Disclaimer: All I own are the ideas, but none of the characters.
A/N: I've been combining P.O.V.'s in the chapters because I didn't want to waste time making a chapter on the same thing from both of them. That was making the story take too long in my opinion. Anyway! I don't use a beta for any of my stories. All mistakes are happily and proudly my own so enjoy!
"I don't want to risk you getting hurt if we leave out of your window." She says as we reach the front door. I can't help but smile again. None of the Cullen's cared about me getting hurt when they used to sometimes get me out of the house.
"Thank you." Carmen gently squeezes me hand as we walk out the front door and I watch her turn around to lock it. I didn't even notice her grab my keys.
Carmen doesn't say anything as she gently picks me up and slowly, for a vampire at least, takes off towards what I believe to be their house. Hopefully Tanya is there and willing to answer my questions because right now I have too many to swirling around in my head.
Tanya's P.O.V.
I was all set to go over to Bella's house to be her vampire pillow when I receive a text. I pull out my phone and see it's from Alice.
Bella's going to interrogate you about Edward. So spending the night at her house might not be the best. Good luck!
It takes all my will power not to crush my phone in my hand. What did Alice do to make Bella bring him up? After this afternoon I thought she and I were in a good place and now this!
"Carmen!" I shout even though I know she's in the next room.
"Yes dear?" She calmly says from the other room.
"I need you to go get Bella and bring her to our new house." I am not in the right mood to go and get her myself. I also need the time to figure some things out before I see her.
"Is something wrong?" Carmen asks as she quickly leaves the kitchen. I can see her motherly instincts kicking in.
"Alice," I say with a growl, and that allow seems to help her understand why I am suddenly so lethal.
"Uh oh. Well it is a good thing your room is finished." I don't say anything all I can do is nod my head as I start pacing the living room. "Okay, well you try and calm down and I'll be back with Bella in about an hour. Sound good?" I appreciate the fact that she's trying to give me a much time as she can.
"Sounds good," I say as I watch her take off towards Bella's house.
How could Alice just throw me under the bus like that? I know she thinks I was taking things too slow for her liking, but this isn't her life! I want Bella to be with me because she wants to not because I told her she's my mate and kind of has too unless she wants to be miserable for the rest of her life. That's really unfair also I wanted to give her ample time to get over Edward, and after him telling her that she's his mate me turning around and saying the same thing is only going to scare her away! Damn you Alice!
"What's wrong?" I look up and see Laurent.
"Alice," is all I say and I see him nod his head in understanding.
"What did she do this time? I know it has to involve Bella since you look about ready to kill somebody." He says as he moves to sit on the couch and I continue to pace the living room at a norm speed.
"I feel like she's trying to force Bella and I into a relationship when I don't think she's ready for yet. I mean there have been times when I thought she was looking at me too long or I thought I saw something in her eyes that meant she was at least interested in me, but I don't know for sure. Bella isn't simply black and white like how Edward originally described her. She's also not boring like Rosalie said. I feel like if I'm ever able to get Bella out of her shell she should blossom and shine in her own unique way." I sigh as I stop pacing and move to sit down next to Laurent. He quickly wraps his arm around my shoulders and pulls me closer.
"And here I thought I used to have it bad for Irina. You have it way worse my dear sister. I understand why you would be mad at Alice for forcing it, but didn't Bella say that Alice has a reason for everything she does?" I really hadn't thought of that...
"She did yes, but still Alice should have talked to me about it before she kind of threw me under the bus like she did!" I honestly didn't think it was possible to be this stressed out, but right now I am stressed the fuck out.
"Which I'm sure you will yell at her for later, but right you need to get over to the house before Bella and Carmen do." I look at the clock hanging on the wall and see that Carmen left to get Bella almost 40 minutes ago. I quickly stand and start to run out of the house before I turn back to Laurent.
"Thank you. You've really been helpful the past few months." I say as I grab his wrist and pull him into a hug.
"It has been a pleasure. I want Bella to be happy since I inadvertently brought her misery. Now go talk to your girl. Good luck." He says as he starts pushing me towards the door.
I don't say anything else as I take off to the house. I really hope this doesn't blow up in my face, but I don't know why I just feel like everything is going to work out in the end. It has too...
I make it to the house in no time, but I can hear Carmen in the distant running towards me at a slow pace for her. She must be trying to bid me time but honestly that's just going to stress me out more. "Carmen, please hurry up." I say loud enough knowing she can hear me. She easily increases her speed and is outside the front door in less than 2 minutes which Bella clutching onto her tightly.
Carmen and I both look at her with concern when she doesn't open her eyes or release Carmen from the death grip she has on her arm. I can't help but feel a little jealous that Bella won't let Carmen go. "Angel, you need to release Carmen." I say gently as I walk closer to them.
"No," she replies in a breathy whisper. I can hear her heart beating way too fast to be healthy.
"Why not sweetheart?" Carmen asks as she looks at me seeing that I'm not happy about this. Bella doesn't reply this time.
"Would you consider switching to them then so Carmen can leave?" Carmen looks at me with sad eyes. I know she wants to be there for Bella right now because her motherly instincts, but I can pull rank on this one. I am coven leader and Bella is my mate so she can't blame me for feeling a bit possessive right now.
"Okay," Bella whispers as she slowly releases Carmen and latches onto me. We gently transfer her from Carmen's arms to mine. Something must really be wrong for Bella to act like this. She usually has really good control over her emotions for a human. I watch as Carmen places Bella's bag down on the couch and quickly nods at me before she leaves.
I make sure she's out of hearing distance before I talk to Bella. "Angel, please tell me what's wrong? Did Carmen say something to you?"
"Carmen didn't do anything on purpose. It's just been a while since I've been running with a vampire and I just wasn't ready. The same thing happened the first time I went running with Edward." It takes everything in me not to growl when she says his name.
"Now that I think about it I have never been running with you. We mostly just spend time at your house." I can't help but feel a little sad. I haven't even met Charlie yet. It's just something we've always avoided because Bella is only 17 and I look to old to have met her at school and I'm not saying I'm her teacher because then I'll never stand a chance with him. I have had a lot of time to think this through.
"We should do that. Go running I mean if you want too." She says as she starts to release me and move off of my lap to sit next to me." I can't help but feel sad. I really enjoy having her on my lap. My mind starts to wonder what it would be like to have Bella on my lap...naked. I quickly change my thoughts as I feel myself starting to get hard. I don't think Bella's anywhere near being ready to hear about that.
"I would enjoy that." I say with a smile as I cross my legs and lay my hands over my lap.
"Sooo..." Bella says with a blush. God she's beautiful when she blushes.
"So what's on your mind angel?" I ask trying to subtly get to the point.
"Do you remember that strange person I told you about that texted me the first time I asked you to come over? Of course you do you're a vampire you have a great memory. Anyway they texting me today saying that you would tell me about Edward and all the lies he told me...what were they talking about?" Leave it to my angel to cut right to the chase. I sigh as I turn to face her.
"He lied about being your mate. He lied about being in love with you. He lied about having your best interest at heart. Which lie are you talking about specifically?" Bella looks at me with such sorrow I wish I could cry.
"All of them apparently Tanya. How could you possibly know that he not my mate? Not that it really matters if I am because I hate his guts as you know. How do you know that he never loved me? And unless you talked to him how could you know he never had my best interest at heart? Did Alice tell you this?!" She finishes yelling.
"He can't possibly be your mate because I am! He never loved you because from what I've heard he was more focused on controlling you than loving you mostly because you were he singer. He loved your blood more than you. Yes, Alice told me he doesn't have your best interest at heart because he left you in the middle of the woods, and the fact that Victoria is still out there somewhere doesn't help." Honestly I don't think she really heard anything I said after I told her she was my mate. She has a very distant look in her eyes and she looks on the brink of tears.
"You can't be my mate..." She whispers as she hangs her head as I see her body start to tremble.
"What have I said about eye contact?" I say as I wait for her to look at me. She slowly looks at me while tears streak down her face. "Why isn't it possible?" I whisper as I gently wipe her tears as they fall.
"Edward said..." is all she's able to get out before a sob rakes her whole frame. I gently pull her back onto my lap as I hold her and run my finger through her hair. I don't say anything as I just let her cry.
Eventually Bella calms and but doesn't try to move away from me. Instead she tries to move even closer. "I got your shirt wet." She whispers and I can't help but laugh. She would be the ine to focus on my shirt after crying her eyes out.
"Oh well. Lucky for me I have more than one shirt." I say trying to make her laugh, and mission accomplished. I feel her laugh gently against my neck. Any other time this probably would have caused me to moan, but I don't have time for that right now.
We sit in silence as I listen to Bella breathe gently against my neck. I don't know what to say because I want to ask what just happened, but I don't want to push her. "Did you ever hear what Edward said to me in the woods the day he left me?" She whispers as she stays in my lap.
"No, I was too distracted looking at you." I already told her she's my mate so I don't see a reason to try and come up with something else.
"Thank you I think. Can we lie down before I tell you? It's not that you're not comfortable because you are, but I'm tired and you keep poking me." She says with a laugh, and I swear if I could blush I would. I feel Bella move to stand up and grab my hand and pulls me with her.
"Umm let's go to my room. It's the only one completed with a bed." Bella follows me as I lead her to my room.
Once we reach my room Bella walks in and sits down on the bed as I still stand in the door frame stuck between shock and embarrassment at what she said. Here I thought I was hiding my unusual anatomy well and she just blew that all to hell.
"Tanya, come here please." I look over and see Bella lying down on the bed with her arms open inviting me. I sigh as I walk over and sit on the edge of the bed. "I meant come lie down with me please."
I lie down and move to the middle of the bed. Bella moves to lie down on top of me like she usually does at night. "Better?" I ask sarcastically.
"Much, thank you." Bella snuggles closer as I feel her sigh. "So Edward..." Have I ever said how much I hate talking about him? Especially when I'm in bed with my mate because I really really do.
"We don't have to talk about this tonight if you don't want too." I wrap my arms around her and pull her closer.
"No it's okay. It's just that everything you said tonight makes sense, but at the same time confuses the hell out of me. When Edward left me in the woods he basically told me that I was nothing more than something he could waste his time with, and that he would probably be the only one who would love me. He always told me I was his mate and that we were meant to be, and then when he said that to me I just couldn't understand. My mom raised me to actually believe in soul mates and then here Edward comes saying that we are and I was happy that I had actually found mine until he said all of that to me in the woods and then just left me without giving a damn. I could have died for all he knew or cared." I started growling and pulling her closer.
"I'm going to kill him as slowly and painfully as I can." I growl as I feel Bella shake her head.
"Honestly if you hadn't have shown up when you did I don't know what would have happened. You being there for me every day has helped me not overthink everything he said to me. Although you being here has also helped confuse the hell out of me."
"How have I confused you?" I ask as I finally managed to stop growling.
"You showed up in all of your blonde hair, honey eyed vampire beauty and it confused the hell out of me all the feelings I started having for you." She says as a blush starts creeping up her neck.
"You think I'm beautiful?" I ask excited.
"Out of everything I've said tonight that's what you want to focus on? That wasn't even the point of saying all of that!" Bella says sitting up and stares down at me.
"It wasn't THE point, but it was A point, correct?" I ask with a smile.
"You are impossible sometimes you know that?" Bella says as she lies back down.
"Sometimes doesn't mean all the time." She looks so down right now.
"I'm done! I'm going to bed. We can finish talking in the morning." My angel says with a yawn as she does her usual snuggle routine before bed. I can't help but laugh as I think about it. "What's so funny?" She asks as she has finally found a comfortable position.
"You have a snuggle routine. Every night when you're about to go to sleep you do this whole snuggle thing where you either move up my body or down until you find the perfect stop to lay your head and arms before going to bed. Also might I add that your favorite spot is somewhere on or in between my breasts." I look down to see Bella blushing hard.
"Not my fault your boobs are comfy." She shrugs as she lifts her head to gently kiss the valley between my breasts before laying her head back down. I was not ready for that. I stopped breathing the second her lips made contact with my kiss. I could feel my skin practically burning from where she kissed. "Good night."
"Good night angel." Well damn that has never happened before and dear god do I want it to happen again. Deal lord this woman is going to be the death of me, and at this point I'm okay with that.
A/N 2: I am no going to be putting the wolves in this story, but Victoria and the Cullen's will be in here. All in good time though I'm still deciding on when, and yes there will be sex eventually, but of course not now.
