Author's Note: I realized that I left some things out of the summary. In this fic, Hale did not grow up in Charming. I realized that he did in, in actuality. But, having him be an outsider works better with my plot-line. This fic is slight AU. Abel has been born, Jax mentions asking Gemma to watch Abel overnight for him in the last chapter.
-Anneryn
I DO NOT OWN SONS OF ANARCHY OR THE CHARACTERS.
Chapter Three:
Jax got out of the car and Opie tossed him the keys to his bike.
"You take care of her, Jax." Opie told Jax. Jax smiled and nodded.
"Of course, always do Ope." Jax responded. Opie laughed and headed towards the truck as Donna pulled up. Donna rolled down her window and shoved her head out the window.
"You get some sleep Kate." She told me. I giggled.
"Of course," I told her as Jax helped me out of the car. I stumbled a little bit, getting out of the car. My giggling continued.
"Let's get you inside, Darlin'." Jax whispered. I nodded.
"Okay, Baby Boy." I told him, amazed that I wasn't slurring my words. He used my keys to unlock the door and let us both inside, before re-locking the door. We kept walking until we reached my room. He's stayed over plenty of times, along with Abel.
He helped me sit on the bed and he took off my shoes.
"I can do that myself, you know." I told him. He looked up at and smiled.
"And you can let me take care of you sometimes, you know." He shot back. I rolled my eyes.
"Isn't that what you're doing right now?" I questioned. He gave me a small smirk.
"We need to talk, Katie." He said. I groaned at the usage of the name.
"So, talk." I told him. I shifted uncomfortably on the bed. "It's hot." I sighed. I unbuttoned my jeans and started pulling them off. Jax watched me amused. I stood up, using the bed for support and I tossed my discarded jeans to the floor, followed by my socks. I sat back down, and watched him.
"I need you to tell me, why you don't want this." He said. I sighed and stretched out across my bed.
"Lay with me and we can talk." I told him. He chuckled and kicked off his shoes. I raised your eyebrows. "That's what you're wearing to bed?" I asked him. He smirked and shrugged off his cut and pulled off his shirt. He laid down next to me. "That's better." I said, moving closer to him.
"Kate," Jax whispered. I looked at him and focused on what he was saying. I was still rocking my happy buzz.
"What?" I asked, forgetting what we had been talking about.
"Why are you so afraid of this?" He asked. I sighed.
"Of course you would ask me this, now…" I said. "When I would tell you something that I normally wouldn't," I finished talking, mostly to myself. "I can't lose you Jax. I thought you knew this." I told him.
"Darlin', you don't need to worry about losing me." He told me, caressing my cheek.
"Don't I? I've lost nearly everyone else, haven't I?" I explained.
"I'm not everyone else, Kate. You should know that." He said, talking to me like I'm stupid.
"Because we've never gone there… if things don't work, we can't go back to the way we were." I said, trying to get him to understand. I can't believe how calm I feel. It's got to be the alcohol.
Jax sighed and rolled on his back and brought me with him. He moved me so I was lying on top of him. He pulled my face to his and kissed me.
"I wouldn't do that, Darlin'. You of all people should know that." Jax whispered.
"I don't know that…. I can't lose you." I told him, slightly slurring my words.
"You've already said that Darlin'." Jax told me. "And what I've got to say isn't gonna change either. Understand?" He asked. I laughed.
"I know I said it already, but you aren't listening to me." I told him.
"Mocha Girl, when I tell you that things will be different to you, you don't listen to me either." Jax pointed out.
"You've been in love once, Jax. When Tara left… you were heartbroken." I finally said, out loud. I'd probably regret this later, but at the moment I can't bring myself to care.
"You don't have to remind me, Ryn." Jax said, warily.
"I know, I know. But, what if she came back to Charming… or… I don't know. You've never… not with anyone else. I'm not naïve Jax." I told him.
"No one is fucking psychic. I can't tell you what's going to happen, Kate. If we don't give this a shot… it's gonna kill us. You know that you want this." Jax said, running his hands along my sides. My eyes fluttered.
"Doesn't matter," I told him. "I always go through this alone." I told him.
"Go through what alone, Darlin'?" Jax asked me. I sighed.
"Everything… I don't wanna be completely alone." I told him. I closed my eyes as I felt them start to tear up. My body started to shake.
"Darlin', don't. I promise, whatever happens, you'll still have me, in some way or another." Jax whispered as he wrapped his arms around me.
"Stop, just stop." I told him. I tried to push myself off of him, but he held me tighter. "Let me go." I told him, quietly… refusing to let my tears fall.
"Stop fighting me, Katie. You know that I'm not going to let you go. I've got you, Darlin'." Jax said.
"No, let go, damn it!" I growled.
"Kate, stop." He told me. My trembling worsened.
"No, just let go Jax." I told him.
"Kate, STOP!" He yelled, as I continued to fight him.
"Fuck, just let go." I said, in a weak voice. The fight was almost out of my system. I kept pushing against him, but it didn't do me any good. He flipped us, so he was lying on top of me.
"Darlin' you just have to let me in. Let me know what's going on in that pretty head of yours." Jax said, softly. I shook my head.
"You don't want to know." I said, lazily… tired from the fighting. "You won't want me… no one does." I told him, looking him in the eye.
"That's fucking bullshit, and you know it. Darlin', look at me." He said, bringing my face up to his. "I want you." He said, trying to get me to calm down. I don't know why I'm so goddamn emotional right now.
"Don't know why… I'm just a fucking mess." I whispered the unspoken truth that I've been afraid to hear myself say aloud all of this time.
"What a fine mess you are, Darlin'." He told me. I felt a tear trickle out. I closed my eyes and looked away. I hate him seeing me like this. This is what I refuse to do, and it's all coming out, now.
"Shut up." I said, in a choked voice. He chuckled. "I hate you." I told him in a soft voice.
"No you don't." He argued.
"I can't even stay fucking mad at you." I whispered. He laughed and kissed me. I forgot about everything that rolling around in my mind.
"Let me love you." He said, pulling away from me. I looked at him, trying to concentrate on his face. I moved to sit up and he sat up to join me. I brought my hand to forehead, suddenly dizzy.
"We can try, Jax." I told him, the dizzy feeling only getting worse. I readjusted myself, but ended up putting both hands on his shoulders to stead myself.
"Darlin', you better remember this in the morning, because I'm sure as hell not going to let you forget it." He told me. I let out a nervous laugh.
"Baby, I think… I'm drunk, and right now, everything is starting to spin. Stop moving." I told him. He chuckled.
"You need to get some sleep, Darlin'. I'll still be here in the morning." He told me, laying me back down next to him. I groaned and moved my head next to his chest.
"You better." I told him. He laughed.
"I'll be here, and I'll make coffee, if you're lucky." He promised. I fell asleep with him.
I groaned as my phone started to go off. I reached my hand over towards my bedside table and tried to feel for it without opening my eyes. Goddamn it. Hangovers are a bitch.
"Relax Darlin', I got it." Jax told me. I put a hand to my forehead.
"Do you have to talk so loud?" I asked him, trying to get the ringing in my head to stop. He chuckled.
"Not your first hangover, Darlin'." Jax reminded me. I groaned.
"Just the first one that's been a bitch in awhile," I told him. He answered the phone.
"Kate's answering service," he said, sarcastically. I flipped him off. "Hey Dylan, how've you been little man?" He asked. "Good, you better be stayin' out of trouble." Jax warned him. "She isn't feelin' so hot at the moment. Don't worry kid; I'll take care of her. I'll have her call you tonight; I'm sure she'll be feelin' better by then." Jax hung up the phone. I felt him sit down next to me and pull me onto his lap.
"Come on Darlin', you'll feel better after a shower." He told me. I grimaced at his words.
"What happened last night?" I asked him, trying to remember… but the details were fuzzy.
"We talked, Katie." He said, simply.
"No shit, specifics please." I told him.
"You told me that you were afraid of losing me and that I'd leave you like everyone else." Jax told me. I blinked a few times and focused on Jax' face.
"Oh God, I did… Didn't I?" I asked, embarrassed.
"You said you've give this a shot, Kate." Jax told me.
"Shit Jax, I don't even know what this is." I told him, annoyed.
"Babe, look at me." He said, tilting my face so I was looking up at him. "Do you love me?" He asked. I didn't say anything. "It's a simple question, Babe." He told me.
"It's not a simple answer." I told him. He nodded.
"I know," he said, kissing my forehead. "Let's get you into the shower, and then I'll get some coffee started." He sighed.
"Jax," I said, getting his attention. He looked at me with his eyebrows raised. "Of course I do," I told him. He smirked.
"Good," he said, kissing me. I snorted. He pulled away, smirking. "I love you, Darlin'." He told me. I smiled. "We'll figure out whatever this is." He promised.
"I better be your only," I told him. His smirk grew. "I don't share well… especially when it comes to my men." I told him.
"Darlin', I'm yours." He told me.
"Damn straight." I told him, laughing. He picked me up and carried me to my bathroom.
"I don't see why I couldn't just make breakfast." I told Jax as we sat down at a local diner.
"Because I wanted to take my girl out," he said simply. I rolled my eyes. "Get us a seat, and I'll get you some coffee, Darlin'." He told me. I nodded and headed over to the bar counter and took a seat. It's pretty dead in here, so all the workers are working the tables.
I barely noticed someone take one of the seats next to me.
"Hey Baby, can I buy you drink?" I heard someone ask. I turned my attention to the direction of the voice. It's some guy that I've seen around town before, but I have no clue who he is. I gave him a once over as I noticed his eyes raking over my body. He's tall, brunette, and gorgeous with a whole lot of cocky attitude.
"I'll pass on that, thanks. It's what… 9 in the morning?" I told him. He laughed.
"Hey, it's never too early." He argued.
"I'll tell you what, you buy that drink… and you can drink it." I told him, looking in the other direction.
"Don't be like that, Baby." He tried again, this time putting his arm around me. I turned my face to glare at him.
"I'm not your 'Baby'." I corrected him. He chuckled and moved to nuzzle my neck. I pushed him off of me. "Back off. I'm not going to tell you twice." I threatened.
"You're lucky I like my women feisty." He said, unfazed. I scoffed.
"Unluckily for you, I don't like pigs." I told him. "Leave." I told him. He started to say something when Jax walked up behind him. Jax placed a cup of coffee in front of me and turned his attention on the arrogant bastard.
"She's not interested." Jax told him, staring him down. The guy chuckled.
"Should've known you have your hand in this cookie jar, Jax." The guy told him.
"We're done here, Alex. She's off limits." Jax told him. Alex smiled.
"Bye," I told him, trying to help him get the hint.
"I'll be seeing you, Baby." Alex told me. I flipped him off. His smile just brightened as he walked away.
"I leave you alone for two minutes, and someone is already trying to put his hands all over you." Jax said, kissing me. I smirked against his lips.
"Hey, I told him to take a hike, he wouldn't listen." I told him.
I took off my helmet as I got off of Jax' bike.
"Well, well, it's about time Jackie Boy." Chibs said, walking towards us. We both looked at him innocently. "You've been pining for Kate here, since you were kids." Chibs announced. I laughed.
Juice walked over, wiping his hands with a work towel.
"What's this I hear about you cozying up with my Mocha Girl?" Juice teased.
"Sorry, Juice. But it's time that you know." Jax added, playing along.
"Just know... that I'll never give up on our love Mocha, you're mine, first and foremost." Juice said, failing at keeping a straight face.
"We'll see," Jax said, kissing me. This is going to take some getting used to. I don't know if I like all of this affection at work. I'll just see how it goes, I guess.
"You're can't distract me at work, Jax." I told him, making a face, then laughing.
"Oh, so you consider me a distraction, huh, Darlin'?" Jax asked. I nodded as I pulled my mechanic suit over my clothes for the day. "I'll show you a distraction tonight." He promised. I rolled my eyes.
"You can try." I told him. "Don't you need to talk to Clay about Club business?" I asked him.
"Not that I know of Darlin', why?" He asked me.
"Because I need to get some work done," I told him. He laughed.
"I do have some things that I need to take care of. I'll pick you up after you're done here. But, I need to talk to you a minute." He said, walking towards the office. I nodded and followed him. We went into the office and he shut and locked the door behind us. He stood in front of me. I took a seat on top of the desk.
"What's up, Baby Boy?" I asked him. He smirked.
"Just giving you a quick distraction," he told me. I blushed.
"Not here," I told him. He moved directly in front of me.
"Why not here?" He asked.
"Because… just not here." I told him. His smirk grew.
"I think I can change your mind." He told me. He bent his head towards mine and captured my lips as his hands went to work pulling down my mechanic suit. He unbuttoned my shorts and got the zipper undone before I completely registered what was happening.
"Jax… they'll hear us." I told him.
"Not if you can stay quiet Darlin'… and don't worry, we're not doin' what you think we're doin'." He said as he renewed his claim on my lips. I quickly became lost in his kissing. He slipped a hand into my panties and found a new target to tease.
"Jax," I gasped. He smirked and nuzzled my neck before slipping a finger inside of me. He started moving it and I let out a strangled moan.
"You know I love those sounds you make, but they're going to hear us, Darlin'." Jax told me. I nodded biting down on my lip.
"If you would… stop… Uh… doing that… we… wouldn't have… this problem." I told him. He smirked smugly, and slipped another finger inside of me and started scissoring, moving his fingers faster and harder.
He must have known that I was losing control of my vocal chords, because he slammed his mouth to mine and swallowed my moans.
I let go of Jax, waiting for myself to stop shaking. I looked up at Jax, silently willing my legs to stop feeling like jelly. I breathed in and out slowly, trying to regulate my heartbeat.
"Consider me distracted." I told him. He laughed. He helped me off of the desk and I fixed my clothes and readjusted my suit.
"Just wait until tonight, Darlin'." I rolled my eyes as I stood on my tiptoes to kiss him. He smiled as I left the office and went to work in a significantly better mood.
Author's Note: Well, here's the third chapter for you all. Hopefully y'all enjoyed it.
Xo Xo,
Anneryn
