Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight and I sadly never will.

A/N: Okay so just to clarify Esme is still team Cullen since Carlisle is her mate, but she is about to have a change of opinion and give Carlisle a mood booster (few people know what that means). I promise It'll make sense later.

Bella's P.O.V

I carry Tanya into our bedroom silently. I quickly close the door behind me as I gently place my love on the bed and take a step back. I stand there waiting for her to say or do something so I know that she's okay.

I don't know how long I was standing there before she finally says something. "Do you think Edward was right? Am I a freak?" Tanya asks as she looks at me with the saddest eyes ever.

I quickly kneel down in front of her and place my hands on her knees. "Tanya you know I love you right? Why would I ever think such a terrible thing about you?" I ask as I listen to her take shaky breaths.

"Because he's right! I have a penis! How could I possibly be classified as a woman?" She says around heartbreaking sobs as she wraps her arms around herself again.

I remain kneeling in front of her feeling absolutely helpless. I slowly stand up and take a seat next to her on the bed. I waste little time pulling her into my arms as gently rock us back and forth trying to soothe her.

"Tanya why would you allow Edward to get in your head like this? Just because you're different doesn't make you any less of a woman." I whisper softly into her eyes as she finally starts to calm down. Her loud sobs slowly turn into soft whimpers full of despair.

"It wasn't just Edward. Did you not see the look of disgust on Carlisle's face when he heard? Now even my old friend thinks I'm a freak. Who knows how the other Cullen's feel about it?" I look into her eyes and see them filled with tears that will never fall.

"Who cares about how any of them feel about it? Is that why you never told anybody outside of your family?" I ask as I gently brush some hair out of her beautiful pain filled face.

"You make it sound like I meant for any of them to find out." Tanya says with a dark chuckle as she looks away from me.

I gently place my hand on her cheek and pull her back to look at me. "You never wanted anybody to find out." I say trying to not make it sound like a question.

"I was afraid they wouldn't want a leader who was a freak, and one day by accident Kate and Irina walked into my room while I was changing and I guess you could say the rest is history." I nod silently as I process her words.

"How did they react when they saw it?" I ask partly out of curiosity and partly to prove my point. I don't believe that anybody who truly knows Tanya would ever consider her a freak simply because of her anatomy.

"Irina was freaked out at first and avoided me for a while but eventually she came around and we've moved past it. Kate was well Kate. She is willing to accept anything as long as it makes her family happy which is why we all love her." Tanya says with a faint smile as she thinks about her youngest sister and her playful personality.

"What about the rest of the family? How did they take it?" I ask as I continue to slowly run my fingers through her hair knowing that it soothes her.

"Carmen and Eleazar didn't care as long as I was happy. Laurent acted like Kate did. Although after Laurent found out those two did make jokes about it for a while." I feel my eyes change back to a vibrant violet as I growl fiercely at the thought of either of them making fun of Tanya over something she is clearly insecure about.

"Angel please calm down. I know they never meant anything malicious by it. Kate was just helping Laurent deal with it in their own special way. Besides some of their jokes were pretty good." Tanya says as she wraps her arms around my waist pulling me onto her lap.

"They still shouldn't have made fun of you, but if you're okay with it than I guess I won't burn them alive." I mumble as I wrap my arms around her waist pulling her closer.

"Speaking of which since when can you burn vampires?" Tanya asks with a genuine smile on her face for the first time in what feels like forever.

"I don't know. I don't think I've ever been so anger. How dare Edward think he can just barge in here and make demands, and on top of that call you names!" I say getting angry all over again.

"Thank you for being my protector angel. I must say you going all archangel on his ass was pretty hot." She says with a sad tone. I look into her eyes and see a deep sadness that I wish I could fix.

"Baby what's wrong? Please talk to me." I say as I adjust so I'm straddling her lap and place our foreheads together.

"I just have a lot of what if's running through my mind right now and I feel like they're just weighing me down." Tanya sighs as she hugs me tighter.

"Tell me the what if's and let's see if I can help take some of the weight off." I say as I gently kiss her.

"What if the Cullen's that you still consider family don't want to have anything to do with me? What if you change your mind about us? What if….I don't know what if anything really!" Tanya says as I can feel the frustration rolling off her in waves.

"If they really love me then they will look past this and only care about me being happy. As for me changing my mind I can safely say that that's not going to happen." I say as I gently kiss her lips again before I lean back and take off my hoodie.

"How can you be so sure about all of this?" Tanya sighs as I feel her slide her hands underneath my tank top and rest on my hips.

"I don't know anything for sure besides the fact that I love you, and nothing is going to change that. I know for sure that nothing Edward or anybody else says is going to change that fact. I love you no matter what and I want to show you." I say softly as I slowly remove my tank top.

I hear Tanya take a sharp breath as I see her trying to resist moving her hands up higher. "Bella please don't do this to me again. I don't know if I'll be able to stop this time." Tanya says as I see her eyes switching between looking at me and looking at my exposed chest.

"I never said you would have to stop. I want to give myself to you completely. I want to show you how much I love you no matter what your anatomy is like because I don't let that define you. I want you to make me yours." I whisper in her ear as I grind down into her lap feeling her member starting to come alive.

"Bella I don't want you to do this because you think it will make me feel better. I don't want to take advantage of you." Tanya groans as I feel her forcing me down into her lap more.

"Tanya you could never take advantage of me, and I'm doing this because I love you. I want to be completely yours and you to be completely mine." I say as I kiss her with passion.

"I want you so badly." Tanya groans as she moves her hands up to start playing with my breast. I hiss as her cold fingers gently pinch my nipples.

"Then take me. Make me yours." I moan as I feel her remove her fingers and take one of my nipple into her mouth. I lace my fingers in her hair pulling her closer.

I watch as she quickly switched nipples as I grind into her hard wishing we didn't have barriers in our way.

"Tanya, shirt off now." I groans as she delivers a slightly painful nip as her tongue quickly soothes the pain.

"Somebody sounds impatient." She teases as she practically tears her shirt off. Thank god she doesn't like wearing bras. I push her back against the bed as I finally get my turn with her glorious chest.

I waste no time latching onto her right nipple as I bring my hand up to play with her other nipple. I hear Tanya moan as she pulls my face closer. I quickly switch nipples giving the other one the same amount of attention.

When I'm satisfied with my work my way up to Tanya's lips, and pull her into a sexually charged kiss. "We seem to be at a crossroads my love." I say with a cheeky smile as I plant gentle kisses around her face.

"Oh really? And what seems to be the problem angel?" I gently kiss her as I smile. I love how we're not trying to take this too serious.

"We both seem to have clothes in the way. I don't know about you but I would love if they disappeared. Wouldn't you?" As my words sink in the smile that was once on Tanya's face and in her eyes disappears and is replaced by a frown and a look of fear.

"Maybe we should just stop here for now angel." Tanya says as she tries to push me off of her. I can still feel her hardened member pressed firmly into my thigh.

"Tell me honestly. Do you want to stop because you don't think we're ready to take this step or do you want to stop because you're afraid of me seeing you naked?" I ask as I sit up so I can look into her eyes properly.

"I just...You've never seen it before and...and I don't know." She sighs deeply as she stares up at the ceiling.

I nod silently as I slide off of her lap and kneel in front of her again. I gently rest her hands on her sides as I slowly trail them down her sides until I reach them hem of her sweatpants.

"I don't want you to allow fear to run your life. I don't want you to be afraid of me. I would never hurt you or turn my back on you. I just want to show you how much I love you. All of you." I say as I gently start to relieve her of her sweatpants only leaving her briefs. Well that mystery is solved.

I look up and our eyes lock as I slowly kiss from her knee up until my lips are hovering right above her covered crotch. I wait for her to say something as I gently kiss her covered cock as I hook my fingers into the hem of her briefs.

As I start to pull them down Tanya's hand quickly cover mine stopping me. "I don't want to do this and you end regretting it." I doubt she's talking about us having sex.

"I could never regret being with you Tanya." I say with conviction as I gently kiss her clothed cock again. "If you want me to stop let me know now." I say as I slowly start to pull down her briefs.

I gasp softly as Tanya's semi-hard is revealed. I anticipated her being big but damn she was huge. I can see thick veins running along her shaft that look angry as it hardens.

I quickly grab Tanya's hands as she tries to cover herself from me. "Baby please don't feel like you have to hide from me." I say gently as I place her hands back by her sides.

"You don't think I'm ugly or anything?" I can hear the vulnerability in her voice and it breaks my heart. If only she could understand how beautiful she is.

"You, Tatiana Denali, are the most beautiful woman I have ever had the pleasure of seeing." I say as I gently kiss the head of her cock. I watch as it starts to harden even more.

I hear her groan softly as that motivates me to continue. Slowly I take the tip of her cock into my mouth and suck gently. I hear Tanya moan louder as her hands thread through my hair slowly forcing more of her cock into my mouth.

"Oh my god your mouth feels amazing right now." I smile against her cock. I force my throat to relax as Tanya starts to thrust into my mouth gently.

I moan around her cock as her thrust start to become more forceful. I close my eyes as I concentrate on unhinging my jaw so more of Tanya's cock can fit in my mouth.

"Oh god Bella you're sucking all 10 inches like a pro baby." Tanya moans as her thrust start thrust into my mouth without any rhythm. I can tell that she's getting close.

"Fuck I'm so close. Bella move back before I..." I cut her off by sucking her cock harder as my face meets her Levi's thrust for thrust. In a matter of minutes I have Tanya screaming in exotic.

"Oh fuck Bella I'm cumming!" Tanya screams as she forces her cock that much further down my throat. I grab Tanya's hands as she tries to push me away.

I feel her cum shoot into the back of my throat as she thrusts violently. I feel her thick roles of cum shoot filling my mouth with her delicious cum. She honestly tastes better than I had expected.

I slowly allow Tanya's softened cock slide from between my lips as I swollen the remaining cum in my mouth. I clear my throat as I feel some starting to stick.

"Bella you know you didn't have to do that right? I would never want to make you do something you're uncomfortable with." Tanya says as she takes deep unnecessary breathes.

"I know I didn't have to, but I wanted too." I say as I gently kiss her softened cock and climb off the bed. I never thought I would enjoy giving Tanya a blowjob as much as I did.

I stand up and quickly remove my sweatpants and underwear. It's a little nerve wrecking being naked in front of Tanya for the first time, but if she can do it so can I.

I slowly climb back on the bed and straddle Tanya. For that first ever I allow my naked sex to touch her hardened cock. I groan softly as I grind into her spreading my wetness getting for her.

"Oh my god Bella," Tanya moans as she places her hands on my hips and grinds into me more forcefully.

I bite my bottom lip as I bring my hands up to gently pull and twist my nipples. Hearing Tanya groan my name makes me impossibly wetter than I was before.

"I need to feel you inside of me baby." I moan as I move my hands down my sides to cover hers. I need her to be inside of me finally claiming me as hers.

I feel Tanya's arms lock preventing me from grinding into her more. "Bella I don't...I don't know if I can get you pregnant and I don't have any condoms." She says with genuine fear in her eyes.

"Baby I don't want our first time to be obscured by a condom. I want to be able to feel you and vice versa. Besides Renee has had me on the pill since I started Junior High if that makes you feel better." I say with a faint smile as I feel her arms starting to relax.

I start to grind into her again making sure I cover as much of her cock as I can in my juices. "Are you sure about this angel?" Tanya asks as I sit up higher on my knees and move her cock to align with my pussy.

I decide to forego answering her and instead slowly slide the first few inches of her cock inside of me. We both moan as I feel her pushing against my barrier. Her grip on my hips tighten. I'm for sure going to have bruises from it but right now it's so worth it.

"Are you ready love?" I ask softly as our eyes lock. I see nothing but love and devotion shining bright in her beautiful blackened eyes.

"Shouldn't I be asking you that?" She asks with a faint smile as she slowly sits up using only her abdominal muscles. Will she ever run out of incredibly sexy things she can do?

I shrug silently as I take a few deep breathes as I start my mental countdown. 3...2...1! I lift up and quickly force myself back down effectively shredding my innocence.

I release a sharp yelp of pain and I quickly wrap my arms around Tanya's neck and hide my face in her shoulder. I knew it was going to hurt, but it feels like I forced a pole up my vagina.

"Oh my god. Bella are you okay? Are you hurt? Do you want me to pull out?" Tanya fires off questions faster that my pain filled mind can catch right now.

"I'm fine. Yes, right now it hurts but don't you dare pull out. I just need a moment to get used to your size." I mumble into her shoulder as I feel her wrap her arms around my waist.

She gently starts to rub her hand up and down my back as she silently waits for me. "Is there anything I can do to make this easier for you?" She asks as she gently kisses my shoulder.

"Please talk to me. Say anything I don't care but I need a distraction from the pain." I groan as I slowly slide another inch of her unrelenting cock into my very tight pussy.

"You know I love you right? It's almost embarrassing sometimes how much I adore you." She whispers gently into my ear as I feel my muscles starting to relax.

"I love you too more than I ever thought possible. Everyday when I wake up you're the first thing on my mind and the last thing when I go to sleep every night." I say as I feel myself take another inch.

"It's taking all of my self control not to shove the rest of my cock into you. You're so tight and it feels amazing." I moan softly as I feel her thrust into me gently.

"You can move if you want to. I just need you to be gentle." I say softly as I feel her growl softly into my neck.

I feel her nod into my shoulder silently as she starts a gentle and slow pace. She only takes about an inch or two out before she thrust back into me. I moan softly as I feel myself starting to produce a whole new round of wetness for her.

"More," I moan softly as I start to meet her thrust for thrust forcing myself down on her cock more. I look down and see that I only have 2 or 3 more inches to go. I take a deep breath as I meet another thrust forcing the rest of her cock into me.

I again yelp in pain as I dig my nails into her diamond hard skin. I have never felt this full in my entire life and it feels amazing.

"Are you okay Bella?" Tanya asks me again as she stops all movement. I can hear her trying to fight back a moan of pleasure. I almost forgot this is her first time as well.

"Yeah," I say as I take a shaky breath. "10 inches in more than I thought now that you're actually inside of me." I look down and see us connected in the most intimate way possible and I can't help but moan.

"I'm sorry I'm so big. I hate the fact that you're in pain right now because of me." Tanya whispers sadly as she rests her head against my shoulder more heavily.

"The pain couldn't have been avoided Tanya. I'm just really happy that I waited so I could share this experience with you my love." I say as I lean back so I can look into her eyes.

"I feel as though you keep stealing my thunder. I should be the one comforting you since you're the one in pain!" Tanya says with a sad chuckle as she gently kisses me.

"Well if I'm stealing your thunder so much you should probably think of something to shut me up." I say with a cheeky smile as I gently lift off her cock about a inch or so before falling back down. My smile widens as I watch her eyes close as she moans deeply. "Slow and gentle baby," I whisper in her ear as she grabs my hips again and starts lifting me and forcing me back into her cock.

"Fuck you feel so amazing wrapped around me. Damn you're so tight." I moan louder at her words. I never thought I was one for dirty talk, but I believe Tanya has changed my mind.

"Faster," I moan as I feel her starting to remove half of her cock before thrusting back into me making me feel full all over again.

"Dear god Bella you're really tight. It feels amazing." Tanya says as her head falls against my chest as I feel her struggling to keep a gentle pace.

"I don't think anybody could ever fill me as perfectly as you do." I moan as I gradually start to speed up my thrusts onto her giant cock.

"God Bella it's becoming really hard to not just take you." Tanya moans as pace starts to get faster and harder.

"Nobody said you couldn't. If you want me baby then just take me." I whisper in her ear seductively as I scrape my nails across her back teasingly.

Before my mind has time to catch up Tanya is quickly flipping me onto my back. I watch as she forces my legs further and adopts a brutal and relentless pace.

"Fuck yes. Fuck my pussy baby." I scream as Tanya places my legs over her shoulders as she literally fucks me into the bed.

"Do you like the way my cock feels fucking your pussy Bella? Good you're so warm and tight. I feel like my cock could fuck you forever." Tanya growls as I feel her starting to lose her rhythm. She must be getting close.

"I want to feel you cum inside of me baby." I moan as I feel my muscles starting to tighten. I feel a tight coiling in my stomach begging to be released.

"Don't fight it baby. I want you to let go with me." Tanya says as our eyes locks as she repeated delivers well placed thrust forcing me over the edge hard.

In no time she's falling over the edge with me as a I feel her hot cum fill my pussy is several hard spurts. She continues to thrust into me hard forcing me to cum again too soon for my body to handle.

I feel the world start to become hazy as my powerful organs sweep through my body. If possible I think over gone beyond cloud nine right now.

As the world slowly comes back into focus the only thing that I can hear to fill the silent are our deep breaths after mind blowing orgasms.

I hiss softly as I feel the emptiness spread through my body as Tanya removes her now soft cock from my thoroughly fucked pussy. I wrapped my arms around Tanya as I feel her rest into me more heavily.

"I have no words to describe how amazing that was." She whispers as she kisses my chest gently before kissing her way up my throat to my lips.

"Have I left the great coven leader speechless? I seem to make that happen too often." I chuckle softly as I gently trace patterns across her back as my breathing returns to normal.

"I wouldn't say that I'm speechless exactly. My mind just happens to be on other things." She says with a simple shoulder shrug.

"Oh really? On things like what?" I sigh as a I feel her leaving feather light touches against my sides that I'm sure are starting to show my bruises by now.

"The smell of your blood is in the air. When I broke through your hymen it caused some minor bleeding. I won't lie I really want to taste it, but if it makes you uncomfortable I won't." Tanya says as she lifts her head up so our eyes can lock.

I trust Tanya more than I've ever trusted anybody in my entire life. I know she would never hurt me or lose control. "I would never deny you anything Tanya. If you want to then by all means feel free." I say as I lean up and peck her lips smiling.

"Do you know how much I love you right now?" She asks as she reaches her hand up to brush some of my hair out of my face.

"About how much I love you." I say as I gently grab her hand and lay a kiss on each finger. I do that several times before I finish by laying a kiss in the center of her palm.

Tanya gently starts to kiss down my body causing me to moan deeply. She lovingly takes time to kiss every bruise that's starting to form on my body. I gently run my fingers through her hair as I show her where I really need her right now.

"God you're blood smells amazing Bella." Tanya moans as she lines her face up with my pussy. I gently spread my legs wider offering her more room to work with.

My back arches off the bed as I feel Tanya take a firm lick up my slit. I resist the urge to tighten my thighs around her head keeping her in place. She repeats licking up my slit a few more times before she focuses solely on my clit.

I try not to scream when she pulling my clit with her teeth gently. "Don't hold back baby." Tanya moans as she starts sucking my clit again.

I clutch the comforter beneath me tightly as she places my legs over her shoulder pulling me closer. "Oh fuck Tanya!" I scream as I feel her thrust 2 fingers into me.

She starts a fast and hard pace as she continues to suck on my clit. I move my hands into her hair forcing her closer as I thrust into her fingers feeling my orgasm rise in my stomach again.

"Tanya I'm so close. Just a little bit more." I moan as I feel her finally release my clit from her lips. I watch as she gently kisses her way up my stomach until her face is level with mine. I waste no time pulling her closer to me and connecting our lips in a sexually charged kiss.

Suddenly I feel Tanya add a third finger as she sets a brutal pace. Her thumb starts to circles my clit forcing me over the edge. I claw my nails down her back as I ride out my orgasm screaming her name.

"I don't think my name has ever sounded so amazing." Tanya says with a cheeky smile as she gently removes her fingers. I sigh as I feel my muscles starting to relax in exhaustion.

"I bet you feel pretty proud of yourself right now don't you?" I smile gently as Tanya starts to pepper my face in loving kisses.

"Why yes. Yes I do and can you blame me? My incredibly sexy mate came twice screaming my name. On top of that she helped me fight through my fears and made me feel on cloud nine." Tanya says as she rests her head against my shoulder gently nuzzling my neck.

As we lie here together enjoying our peaceful afterglow I realize that I could never be this happy with anybody else. She makes my heart sore in ways that I never thought possible. I want to spend the rest of my life with this beautiful woman.

"Marry me."

A/N 2: For those of you who keep asking for it. I hope you enjoyed all of it. Now please stop asking for it and wait for it to be given. I will love anybody who can make what I just said dirty as hell. XD

P.S.- Bella's not going to get pregnant this soon. Sorry!