Strangers were worried about the boy in front of me. They were his friends and family and they weren't allowed in this room that I am desperately trying to escape. I sat in the room facing him watching as the beeping machine kept him alive. The boy, he had fallen and hit his head. He was struggling to stay alive. The men in white coats were fighting to save his life only moments ago. He was in surgery and he coped just, his heart gave up twice and the men managed to pull him back. They all admitted if it was to happen again he would die they wouldn't be able to keep his heart beating again.
The smells here were weird like some extremely clean something. It made me feel sick, yet its supposed to stop illness and things to spread. I wanted to get out of here but it wasn't simple. I was tied to the boy lying there in front of me by an invisible thread. I tried to run away from here, from him and his memories that are slowly coming back but i got yanked back by a sharp stabbing pain that winded me. So I have learnt to make my peace with it, its not so bad i guess. I've kind of got used to it being here alone.
Outside his friends and family wait not without argument or fighting. Those boys have already fought four times since they got here. They say the more you fight the more you care so hopefully its true in this case.
My body ached again. I wonder if his body aches too. I wouldn't be surprised if it does after the accident. Its been days since the accident and still no change in the boy, even after the surgery. It makes me wonder how long will the men keep him alive before they realise he is not coming back.
Katie
I have never ever seen mum act like this before. Not even when the boys decided to play football in the flat and broke absolutely everything that they could have because they were so rough. Mum never got angry not will anyone, no matter what they did. It was like a different personality or something took over her because this isn't how mum normally acts.
"I won't repeat myself again!" Mum snapped making sure she stood in between me and Gary "Get away from my daughter!"
I don't understand why she is acting so erratic and untrusting. Gary seemed nice enough to me.
James pulled me behind him. "Its okay" he whispered. "Don't worry about any of this"
"You have no right!" Mum screamed.
He just stood there leaning against the wall with his arms crossed against his chest, as if he wasn't paying attention to what mum was saying. "Katie i care about Kendall"
"I don't know you. You are just some guy that knows some things about BTR. Anyone could know them" I said.
"Don't talk to him Katie" Mum ordered.
I'm so confused. Why can't i talk to him? Okay he is a stranger to me. And mum is acting like someone else, not herself. I just want the truth like everybody else, what is going on?
"I want you to go leave me and my children alone!" Mum snapped. "Leave like you promised and never come back!"
Gary laughed.
I pressed my forehead on James' back, close to tears i was shaking.
James turned round and put his arms around me. He played with my hair "Don't listen Katie okay you don't to hear any of this"
He was wrong i needed to know what was going on with mum. She's scaring me.
"I'm staying" Gary said proudly. "I am sticking around for Kendall. And for you, i love you"
Mum shook her head. "I find that hard to believe you never loved me you wouldn't have given me those scars that will always be a horrible reminder of the time we spent together."
What scars? Is that the reason why mum never ever showed off any part of her body? What happened between them? Who is he?
"Mum what happened?" I asked. I really need the answer. I really need to know what happened. Mum is not herself. I have not seen her emotional, I've never even seen her shed a tear when her dad died and they were really close. I stepped round James and went over to her.
"Not now Katie!" Mum cried and slapped me across the cheek.
Everybody was in shock over it. My mum hit me. She's never hit anyone in her life. Okay she's separated the boys when they've been fighting and threatened us jokingly but she's never physically harmed one of us.
"Katie are you okay?" James said kneeling by my side. Logan was checking my cheek and Carlos was staring at mum in shock.
I didn't know what to say to any of them, I didn't move i just stared at mum. I was stunned that she would hurt me. She has never raised her hand to anyone before. "You're wrong mum something is wrong or something has changed but none of us know what has being going on between you and that guy but you won't tell" I said, holding my hand to my cheek. "I need to know mum"
Mum swallowed "you won't understand none of you will" she blinked as if she was waking up from a dream or a nightmare. "Where the hell is Gary!?"
