Sorry it's taken me so long, but I've been really busy and haven't had much inspiration.
So here you go. Keep the request coming, this one's mine but now that I have done these to I'm on yours, know that with the requests I'm starting at the first one from the first chap and going from there so it might take a sec but I'll get there.
Continuation of were legacy left off: Ezra's heart broken. Kanan wants so badly to help but isn't sure how, and Ezra's not helping by being so closed off...as always.
: Ezra POV
I sobbed into Kanan's chest, my body shaking violently. I never thought I'd let kanan hold me like this, at most it's a arm around me and even that made me kind of uncomfortable, but now I needed him more than anything.
My crying stared to soften with kanan rubbing comforting circles on my back and letting me cry into his shoulder. I'd be humiliated if I wasn't so busy trying not to puke from crying so hard. Eventually my sobbing went to sniffing and single tears. I sat in Kanan's arms for about ten minutes then he pulled me off him.
"Ezra...Ezra we need to go home." He patted my shoulder when my only movement was bearing my head in his chest. " We need to go." Kanan said.
I nodded and got up and walked to the Phantom with kanan.
When we got there I curled up in the seat and put my head to my knees. I heard Kanan put the ship on auto pilot. He sat down across from me.
"Ezra." I didn't move. "Ezra we need to talk about this." I still didn't move, I didn't want to talk, I didn't want to look up, I was devastated and humiliated, and wanted to die over all, I'm gonna have to face everyone when we get back to the ghost. How am I gonna do that?
"Ezra?"
"Kanan I'm fine. Ok?" It came out with much more anger that it was supposed to. I just so mad at myself. I should have braced myself for this, knowing that this is what was gonna happen. But I was hoping. What's wrong with me. To much hope.
"Ezra you were crying in my arms. Your not fine, come on please talk to me I'm here for you."
"Kanan I'm sorry I know you just trying to help but...I just need a minute." I did, I wanted kanan to hold me, let me cry myself to sleep, not talk, I don't know what say anyway. All that needs to be said is how much I need him and how scared I am. But I'd never say any of that. So there's no need to talk.
"Ok...let me know when you need me."
I nodded and curled into myself even more. I need him now but how can I say that without humiliating myself even more?
I must have fallen asleep because I felt kanan shaking me lightly and was stretch out over the seats instead if curled up on one. I opened my eyes to kanan looking at me like how I'd imagine a parent would look at their child, then everything came back and I closed my eyes again and tried to will this entire thing away.
"Ezra were home, I know your awake." He shook my shoulder a little and I opened my eyes to see him looking at me like how I imagine a parent would look at their child, then everything came back to me. He help me up off the seats and pulled me into a hug. I melted into his touch and the dread of telling everyone what happened seamed to wash away.
He put his arm around me and led me into the ghost.
Hera met us at the door with about nineteen thousand questions all at once.
"Ohmygodimsogladyourbackiwassoworriedidyoufineprisinorx-10 didyoufineoutanythingaboutezrasparents?" Hera said without taking one single breath.
"Ok Hera breath, pick one of those and we'll go from there." Kanan said. His arm still around me, with I was thankful for.
"Ok ok sorry, just tell me what happened."
Kanan looked at me like I was supposed to tell her. Kanan nodded and squeezed my shoulder reassuringly. I took a deep breath and began.
"Um we found prisoner X-10 and he said...um" I stopped and tried to choke back tears to little affect. Everyone was staring at me like they knew what was coming. I looked at kanan and back to everyone and back to kanan, I felt tears run down my face and I panicked.
"I can't do this." I ran to my room and looked the door. I'm sure kanan is gonna tell them.
I cried into my pillow until that feeling of being about to puke came back. Eventually I just sat there I stared into nothing. The shock wore off and I came to a full understanding of what just happened. The imperials have taken EVERYTHING from me, my home, my parents, my childhood, my freedom. Everything that's happened to me, I've always blamed the people involved with the individual hell holes I've been in but it was all the imperials. They did this to me.
I grabbed my pillow and slammed it on the ground, then I made my way to pretty much everything else in the room and once everything was broken I took my lightsaber and when to stabbing. Once I've exhausted myself I fell on the floor and cried to get back whatever I losses. It wasn't my parents persay, I had already losses them. What I've losses is hope. Hope that once, just once, I'd get a good break, that something would go right for me. But that hope just went down the toilet. I heard the door open.
"Wow. Now I know what that slamming sound was." Kanan said looking around the room.
He star down across from me.
"Yeah I may or may not have went on a rampage and taken a lightsaber to everything I own."
"I know you said you needed some time but I think you need something else right, am I right?" Kanan asked.
Instead of words I leaned into his open arms and brushed into tears.
"H...how long t...ill I lo...lose you t..to?" I asked through sobs.
"You're not gonna lose me, I'm right here, I'll aways be right here, even when you don't want me to be." He waited a few minutes, letting me cry, doing his best to comfort me. "Do you want to talk?"
"No talking...I've never been good at that... just hold me...stay with me." I said drifting off to sleep. Maybe kanan knows some kind of jedi trick because he can take me from a borderline panic attack to falling asleep.
"Always."
Then with his hand running through my hair I fell asleep.
Should it be a two parter
