Sorry guys had to repost this chapter somehow the one that wasn't proofread was put up instead!
Okay going to answer some questions.
The cops aren't following Christian because if you have been following my story you will see that the only one after him was John Beckett and that was an inside job. Paul clayton now is in alliance with Christian. So when he burnt Elliots Car no one is going to question it. They can't. Plus like I've stated more than half of the department on that part of the city are being paid off by the mob. They burnt his car because they needed to send a message and if you read Taylor was there to pick them up. So no it wasn't that stupid but thank you for the review. I respect your opinion but I just wanted to explain it to you since I don't think you read my chapter properly lol.
Sorry guys but I have been visiting of my sick aunt who is dying from cancer. ( As some of you may know if you read Nevaeh) I have too much going in my life so please don't mind me lol. Writing is like my outlet.
APOV
"Annie you know what this man does for a living?" My father stares outside of the window with a beer in his hands. I sigh as I take a seat at the dinning room table. We made it to the safe house about an hour ago. I had been so happy to see Sawyer I jumped on him as soon as I saw him step out of the SUV. I really thought he was gone for good and besides Christian he was the only one I felt like I could talk with about this lifestyle.
"Yes, papa, I know what he does."
"I like him." I give him a surprised look. I definitely wasn't expecting that to come out of his mouth.
"Really?"
"Yeah, I mean I would prefer that you weren't with a criminal, but he loves you anyone could see that." He shrugs as he takes a sip of his beer. I stare at my hands silently smiling to myself. I was so worried about this. My father meeting Christian and hating him for what he does and not who he is. I know deep down that he would want better for me, but the simple fact that he respects my decision makes me happy. I still had my worries about Christian's job though.
"I was so worried that you would hate him. I'm glad that you don't." I wipe the tears off my cheeks. Lifting my legs onto the chair I wrap my arms around my knees.
"Hmm." He turns to look at me and I send a shaky smile his way. "Tell me what happened again?"
I feel a lump rise in my throat and I look away. My kidnapping was hard for me to talk about. I was gone for a short amount of time, but it felt like weeks. I have never felt so vulnerable and scared in my life. Sure, I got myself out, but that didn't mean that I wasn't frightened. There was a point that I for sure thought I was going to be killed. I knew that if my escape went wrong, I would have died. They would have killed me and I wouldn't be here to see Christian or my father.
"I already told you and Christian."
"Tell me again."
I shake my head as my eyes swell up with emotion. I knew he was trying to get me to let it out. If I talked about it, I would be able to grieve and move on. I was hurting though, and I didn't want to admit that just yet.
"No, I can't not right now."
He stands up and kneels right in front of me. Grabbing my hands, he stares into my eyes and it takes everything I have not to look away. He's my father and I know he can see every emotion running through me at this moment.
"Mija you have to let it out. If you hold this in you will destroy your life. It will consume you trust me. I lost so many good men and women in situations like this." Clearing his throat he stares at our hands.
"What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger if you give it the chance to do so. You have to allow yourself to talk this out and understand that even though you killed a man you did it to protect yourself."
"How does that make it any better papa?"
"This man was a criminal Carina if you didn't kill him there would have been many more just like you."
"Christian's a criminal." I whisper. It was true. I know I love Christian and I want to be with him till the end, but ever since being kidnapped I have done a lot of thinking. Has he ever done what these men did to me? I mean they were in the mafia just like him. Does he hurt women? Degrade them the way these men did to me?
"Is that what this is all about? You knew he was a criminal when you decided to stay with him."
"Yes, but what if he hurts women the way these men hurt me? I can deal with this life. I can deal with him being a mafioso, but I don't know if I could deal with knowing that he tortures women instead of just going after the man he wants."
"That's something you need to speak with him about Carina." My father squeezes my hand. "Look at me."
I bring my head up and I can see the worry in his eyes. I hated that I was the reason for that look. My father was and always will be my hero. He saved me from a life of pain with my mother. My own mother wanted nothing to do with me, but Ray kept me and raised me as his own.
"Talk to him. If he can't settle this worry that you feel in here," He points to my heart, " then he's not the one. You have to feel it in your heart that you can trust everything he is telling you."
I smile and squeeze his hands before giving him a kiss on the cheek. He was right. I should be able to ask Christian these questions. I know he's a good man, but every good man has their flaws. I could deal with most of his but if torturing women were one, then we'd have a problem.
"Thanks, I love you papa."
"I love you too. Let's go watch a game." I laugh as my father drags me to the living room. Sports were our thing. We would watch the games together every night when I was growing up even if our teams weren't playing or if it was a sport we didn't really enjoy. It felt nice to sit here on this couch and relive old times.
CPOV
"I can't believe you blew up my fucking car." Elliot grumbles next to me. I roll my eyes as I take out my phone. I was texting the family making sure to tell them that we would be meeting at the safe house. After killing Beckett I knew would have a big bounty hanging over us and we all needed to be under protection.
"Get over it, I'll buy you a new one."
"I liked that one."
"That one is burnt to a crisp."
"Fuck off."
I snort as he flips me off. I swear that car probably meant more to him than Kate. His Jeep Wrangler was like a first born to him. I kind of felt bad now that I set it on fire, but I wanted to send a message. I knew I could buy him another one anyway, it would be at the safe house in three days. He really was over reacting.
"So, when you see Ana today try to take it easy alright? I mean she's acting like she's fine, but I truly doubt that she is." I lean against the chair as I shake my head. I knew Ana would do this. She was way too stubborn to let her weakness show. However, I wasn't going to just sit back and wait for her to blow like a damn bomb. She was going to need help. The way they treated her while they had her would stick with her for life and she needed to talk with someone in order to truly get over it. I was just glad that her father was here. There's no doubting that she's a daddy's girl and I know his presence is making this easier for her.
"Yeah, I get it. I feel bad for her you know? Kate doesn't have to deal with that shit. She's not married to the prince of the family. At the end of the day I can leave this shit and have no qualms about it. You on the other hand, can't. It's different." He stares at me and I shrug my shoulders. He was right, it was different. I mean, yeah, I could leave, but it would cause a catastrophe. It would be hard and even then I am sure after all the bad shit I've done, we would still have death threats coming in left and right. I would always be a wanted man.
"Yeah, I know."
I turn away from him to stare out the window. We were getting closer to our destination. The green of the trees around us was getting thicker. It was the one thing I loved about the safe house. It was in the middle of nowhere but the scenery was beautiful. The trees and the stars at night were sights to behold. I'm sure Ana would love it. Especially after all that she's been through some time away would be good.
I smile as we turn onto the gravel road leading to the house. I missed Ana and after everything I hated being away from her. I just wanted to take a couple of days while we are here to spend it with her. I needed it.
"We're here boss."
"Thanks Taylor You coming in?"
"I'll be back tonight I have to go home and see the Mrs."
I nod my head as I get out of the car. It didn't bother me much that Taylor came and went as he pleased. I was lethal all by myself as long as Sawyer stayed with Ana I could care less about anything else.
Stepping up to the door, I wait for someone to answer as Elliot knocks.
"Ana!" Elliot scoops her up in a hug and I resist the urge to pull him off. I had just told him to take it easy on her and there he goes just fucking ignoring what I just said. She didn't seem uncomfortable though, so I let it go.
"Baby." I smile as I hold her against my chest. I squeeze her softly, taking in her scent.
"Can we talk?" I frown as I pull away and stare down at her. She didn't seem upset but that wasn't saying much considering she was very efficient at hiding her emotions.
Walking in to the living room, I see Elliot talking to Ray. Her father looks up and I nod at him as I take Ana's hand and lead her upstairs.
"What do you want to talk about?" I question as I take her to our room. It was the master bedroom of the house.
"I need you to be a hundred percent honest with me." She softly says as she sits on the bed. I tilt my head, staring at her for a moment. I was always honest with her so that statement made me feel uneasy.
"I always am."
"Do you torture women?" I reel back as if someone had slapped me. What the fuck was she talking about?
"Excuse me?"
"Do you hurt women? Like these men hurt me? Have you ever?"
I sigh as I sit on a chair across from her. I should have known this would be running through her head. I mean she must think I'm just like the men who hurt her.
"Look, I won't lie. I have killed a woman before. Elena Lincoln, she was a human trafficker. I would do it again if I had to and sometimes when you get sent on a job to kill a man you kill their wife too. It's the way it goes." I take a pause to stare at her.
"However, I have not ever abused a woman in my life or raped or molested one either. I don't take advantage of women." I firmly state as I stare into her eyes. I wanted her to know that I was serious. Lying was something I hated and something that I never did with Ana. It would get us nowhere if I lied, especially in our relationship.
She stares at me for a moment before nodding her head. "Okay."
"Okay? That's all you have to say?"
"I believe you. You've never lied before so I trust you,"
"I swear to you that I will never hurt you." I walk over to her and take her face in between my hands. I gently caress her cheek with my thumb. I loved her too much plus my father would kill me if he ever found out I put my hands on a woman in such a way. That wasn't something we took lightly in this family.
"I know." She smiles, " Let's go downstairs. My dad and Elliot seem to be getting along."
I allow her to drag me down the stairs. Whatever she wanted I would give her. She has already given me way more than I deserved. The fact that she was still here, even after this situation was amazing enough. My father always used to tell me to never take the woman we chose to be in our life for granted. I'm starting to understand what he meant by that.
"We're so glad you are home and well." I watch as my mother kisses Ana's cheek and my father stands nearby talking to Ray. Surprisingly enough, they hit it off from the start. It was odd, but if it made her father more comfortable with our situation, I wasn't going to stand in the way.
"Thank you Grace. Do you know where Kate is?" Ana looks around the room and I frown as I turn towards Elliot.
"Where is Kate?"
"She's at a doctors appointment. She's pregnant remember?" He gives me a weird look and I just smile before looking back at Ana. I hadn't actually remembered at this moment because it just wasn't entirely important to me. I sounded like the worst brother in the world, but Ana being healthy and home was the only thing on my mind.
"Do you want it to be a boy or girl?"
"Boy definitely a boy, I don't want to have a girl and have to see her dating and shit. I would go crazy." I chuckle as his eyes go wide. He was right though. I go crazy when I think of Mia dating and she's seventeen. If that was my daughter, she wouldn't be allowed out of the house until she was thirty. Girls were tricky. They had awful mood swings and then boys became a priority and no man could ever be good enough for your daughter. That's why I understand where Ray is coming from with his interrogations. Ana was his baby girl and honestly whether I was a criminal or not I still wouldn't be good enough in his eyes.
"Yeah, I mean can you imagine what dating would be like? Not to mention once they figure out who her family is forget it that girl will have the hardest time finding a boyfriend El."
You're right, who wants to date a mafioso's daughter?" He laughs and pushes me. I shake my head and smirk. Most men don't even look at Mia once they know who here father and brothers are. It's hilarious for us and highly disturbing to her. At least dating wasn't something we were really worried about right now when it came to our beloved sister.
"You know it's nice having the whole family here and all but we need to talk soon. DeLeon is still on the loose. We haven't heard word from Kate's father and now I just killed a man that was part of the Irish mob in Chicago." I give Elliot a pointed glance as I go down the list of shit hanging over our heads.
"Shit is going to get ugly Christian."
"I know."
Let me explain some things.
First Ana knows that Christian isn't a rapist or molester. She was asking if that was something that he had to do as being a part of the mob. He explained to her that no he doesn't but he has killed a woman before and would do it again. I hope that clears it up.
Also Ana may have gotten herself out but its still traumatic. She needed to ask those questions and its just hard for her.
Second Ana speak fluent spanish I mentioned that before so:
Mija = daughter
Papa = dad
carina= is like sweetheart
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