In the beginning…

He was the strange boy with strange hair and a strange cat. He was the infamous Salamander of the Fairy Tail guild. He was the one who could destroy whole towns without trying. The one who got motion sickness just from thinking about vehicle. He was the one whose smile was so infectious. The mysterious and amazing boy that I knew.

I don't know when I first started to like him, maybe when I held him back to keep him from destroying himself in the wind, maybe when he asked me to meet him in South Gate park alone. He wasn't handsome exactly, at least not like Gray or Loke, he was cute in a boyish way. He had a medium, toned stature, and always smelled of fire. Warm and comforting. He had huge, expressive eyes; in a split second, they could widen with surprise or narrow with displeasure. I could never decide what color they were, as they seemed to constantly shift from black, to green, to glowing red, like the very magic he possessed.

He always deeply cared for me, for any member of Fairy Tail. If anyone hurt his nakama he would always make sure to get a good fight in with the one responsible. He was hotheaded, stubborn, and completely unable to surrender. It pained him to see any of his comrades cry.

In the end.

I had to make a choice, a terrible choice. I was his undoing in the end. It is because of me that no one will see him smile again, and that fact is what I will have to live with forever.

He asked me to do it, while he was still in control. He asked he to kill him, to stab that cursed book. He pleaded with his eyes, slowly shifting from green to red. I can't remember at what point of the transformation he took over, but all I knew was that our Salamander was gone forever.

I wasn't going to do it, until Aquarius came. She reminded me of how she had to be sacrificed for the greater good. She told me he wouldn't be gone, not really, he would forgive me because that's the kind of person he was.

He has not watched over me, as he consumed his soul. I will never see him again.

I killed Natsu Dragneel.