Christian's Pov

The butterflies in my stomach where unstoppable. I felt like everything was in slow motion, the anticipation was heavy in the air. When I found Ana's room I suddenly felt stuck. I was stuck in such a state of anticipation, that I was genuinely nervous, scared even. Shaking my head I knew I had to see her regardless of how I felt. Swinging the door open, there she was. A breath I didn't know I was holding was released. There she was, with her big brown eyes smiling back at me. All the hurt and fear I was holding was released.

"Hi" I said shakily allowing all the pent up emotions I felt out.

"Hi" she returned her voice much more controlled. I smiled inwardly at how our roles had flipped normally I held the dominate hand and she I was the shaky intimidated one. I took a chair and pulled it closer to her, as I went to take her hand to kiss it I saw the IV's and decided against it.

"Christian whats wrong?" she said. O Ana, if you knew half of what was running thru my mind.

"I keep playing it over and over in my mind. Trying to dissect the exact moment that I could have changed things. To stop it all." I was fighting back tears, I was determined to stop crying. I had Ana now, well for now I had her. I had to regain all the self control I had lost. Ana took my hand breaking me out of my mental pep talk.

"Christian, don't. Don't beat yourself up over this please. I can't stand to see you this way." she began crying. Great fucking job Grey.

"Please don't cry, " I said whipping her tears away "I'll stop" even though I didn't want to. I wanted to explain how sorry I was from the deepest depths of my heart.

"So what happened after ya know " as she trails off and she places her hand on the surgical bandage over her abdomen, that I had noticed before. My heart tightened. A sense of gilt flooded over me.

"Um, Taylor took her down after you got hurt. Um and then the ambulance and police came and here we are." I said fighting past the lump in my throat.

"O my. Is everyone else ok?" she asked the worry evident in her eyes. I smirked inwardly. Of course that's Ana, always worried about others before herself.

"Yea." I said groufly.

"Christian whats wrong?" and finally I asked the question that was stuck in my head since the ambulance took her away,

"Do you want to leave me?"

Ana's Pov

My heart stopped and my stomach dropped. What the hell had happened while I was in surgery.

"What?! Of course not!" I tried living without him once I couldn't do it again.

"Christ Ana, I put you in this situation. I'm to blame." He got up and was starting to pace. My heart began to ache for him. He needed to understand. Just then I felt unspeakable pain, looking down my incision had opened and there was blood lots of it. Christian now had his back turned. O god this hurts.

"CHRISTIAN!" just as he turned the pain intensified, causing me to yell out. Christians face was full of shock, horror, and fear. Just then he call out for a nurse and a team of people rushed in. Amoungst them I heard one of them say I was gonna have to go back to surgery. As they began wheeling me off I turned to Christian.

"I love you" I felt the tears roll silently down my cheek.

"I love you too" he said his voice cracking with unsaid sadness. And just like that I was wheeled away and the pain intensified.