I'm so sorry I haven't been writing lately. I've just had a domino effect of bad going on in my life. I had to be hospitalized for a while because for some reason I lost the ability to use my left arm which is a problem because I'm left side dominate. When i get my x-rays doctors found something that at the time they thought was cancer. About 2 weeks later a whole bunch of tests and money and resources wasted they told me it was bundle of nerves that due to me playing tennis and golf in high school has caused them to shift. Don't ask why it took that long to figure out because I still don't know. In the mean time they found so many other things wrong with me that I don't even want to talk about. All of the in and out of the hospital caused my nerves to be constantly on edge for so long that it became hard to censor my disorder. Oh right by the way I have Dissociative Identity Disorder this is not new to be I've known for going on 3 years now, but I don't like people especially strangers touching me especially on the rare occasions when I get to sleep. My girlfriend and I broke up (which I'm not sad about because I think she was cheating on my with her guy best friend). And to top off my shit cake that has been my life for the past 5 months my best friend for the past going on 8-9 years might have cancer and I can't do anything because I decided I wanted to go away from home for college so she's fucking 6 hours away...so if you are all mad I do deeply apologize. I would have let you all know what was going on sooner, but this is the first time I haven't felt like absolute crap because of my medicine. Trust and believe there is more to this story that would fully explain my long disappearance and if you want to know feel free to send me a PM I don't mind sharing. I felt like I owed y'all something.

P.S.- I'm working on a new chapter. I'll try and have it done as soon as I can, but being creative is hard for me right now. Sorry.