oh god i'm sorry, school has been a pain in the ass and I've been sick. However now its time for a new chapter! Do you guys want a Halloween chapter once October starts (Tomorrows the first! So excited for it i have a feeling though i'm going to be posting this on October 1st).
Chapter five.
Finland pouted as he looked in the mirror, his hands were gripping his stomach as he let a single tear roll down his face. He had done what the website told him to do, look at "thinspiration" while drinking water. Now thousands of thoughts ran through his head, most of them horrible but a few, a few were telling him nice things.
Oh god when did i get this fat! Why did no one tell me! Why do i not look like those other guys? Maybe i'm not to bad, i have some pretty nice skin...Oh god what am i saying? Nice skin ain't shit anymore, my stomach isn't like the guys stomachs on the photos.I'm a fatass, a absolute fatass.
Deciding to try out his new scale, he tore his eyes away from the mirror and picked up the plastic shopping bag. He poured the contents on to the bathroom counter, besides the massive amount of snack bars and diet sodas there wasn't much. The smooth grey scale shone against the sunlight on the floor as it was properly placed, Finland took a deep breath before stepping on the scale.
The numbers started to go higher and higher, Fin stared at the scale for a solid minute. His breath quickened and heart started racing, Sweat started running down his face as he tried to calm himself down.
164.
That was how he much he weighed, 164 pounds. To many it would of been normal weight considering muscle, he had muscle on his legs and arms, not as much as Sweden or Germany a course but he wasn't lanky. However that number tore at his heart, that was a number far over overweight on the BMI chart.
"w-Why..." he squeaked out, his heart was beating faster then it was before, it felt as if the weight of the world fell on his shoulders suddenly. He didn't understand how he gained all this weight or how.
"How did i gain this! I walk a kilometer everyday not counting the walks with Hanatamago! I mostly eat right to! Well i haven't started the diet yet...i hope i can loose a lot of weight!"
Finland found it confusing WHY he cared so much, perhaps it was the toned muscle men he had to look at for "Thinspiration" or maybe it was because he always have longed for another body figure. Feminine body types for males aren't the best to have outside of tumblr.
Whatever the reason was for this Fin made a silent promise to himself that he'd accomplish this diet of his, it'd be hard but he knew he could do it with enough self control. How else have those "Thinspiration" models done it? Besides the diet said there would be Improvements in the first month, He kept the little section about the side effects out of his head.
He didn't care what it took he'd do it no matter what. With that thought in mind he confidently stepped off the scale and continued on with his day, it would of been a nice day if his stomach wasn't growling so much.
"Stomach i know you want food, so do i but i NEED to do this diet. I already ate the 500 calories i'm allowed today so no more food until tomorrow, alright i'm sorry stomach." Finland was currently curled up on his sofa with a cup of water praying his hunger pains away, it felt as if someone was slowly dragging there nails across his stomach.
Not long nails that would prick his skin open but small sharp nails that leave those white marks that fade. It wasn't the nicest feeling in the world but it was bearable, besides he already made a promise to himself that he planned on keeping.
The remote now sat in Tino's hand as he flipped passed the channels, not much was on. He flipped past the midnight Ads and settled for a news channel, what can you really expect from late night TV?
"New story coming from our news caster Helmi."
"Thank you, this story is a chilling topic so i highly suggest to remove young kids from the room. Eating disorders such as Anorexia, Bulima, EDNOS and many others have been tearing families apart. In our Beloved country eating disorders are relatively common in female adolescents.
As many as one in five adolescent females are or have been struggling with eating disorder related issues during their teenage years, it hasn't been estimated yet for the number of men in our country who suffer from it.
Parents need to check in with their youths online activity as some blogs called "Pro-Ana" blogs are able to send their kid down this dangerous path. These blogs leave a detailed "diet" of Anorexia ways sending your child to the beginning of this "Diet".
The blogs tell the kids to eat little to no calories, these blogs often have "communities" of support,This so called "Support" sends the child deeper and deeper in to this dangerous and deadly "Diet".
Many have died because of this so called "Diet". If any of you teens or parents see one of these blogs please report it or try to get other off it, it isn't a safe thing for young minds. This have been late night news."
The TV turned off as Finland sat in thought, This rang some sort of bell. He shrugged off the thought blaming it on the weird thoughts you get at night and headed up to bed, the Stomach pains didn't seem so noticeable now.
Wow so that was a massive character change xD So i'm posting this on October third so yeah, i'm serious though if you want a Halloween chapter let me know! I think this is a pretty self explanatory Chapter and for those wondering the "Icelandic Troll" reference from last chapter was from AphTextfromNordics a funny blog on tumblr.
