A/N: Heyyy so guys this is kinda a deep paragraph and I know some of you may of experienced stuff like this and if any of you find it offensive in anyway I am sorry, because I don't really know what this situation is like to be in, I just try and figure out how the different characters would react and then write it like that
But we all escape the labyrinth of suffering in the end :)

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Chapter 17: How will I ever escape the labyrinth of suffering?

Jem's POV

Cris was now in some room with some tests being done. Jem didn't really know what the doctor had said, he couldn't register most of it, just snippets. His brain couldn't function, all that swirled round in his mind was Cris on the floor in a pool of her own blood and how it was his fault, if he got there earlier he could've stopped her from falling, he could've saved her life. But no, she was dying again and Jem couldn't stand that.

After Jem had rushed downstairs and rapidly called the ambulance, he didn't know how he spoke but he was pretty sure it came out as one syllable. He had knelt down beside her and cried out for her to be alright. He had screamed until the paramedics had to pull him away from her so they could take her away. He thrashed against the restraints of the two large paramedics who were trying to calm him down. And he only stopped when they put Cris on a stretcher. Her hair, tinted with red blood, was dangling down one side of the stretcher and was swaying in the motion, he froze and stared at the beautiful girl who had nearly died twice in one day.

He and Jamie had rode with her in the ambulance, Jamie had to have stitches because he had punched and cracked the tiled wall in the hospital and he had nearly broke many bones in his hand. Jem on the other hand had nearly pulled out his hair in frustration.

Once they got to the hospital Izzy, Clary, Maia, Tris, Hazel, Katniss and Tessa were already there with tear stained faces. Clary was hyperventilating and Katniss was trying and failing to console her. The others were huddled together on the 3 person couch in the waiting room. Only Maia looked up when they walked into to the waiting room, they took a bit longer since Jem stayed with Jamie while he got stitches. Jamie had protested saying they had better things to do but the nurses eventually pinned him down.

"Simon, Jace and Will are on their way," Maia mumbled as she stared at the boys. They could only just hear Maia over Clary's harsh breathing. The room was un-naturally silent, Jamie slid down the wall and hid his head in his hands. Jem sat down on the floor next to Jamie and Katniss sat on the other side looking at Jamie.

"Jamie, what happened?" Katniss asked softly putting a comforting hand on Jamie's shoulder. Jamie didn't flinch away but shook his head lightly as if saying he didn't want to talk about it. Jem understood this and described the events from his point of view, just loud enough so the others girls could hear them. Luckily the whole hospital was empty, there was no one in the waiting room and there didn't seem to be any other patients either.

Cris' adoptive mother was arguing with some of the doctors because they wouldn't let her see Cris. So that left the teenagers alone in the waiting room. Once Jem had finished explaining they all gawked at Jem. Katniss got up mumbling some excuse to leave and Izzy went with her so Katniss wouldn't shoot anyone in the eye, with a bow and arrow.

There was nothing to say so no one spoke, they were all thinking the same thing: that they just wanted Cris to be okay. After minutes in silence the doors burst open and in poured Jace, Will and Simon. Everyone looked up then, the boys with confused looks on their faces as they stared towards everyone who had red and blotchy faces. No one wanted to be the one to tell them about Cris; the three boys had been like brothers to Cris since Cris was about 4 years old, or so Jem had heard, and they still acted like siblings apart from Simon who, everyone was pretty sure, liked Cris, as in like-like.

They all knew Will and Jace would probably end up breaking something, or themselves, and no one knew what Simon would do. "What happened and to who?" Simon said quickly, as if blurting it out. Since Izzy and Katniss were not in the room at that moment, they probably didn't know who it was.

Jace and Will look to their girlfriends for answers but do not go over to comfort them because they wanted answers and they knew if it was Cris, they would break the closest thing to them. But both Clary and Tessa shied away from their glances. "Cris" Tris choked but then couldn't continue as fresh tears flooded her cheeks.

The three boys looked wild now, they clearly have fear and apprehension plastered on their faces. "Tell me it's something minor, tell me that she isn't hurt badly," Will says fiercely. Jem stands up and walks over to Will. Will was basically his brother in everything but blood, and it didn't help Jem to be away from Will for as long as they have but Jem had been too caught up 'things'.

Jem sighed and put a hand on Will's shoulder and he looked into Will's eyes which were a dark and stormy blue, not their normal bright, light colour. "James" Will said frantically grabbing hold of Jem's shoulders with a tight iron grip. "Tell me Crisiant is alright, tell me she isn't hurt anymore!" Will pleaded looking desperate.

"Cris fell from a 6 metre window, we don't know how she is, they're running tests" Jem says softly as if trying not to provoke a reaction. Of course Will and Jace go storming off to somewhere, probably to any doctor they can find or the hospitals small gym which had been installed since Will and Jace had broken chairs or punched holes through walls whenever Clary, Tessa or Cris had been in the hospital for any reason.

That left Simon standing there staring into space, a look of horror and despair clear on his face. As quickly as that had appeared, it was wiped away and an expression of pure cold anger replaced it. Simon suddenly strode over to Jamie and pulled him up to a standing position by his collar. Simon's hand scrunching the front of Jamie's shirt and his fist pushing against the base of Jamie's neck, he snarled "You were supposed to be protecting her, what kind of useless piece of shit are you?" This probably would've been more threatening if Simon at least 2 inches smaller than Jamie was and that they weren't looking each other face to face.

Jamie didn't say anything and his face held a look of complete indifference. Simon pulled him slightly off the wall and shoved him back on it again but Jamie's expression didn't change. Hazel and Maia were trying to pull Simon off Jamie but Simon wouldn't allow it. "You sick bastard!" Simon spat loudly. "You were supposed to keep her safe but you put her in more bloody danger and now look where we are for the fucking second time today, we're in a hospital praying to God that Cris doesn't die because of your stupid selfish self" The anger rose in Simon's voice and it seemed to be spurred on by Jamie's look of uncaring that plagued his features.

"I thought you actually gave a damn about her but I was wrong" Simon's voice taking on a sinister tone "You probably were just using her to your fucking advantage but you don't give a second glance to her, like you did with countless others" Simon speaks like he knows Jamie was using her and this makes anger well up in Jem because she was too good to be used by idiot players and he was starting to think Simon was right. Its true Jamie had been a player but even Jem thought he actually cared about Cris.

"But no, she was probably lucky that she got out fast enough even if it was through the window" At this Simon knew he had pushed it as Jamie's features twisted with anger. Jem could see the previous act crack under the immense anger that was now boiling in Jamie. Jamie pushed Simon to the floor and caged him in "Don't you dare say that, I always cared about her, it was you who was too angry at her for going off with another guy, to give a toss about how she was" Jamie snarls and Jem snaps out of his shock and pulls a thrashing Jamie of an even angrier Simon.

Simon gets up off the floor with lightning speed and starts towards Jamie when Maia, Tessa, Clary, Tris and Hazel all have to hold Simon back. An insufferable tension fills the room as they all try and keep the boys from fighting.

Then as if on cue Katniss, Izzy, Will and Jace come back in. Jace and Will look physically and mentally exhausted and Katniss has a pained expression on her face whereas Izzy has one of sympathy for Katniss. When they look at the two boys they all look shocked but Jace breaks that by saying "Damn I missed a fight" Jace gives a half-hearted smirk and Clary gives him a look of disapproval and sympathy.

Izzy walked up to Jamie and slapped him in the face. Jamie looked more shocked than hurt and a smile spread across Simon's features. Before any of them could ask what that was for she walked up to Simon and slapped him as well. Both boys now had red hand prints on their cheeks and Izzy snaps "Our friend is in hospital and you two can't find anything else to do but fight, that's sick,"

Katniss walks over to her and puts a hand on her shoulder and that's when Jem realises Katniss' knuckles have been stitched up recently. She probably just did the same as Jamie did before he thought and Izzy seemed to relax slightly at Katniss' reassuring smile.

Just then a doctor pushes past Jace and Will and says "Are you the friends and family of Miss Jones" When they realise he was talking about Cris they all nod slightly and then Jem doesn't seem to be able to see Cris' adoptive mother which is a bit weird if you asked him.

"Crisiant is in a coma right now and there is only about 55 percent chance that she will wake up," The doctor sadly states and Jem lets go off Jamie in shock. "But… But that's a high percentage right?" Hazel stutters and the doctor focuses her eyes on Hazel and softly says "Unfortunately no, there is a chance she could wake up but if that happens it could take a long time," Jem is frozen, this can't be happening, this can't be happening he repeats in his head and once again reality leaves him heartbroken and dead inside.

"Can we see her?" Katniss rapidly blurts out and the doctor says "I'm sorry, unless you're a family member no one is permitted to see her at the moment, are any of you her siblings or relatives?" At that Simon, Jace and Will all looked to each other and simultaneously said "We're her brothers," A pang went through Jem at that, he wanted to be the one in there seeing her and he didn't want anyone else to, now he knew that was selfish beyond belief but it was the truth.

"Okay, her mother said Miss Jones had three brothers and two sisters, do you know where the girls are or if we could call them?" Cris' mother must've known this was going to happen and therefore said she had brothers and sisters. That was kind of her, Jem thought as the girls looked to each other, deciding, only through looks, which one of them should go. After about half a minute they seemed to have decided as Izzy and Katniss said "We're her sisters," Admittedly both of them looked quite alike Cris if features: they were all slim and had the same face shape with the same nose. Even Jem had to admit the girls shared they're beauty; even though to him, Cris was exceedingly more beautiful than the others.

That was where the similarities ended because both Katniss and Izzy had straight black hair, whereas Cris' was straight and dark brown although it was very nearly black sometimes, and Katniss had grey eyes, Izzy had black/dark brown eyes and Cris had the most startling green/blue eyes that shone bright even in the darkness and you could just stare at the beautiful gems that had been captured in her eyes… getting off topic Jem thought as he felt his cheeks heat up, even though he was just thinking it. Plus Katniss had olive skin; Izzy was quite pale compared to the others whereas Cris was naturally tanned. So they only really looked like each other if you were looking hard enough.

This is probably why the doctor looked quizzically at them but told them to come through any way. The five of them followed the doctor down the corridor, when walking past, Simon cast a menacing glare towards Jamie who, when seeing this, lunged at Simon, testing Jem's reflexes. Jem just caught Jamie in time because Jamie looked like he was about to do some serious damage. He pulled Jamie back and Simon kept on walking looking smug. That, nearly, made Jem lose it, and that was extremely hard and had never happened before.

As soon as the group turns the corner, Jamie turns on his heal and runs out the door. Jem gives an apologetic look to the rest of the girls who have decided to go back to sitting on the plush couch in the waiting room, and then runs after Jamie, calling his name.

Jem rushes out the door and a wave of cool air hits him like a tidal wave and a shiver runs down his spine. Then even before Jem sees him, there comes a bang and that directs him to his right where the corner of the hospitals wall is having chunks blown off it by a very angry Jamie wielding a crowbar. By the angel, out of all things he could of got his hands on from the outside of a hospital it had to be the one that was most destructive when in the hands of Campbell. Jem thought this as he slowly approached the panting Jamie, who still seemed to be taking his anger out on the innocent wall, like a human would a wild beast.

As Jem slowly walked up to Jamie he noticed that Jamie's face was pure red, his eyes filled with rage and guilt and he had streaks of tears streaming down his cheeks. "Don't you fucking dare, Carstairs!" Jamie shouted while chunks of brick were being torn of the building.

Jem was stunned no matter how angry Jamie had ever been at anyone, he had never refused to talk to Jem. "That fucking bastard was right!" Jamie continued now sounding a bit like Cato at the end of the 74th Hunger Games. "Of course that dick had to be right, I mean him of all people anyone; can see how he adores her" Jamie's voice has gotten considerably quitter now but he is still talking out right.

"I should be the one in there with her, not him ME!" Jamie barks as he drops the crowbar. "But why would anyone want the one who caused her death with her?" Jamie had gone from sounding like Cato to Moriarty in the matter of seconds and it was scaring him. But something snapped in Jem then "She is not dead nor will she die!" Jem almost screamed at him.

Jamie stood there staring open mouthed at Jem: Jem who never lost his nerve, Jem who never got angry, Jem who never snapped. This was a whole other side of Jem that even Jem hadn't seen before. Anger rose up in Jem; Jamie had no right to feel guilt nor did he need to, Jamie hadn't put Cris in hospital, Jamie had been knocked out trying to save her, Jamie didn't cause Cris' death because she wasn't going to die.

"You did not put her here, Jamie and don't even think you did because you got knocked out trying to protect her; to fight for her. If that means nothing then go ahead and beat yourself because doing that won't make Cris wake up," Jem takes on a softer voice and his voice cracks at the end. Jamie stands there frozen in shock as no one had heard Jem like that before. Jem'd had enough with comforting others, for once he wished someone would return the favour, so he turned away from Jamie and strode into the hospital to meet the girls.