I still don't own X-Men.

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Here Without You – 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.

It's been five bloody years. Five years, and Raven still hasn't come home. The school is empty, and only Hank remains here to keep me company. In that time he has helped me deal with my constant physical and emotional pain of the loss by making me a serum that nullifies my mutation, and dulls the pain.

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same.

Everyday Hank gives me empty promises that she'll come to her senses and see Erik for what he really is, and that she'll come back to us. To me. I know that he still fancies her, but when I see her again, I will not hesitate to make her mine, like I should have done a long time ago. Maybe this wouldn't have happened if I had confessed my true feelings for her.

All the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face.

I closed my tired eyes and did about the only thing I ever did lately to cope. I closed my eyes and dreamed.

In my mind's eye my girl was here in bed with me, and not God knows where in the world, but with me.

I rolled over on top of her and pinned her wrists down onto the bed, making sure she was right where I needed her. Her soft sigh of pleasure sending my blood roaring as I ran my tongue up her neck to her jaw, nibbling my way to her ear.

"Charles..." she moaned as I ripped her button up shirt open, and quickly went to lavish the valley of her breasts while working on pulling her shorts off.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind.

I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl, it's only you and me.

Her now free hands pulled my shirt up over my head and were hurriedly trying to yank down my pajama bottoms. I finally got her feet free of her shorts and panties, and helped her with my garments. She was beautiful, and I couldn't wait to feel her, taste her, be inside...

The thought of having Raven naked and splayed out in front of me started to make the dream jumbled in my excitement, and time sped up and came to a crawl at times. I was pressed flat against her with her hands tangled in my long locks, my mouth feasting on one of her breasts while I hooked one of her legs around my waist. Her breathy sighs filled the room, and suddenly I wanted to hear her scream. I wanted to torture with endless pleasure, to somehow show her how fucked up I've been without her here, and how far I've fallen.

I stopped teasing her nipple and let go of her breast with a wet 'pop'. She let out a small whine and I quickly shot down to what I really wanted to taste...

Only to wake up to a blaring alarm clock, and to the sound of Hank's thoughts as he went about his business downstairs in the kitchen.

I squeezed my eyes shut in disappointment and pain at returning to reality. Maybe instead of just taking the serum, I should try something stronger as well.