Donnie wanted to be sad. His family didn't even know his spirit was still there, I mean how could they? Donnie's watched Leo walk into the dojo. Curiosity, the first feeling he's had in a while, coursed through him and he followed behind him.

Leo was meditating, nothing new. But he seemed to really be concentrating, his eyes furrowed. Donnie sat down in front of Leo and just studied him. Soon a blue mist surrounded him and the room. Leo became like a beacon of light, shining brightly that attracted Donnie. It gave him a place of peace, a place of connection.

As the mist expanded, Donnie could actually feel Leo becoming more and more relaxed, like they were one. Leo invited Donnie to come to him without using his words like he was hoping to hear from someone, perhaps someone he's been missing - a loved one, a family member, a friend who is now on the other side.

Donnie could sense Leo allowing the emotion, the feelings, he felt like Leo could see him, hear him, feel him, like he was still there.

"Leo..?" Donnie genuinely felt the emotion Leo was giving.

Leo jumped hard like he heard Donnie and the connection broke. Leo looked around and took a deep breath.

"I knew it..." Leo whispered to himself.

Donnie's eyes went wide and Leo left out of the dojo, leaving Donnie with no more feeling at all. Donnie snapped out of it and again followed Leo with desire to feel that connection.

"Guy's!" Leo bellowed out across the lair. "Donnie...his spirit,"

"What? Leo, stop," Raph said angrily. "He's in a better place now, we've been through enough."

"No, you don't understand!" Donnie said, he wished he could argue.

"That's not what I meant, Raph. I connected with him somehow, I was just meditating and-" Leo tried to explain.

"Why?! Ya just want us to hurt even more, huh?" Raph's accent rang out more.

"Just listen -"

"NO!" Raph was up and pointing his finger in Leo's face. "You listen! Leave Donnie's 'spirit' alone, stop tryna' make a joke of his death! Just stop." Raph seemed to break down a little, although before it seemed like he didn't care, he did, he always did.

Mikey watched Raph lash out on Leo for no good reason but still felt he needed to say something, 'Not cool' Mikey said. Leo rolled his eyes.

...

Raph came back hours later. Donnie was waiting for him, he was worried.

"Raph's back!" Mikey said happily.

"Can it." Raph snapped back.

Donnie stood up and followed Raph around, hoping he'd at least feel his presence, but he didn't. All of a sudden, Donnie felt heavy, sad, and hot..so hot. These feelings bought back memories, memories of when he found Raph "dead" in his torture chamber. Donnie started to cry, feeling guilty and hurt. A part of him died he hated this feeling. He fell to his knees in front of Raph and screamed at the ceiling. Déjà vu. He managed to crawl away from Raph and got himself together. Why did that happen? When he was Leo he didn't feel that way, or with Mikey. The feeling passed.