He leans against the other part of the wall and I rub my shoulder. I look at him and he giggles. "Don't get too high." I say and check my phone. 1:39am. I go on twitter and check Samuel's last tweet.
"That Moment, When You Realise, That Even The Person Who Tried The Hardest, Is Just Like The Rest." I nod and Daniel comes outside. "What do you want?" Jake ask while putting his cigarette out. "I wanted to talk to you." He says to me and I shake my head. "No, you don't get to talk to me." I say and he shrugs. "Why not?" I look at him and he half smiles.
"Because of you, all my friends, and everyone I care about, thinks I broke your heart." I say and Karla walks out. "You did." Karla says and I shake my head. "No, you broke mine." I say and a tear rolls down my cheek. "So you don't get to talk to me. I stood up for you two like a fool and took the blame. You acted damaged, because for once in my pathetic life, I wanted to be the one who came out the otherside stronger, not that it happened. I'm still as broken and damaged as I was that day, well I was. I finally started feeling good again when I went into that house and met those 11 people. I gave up all my friends for you. Just because I cared. All my former friends call me 'Bitch' now. I hate that. I want to be called by my name, not what they think I am. I am SICK of labels. You broke my heart. Mine. I didn't break yours, you still had someone there for you, now, I have no one." I say and Jake shrugs. "You want to get out of here?" I nod. "Yeah." I say and he puts an arm around me. "You don't get to own me anymore." I say to Daniel and we turn around to walk away. Lindsay, Damian and Samuel stare at me. "You shouldn't just judge. It's not always what you think." I say and Jake gives me his jacket as we get towards the party bus. "Your car!" Karla shouts back and I lift my keys from my pocket. I throw them on to the ground in front of Samuel. "Just don't kill yourselves." I say and get in.
Someone hands me a beer and I drink it while the bus moves and goes towards the hill. We party there for an hour and then they drop me off. I see my car in the driveway and nod. They got home then. I walk in and set my bag on the kitchen table. I walk into my room and the three of them look at me. I lift pyjamas from the drawer and set them on the table beside the mirror. I take off my necklace and set it down. "Are you even going to let us apologise?" Lindsay asks and I grab a blanket from my cupboard. "You don't need to apologise." I say and they half smile. I walk towards them and grab a pillow from my bed. "Goodnight." I say and walk towards the living room. I throw the pillow on the green sofa and put the blanket over myself. I turn off the light and just lie there. Somebody knocks the wall and I just stay there. "What?" I ask and hear someone step forward. "I'm sorry." Samuel says and I look at him. "Now that you've cleared your conscience, you can go to bed." I say and turn away from him. "Nic-" I pull the blanket tighter around me. "Goodnight Samuel." I say and I fall asleep.
