I'm so sorry for making you wait so long! I'm having a bit of writer's block on Ch 6 and thought I had already posted Ch 5! I'm lame, I know. I'm soooo sorry and I'm going to get my butt over there and start working on Ch 6 immediately.
I hope you all enjoy even though it isn't going to seem like much compared to the last chapter. lol
My heart is beating so fast, but all I can do is pace back and forth in this cell. My chains rattle as my bare feet smack the cement floor when I walk. My pace is slow and I make do with the pain splitting up my right side. The adrenaline is still coursing through my veins from the previous dose, while the doses of painkillers that Shizuo gave me are forcing my eyes close.
Shizuo keeps watching me but I don't know what to say to him. Should I say thank you? Ha, I wouldn't have done the same for him. It's always an experiment with him though.
Experiment? Wait a minute-.
"Shizu-chan, it's an experiment."
"The surgery?" he asks.
"No, this whole thing. Their keeping us here as an experiment." I wait for him to reply but he seems content with that information. "The shocks, the drugs, and the surgery are all a part of brainwashing. They're trying to erase me."
"Erase you? You drugged up again? I'm tired of playing the guessing game, so just tell me this time."
"No, just the painkillers you gave me and the adrenaline, but I'm saying they're trying to change my personality."
"That doesn't sound so bad," he answers and now I'm confused.
"Weren't you just helping me!?"
"Well, I mean, what they did was fucked up... but that doesn't mean I'm suddenly on your side. I hate you so I don't really see a problem with changing your personality."
Nausea wracks my body and I run in an awkward crouch to the toilet, spilling bile into the toilet bowl. Coughing, I dry heave a few more times before sitting against the wall to catch my breath. Pain sears my side with each movement.
"Why would you say they're brainwashing you?" He asks.
"LSD, electric shocks, sleep deprivation, pain, and fear have been proven in many illegal human experiments to wipe the brain clean, leaving it vulnerable enough to accept a new personality." I breathe a deep sigh and swallow, though my mouth is terribly dry. "Their original plan was to use it for mind control."
"Of course, that's why we're here isn't it? You were involved in that kind of shit, huh? Leave it to the flea to have knowledge about illegal affairs," he says, accusing me as usual.
"No, I read about it on the internet. Come on, Shizu-chan. You can't possibly believe I have a hand in every single illegal activity."
"Yes, I do," he boldly declares as he glares at me.
"That's just ridiculous," I reply, though I'm not surprised one bit by his response.
"What do you hope to gain by telling me this? Did you really think that it would change anything? You keep looking at me to save you, but honestly, who the fuck would do that for you?"
Ouch.
"Maybe I just needed to say it out loud," I reply slowly.
He got me there. What do I expect from him? What can I expect from him?
"Maybe I overestimated you," I wonder aloud.
"See? You just have to have the last word even though you know I'm right. What did they even do to you?"
How the fuck am I supposed to know?
"You know Shizu-chan, I was just so intrigued by the whole thing that I never took my eyes away even once." I let out a self depreciating chuckle as I weigh whether or not he will pick up on my sarcasm.
"And?" Annnnnddddd... he didn't.
"Really? Obviously, I have no idea."
"What, you don't feel any missing organs? Feel anything new?" The way he asks this makes me laugh out loud.
"You know, now that you mention it, it does feel more roomy in there."
His eyes light up, "Really?"
"GEE, I DON'T KNOW! DOES HORRIBLE PAIN SQUEEZING MY INSIDES SOUND ROOMIER TO YOU!?" I can't help but scream my reply as my irritation overflows and immediately after, I regret it. My arm reaches for the sharp pain on my side and I throw up into the toilet once more. After heaving a few times, I lean against the wall again.
"You could have just said you didn't know," he grumbles.
I want out of here.
My eyes begin to droop as my arm moves to guard my side. Truth be told, I'm too afraid to even lift my shirt to look at it.
Why do they want to erase me? I may not be the most stand up guy but something tells me it's not because they don't like my personality. Maybe they need my face with a more compliant attitude? Then why not just offer to let me out with the condition of their request?
Why bring Shizuo into it?
None of this makes sense.
He's received two choices so far, does that mean we've been here two weeks? How long will we have to endure this.
No.
How long will I have to endure this.
Shizuo has yet to do anything other than make decisions about me. Why am I the only one going through all the pain? Why not experiment on the weird neanderthal alien?
"Flea."
My eyes are too heavy to worry about him or whatever he has to bitch at me about.
"Fleaaa," he sings.
Shut the fuck up. I finally feel a little better. The medicine is finally working really well, or the adrenaline wearing off.
"FLEA!"
My eyes snap open involuntarily, "What!?"
"Oh, just checking to see if you're still alive."
I sigh, I don't even have the strength to bother with him anymore.
"Why wouldn't I be?"
He looks away from me and I allow my eyes to close again.
"Because I thought I overdosed you."
Pfft.
"I don't think that would bother you one bit."
I can hear him shift but I refuse to open my eyes to look at him.
Just breathing hurts but I try to sink down to lay on the floor. They were nice enough to lay a blanket on the floor for me so I move a bit to get on to it. Cursing under my breath at the pain, I roll on my side so that the blanket wraps around me.
I just want some comfort. Isn't it disgusting? I'd take that shitty neanderthal over nothing. I have nothing but myself to lick my wounds and mend my breaking mind.
My sanity is breaking down.
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