January 8, 1991
6:36 am, Monday
Why couldn't time stop moving? Why couldn't all the clocks in the world stop, making it impossible for today to come. I don't know what was worst, spending my day at home or spending it at school. It's sad to know that more than 1/3 of my life will be spent in school. Well, when I graduate I swear to get out of here. I will not stay, I will not waste my life. I just have to last a few more years, then run when the time comes.
I feel like something is going to happen...
Well, if the bad feeling was that I would end up sitting on the pavement with trash over my body, then I was right. Stupid school, stupid people, stupid teachers, stupid life! Why me!? Why? What did I do? Why couldn't I die, then I would be safe with my daddy. I miss my daddy…
Yuudai didn't get in trouble, which is not that surprising. What would the world come to when he actually gets in trouble? I'll say this, while he is being escorted to the Dean, I will be the one laughing the loudest. Hey, maybe people will join in!
I should have seen it coming when Harumi came to sit at my lone table. She looked so sincere and actually nice. She even looked guilty when it happened, when Yuudai came behind and dumped his lunch on me. I didn't look at her when I got up, lunch in hand, and walked out of the lunch room. The rest of the day was respectfully spent on the school roof, alone.
I don't want to be here anymore.
I want to leave, forever and never look back.
Would I be able to do that? Where would I live? Will I have enough money to get by? Can I even get alone long enough for no one to see me leave? Wait, what about Elvira? I can't just leave her! Ugh, to many problems. I guess I'll plan it out and then decide on whether or not to do it.
Who knows, maybe things will get better by then...
NOTE:
Wow, this was a lot shorter then expected. I was a little hesitant on doing this, but I think it would be fair to both you guys and myself. I plan on uploading a chapter, or journal entry, everyday or every other day. That was it can be constant small updates (with the few longer chapters) consistently. It will make this particular story way longer then I thought it would be, but it also makes sense with the concept of the story. So, love or hate it, I don't care, and I'll see you (not quite see) tomorrow with the next entry. Peace...
