I managed to convince Cami to take me for a drink in the hospital cafe, after all she can't expect me to pee on a stick without having anything to drink. Truthfully I wasn't scared of that, I was scared of the results and how it could change my life and Kendall's.

She set our drinks out in front of me and put her hand on my shoulder "it's going to be okay"

I sighed putting my head on her hand "how do you know? Cami he is still unconscious. Its been a week since the fall and hardly anything has changed since then"

She smiled and took my hand "try not to worry logie says its a good thing. He told me that the longer he is unconscious, even though its hard on us, the quicker Kendall will heal."

I smiled weakly at her and took a sip of my hot chocolate. "Maybe you're right"

"Anyway you missed Bitters going absolutely ape at the palm woods. Apparently he's got lots of new potential clients but because mostly everyone is here the hotel is empty and he's not getting any extra money so he went berserk and trashed the lobby."

I laughed. For a moment I forgot about Kendall, why we were here. And then I remembered Kendall...

A tear rolled down my cheek. I can't believe I let myself forget for one second what was going on. I needed to be near Kendall.

"Hey you all right you are looking really pale" Cami said "You haven't slept well have you?"

I shook my head and stood up. "Sorry Cami I need to see him"

"Jo are you avoiding taking the test?"

I didn't reply but she is right and she knows it. No I didn't want to take the test. I didn't want to know right now. Not without Kendall.

"Where are you going?" Cami called after me as I walked out the cafe. Thinking about Kendall made me miss him even more I decided to go back to his room and spend some more time with him.

"Kendall we all need you back but especially Jo" I could hear Logan speaking before I saw them. They were sat round Kendall's bedside. I hid behind the door at the side so the guys couldn't see me.

"She's been so quiet lately even with Cami and you know what she can be like with secrets and things" James explained.

"She's been looking so pale and tired lately." Logan pointed out.

Great thanks a lot guys.

"Dude we are not going to lie she needs you" Carlos said "She's worried about you, we all are."

They all got up.

Oh great. I quickly shuffled down the corridor and turned back just in time to see them coming out.

"We were just coming to get you" James said

"Any change?" I asked them.

Logan shook his head "Not yet but the doctor thinks if we keep talking to him he might just wake up"

I nodded and yawned. "I'll go sit with him for a bit"

I could feel their eyes on me as I went inside and closed the door slowly behind me.

"She doesn't look well at all" Logan said as they walked away.

I closed my eyes I did feel tired but I don't feel unwell, just tired. I sat at the foot of Kendall's hospital bed. He was surrounded by monitors probably to asses his heart rate. He had a couple of scratches on his face from where he had fallen a week ago and a bruise on his cheek. He was much paler than usual and he was beginning to look more slim than usual.

I picked up his hand and held it against my chest above my heart. "I love you Kendall I need you more than ever. I love you so much. I miss our chats and all our hugs and kisses, especially the goodbye ones." I paused for a minute. Tracing my fingers over his face gently, eventually stroking his blonde hair "Oh Kendall you do not know how much I need you right now, how much we all need you and want you back with us. Please, please come back to us. Please come back to me"

I wiped away the silent tear that rolled down my cheek "Please tell me what do I need to do to get you back?"

There was a knock at the door. Cami came in followed by everyone. "Come on Jo its time we head home"

I shook my head. "Try as I might I don't think I can leave"

"Jo" Cami said softly. She put her eyes on my bag. I knew she wanted me to take that test.

"No" I snapped.

"Jo please when Kendall wakes up and sees that you've not been sleeping he'll be worried about you" James said coming over to my side.

Logan knelt down in front of me "Jo honey you look dead on your feet come on we'll go get some sleep and then we'll come back all refreshed okay?"

I sighed "Okay"

I got up too quickly but I didn't fall. I followed them out of Kendall's room. I felt weird. I touched my head I wasn't burning up but it was like all of a sudden I lost all control of my legs. I didn't even feel it as my legs collapsed under me.