Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, but if I did then I would like to believe that it would have been so legit and hella gay.

A/N: So I needed some time away to re-evaluate my stories. Many of you don't know that I'm not very confident in my writing. I still struggle and I overthink things. So I took some time off and got myself together.

P.S.- So I would like to take everybody who has PATIENTLY waited for me to update my next chapter. I did warn y'all that I would be taking some time off to spend with my friends and family who I don't get to see during the school year. I promise I'll make up to all the people who whined about me being gone forever. (I was only gone for a little over a month I'm going to need y'all to get a grip please.)

Bella's P.O.V.

As Tanya and I silently walk into our room I can clearly see that something is on her mind. "Tanya, baby, talk to me please. Something's clearly bothering you. What is it?" I ask softly as I close the door behind us.

"There's nothing wrong angel. I just….I was wondering….do I not make you happy?" She says with a small voice as she sits down heavily on our bed.

"So I see you were listening to my conversation with Carmen earlier." I sigh as I crouch down in front of her and rest my hands on her knees. I had a feeling she was going to bring this up eventually.

"I didn't mean to listen, but I'm worried about you Bella. Ever since we came back from Charlie's you've been kind of closed off. I was worried that it was because of me." Tanya sighs as she rests her hands over mine.

"You have every right to be concerned love, but I'm confused. What do you mean because of you? You've been nothing but supportive since we…." As I finally register the guilty look on her face I realize what she meant. "Wait you couldn't possibly believe that I regret what we did the other night, could you?" I ask softly allowing a few tears to escape and cascade down my face. How could I cause such a beautiful creature, both inside and out, to doubt herself so much?

"Well I know it wasn't as romantic as you deserved. I was afraid that we both had just gotten caught up in the moment, and well that was the first time you saw my unusual anatomy. I was worried that maybe after you had time to think about it you regretted everything. I don't know..." I feel my heart shatter as I see tears well up that will never fall. I never meant to cause her so much pain.

"Tanya….I don't….I can't." I gently reach for one of her hands and enclose it within both of mine. I look deeply into her eyes as I figure out what I'm trying to say and how I want to say it. "Tanya, no matter how it happened or what kind of anatomy you have I could never regret giving myself to you completely. You are truly the love of my life. Please never doubt yourself like that ever again." I say allowing more tears to escape.

Before I even have time to register what's happening I'm straddling Tanya's lap as she has me her lap. "I'm so sorry Bella. I just…." I quickly shush her before she has time to finish her sentence.

"Never apologize for your feelings my love, but next time when you're having this many negative feelings please tell me. I don't care what's going on you're my mate therefore you supersedes everything else that's going on, okay?" I whisper softly as I kiss her forehead and began running my fingers through her beautiful strawberry blonde hair.

"You always know just what I need to hear. I love you Bella." Tanya says softly as she rests her head on my shoulder and nuzzles my neck right on my pulse point. I wonder….no no no I need to focus.

"I love you too Tanya more than words could even possibly describe." I sigh as I continue to gently run my fingers through her hair.

We sit in silence for a few minutes simply enjoying each other's presence before I notice Tanya starting to fidget with the end of my shirt. "Talk to me baby." I say softly causing her to stop.

"I can't help but feel very insecure right now. I mean our relationship has been fast and intense and I'm afraid it's because I'm pushing you. Do you still want to get married? Please don't feel like you have to tell me what you think I want to hear." I hate how she sounds so dejected as though she's waiting for me to call off the wedding just because she's giving me an out.

I growl softly as I use more strength than I thought I possessed to push Tanya back on our bed and effective pin her hands above her head. I feel my eyes change to a vibrate purple as I growl again this time a little louder. I watch as her eyes widen in a mix between surprise and arousal.

"Now listen closely Denali because I'm only going to say this once. There is no way on this side of heaven or hell that I will EVER change my mind about marrying you. While yes our relationship has been fast I wouldn't have it any other way. From day one you have been completely honest with me, and you didn't play games. From the moment we met you have shown me nothing but love in its purest form. So nothing and I mean not a goddamn thing is going to stop me from marrying you. Do I make myself crystal clear?" I growl and can't help but smile triumphantly when Tanya can do nothing but nod silently.

My smile only widens when I feel her little friend poke my inner thigh. I couldn't resist grinding down into her causing both of us moaning at the feeling.

"A-angel is now really the best time for this?" Tanya says trying to fight back a moan as she starts to grind up meeting me in the middle.

"I personally feel like anytime is a good time to pleasure my beautiful fiancée. Do you disagree my love?" I say seductively in her ear.

"I swear you're going to be the death of me angel." Tanya moans as she reaches up to connect our lips in a heated kiss.

I release Tanya's hands and instead tangle my hands in her beautiful hair. Nothing in the world could ever compare to what Tanya makes me feel.

"No," Tanya says quietly as she pulls away from me abruptly. "Bella we need to talk. Please stop trying to distract me." She sighs as she wraps her arms around my waist.

I also sigh deeply as I untangle my hands and rest my head on her shoulder. I know she's right, but I really wish she wasn't. "I'm not good about talking about my feelings especially when Renee is involved."

Tanya gracefully rolls us on our side. "Angel, it's not good for you to keep all of your emotions bottled up, and since you won't talk to Renee then please talk to me." Tanya pleads softly as she gently runs her fingers along my side.

"I don't know what to say right now. My emotions are so stupid and all over the place. I don't know whether to be angry, hurt, relieved, or something entirely different." I sigh in frustration.

"Please don't call your emotions stupid. They're very important to me which is why I need to know what's going on in the beautiful heart of yours. Nobody would blame you for being angry or hurt, but why would you be relieved?" Tanya asks me gently as she grabs my hand and laces our fingers together.

"I….I think I'm relieved because I've always known that Renee never wanted me, but for her to finally admit it make me feel better. I think it just makes it more real and it confirms that everything wasn't all in my head. And don't even bring up the whole archangel because that brings up a whole different set of emotions." I really don't want to talk about this right now, but Tanya's right she deserves to know.

"I always knew you were an angel." Tanya says with a cheeky smile trying to help break the ice. I will admit it does make me chuckle slightly.

"I'm trying to be serious here Tanya." I mumble trying to fight back the blush that's starting to creep up my neck.

"I'm being quite serious my dear angel. I always knew there was something special about you, and the fact that you're an archangel simply confirmed it." Tanya says sweetly as she gently strokes the back of her hand along my cheek.

"I'm sure you think that about all the pretty girls you find in the forest." I say with a faint smile.

"I resent that! I just really have a thing for short beautiful brunettes with chocolate brown eyes." Tanya says as she tangles her fingers in my hair gently.

"Oh my god! We have so much in common because I too have a thing for beautiful brunettes." I hear Tanya growl softly as she rolls on top of me pinning my arms to my side.

"Are you sure about that? Are you sure you don't want to rethink what you just said?" Tanya growls in my face playfully.

"Yes, I would actually." I say with a cheeky smile. "I prefer my brunettes tall." I immediately regret my choice of words as Tanya begins to tickle me mercilessly.

"Take it back angel. Take it back and I'll stop." Tanya says as she sits up to get better leverage.

"No…...can't breathe…..please stop…..so mean…." I gasp out trying to catch a breathe. "Please stop….." I yelp trying to get away from her.

"You know what you have to say to get me to stop angel. Until then I'm sorry it had to come to this." Tanya says as her hands start to drift higher up my sides.

"Stop!...I'm gonna pee…...Tanyaaaaaaa…I can't breath!" I whine as tears start to stream down my face as I see black dots starting to form from lack of oxygen.

"If you take it back I'll stop. It's really that simply Bella." Tanya says with a sinister grin as she starts tickling me underneath my arms.

"I take it back okay!" I scream as my lungs start to burn from lack of oxygen. Immediately Tanya stops as moves to lie down next to me again.

"See angel that wasn't so hard now was it?" She says with a cheeky smile that I really just want knock right off her face.

"Marry me?" I ask in-between deep gasps as I try to catch my breathe slowly. I watch as a confused look falls upon Tanya's face. "I mean today….marry me today." I clarify as I roll over to face her.

"Bella, there's really no rush. I know how you feel about marriage so the fact that we're engaged is good enough for me. We don't have to rush the wedding if you're not ready for it." Tanya says as she rolls on her side to match me.

"My opinion on marriage hasn't changed actually." I'm quick to elaborate as a crestfallen looks starts to form on Tanya's face. "I mean I do still think that marriage is an overly abused tactic used by desperate people to make sure they don't spend all of their life alone, and sadly a lot of people are stupid enough to fall for it. But I don't see us that way. I want to marry you because I couldn't possibly imagine spending the rest of my eternity with anybody else. You're it for me Tanya, and that honestly couldn't make me happier. I want to marry you today so I can finally scream to the world that I married the only person that has captured my whole heart without even trying." I watch as tears start to well up in Tanya's eyes.

"You know if you keep talking like that you'll run out of things to say in your vows." Tanya says she wraps her arms around my waist and pulls me closer.

"Oh so we're writing our own vows then? Okay I'm sure I can come up with something else to say. When I'm talking about you the words just seem to flow. I could talk about my love for you for the next 100 years and still have more to say." I whisper softly as I nuzzle her neck.

"I honestly don't know what I did to deserve such an amazing mate. You are literally a dream come true." Tanya sighs as she runs the tips of her fingers along my spine.

"You never answered my question Tanya." I remove my head from her shoulder so I can look her in the eyes. "I don't want to wait anymore. I feel like I've been waiting for you all of my life. So what do you say? Will you marry me today?" I watch as Tanya reveals her pearly whites in a brilliant smile.

"I would love to angel." She says as she pulls me into a passionate kiss. Dear god do I want this woman right now. I almost growl in frustration when I feel Tanya pulling away. "Wait what are we going to do about rings and dresses? I know you don't want a classic wedding, but don't you at least want to have the white dress and flowers?" I find it so adorable how Tanya's concerned about ruining wedding dreams I never had.

"Oh Tanya you should know by now that my idea of a perfect wedding is you and me standing at the altar together. We could be in dresses, jeans, or potato sacks for all I care as long as I'm with you. The only problem we might have would be that I don't have a ring for you right now." I sigh as I start to play with the ring around my neck.

"I'm sure we can figure something out angel." Tanya says as she gently kisses my forehead. I feel myself starting to smile like an idiot and I love it.

Times like this when I can just lie in Tanya's arms in silence are one of my favorites. I never feel obligated to try and feel the silence like I did with Edward. When I was with him I always felt like silence meant something bad was about to happen, but with Tanya everything is comfortable and easy.

I nestle into Tanya's side more and sigh deeply. I can't help but wonder if this feeling can truly last forever. "Wow, I can practically hear that beautiful brain of yours working a mile a minute. Would you like to tell me what's going on in that beautiful mind of yours angel?"

"Sometimes I can't help but compare you to Edward. I mean I know I shouldn't, but he was the first relationship I had ever been in so I compare the differences to see how much better you are than him." I say softly as I gently kiss her neck.

"Angel, going into this relationship I knew you would make comparisons. It's only naturally especially after how bad he hurt you in the end. Please don't feel like telling me that would hurt my feelings if anything it makes me feel better knowing that I'm winning by a landslide." Tanya says as she gently kisses my forehead.

"He couldn't even compete with you on his best day baby." I whisper softly as I close my eyes and allow silence to gradually fall between us. I close my eyes as I feel the stress of the day completely leave my body.

"Angel would you like for me to make you something to eat before you go to sleep or would you rather just call it a night?" Tanya asks as she gently slides from on top of me.

"I'm not really that hungry right now. Can we just cuddle for a while? I'm feeling really drained after everything that happened today." I sigh as I quickly slide off my shoes and readjust so I'm snuggled into Tanya's side.

"Just get some sleep angel. I'll be right here when you wake up." Tanya says softly as sleep quickly claims me for the night.

A/N 2: So I just realized how much I still have to cover before I can end this story so be prepared for longer chapters because things are about to get crazy.