"Emaya Forever Done Right"
I know I made you guys wait for this but that last chapter took a lot out of me. I know you want Emaya to be endgame and I do love Emaya so, I think they need to be put through some obstacles first to strengthen their love for each other. It might seem torturous but it's a journey, a journey that I'm asking you to take with me…
Rate M for Mature Content.
Let's see what happens the next morning…
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Chapter 16: Some Habits are Hard to Break
The St. Germains…
She walks away from Hannah, "Hold on, you told Caleb about 'A'. And let me guess, Spencer told Toby and Aria told Ezra. Yeah I know about Ezra."
"It's not how it looks."
"Oh really! Your boyfriends knew about 'A' and guess what? None of them were almost killed! But the one who knew nothing, me, almost ends up in a body bag!"
"Maya…"
"Shut up Hannah! I don't want to hear it. I don't want to hear any more lies. You all told your boyfriends but Emily chose not to tell me, her girlfriend. That, I can't even..."
"You should be able to forgive her if you love her the way you claim to!"
Tears begin to well up in Maya's eyes,
"Love her? Love her? She owns my heart Hannah! That's why it hurts so fucking much!"
Hannah is stunned into silence as she watches Maya crumble to her knees sobbing, draping herself over her bed with her face hiding in the crook of her arm. The tears stream down her cheeks as her body heaves with her cries,
"She o-owns my h-heart…"
The next morning at the Fields'…
Emily is lying on her side with nothing on but a smile, a very satisfied, happy smile. While stretching, she reaches to the other side of her bed but to her disappointment, no one is there. She opens her eyes trying desperately to focus sitting up to scan the room for anything Maya. But unfortunately, there's no Maya and she can see that her clothes are gone too…
"Maya! Maya where are you?"
But there is no answer. She walks over to the bathroom but no one is in there, she goes back to her room looking out the window and she sees that Maya's car is also gone. Emily's smile fades away as she doesn't know what to make of this. She wonders, "Should I be worried? How can I be when last night was so amazing!" Emily and Maya reconnected after three weeks of steering clear of one another. So now all Emily can think is, "What did I do this time? What didn't I do this time? Damn it Maya! What are we doing?"
She checks her cell but finds no messages from Maya instead she finds a few texts from Hannah asking her to call her as soon as she wakes up. She tries calling Maya but it goes straight to her voice mail so she leaves her a text asking her to let her know that she is okay. Emily is too stressed about Maya to call Hannah so she decides to take a shower first hoping it will relax her…
She lets the hot water soak her body and all the tension away. She goes over the events of last night in her head: the party, the dancing, the eye contact, the swimming over to Maya, the pinning her up against the pool wall, the sexual tension between them, the love, the need, the want, the desire, the kiss. Emily's hands caress her body with white foaminess as she can't help but think about their night together. Her hands squeeze her breasts and pull her nipples into an erectness that only thoughts of Maya or Maya herself can do to her. The love with which they bestowed upon one another brings back Emily's smile. She moves her hand between her legs remembering Maya's gentle yet purposeful touch, the way she eases in and out of her, the way she presses her tongue against her, the way she tugs at her silky lips, the way she brings her to euphoria time and time again. Emily's hand does its best to mimic Maya's touch but nothing compares to her girl's gift of giving…
After her shower, Emily feels reinvigorated. She is ready to face her day and Maya. But before she does any of that, she calls Hannah to find out what is so urgent…
"Hello."
"Hannah it's me, Emily. What's going on?"
"Hang up the phone and open your front door. I'm about to pull in your driveway."
"What?"
"Just do it. Bye."
Emily opens the front door and waits for Hannah to get out of her car. Hannah walks up to the front door hurriedly and tells Emily to go inside with her so they can talk. She shuts the door behind them then walks into the living room…
"Emily, I'm so sorry."
"What are you talking about?"
"I talked to Maya last night. No, actually I went to her house."
"Why? What would you do that for?"
"I needed to make sure she wasn't going to hurt you again."
"What! Hannah! We're okay. We're working it out."
"I couldn't take that chance so I started in on her and she didn't like that very much."
"Hannah what did you do!"
"I accused her of fucking you and leaving you."
"You what!"
"I know. I'm sorry but I couldn't stand by and let her do that to you!"
"She didn't! And what Maya and I do with each other is none of your fucking business!"
"Emily, things got heated between me and Maya like they're getting between you and me right now."
"What are you talking about?"
"We were going back and forth and I let it slip that Caleb knows about 'A'."
Emily falls back onto the couch with her hands over her mouth.
"She figured out by a process of elimination, she's the only one who didn't know and she's the only one who almost got killed."
"Oh my god Hannah. What did you do? I, I completely forgot about that. I didn't mean not to tell her. It's just that all this stuff with Paige trying to…I, I blanked. Fuck!"
"Well that's not all."
Emily looks at Hannah worriedly like she might pass out if she hears anymore.
"I told her that if she loved you as much as she claims she does then she should be able to forgive you."
"You said what! Oh my god Hannah! She must hate me!"
Hannah sits down next to Emily who has tears welling up in her eyes and says,
"She doesn't hate you. Actually, it's quite the opposite. She said you own her heart."
"She said that," Emily turns her head to look at Hannah her tears now falling from her face.
"Emily, she just wanted more time and she was going to forgive you. But then I had to open my big mouth. She was so hurt Em. She fell to the floor and started crying. She could barely get out those same words…you own my heart. She kept saying them over and over."
Emily falls into Hannah's arms crying freely. She feels…she doesn't know how she feels but it's not sad. She actually thinks she might feel hopeful that they can work this out like everything else they've worked out before. She wants to give Maya more time but she needs to make sure she's okay. And the thing that encourages her to take action is knowing for certain that Maya's heart belongs to her and her heart belongs to Maya…
The St. Germains…
Maya wakes up with tear stained cheeks feeling exhausted. The emotional roller coaster she was on last night has taken its toll on her. She barely gets herself out of bed as she gets in the shower hoping to make herself feel a little better. The water is hot and steamy as she puts her head under the nozzle letting the heated spray wash away her tension from the previous night. She thinks about the party and Emily. She thinks about Emily taking charge in the pool, not letting her go. She thinks about the kiss that kiss, full of love and hope of things to come. She thinks about being with Emily at her house, in her bed, in her arms. She thinks about their bodies becoming one, their hearts beating as one and their love for one another. She thinks about everything that has kept them apart: Emily not being honest with herself, Emily's mom not accepting her for whom she is, being sent to boot camp, Paige, 'A', the lies, the lies, all the lies! She falls into a heap at the bottom of the shower, her body heaving from her cries, from the hurt, from the lies! The water continues to soak her shaking body as she leans against the edge of the tub wishing it would all wash away: the hurt, the lies, and Emily…
Meanwhile…
Hannah drives Emily to Maya's house. She goes with her to knock on the front door but no one answers. She turns the knob and the door clicks open. They walk in and Emily yells,
"Hello? Is anybody here?"
There's no answer but they hear the shower. They go upstairs to investigate and as they get closer to the sound they hear crying.
"Hannah do you hear that?"
"Is that crying? Is Maya crying?"
Emily pushes on the already partially open bathroom door. She carefully walks to the tub moving the shower curtain to reveal a drenched and sobbing Maya.
"Maya, oh my god! Are you okay?"
"Quick, get a towel while I shut the water off!" instructs Hannah.
Emily wraps her in a soft dry towel and with Hannah's assistance helps her out of the tub. Maya hasn't stopped shaking and now her teeth are chattering she is so cold. Hannah helps Emily putting their arms around Maya leading her to her bedroom. Emily lets the wet towel fall to the floor and guides her to her bed helping her under the covers. She lies down next to her pulling the sheet and blankets over the two of them holding her close, trying to get her warm trying to get her to be Maya again.
"Maya, it's me Emily. I'm here for you. I'm not leaving until I know you're okay. I'm not leaving until I know you're you again."
Maya does not respond but Emily feels as though she understood her. Maya needs her more now than ever before and Hannah gets this…
"Em, I'll be next door at Spencer's. Call us if you need anything."
Emily is too worried about Maya to respond but Hannah knows she heard her so she leaves the two of them in Maya's bedroom. Emily holds Maya close giving her all of her body heat, giving her all of her love. Only time will tell if Emily will be able to bring Maya back to her…
The Hastings…
Hannah fills Spencer in on what happened with her and Maya.
"Jesus, Hannah you really know how to complicate things don't you?"
"Spencer, I was trying to be a good friend, a protective friend."
"Well you may have just protected Emily away from Maya for good."
"I know. I just hope Maya can forgive Emily one more time. It's become a habit for her and I don't know if this is a habit she wants to keep."
The St. Germains…
Emily has fallen asleep with her arm around Maya who begins to stir waking Emily from her slumber.
"What's going on? Emily? What are you doing here?" she asks softly as they lie there facing each other.
"Hey you," Emily says with a sweet smile making Maya smile shyly back. "Hannah told me that she came to see you so I had to make sure you were okay and I'm glad I did. Maya, you were basically in a ball in the shower. You could've drowned. And then you wouldn't stop shaking so I brought you to your bed and I lay down next to you trying to warm you. Maya, I needed you to be you again."
"Thank you for helping me but you really shouldn't be here right now."
"Maya, I want to be here. I love you. I need to make sure you're okay, that we're okay."
Maya looks deep into Emily's soul and says, "I'm okay but we…"
"Maya, we are okay aren't we?"
Maya looks down as she says, "Every time I think about us my head starts spinning. Every time I think I can forgive you something else comes up that you didn't tell me about. I'm so tired of the lies. I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm just so tired."
Emily takes Maya's chin lifting it so she will look at her, "You don't need to say anything Maya. I get it. I hurt you with all the lies, we all did. I'm so sorry Maya. I should've told you. I'm so sorry."
"I am so emotionally drained right now. I feel like I just fell down a flight of stairs. Every part of my body aches…" Maya barely gets out while looking at Emily with her soft brown eyes.
"Especially your heart?"
"Yeah, especially my heart."
Emily snuggles closer to Maya putting her arm around her as Maya continues to look at Emily telling her how she is feeling right at this moment,
"I, I was thinking about our first kiss in the photo booth. How much I wanted to kiss you and finally we looked into each other's eyes and it happened. It was perfect. You were perfect," she says as Emily gently pushes the hair aside that has fallen onto Maya's face. She then leans towards her kissing her on the lips. Maya responds kissing her back softly, tenderly, they hold each other close kissing and crying and kissing some more until Maya pulls back. They lie there in silence holding onto one another until Maya is able to go on, "But, but then you struggled with being honest with yourself which kept you away from me. And your mom just couldn't accept you as who you really are which kept you away from me still. We struggled so much to be together and then I'm sent away to boot camp while you get cozy with Paige…"
"Maya…"
"Please let me finish. When I came back I foolishly expected everything to be as it was and for a little while it was incredible but somehow Paige and someone you call 'A' kept getting in the way." Tears spill from Emily's eyes as Maya goes on to say, "I've loved you for too long to stop now. You've become a habit to me. With you, my life, my life is wonderful but all of this, I'm tired and my trust has grown cold. I can't stop loving you but…"
"Then don't. Please don't Maya. My love for you only grows stronger with each passing day. I need to be your habit. I need you to trust me again. I need you to not stop..."
"I'm sorry," Maya says as she turns her back to Emily.
"Don't be sorry. There's nothing for you to be sorry about," Emily assures her as she snuggles into her back.
"I'm sorry Emily because I need you to leave. Please Emily, I need you to leave," Maya insists with tears flooding her eyes.
"You what?"
"Please go."
"But Maya…"
"Go."
Emily reluctantly gets up from her bed with tears streaming down her face as this time she doesn't know if their love is strong enough to fix this, to fix them…
The Hastings…
Emily runs over to Spencer's balling her eyes out barely able to see two steps in front of her. She barrels through the door falling onto the couch. Hannah and Spencer go to her kneeling on the floor Hannah caressing her back trying to calm her cries and Spencer cradling her head pushing her hair behind her ear.
"Emily, what happened?" asks Spenser compassionately.
"Maya told me to leave. She doesn't want to see me. She told me to leave." Emily muffles into the couch cushion.
"Em, she's hurting. She needs more time."
"She told me to leave."
The tears heave from her soul as Hannah and Spencer do their best to console her, to just be there for her…
The St. Germains…
Maya finally gets up washes her face, ties her hair back and gets dressed. She sits back on her bed needing to make a phone call to the one person who can make her forget for just a little while,
"Hey, Noel, it's me Maya."
"Hey, you left kind of early last night. So, was it worth it?"
"You need to shut up Noel."
"If only I could've been a fly on the wall."
"Are you done perving yet?"
"Sorry."
"Can you come over right away?"
"Yeah sure. What's up?"
"Just bring your best stuff."
"Back to your old habits?"
"Some habits are too hard to break."
"Seriously?"
"Yeah, seriously…"
The Hastings…
While Emily lies down on the couch resting, her cell phone goes off making her sit up quickly hoping beyond hope that it's Maya. But when she opens her text she sees that it's not,
Paige made her choice.
Anger over Emily.
Maya made her choice.
Ecstasy over Emily.
I win Bitches!
-A
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To Be Continued…
How far will Maya go to forget?
How far will Emily go for Maya?
**I really do hope you'll stay with me. These last two chapters have been quite emotional. They'll get there, but Maya needs to go through her stuff first. I hope you all get that…
**Oh and I said "Ecstasy" because I just wanted another word that would make the text message more dramatically effective. I'm not saying that Maya is doing "Ecstasy"…
