I'm alive. I'm so sorry about not updating this fic, I have never left an update this late before but it's just been really hectic right now but I hope for more updates to this in the future.
"Did you hear they're starting a glee club here?"
Kurt looks to Blaine over his lunch and raised a delicate eyebrow, "Really? Didn't think the school would actually start something like that." He shrugs.
"Do...do you wanna audition...," Blaine fiddles his hands nervously, "...together?"
Kurt hides his smile, and tries to put on a fake facade of actually considering what to do, "Well I was think about maybe asking someone like...Finn to sing with me, you know, because he's totally cute."
Kurt watches in amusement as Blaine's eyes immediately turn dark, possessiveness riding through him as he wraps his arm around Kurt's waist, squeezing his hip almost painfully, "Absolutely not." He growls hoarsely in his ear.
Kurt gasps quietly, glad that they're at a secluded table on their own at the back of the cafeteria, as Blaine bites down gently on his ear lobe, nibbling it, "Hmmmmm...are you jealous?"
In return Blaine just growls in his ear, which causes Kurt to giggle, "Down boy, I know I'm yours. So...what song do you want to sing at our audition?"
That's finally makes him smile and he kisses his cheek gently. It amazes Kurt how quickly Blaine can change from one emotion to another, almost giving him whiplash, "And before you ask we're not singing Teenage Dream."
"Kurt..." He whines.
He finds his pout adorable.
He breathes in and out steadily, his heart racing with nerves, "God this is so stupid, I shouldn't be this nervous." He laughs at himself sheepishly.
"Well I think it's cute," Kurt feels as Blaine slides his arms slowly around his waist from behind, before locking his hands protectively across his stomach, "We'll both be fine baby, you know we're going to get in." As soon as Kurt felt the slow kiss on the side of his neck, he could feel the tension from his shoulders just melt away.
"Next." Sadly the moment didn't last too long, and soon they're both entering the stage, hands firmly clasped.
"My name is Blaine Anderson and this is my boyfriend Kurt Hummel and we'll be singing Candles by Hey Monday."
"Okay guys, whenever you're ready." Mr Shuester says to them cheerfully.
"The power lines went out,
And I am all alone,
But I don't really care at all,
Not answering my phone."
From then on they switch verses, playfully dancing round each other on the stage, just letting go and having fun.
Soon enough the song ends and they're startled out of their little trance but Mr Shuester clapping with a big smile on his face, "Well done guys! That was really good, I'll keep you posted on who makes it."
"Thanks." Blaine grabs Kurt's hand and leads him off stage where he proceeds to engulf Kurt in a big hug, securing his hands around his waist, squeezing him tight, "You did so well baby."
Kurt winds his own arms around his neck, his face blushing slightly as he hides it in Blaine's neck, "We both did well."
The first official meet up of McKinely Highs Glee club the New Directions was after school and both Kurt and Blaine were excited to go. They only heard a few days ago that they made the team, even though there were rumours of a very sparse team of people actually joining, but they were over the moon. They both loved to sing and dance so this was a perfect extracurricular for them to do.
They round the corner to the choir room, Kurt's hand squeezing Blaine's almost uncomfortably, and Blaine just brushes his hand down his arm to get him to calm down and breathe. They make their way into the room recognising everyone in the room like Rachel Berry, Tina Cohen Chang, Artie Abrams, Finn Hudson (what?) and of course Mercedes Jones, Kurt's best friend besides Blaine.
"Hey boos come sit by me." Her smile is wide as they make their way to her sitting next to each other, hands never letting go. They do spot Finn however looking at them weirdly, his nose wrinkled up in what seems to be disgust. A look they're both familiar with, "Doesn't seem so cute now, huh?"
Kurt sighs, maybe glee isn't for them, he doesn't want to have to deal with homophobic assholes, "Yeah well you were always my type baby."
"Damn straight."
Finn snorts behind them.
Blaine turns around, his nostrils flaring, "Got a problem, Hudson?"
Finn actually looked scared for a moment, before schooling his expression into a more half ass look, "No."
"Good." And with that Blaine turned back round, his jaw tense but now his arm is around Kurt's waist in a possessive grip, so Kurt just kisses his cheek, his hand tangling in his curls to try and calm his boyfriend down. It works like magic and soon he's back to being his smiley goofy self that Kurt loves.
"Okay guys, welcome to the New Directions! Now I know we're quite small and we need 12 members to actually compete, but I'm sure we'll be up and running in no time!"
They spent the rest of the lesson trying to figure out how to harmonise all their voices together, even though Blaine and Finn kept glaring at each other. Other than that it was quite successful and both Kurt and Blaine had fun.
They feel optimistic about it.
Sectionals was a rush.
There was no other way to describe it. The adrenaline they felt as they sung up on that stage, even with having to change their set list right before they went on. It was phenomenal and what made it even better was they won.
They actually won.
And the glee club is only getting bigger now that a few popular kids have joined. It's the one class that both Kurt and Blaine look forward to during the week. Of course Finn still looked at them funny but they just decided to ignore it, the other kids are friendlier. Rachel annoys Kurt quite a bit but he knows it's only because they're both so similar but Blaine finds her weirdly sweet.
What they really love about that class is that they've always felt welcomed by everyone, always felt normal, and even though it can sometimes be ruined by Finn and his looks, they know it's something they will always cherish.
They just don't quite understand Finn. Why out of everyone does he seem to have a problem? Even Puck doesn't care that they're gay. It wasn't that much of a big deal until the looks turned into small uttered words.
"Disgusting."
Blaine heard it ever so faintly from behind him, Kurt none the wiser as the lesson continued, but Blaine was sure he heard him, "What was that?" Dues to his biting tone everyone turned towards where Blaine is looking, quite aggressively towards Finn, tension rolling off him in waves. Kurt in particular looks quite scared, so he tries to calm him down but to no avail.
"What?"
"You know what Hudson. I heard what you said." Blaine's eyes could see red.
"Dude I have no idea what you're talking about." Even as he says it Blaine can see the small smirk tugging at his mouth.
Blaine's standing up now, too riled up to stay seated, "Bet you can't even say it to my face, Hudson. Too much of a coward."
"Guys, I think you shoul-" Mr Shuester tries to cut in.
"Oh yeah? I'm a coward? You sure about that?"
Now the boys were toe to toe, and even though Finn is twice Blaine's height, he isn't afraid of him. He's faced worse. They both have. And Blaine knows how to box now, he's had to learn not only for himself but because he doesn't feel safe if he's not protecting Kurt. Kurt' his number one priority and he always will be.
He can feel the adrenaline coursing through his body straight to his fist as it lays by his side. He's about to say something back but he's distracted by the heavy breathing coming from behind Finn, more importantly, coming from Kurt.
Shit.
"B."
And just like that the adrenaline slips away and Blaine's need to be there for Kurt fades in, and he immediately goes to Kurt's side, "Baby you need to breathe."
Blaine knows about this. Ever since the attack they both had different reactions. Whilst Blaine became angry and upset over the whole ordeal, which is another reason he picked up boxing to vent his frustrations, Kurt became scared. And with that came panic attacks. They've been working together to get them further and further apart, and to help Kurt become less terrified of the smaller things. But Blaine knows that this confrontation will trigger him.
He can't help but feel that this is his fault but be he shouldn't be thinking about himself right now. So he gathers him in his arms cradling him close without holding on too tight, "In and out baby…that's it."
They tried many different ways to get Kurt to calm down when he's so wound up, and they found that this is what works for them best. Because Kurt is against Blaine's chest he can feel the regular pattern of up and down, and with having him so close he can breathe in the familiar scent of his boyfriend which will always bring a wash of serenity over him.
With gentle hands running up and down his back, Kurt finally feels like his feet are back on the ground. They're both so lost in their little world that they don't even notice all the others around them who are both a mix of concerned and confused to what just went on.
"What do you want to do?" It's whispered so quietly into Kurt's ear, because Blaine only meant it for him, and he appreciates that he still tries to keep a sliver of privacy even in a room full of people.
"Can we go home?" He feels weak with his decision but it's been so long since he's had an attack and he feels a little ashamed about it.
He feels Blaine place a lingering kiss on his cheek, the love pouring from his lips, "Of course baby."
And with that they leave hand in hand.
Burt finds the boys in Kurt's room, completely entangled yet not asleep. He can feel by the tension in the room that something is wrong, "You boys okay?"
Kurt doesn't even lift his head from his spot on Blaine's chest, his expression being very spaced out. It's Blaine who finally answers him, but not till after he kisses Kurt's forehead, "Uh there's just this jerk at school who's giving us a hard time, and uh…Kurt had a panic attack in Glee."
Oh.
Kurt hasn't had an attack for a couple of months now.
"You could've called, I would've come home a little earlier to make sure you're okay bud."
Kurt just snuggles his way back into Blaine's neck, "I'm okay Dad, I have Blaine."
Burt smiles. He knows Kurt wouldn't have been able to get through this without Blaine by his side and vice versa. But he does need to be more honest with both of them.
"Boys, I want to talk to the both of you over dinner if that's okay?"
After a tense few moments as they set the table up for a Chinese takeaway dinner, Kurt can't wait much longer, "Dad can you tell us now? What's going on?"
Kurt and Blaine sit across from him, hands firmly intertwined under the table, fearing the worst, "Well boys…I'm actually seeing someone…and it's pretty serious."
Blaine's grip on Kurt's hand tightens, knowing he needs this support right now, " Who?"
"Carole Hudson."
