say pre-birthday celebrations. Our relationship had improved somewhat he didn't lose his temper as much these day I knew he was trying because he wanted to see me happy. I tried to show my happiness even when I actually felt sadness as time was ticking away and I knew at some point I would have to leave him behind. They would notice that I wouldn't not age and how was I meant to explain that to all of them. Without them labelling me as a witch of some kind I knew I had maybe a year left with the Mikaelson maybe two at a stretch. This was going to be one of the hardest thing I will ever have to do in my 500 years. To walk away from the man who had captured my heart and soul I knew it had to be done I had to keep protecting myself from whatever evils that are out there. I will hold the memories with Niklaus close to my heart as that all I could do as in years to come he will die and my life will continue.
We all sat in the grand parlour after dinner. Niklaus was entertaining Lord Timothy along with Elijah while I was entertaining his wife Lady Elizabeth. They were both new to London but Timothy held some connection to the royal family and of course Niklaus saw that as opportunity. Lady Elizabeth wasn't the easiest person to talk to as half of her conversations consisted of talking about herself. I sat there just smiling and agree to what she was speak not really listening, knew I had to be hospitable to the most annoying person but her screeching voice alone was driving me crazy.
"Lady Star when we will be expecting the pitter patter of tiny feet?" She spoke in her high pitch annoying tone that snapped me out of my daze. I was about to speak when Lord Timothy appeared out of nowhere.
"Youth will not always be on your side." He spoke loud and obnoxiously and my eyes advert to Niklaus and Elijah who stood there looking a little taken back as was I. That was something that Niklaus and I have never discussed and I thanked my lucky stars as i didn't know if I could actually bare a child. Also I don't think that Niklaus was in any urgency to expand the Mikaelson bloodline.
"It's not something that Niklaus and I have discussed." I tried not to snap as the both of them were being a little too personal asking such a question. Or maybe it wasn't and I was taking it a little more to heart because I knew deep down I couldn't give Niklaus a child. "We are just enjoying our time as a married couple." I smiled as I looked over at Niklaus who seemed a little surprised by my responds and I hope it wasn't going to end up with us arguing.
"Lord Niklaus, I'm sure you would be wanting a son to continue your reign." Timothy turned to Nik and spoke in triumph as if to mock what I had spoken. I watched as Niklaus walked over to me and placed his arm around my waist then placing a kiss on my cheek.
"As my wife had just spoken, we are just enjoy our lives before any children come into our lives." I felt relief that he agreed with what I had said. It wasn't because I did not want a child with Niklaus it just I didn't know much about myself. I'm a young woman that has lived for over 500 years something told me baring a child was something I couldn't do.
"Just a little unusual most men would want his wife bore children from the moment they are wed." Once again Lord Timothy spoke but this time Niklaus let go of my waist and grabbed him by the scruff of his jacket. He was about to hit him which surprised me as this wasn't something he would normally do in front of me.
"Niklaus!" I raised my voice slightly to show my disappointment in the way he was behaving. Once I spoke he let go of him and stood inches from his face.
"I think it is time for you and your wife to leave." Niklaus spoke dangerously and Lord Timothy. Within moments they left and I excused myself from the both of them.
I went up into our bedroom chamber and got undressed into my night garments. As I sat at my dresser brushing my hair I kept thinking about how it would be a lovely gift to give Niklaus a son or even a daughter. I knew he would make an amazing father and with this knowledge of the world along with Elijah. The child would be well educated. It just sad that I wouldn't be that woman who would be able to give him that precious gift. That sadness me more than anything because if I could have a child I would want him to be the father.
"Star…" I looked up into the mirror before me to see Niklaus standing behind me with a slight worried expression and I turned on the stool to face him.
"Yes Niklaus." I smiled as I watched him crouch down before me which was not like Niklaus and there was a look in his eyes that I hadn't seen before.
"You've never spoken of wanting a child. Is that something that your heart desires?" He asked and I notice for the first time I've known Niklaus that there was a definite fear in his voice. This really did surprised me as I said children was not something we had ever discussed and I knew I couldn't give him what maybe in his desire to have them. But he asked me what my heart desired and that I knew I could answer.
"What my heart desire Niklaus is you. Having children has not ever entered my mind." That was a slight lie about it not entering my mind but I knew after decade after decade that I could not have children. For someone like me who was immortal the gift of being a mother was not to be in my fate. I placed my hands on either side of his face. "Finding a man that connects with me as you do. That the only desire I've ever longed for." That was the truth this is what I had been searching for over the last 500 years. For the first time I was happy and I knew this happiness wouldn't last forever, but I was going to relish in it as much as I could. I watched as Niklaus smile and leaned in to kiss me but it wasn't a sweet gentle kiss as he would give normally. This kiss was filled with such hunger and desire that brought butterfly sensation to my stomach. Niklaus was my home my soul mate. There was just something about him that made me feel at peace when I was in his arms. He pulled away and as he did I could see that lustful look of desire that he felt for me. Which gave a cold chill up my spine this man right before me was my true love.
"Your something truly incredible Star." before I could speak he had picked me up and brought me over to the bed. Where Niklaus gave me a night of true passion. It was different from other times his soul focus was on me and only me. He worshiped my body as if it was a temple I truly believe that I was sent to heaven that night. The night before everything changed…
Present Day
"Neither of us knew that the other couldn't give them what they truly wanted. A child that they could call their own." I watched as she looked deep in thought I had to make her understand that all this was a blessing not a curse "So no Davina, I would never change the fact that Nik is the father to my son." Which was the truth from the moment I laid eyes upon him I knew if there was a possibility of having a child it would be with him. Even when Stefan and I began to court I never looked to him saw that I would want him to be the father of my child.
"As touching as your story was. It really did sound like a different Klaus." Davina seemed surprised that Nik did have a heart once upon a time. He still did but in the mist of gaining control of this city of sin he had lost his way. "It doesn't change the fact of everything he has done till this day. He used Tim to blackmail me to help him. He killed Tim. Then to finish it all off he hurt you Star." I could see that she was becoming upset and that not what I wanted. Tim death nearly destroyed her. "The woman he meant to be so in love with. He throws you out on the street and starts some sordid affair with Genevieve" That all I heard these days about Nik and that harlot. I knew what happen and because of that I couldn't be with him. I chose to walk away but it didn't mean I didn't love him. No it meant that I couldn't be with a man who claimed to love me and went with another.
"I don't need reminding of the play by play Davina." I tried to not snap at her because I knew what Klaus did to me hurt her also. "I'm fully aware of everything that has happened. I wish I could take your suffering away." If there was a way to bring Tim back or to rewind everything that happened to save him I would. But that was asking for the impossible. "Your talking like you want to go at war with Nik that something you can't do." I began to say but her expression began to harden and she got up from the bed and I could see anger appear on her face now.
"Why? Why shouldn't I? He deserves to feel pain Star." She raised her voice slightly then the tears began to pour once again. "I'm going to lose you because of him." She sobbed and seeing her being this heartbroken was unbearable. I needed to snap her out of this vengeful mode that she had placed herself in.
"Because you can't live with the guilt of letting my son not be without a father when his mother won't be there." I spoke to her calmly in hopes that she will see some sense. "That's not you Davina you're not vengeful—" She shook her head I couldn't let her do this because I did not want either of them to be hurt by the other. "—Please promise me you will not do anything silly like go head to head with Nik." She didn't answer which made me believe that exactly what she was planning on doing. I had to try and knock some kind of sense into her. I tried to sit up and it was difficult as my lower back ached but I managed somehow to do it without complaining about the pain. "Davina you speak as if you see me as a mother to you. As I look to you and see you as if you are my own child." I needed her to make me a promise that she will not do anything drastic because Nik stupidity. "I don't know if I will see tomorrow, but take this as my dying wish. Please do not do anything to cause a war with Nik." I watched as she looked at me for a long moment before shaking her head.
"I can't do this." She turned away walking to the door. I tried to climb out of bed and everywhere ached but I needed her to hear me out and understand I'm trying to saving her from herself.
"Davina….." I called out weakly as I did I had a pain in my pelvis that made me drop to my knees. "Arghhhh" I cried out in pain as I was on all fours trying to breathe through the pain.
"Hey." I heard Damon voice then suddenly I felt his touch as he tried to get me up from the floor. "You shouldn't be out of bed." He spoke as he brought me back over to the bed.
"Why did you tell her?" I asked him as another sharp pain overwhelmed me and I grabbed the pillow squeezing it tight until it faded away.
"Star please don't be mad at me." Damon spoke with concern as I tried to do these stupid breathing excises that were not working. I didn't need for him to know how much pain I was in right now because Damon would only panic. "She needed to know don't you think she would be even more devastated if she after and wasn't able to say goodbye." I knew Damon intension weren't of malice but I just wanted to protect Davina from all this. "What I am talking about you're not dying—" He spoke firmly and I looked at him attempted to arch my brow. He sat next to me and held my hand tightly in his. "—You Star Mikaelson are a fighter. What was it you said to me about prophecy being a load of bull crap?" Yeah I recalled that conversation but now reality had kicked in and I'm going through the motions I knew there was truth in it. "You're going to get through this most mothers are frighten when there about to give birth, and you are no different from them. You're allowing your fear to get the better of you." Damon was trying to give me words of encouragement I knew that but even if I did start to think positivity about all this. There was that chance that I won't make it.
"What if I don't survive?" I looked to him and his face filled with horror as this was the first time I spoke my fear out loud. "Damon if I don't making it through this there—" I began to say but he stopped me in mid-sentence.
"Star. No. You will have this baby you will see another day. Today isn't the day that you will die." He spoke firmly as if he could really predict the future. None of us knew what would happen but I needed to be prepared. I needed to know that if I didn't make through all this that my wishes would be fulfilled.
"Please I need to say this." I pleaded to him and as he closed his eye a tear rolled down his cheek. This was as difficult for Damon maybe more so than Davina as there was a lot of history between us. "You Damon have been one of the kindest people I have met in all my years walking on this earth. You carry off this persona of you can't be hurt or that nothing can truly hurt you. You cover your scars with sarcasm…" That was the truth of it. Damon would use that part of him to hide from the world what he truly felt. Apart from one person and that was me. "You will always hold a special place in my heart. You've not only been a friend to me but also a brother, a protector, a person who I can't live without." As I began to tell him how much he meant to me my tears began because this was my only opportunity to say to him what was in my heart. "I want you to be there for my son Damon—" Damon was about to talk but I needed to say my piece. "—Damon please let me finish. They're going to be testing times ahead, and the witches won't back down in trying to hurt him." That was something I was sure of. While in my womb I could protect him but in this cruel world where possibly my existence will end I couldn't. I needed to know that Damon will do everything in his power to protect my baby boy.
"Star you look exhausted. You need to rest we can talk later." He spoke as he pushed me back down on to the bed so I was lying flat, but I resisted as I need to know for my own piece of mind that he will fulfil this request out of respect for me.
"There may not be a later so please let me say this." Damon eyes began to fill up once again and I wasn't saying all this to hurt him. The last thing I wanted to do was hurt the one person who was a true friend. But these things had to be said. "Niklaus will always be the father to this child and I know that he will protect him as best as he can. The issue is that Nik is his impulsiveness and the one thing that worries me in his moment of madness he will forget what matters most." Which is been done many of time and I don't want Nik in his rage to forget his needs for his son. As he forgot about my needs and I was the woman he couldn't live without. "Damon I want you to be there for my son. I want you to love and care for him as you have done for me." That all I asked of him to be an uncle so to say to even talk about the crazy moment that he and I had together. That something I knew Damon would do he would speak to my little boy about his amazing mother.
"Star please—" Damon voice broke as he was trying to stop me from speaking but I wasn't finished.
"Damon please I need to know that my son will be safe." As I spoke I felt another sharp pain overwhelm me which made me grab the sheets on the bed to stop myself from crying out in pain. I took in a deep breath then looked at Damon who had turned away from me with his hands over his face. "I need you to promise me that if I don't make it. If this my last moments I need to know that you will do whatever it takes to protect the one thing I leave behind." That all I wanted to know. Even though in my heart I knew he would I just needed to hear him say it to me. He moved his hands from his face and wiped away his tears.
"Star I can't think like that. I can't think that I'm going to lose you. Cause in my heart I know you will make it through this." Damon spoke with determination in his voice. It was like he knew something I didn't or maybe that was just hope. "Screw this prophecy bullshit. You will make it through this I promise you that you will hold your baby in your arms. That we will protect him from whatever tries to harm him." He was so sure of himself that I was going to survive and it was so comforting and beautiful because Damon believed that I could fight this. The thing was I knew what death felt like and I could feel the life draining slowly out of me and my fear in this moment if my child will even make it.
"I love that you're being so positive about all this. But if there no 'we' in the end of this." I needed for him to face that I might not make it. "As much as you and Nik don't get along I need you to be there for my boy. Can you do that for me?" Damon just stared at me while biting his bottom lip I knew he was hesitating to answer but had to. I needed to know that my son will not only have his father but also the man who I saw as a brother to be there for him too.
"Fine I'll agree to your terms. But I'm going to remind you of this conversation and how deluded you were. You know that. Right?" Once again he used his sarcasm to hide his true feeling and fears. I wasn't going to press on the matter no longer as he had made that promise to me. He held my hand and his expression changed slightly. "Star. Klaus is in the other room I'm sure you heard that he knows what going on." I took my hand away from his and hearing that Nik was in the other room brought fear and even more heartache. "He just want to be here for you…." Damon tried to explain as I tried to move further away from him. As I did another pain began to overwhelm me again and this time I couldn't keep my screams in. Damon rubbed my lower back to sooth me but it wasn't helping much if I'm honest. I turned to face him and saw the fear on his face
"I can't Damon. I can't face him…." I began to speak through my tears and the pain that began to excel and I let out another scream. I couldn't see Nik I just couldn't because going through all this was hard enough. Then to see his face filled with sorrow and heartache will bring my death even closer. "Please don't let him come in here…." I began to panic at the thought of it all I knew I was getting hysterical but I couldn't see him "Please…" I beg Damon one final time before another pain came but this time it was so intense that I felt my eyes roll back then I just saw darkness.
Author P.O.V
In the dead of night the city of New Orleans lights dwindled to a smattering of stubborn night owls. Sequin-silver stars like the scattered embers of a dying fire winked down illuminating the atramentous curtain of sky. The wind was chill the moon under siege by stars seemed to lighten the night bringing forth stars that shone and hung in the blackness. The never ending blackness consumed everything. Except the stars which stood out like pebbles in front of a storm. Ever enduring these shone with the night cowered in a inky black sky. It seemed like guerrilla warfare as the darkness controlled the sky yet the stars controlled the gleaming spots of where they originated. The war continued across the constellations. As that one star shone brightly more than the others there was one part of the city where there was a darkness that overwhelmed a small group of people.
Across the canal down that separated the French Quarters down very Dark Street there was a heart breaking momentous moment happening. As the man who claims to be the king of New Orleans is about to become a father for the first time this what is meant to be such a joyous moment for a mother and father when there child is to enter into this world. Unfortunately for Klaus and Star Mikaelson this moment that was meant to be fill with all that joy was filled was replaced with sadness.
Klaus Mikaelson the original hybrid the man that was most feared by the supernatural world and to the human world who knew of him. Wasn't that man that he portrayed on this one night as he heard the conversation between the love of his existent Star and her dear friend Damon. Each word that was spoken was like a stake to his heart. As this felt like history repeating itself all over and the pain that he felt that one winter night of 1492 was nothing compared to now. Hearing her pleads of not wanting to see him broke the hybrid as all he wanted was to be there for his one true love. Klaus knew of his mistakes and he knew that there was no way to repair them. It was one of the most difficult things for him to do to stay away from her and not go in all guns blazing.
As that was a typical Klaus Mikaelson behaviour but he didn't want to cause her further distress. He knew she was dying but he was left with the hope of what Damon told him about Silas plan. Klaus was sceptical at first about it all but when he thought about how Silas adored his daughter that he would make this ultimate sacrifice for her all so she could see her son grow and be the mother that she deserved to be. Klaus paced in the living room as it had become quite in the room as Star screams of her labour had stopped. He felt fear at first that just maybe the inevitable had happened that he had lost her, he shook those thought from his mind. He knew his beloved Star was a fighter that she was strong enough to survive this. That her love for their son would give her the will to live until the spell had been cast.
Damon watched as Star passed out cold from the pain that had been inflicted on her from this labour she was going through. He was out of his mind with worry as he shook her lightly pleading her to wake he wanted to call Klaus but he wanted to respect her wishes that she didn't want to see him. Damon was put in a situation right now where he knew no matter what he did neither Star or Klaus would be happy. "Klaus!" Damon yelled and in an instant Klaus was in the room and the first thing he did was rush over to Star. "She passed out I don't know how to wake her." Damon spoke with panic in his voice as he fear that time was not on their side.
Klaus looked at Star and all the fear he felt he pushed to one side as he knew he had to do everything in his power to keep her alive until the spell was done. He began to position Star body so she was lying flat removing the pillow from beneath her head. The turning her head to one side so that her tongue doesn't fall back into her throat. "Damon we need cold moist towel" Klaus demanded and Damon responded quickly Klaus removed Star clothing from her lower body then covered her with the comforter at the bottom of the bed. Damon returned and handed the moist towel to him and gently dabbed it on her face. For the first time in a thousand year Klaus was pleading to the heavenly father to keep her safe and not to let her die the thought of losing her was something he knew he couldn't handle. As he continued to dab her face with this cool moist towel Stat began to stir as she was started to come around.
Star felt light headed and sickly she felt every part of her body ache as if she was slowly dying of some kind of influenza she knew that wasn't the case. She knew death was coming to her but not in the kindest of way. Her eyes fluttered open and as they did she saw the face of the man she loved "Ni-Niklaus" Star struggled to speak but before she could say another word she bolted up straight and let out a blood crudely scream. Star was in labour that was for sure as their child wasn't wasting any time wanting to make his appearance to the world.
"Star everything going to be okay. Damon and I won't let anything happen to you." Klaus assured her as she laid back down he could see that she was weakening and that her heart wasn't beating as rapidly as it should. He knew the chances of her survival were still high as Silas would do his up most to save his little girl. "You're going to be okay. You and our child will make it through this." Klaus spoke with determination in his voice, on this night he will not lose her once again. "The baby coming, and we need to get you ready sweetheart." He turned to see where Damon was and he was on his phone Klaus listen in on the conversation and heard Damon speaking to Silas. He had informed him that Star contractions had started and it was short amount of time before the child would come. Once Damon was off the phone he turned to Klaus and indicated that the spell was about to begin. "Damon you have to deliver the child." Klaus spoke as he sat up a weak and fragile Star and sat behind her so that she was sitting up to be able to push. He could hear Star faint moans as her eyes were hardly staying open "Sweetheart…" Klaus tapped her face lightly and her eyes widen. "You can do this. I'm here with you." He watched as tears began to fill up in her eyes and her face began to scrunch up. "You have nothing to fear Star. Everything going to be okay." He cooed to her as he held her tightly in his embrace kissing the side of her cheek softly repeatedly.
Damon stood there frozen as he was frighten about what was going to happened he knew that he had to focus. He stood at the foot of the bed and raise the comforter to expose Star legs. He felt uncomfortable doing this as this was the woman he respected and didn't want to see her in such a way, but he knew if he didn't help deliver this baby Star along with the child will die. Silas had informed Damon that it would waste too much time coming back there. That he and Davina will do the spell from the greenhouse as it would work from there. All Damon hoped for was that he was right and they did it in time as this baby wanted to come now. "Okay I can do this." Damon spoke out loud, but more to himself. "It's just like that birthing video." Once again he was speaking to himself as he position himself but truly had no idea what he was doing. All Damon knew was that he needed to help his friend through this as best as he could. "Okay Star. We are going to need you to push. Can you do that for me?" Damon spoke with hope in his voice. As he looked up he could see a barely conscious Star in Klaus arms. "Come on Star. You can do this. I'm not letting you give up there little guy who wanting to see his mommy." Damon spoke with high spirits in hope that he spoke of her son that it would give her the strength to do this.
Star felt a daze and weak she could hear Damon talk but it felt afar, her head rested on Klaus shoulder and as she looked up she could see him looking down at her. Speaking works to her that she couldn't comprehend. As she heard Damon speak of her son it was like a jolt of life came to her, she gathered up her strength and attempted to push but she didn't have the energy to do so. "I can't…. I can't do it." She spoke through her tears. She looked up to Klaus who was still cooing in her ear words of encouragement. "Nik I can't do it…." Star in that one moment felt useless. "I'm g-going t-to die a-and I-I'm g-going to die." Star spoke through her hysteria as it all finally sunk in. Star took in a deep breath as she knew that if she didn't push she and her child would both be in a casket. So with all her strength that she had she gave it her all by pushing.
Silas was on his way back to the apartment when he received the phone call from Damon informing him that his daughter Star was in labour. As much as Silas wanted to be there for his daughter and for the last face that he would see before he died he knew for this spell to work that Davina needed to be confident she had only known about this for a short time. With the spell that she did to bring Mikael back to this world Silas knew that being such a distance from her would cause complications. Silas was not frighten for what was to come because in his eyes what waited for him in the afterlife whether it be see his Amara once again or that he faces the devil. He knew this one act of love for his daughter was worth it. Silas finally arrived at the green house and told Davina what was happening and he could see that she was panicking. "Now not the time to be doing that. I need to be just as focus as you were when I helped you bring Mikael back." Silas fear that Davina head was not in the game more than anything. "This is to save Ophelia." He spoke as he opened the grimoire and looked up to Davina "Are you ready?" It wasn't a question more of a statement as he needed her to be prepared for such a big spell.
Davina looked at Silas and could see the fear in his face of the thought of losing Star if they didn't do the spell in time. Davina was grateful to Silas for helping her bring back the one weapon that will truly destroy Klaus and she will use it in her own time. Davina fears of losing Star were shook away as she knew that she had to do this. This was Star only hopes for her survival of all this. "I'm ready." Davina spoke confidently as she knew if she could bring someone back from the other side that she will be able to transfer Silas soul into Star's. "pater pro filia sua sanguinem redigatur." Davina began to chant the spell. "pater pro filia sua sanguinem redigatur." She spoke with determination as she knew that the life of the woman she saw as a mother was in her hand Davina placed her hands either side of Silas head while continuing with the words from the spell. She could hear him crying out in pain which was expected, but she kept her eyes closed to keep her concentration. As she did that she felt something blocking her. "Something not right". She tried to pull away but couldn't it was like the spell took a form of it's own. Silas screams became louder as Davina looked down she could see blood coming from his eyes "Silas what's happening?" Davina spoke with fear in her voice.
Unknown to Davina and Silas there was a high force at play here that wanted to ensure that Star death was going to be fulfilled. The power that this person held was able to control a coven of witches to do her bidding. As Star was very vital to her plan, a plan that she had been plotting for a thousand years to end the existents of the original. The coven gathered in the forest clearing under the full moon. There were six of them kneeling on the points of a star their black garb blended with shadows. Their faces were obscured from any accidental onlookers by their black hoods. Their chant had a hypnotic quality and through the incantation the witches fell into a trance-like state. The trees stood like a menacing guard as if their long swaying branches might reach out and grab any passer-by. They called to the spirits of nature to do their bidding. They tapped into the very power of the earth herself. On that night what they had unleashed could not be tamed.
Star kept trying her hardest but the more she pushed the harder it was for her to continue to find her strength both Klaus and Damon were encouraging her telling her that she was doing ever so well. With their words she kept trying she could feel the baby head. With all the strength Star had in her she gave it her all for this final push. She screamed through the pain as Klaus dabbed her head with cool cloth and telling her that she was doing so well these words that she heard from him made her feel more determine to be sure the life of her son wasn't in danger. The pain began to dull and the cries of the new born filled the room.
Klaus was fearful throughout this whole ordeal something he never thought he would ever witness to see the woman he loves in so much pain not be able to do a thing about it just to sit there and tell her how well she was doing. Klaus was extremely proud of Star as he could see she was weak and her heart was slowly deteriorating. She wasn't giving up, she was being the warrior that he knew her to be that nothing would stop her from delivering this child. Star held Klaus hands tightly as she gave it all for her final push. He looked to Damon who now didn't have any fear in his eyes that he had this huge smile upon his face. Then the cries of a new born baby were heard. Klaus smiled widely as Damon held his son. Klaus stood up and walked over to meet his first born his son as Damon gently placed the baby in his hands. Klaus looked down at this precious gift that had been brought into this world, his own flesh and blood a creation that he and Star had made. "Star you did it. He's here—" Klaus spoke with joy as tears of happiness rolled down his cheek, he looked at he to see her eyes were open but it seemed like there was no life in them. He gave back Damon his son as he began to approach the bed. "Star?" Klaus began to panic and notice that she wasn't breathing. He moved so quickly that he laid Star flat down on the bed and punched a hole into her chest to massage her heart to get it beating once again. "Come on Star. You can't do this." Klaus was trying so hard not to cry or let out any form of emotions as he needed to stay focus. "You will not die!" Klaus yelled and in his hand he could feel that her heart began to beat, he bit into his free wrist and fed her his blood. But the blood over spilled and went on the sheets. "Star please don't do this to me. I need you. I can't do this without you." Klaus spoke through his tears as he couldn't hold it back no longer. The cries of his son ached his heart further as he knew all he wanted was his mother and it seemed as if all hope was lost.
On that night where a new addition to the Mikaelson family was born a broken Klaus held on to the lifeless body of Star. The tears stream down his face as he howled her name in hope that somehow she return. Both Damon and Klaus was grief stricken but there was this tiny baby boy that was the last piece of the woman they both loved. Klaus poured his heart out to the lifeless Star telling her how he regretted and that he could not see a life without her. He held her in his arms rocking her back and forth with the hope that this spell had worked, or just maybe that a drop of his blood entered her system that she would return as a vampire. Klaus held on to two thing in that moment that there was a chance that she would return that he believed in the hope in his heart that she return.
Davina was trying so hard to stop this spell but it was like a force wasn't able to let her stop. Tears flooded down her face as she watched Silas scream in agony. Deep in Davina heart she knew this wasn't what was meant to happen as she sense his soul still attached to him. She pleaded for Silas help but he was immobilise unable to stop what was happening to him. Davina felt an overwhelming feeling come over her as if something or someone had taken over her. Flashes of light breaking in the room sparks flying everywhere the young Davina was frighten. What she feared the most was that she had failed Star. She could see a flicker image coming toward her a dark hooded cloak there was a sense of pure darkness about this apparition that edged it way slowly to her. "pater pro filia sua sanguinem redigatur" Davina cried out as the fear began to spread throughout her body.
The figure stood directly behind Silas who was dying a painful death. Tears of blood covered his face for the first time in two thousand years he felt fear. As deep down in his heart he knew that his Ophelia was going to pass away.
The dark figure looked at the young witch as she persisted with her spell. "There is no saving her. Star mine now." With those words that were spoke the dark figure place it hand on Silas shoulder. He began to choke, gasping for air as he felt all the warmth of his body begin to turn ice cold.
Davina eyes widen as she could see Silas dying before her eyes knowing that this spell wasn't working. That this force that was before her was stopping them saving Star. "No, no, no…" Davina cried out as she knew she wasn't strong enough to fight this intertie. Her fear was being place with anger as she couldn't allow this to happen she couldn't fail Star nor Silas. As he had put faith into her. That he knew she was strong enough to do the impossible. With all Davina might she somehow was able to break the link that this figure had hold her of. "Recedemus Malum." She yelled while rising her hand towards the figure as she did the figure began to back away. The room echoed with dark laughter from the figure mocking Davina. Everything in the room suddenly stopped the lights stop flickering the wind stopped howling. There was utter silence. Silas who was his knees dropped to the ground "No. Silas. Wake up. Please wake up…" Davina cried through her tears but she knew he was gone but in her heart she knew the spell didn't work. "I failed you. I failed Star…" Davina sobbed over the dead body. Her heart shattered as she knew that it was all over there was nothing she could do to bring her back.
The first orange hued rays of sunrise kissed the still dust laden rubble with the same loving care as the undertaker with the recently departed. These soft rays that should have brought warmth to a new day only acted to solidify the reality of their losses. In the darkness of the room Klaus held Star in his embrace still hoping for that chance that she would revive, but under the radiating glow of the clouded sky there was no hiding from it no longer she was gone. Klaus wished with all his might that it would sink back down below the horizon so they could have more time to grieve and process their abrupt change in fortune, but you can't argue with the sun.
The news of the death of Star Mikaelson spread across the city and many mourned for her. Even the ones that she had only met once, as they saw the kindness that she held in her heart they knew she was good person. While Klaus was trying to deal with his grieving he tried to hold the one thing that Star had left behind, but he found it too hard to look at his son without breaking down. Every part of this tiny baby boy resembled the woman whom he had lost. Between Elijah and Damon they began the arrangements for the funeral both were just as broken as the other. They knew something like this was something Klaus couldn't deal with as he couldn't even hold his own child. There was one person who wanted to be there for Klaus to comfort him in this time of sadness and that was Marcel. He knew if he entered the French Quarters that it may bring quarrels that wasn't going to stop him as knew the man he once looked at a father needed to know some vital information.
Marcel walked through the French Quarters as he did there were looks but he did not care. He knew that coming there was finalizing his death but the man that brought him up needed to know what he knew he entered the compound it was empty but he could hear the cooing of a baby and he knew that was Klaus and Star son. Marcel heart ached for Klaus as much bad blood that had been share between them both. This kind of suffering and pain wasn't something that anyone should go through. He made his way up the stairs as he was about to enter the living room he came face with Klaus. "Klaus, I know I'm not meant to step foot in the quarter, but I needed to see you." Marcel looked that the man that he admired deep down and felt his pain as Klaus walked away from him. He could see that the once powerful Klaus Mikaelson had no fight left in him. "Klaus there something you need to know. It's about Star and the life of your son."
Klaus mind felt like it was ready to explode from the moment he finally came to terms with the death of his beloved Star. His mind was filled with 'if'' like if he knew what was going on with Star he could of saved her in some way. If he had stopped for a moment and focus on his wife rather than taking back this city she wouldn't be dead. If he knew of Silas attempts he could have found a way to reverse it. There was far too many 'if' going through his mind that it reached the point where he was just happy to be in his own solidarity. Klaus had just seen Marcel and there wasn't that anger towards him if anything Klaus respected him for coming. As he heard Marcel speak of his belated Star and his new born son Klaus just stared out of the window. "So what is that I need to know?" Klaus turned around to face him his eyes felt sore from all the crying he had done. He didn't care what people thought it was his time for mourning.
"One of my guys got word about some out of town witches gathering in the Bayou. He heard one of them speak in Franco café." Marcel didn't know how Klaus will take to this new but he knew that it had to be told. As the safety of that new born baby was more important that there issue that they had "It turns out that the reason for their little trip here was to make sure that unum praeditos was to die." Marcel see that Klaus eyes widen to what he was hearing. "I know Star was human when she died, but that what she was for the last thousand years."
Klaus was enraged to hear that this was the work of witches it wasn't enough he had to battle with the witches of New Orleans. Now he had witches from a far to hurt his family and succeed in killing the love of his life. "Well they succeeded." Klaus spoke flatly as he took a sit and covered his face with his hands. He didn't have the fight in him to go to war or to take down anyone.
"Yes they have, and I know how much this is hurting you Klaus, but whatever they have planned isn't over." Marcel insisted as he needed for Klaus to snap out of this. There was something coming for that innocent child and from what Marcel heard. The witches will not back down "They succeeded killing Star, but they will come for your son." Klaus jumped to his feet and anger and rage filled his face as he would not allow the witches to take another person from him. "Klaus you gotta be smart about this." Marcel knew of Klaus impulsiveness and feared that he may do something that will cause further destruction.
Klaus remembered the words of what Star had told him that what was stopping him from being great was his impulsive behaviour. "Thank you Marcellus for informing me. I know what I need to do to keep my child safe." With those being his final words Klaus walked away and he knew what he needed to keep his child safe.
The sun shone brilliantly and the virescent colour of the spring day under its glare was offensively bright and cheerful. It was as if they conspired to show Klaus how the world would go on without Star. It shouldn't. Everything should be as grey and foggy as his emotions it should be cold and damp with silent air. But the birds still sang and the flowers still bloomed. As walked through the churchyard like a silhouette of himself wishing he really was as insubstantial as the shadows so that he's insides might not feel so mangled. As Klaus took a pew near the front the long held back tears began to flow. Klaus was not ashamed. He loved her. Now she was gone a light had been extinguished forever in his heart. Klaus sat in his silent grief and awaited the start of the funeral service. Each person that knew of Star had attended even the friends that she had made back in Mystic Falls. Stefan sat beside his brother Damon as they both gazed upon the open casket where laid the woman who had touched their lives.
Struggling to hold back the grief tears flow steadily silently down immobile face feel bruised inside numbness, emptiness, walking behind mahogany casket saying goodbye. Although Star is gone already Klaus soul unwilling to acknowledge the finality of death. Never to look upon her face again or feel her embrace to see the warmth in her eyes and be surrounded by her love. Words from the minister speeches at the service bring a fresh onslaught of tears. Well spoken words a tribute from Elijah of the Star that once shone so bright in their lives. Everyone in black, dusky pink roses on the casket, watching casket lowered into the grave through tear-stained eyes.
The emptiness in Klaus heart the numbness pounding his brain the salty tears that flowed unchecked from his eyes. The shear nothingness that now took hold of his soul threatened to engulf him entirely. His legs buckled as his knees sinking into the sodden earth as he watched the casket lowered to it's final resting place. The awful hollowness, the waves of wretchedness threatened to engulf he's mind, body and soul.
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen nor touched but are felt in the heart. For a thousand years no one has ever made my undead heart beat like you did my beautiful Star." On looks of close family and friends watched as Klaus pour heart out. Each of them saw a new side to him a side that many of them thought didn't exist in Klaus. "If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand." When the words would not come the tears did. The mourning was supposed to be something dignified and stoic in Mikaelson family, but Klaus cried like a child noisily, with running snot and choking sobs and Klaus was not ashamed. He cried until there was nothing left inside but a raw emptiness that nibbles at his insides like a hungry rat. His irises were threaded scarlet and his eyeballs hung heavy in their sockets. His whole body hung limp like each limb weighed twice as much as it had before and just moving it about was a slow, painful effort. The sun still shone in the sky, but not for him, the birds sung in bursts of melody, but not for him, for him there was no beauty left in the world.
Klaus P.O.V
Grief. Feels like emptiness in your heart a shear of nothingness that somehow takes over and holds your soul and threatens to kill you entirely. It gives you this heavy feeling that's like the weight of the world is resting on your shoulders and there is nothing you can do to get out from under it. It's like this hole in your heart that is the shape of the one you lost and that makes you feel the need to wipe away any non-existent tears that you want to form but can't. My beautiful Star was gone and knew the aching of that would never leave me. I wanted to kill someone and I wanted to die and I wanted to run as far and as fast as I could because she was never coming back. She had fallen off the face of the earth and she was never coming back. The funeral service did Star justice there were many there who attended in such short notice. I felt that where Star was sitting upon her cloud that she was looking down at the event she would be smiling. I think that what I missed the most that smile that would brighten up my day. Even when I was vengeful or had some dastardly plan that I was plotting it just brought a warmth to my heart. Which I knew would never happen not now that she was gone.
After the funeral when I arrived back at the compound I made my way into the nursery where my son whom I have neglected laid in basinet. I found it difficult to look at him because he did remind me of his mother. With the words that Marcel spoke of less than 24 hours ago of the plans of the witches planning to take the life of my innocent son Star would want me to do everything in my power to protect my son. I will do that I will strike down all whom try to harm him, but I knew keeping here in New Orleans would lead to his death. As much as I wanted to keep the last part of Star close to my heart I couldn't be selfish.
So I made a phone call to the one person who I knew would be able to help me with keeping my son safe I knew this was going to be one of the most difficult things I would ever have to do but it was the right thing to do. So they agreed to meet me on the boarder of Bayou to discuss our arrangements. After the call I gazed at my son who was quietly cooing in his basanite. For a child only a days old without its mother he seemed like a content child. I knew in years to come I will be telling him stories of how kind and caring his mother was. How she was my greatest love but I knew in my heart that it would sadden him. I grew up not knowing my biological father and until this very day I wonder a lot of things about him. The advantage that my son will have is that I will share with him every memory I have of his mother.
"His a mirrored image of his mother." Elijah spoke as he stood beside me I hadn't even notice he entered the room. I looked at my brother and saw him looking down at his nephew with love and admiration in his eyes.
"His not safe here Elijah." He looked at me frowning as I hadn't spoken of what Marcel had told me. "The witches will not stop until they see him dead." I felt a lump build up in my throat but I pushed it back down as now wasn't the time to cry. I was a father now I had responsibilities I needed to put the needs of my children before my own. "I fear the same fate will be for my daughter as these witches are convince that they will bring some form of destruction." Elijah looked at me frowning as if I was speaking madness but I wasn't. What I needed to do was the opposite of all that it was the only way to ensure of both of their survival.
"And what is it you're planning on doing Niklaus?" Elijah spoke as I picked up my son placing him in my arms. As I looked at him I couldn't help but smile for the first time since my loss because all this time I couldn't bare to look at him. He was my only reminder of Star and that brought a little joy into my heart.
"A selfless act like any father would." With that being my final word I left the room and made my way down into the court yard. Just as I suspected Damon was there with bottle to hand. "No time for that I need you come with me." I spoke as I began to head towards the car.
"Klaus what are you doing with the baby?" I sense a little fear in Damon voice as I knew I looked like a man who was on a mission. Damon loved this child as much as I did that's why I knew this was something he would agree with.
"Here…" I gently placed my son into his arms and looked at a very confused Damon. "I'll explain all on the way." I opened the car door indicating for him to get in.
"Where we going?" Damon was full of questions but I knew his mind was just as clouded as mine but in this moment I was thinking ever so clearly.
I began to drive and I hadn't told Damon where we were going I drove to the outskirts of Bayou. Damon had finally given up with his questions and I could see at the corner of my eye how he watched the precious gift Star had left behind. He muttered to him about his mother and how she would want him to have this great life. At first I wanted to tell Damon to shut up because he speaking like that was arousing those feeling I'm trying to keep deep inside me for now. Then as he spoke of how between him and I we would make sure that he kept safe. That neither of us would allow anything harm him. That made me feel more confident with my decision that I had made. I stopped the car and left the headlight on to shine out on the road before us.
"Want to tell me why we are in the middle of the out back?" Damon question as we both got out of the car. He walked over and handed me my son and as I was about to speak a car began to approach us.
"New Orleans isn't safe for my son Damon. Those witches are after his blood they have taken Star from me and from you already. I will not allow them to take him too." Damon looked a little taken back by what I have said. Then he looked even more surprised as the person who had arrived got out of the car "Hello, sister." Rebekah approached and gently touches the baby, and stares in wonder with a beaming smile on her face.
"Nik I'm so sorry about Star" She spoke as looked up at me with teary eyes. Rebekah on the phone spoke about her regrets of telling me that Star knew of her deceit.
"It's a pity you never got to tell Star you were sorry." Damon snapped at her. He had every right to do so as I maybe been forgiving towards my sister in this time of sorrow. Damon didn't have to be but that needed to change for the sake of this innocent baby.
"Damon I don't need you to make me feel any guiltier as I do already." Rebekah spoke with regret in her voice as she looked at him and I could see that Damon was holding back his anger. "Have you explained it all to him yet?" Rebekah questioned me.
"No your brother not explained anything." Damon spoke through his teeth and I knew his temper was starting to rise but I needed for him to understand what I wanted him to do for me.
"I need you to go with Rebekah." Damon looked at me with horror in his eyes. "Damon I heard every word Star spoke to you that night. The promise she asked of you. My son can't stay in New Orleans not while there still a threat." I looked down at my little boy and this was hurting me more than I thought it would but for once in my life I'm not going to be selfish. "You and Rebekah will leave New Orleans….." Damon interrupted me as I was speaking.
"Klaus I want to be here to murder each and every person who brought this fate to Star." Damon eyes began to fill up and I knew with him by myside there was nothing that would stop us seeking our vengeance.
"I know if I have you by myside Damon we will reap our vengeance. But I need you to be that person Star asked you to be. The protector for our child and with you and Rebekah watching over him I have nothing to worry." Damon looked unconvinced for a moment then he shook his head in agreement.
"Oh, he looks like he's mother." She smiled and I couldn't disagree because he did look like Star in so many ways. "Maybe there is a God after all." Rebekah spoke in a teasing manner as her eyes looked up to me.
"Well he has a hint of the devil in he's eyes. That's all me." I tried to lighten the mood "I need a witch you can trust to cast a cloaking spell." Rebekah was stroking his cheek and I could see that she will love and care for my son just as much as Damon. These were the two perfect people to watch over him I could of let Rebekah do it alone but I knew if Star was alive she would want Damon to watch over him.
"I'll get one." Rebekah spoke confidently but I needed to make it clear to the both of them of the importance of keeping him safe. As when I go back home there will be news of my son death and I needed it to stay that way.
"No one can ever find him." I spoke looking at the both of them as they needed to understand that I'm giving them both something that is valuable to me. My last piece of what I had left of Star if I was to lose him then I honestly can say I don't know what I would do.
"I know what to do, Nik." She looked my son with the same expression that Elijah held not so long ago with love admiration. "Perhaps we'll get a white fence. I think that would be lovely." I held up my little boy to get a last look at him before he leaves with Rebekah and Damon.
"This city would have seen you dead just as your mother, but I will have it your home. And every soul who wishes you harm will be struck down, just as sure as my blood runs in your veins. You will return to me." I kisses my son on the forehead and the cheek before handing him over to my sister. I went into my pocket and pulled out a tiny wooden knight that I carved for Rebekah a 1,000 years ago. I placed it on top of the blanket which causes Rebekah to grab my hand and start to cry. "In spite of our differences there is no two I would trust more with my son life. "I hugged Rebekah and kissed her cheek "Be happy, sister." Her eyes filled up with tear and I couldn't look at her as it was stirring up emotions within me "Damon I'm truly grateful for everything you have done for Star. I know I failed her in so many ways….." Damon began to shake his head before stopping me in mid-sentence.
"Star never gave up on you Klaus. You were her epic love, with your faults and all. She truly loved you until her dying breath." Damon words touched me as I expected to hear him telling me how I had wrong her. Maybe Damon and I have come to an understanding and he knew of my regrets.
"He will be happy, Nik. I promise." We smile at each other as I knew that between the both of them they would make sure of that. "What's his name?"
Flash Back- New Orleans 2013
I had finally won back my city after defeating Marcel and making bow down to me but to win you also must lose. On this day I lost my siblings as they believed that I would use my children as some kind of weapon. It hurt me more than anything that they thought so low of me. That I would do that to my own flesh and blood. So I had disowned the both of them leaving them at the planation while I brought Star and very reluctant Hayley back to the compound in the French quarters. Star was being so supportive and understanding about what had happened. But my brother and sisters words played on my mind as they think I would not ever change. That hurt more than anything because I was trying and I knew for the sake of my unborn children I needed to change. Star stood there looking at me lovely as she always.
"You still think there a chance of that person that I once was to return?" I wasn't one to show my weakness or my weakest side but to the woman I love I did not need to hid anything from her. Love isn't blind or deaf or dumb - in fact it sees far more than it will ever tell. It is going beyond yourself and stretching who you are for someone else. Being in love entails seeing someone as you wish they were: to love them is to see who they really are and still care for them. Love isn't bitter, but you can't have love without pain: sacrifice is the hallmark of love, the coin of love. Love means that you trust the person, would do anything for the person, know that person is with you through thick and thin, isn't afraid to be seen with you. To make sure they treat you right.
"My darling Niklaus. Chanceis the definition of so many possibilities, likelihood, odds but it also can be interrupter ashope.You need to believe in those two things to survive through this" She caressed my cheek as she spoke "I'm exhausted. I think I'm going to get some sleep" As she spoke I notice that she did look awfully tired but I felt guilty that our first night in our home it wasn't up to the stands that I would want Star to live in.
Present Day
"Chance. His name is Chance." I couldn't hold back my tears as Rebekah and Damon walked away with Chance placing him in the car. Slow desolate tears ran from my unblinking eyes and dripped steadily on to my jacket. As much as this felt like how I held a lifeless Star in my arms I knew it was for the best. It's a father's duty to give his sons a fine chance that what I was doing I will keep to my word and my son will return home and be safe from all the evil that tried to harm him. In these short days that I have had him in my life I learnt that no love is greater than that of a father for his son. In honour of Star and Chance I will seek vengeance and I will make everyone who played part in her death pay in ways they can not image. For I am Niklaus Mikaelson….. Hell hath no fury than a Mikaelson scorned.
That the final chapter and I know it was long but I really hoped you enjoyed reading it all….. There will be a preview of the third book in "The Desire" series called "A Time To Love & A Time To Die" This will be uploaded soon.
