A/n – Sorry guys been writing and re-writing this for about two weeks now and I wasn't happy with the chapter but finally I got there so sorry for keeping you waiting.

Jo

I am still tired even though I somehow managed to sleep for half an hour. In truth only having half an hour makes me feel horrible, probably more horrible than if I wasn't able to fall asleep. But it doesn't matter. I don't matter right now. Kendall is the only one who does and they have just whisked him away for another scan. When are we going to be told some good news about him?

The latest news is that the doctors are going to keep him sedated until they figure out how much damage Kendall's head took when he fell. Especially with him having a seizure they had to be careful.

Jen followed the doctor to Kendall's room and went inside, to tell Logan what was going on. I waited outside the room for her. In truth I didn't want to see Kendall attached to all of those machines. I couldn't breathe, I was gasping for air. It made me feel sick seeing Kendall like that and I never want to see Kendall like that or remember him being in here. I shed a tear: my Kendall is strong, funny, caring, romantic, chatty and smart. I just wanted him back.

My head felt funny all of a sudden, light headed and dizzy. I fell sidewards into something hard but soft.
"Hey you okay?" James said,

"James she's not okay" Logan said softly. "She's not eaten, not slept so her body is weaker"

"I'm still here you know?" I pointed out

"You need to sleep we all do" Jen said.

"I want to be here, Kendall is all alone in there" I said. "i can't let him be alone"

James guided me to a chair. "He's not"

"You need to think about this" Logan said "You need to look after yourself for Kendall"

I sighed and rubbed my face. I didn't want to leave Kendall alone. I have to be here. If it was me, Kendall wouldn't rest until he was sure that I was going to be okay.

Jen knelt in front of me "Honey I know this is hard but you need to take care of yourself we don't need you to be in here too"

I nodded slowly. Maybe it would be best if I was to go and get some rest, maybe have a shower and grab a change of clothes. At least it would stop Jen from worrying about me as well.

"Maybe you can take Katie and come back in a couple of hours after you both rest and have a shower" Jen said "We musn't forget to look after ourselves"

Eventually I did agree to go back to the Palm Woods with Katie on the condition that any news, big or small or any change that they let me know. I am just going to find it hard to return to the Palm Woods: last time I was there me and Kendall were having a picnic under the stars on the beach. That was only two days ago yet it seemed like years away. So much has happened in the last two days.

Logan

Jo was in no fit state to drive or to look after Katie by herself but I wasn't going to mention that not when she was almost dead on her feet. Jo was stubborn, like Kendall, once she set her mind to something almost nothing could change it. But I hoped this time she would listen for her sake.

My phone buzzed in my pocket. In all the rush and everything I had forgotten to turn it off. "Hi"

"Hi sweetie I wasn't sure if you were going to pick up" She said.

I mouthed Camille to everyone and walked outside to speak to her properly. "will you be able to come and get Jo and Katie, they really need to rest but Jo is refusing to leave and we all want to make sure that Kendall isn't alone"

Out the corner of my eye I saw the flash of a camera or twenty. I guess they weren't going to stop hunting for a story.

"yeah stay on the line with me while I drive" she said "I was actually just going to come and wait with you so what news is there?"

I sniffled "they found something abnormal on his brain they've just taken him for another scan, Camille there's something wrong but they just don't want to tell us"

"two minutes away" she announced.

"I just don't know what to do or say" I said as I saw her car pull up.

She jumped out the car and gave me a hug. "I've missed you"

I kissed her. "I have to be strong but I don't know how much longer we can all do this" I took her hand and led her through the hospital to where the others were waiting for news of Kendall. Hopefully its nothing major and Kendall is okay but from the looks of the doctors it didn't give me much hope to be honest, but I hope they are wrong. My friend can get through anything that life throws at him and this isn't going to beat him.

"No news yet" James said "hey Camille"

"Hi" she said softly. She gave Jo, Jen and Katie a big hug. "I'm sorry I didn't come sooner but its been mad with all the paparazzi at the palm woods desperate to know what's going on"

Jen smiled weakly and took Katie to get her stuff from the family room. When they returned Jo didn't move. She couldn't make herself move or leave Kendall.

"Jo sweetie you need to take of yourself" Jen said.

Jo nodded but I doubt that she was listening to anything.

Camille took her arm and pulled her onto her feet. "Come on its just for a couple of hours okay?" Camille put her arm around Jo's shoulders to keep her on her feet

Jo stopped as she got to to the door "You promise you guys will keep us updated?"

I promised her, it was the least we can do, especially because we all know how much Jo loves Kendall.