Donnie was starting to realize his brothers' death were all in his subconscious, he hated this, he hated being dead, he hated not being able to be there for his family.

Leo was calling him through meditation again but he didn't feel like talking to Leo, not like this anyway. But he couldn't fight the feeling, he went to Leo.

"I can feel you," Leo said as Donnie walked in.

"Leo, why can't I move on?" Donnie asked.

"I ... don't understand." Leo could only hear some of what Donnie said.

"I - I don't want to be here. Help." Donnie begged.

"Help? Help with what?" Leo asked confused.

Donnie sighed, he'll never get it, he'll never understand him. He walked away. He understood now, he sees his brothers' pain and he knows now there's nothing he can do to help now matter how much he wanted to. Donnie felt better confessing all of that, the weight lifted off of his shoulders. A bright light burned Donnie's eyes and he shut them tight.

GWSHHHHH!

The helmet was lifted off of Donnie's head by Mikey.

"Mikey!" Donnie jumped off of his chair to hug him but he went right through him. "Huh?"

Mikey, Raph, and Leo laughed. Donnie's mind was playing tricks on him, he could still be in his torture chamber for all he knew. He sat with his knees hugged to his chest as everything around him went black. Everything that he's just been through...it was all just in his mind.

Donnie looked up and saw a door in the distance, he knew it was just another illusion.

He opened the door and went through it. He was in the dojo his brothers were sitting and he went over to join them.

"Where have you been?" Leo whispered to Donnie discreetly and a little aggressive.

"I don't know." Donnie replied honestly.

"You don't know?" Leo asked sarcastically.

Donnie didn't think this was a memory maybe his mind was making this all up too. Or...maybe it was real, he didn't know anymore. He didn't even know if he was alive or not.

"Sensai, may I be excused? I've got something important to do." Donnie played along with his illusion.

"More important then your training?" Splinter's ear twitched.

"Sensai, I -.."

"I understand, you can go."

Donnie ran into his lab and shut the door behind him. He wanted to escape this illusion. He looked down at his lab table and the equipment around. He was still working on the brain worm, still trying to find a cure so this must be before karai kidnapped them. So it was a memory! Donnie stepped back, he still didn't know what was going on at all and still wanted to leave. 'So I must really be dead, huh?' Donnie thought.