Here you are lovely readers! Just a little something till I get to another main part of the story written! ^^ enjoy lovelies!
There was a nagging question that Freed wanted to ask Laxus as he bit his lip softly every now and then. Freed had massaged almost all of Laxus back so now he just let his hands roam over the bulging muscles that relaxed under his fingertips.
Laxus chuckled before quickly rolling over so Freed was straddling over his waist. Freed shook his head, smiling at the blonde before frowning slowly.
"Freed?" Laxus worriedly grabbed both of Freed's hands, which were currently resting on his muscular chest.
Freed sighed as he gently removed one of his hands from Laxus' grasp; the older male didn't like that too much since he pouted for a second.
Freed moved some of his bangs behind his ear as he bit his lip. Laxus started to rub Freed's hips soothingly, wondering what had Freed so bothered. Freed could see that Laxus was waiting for him to talk as he kept his eyes intently on Freed's blue ones.
"It's just…" Freed began nervously before sighing. Laxus smiled a little hoping it encouraged Freed to say whatever it was he was thinking about.
"I'm worried about you Laxus" Freed whispered making Laxus give a full out smile, leaning up to kiss Freed. Freed put his hands on Laxus' chest again, stopping the blonde from moving. Laxus furrowed his brows, wondering why Freed was being so serious right now. I mean they talked a little when Freed woke up, so he knew that everything was okay between them; at least he hoped so.
"Worried about what? I thought we were… okay?" Laxus whispered the last word, trying to hide his worry but he was pretty sure he wasn't successful. Freed looked surprised before smiling softly, leaning down to kiss Laxus gently. Laxus happily returned the kiss knowing for sure now that it wasn't about them.
Once the kiss broke between the two, Freed sighed, hating to bring up this topic.
"You killed your father Laxus. You haven't talked about it. Especially with Master. In fact we've been in this room for a few days pretty much avoiding everyone. I mean Bicks leaves us food in the kitchen for goodness sake! I know that our nakama is worried about us. Just please tell me you're okay" Freed whispered as he gently cradled Laxus' cheek. Laxus looked surprised before frowning. He slowly leaned up as he moved Freed off of him before standing.
"I'm fine Freed. The guy was a monster, what more do you want?" Laxus said defensively as he crossed his arms, leaning against the wall across from the bed.
"He was still your father Laxus. I mean cry, yell, laugh! Show some kind of emotion. Master came over the other day since he was so worried about us and you just had a stone face the entire time. How do you think that made him feel? Have you even told him what happened on that ship? Don't you think he deserves to know that-"
"Yes! I know he deserves to know! I'm pretty sure he does know! But I don't need to show any emotions for that monster that was my father, he doesn't deserve any! He deserves nothing from me. Beside he took you from me! He would have gladly had you raped just in spite of me and you want me to show emotions for the guy? What the hell!? I don't need to explain anything to anyone. You are back here with me and that's all that matters; not how you got back."
Laxus was huffing at this point as Freed looked shocked at him and then became very sad.
"Laxus, I know he wasn't a good person, at all! But… you should still feel something; he was your dad. Your feelings don't have to be for your dad. Just please… talk to master. He's part of your nakama and your blood. I know this is hard but-"
"How would you know if this is hard!?" Laxus yelled before storming out of the room and out of the apartment. Freed sighed, rubbing his arms for warmth before sitting on the bed.
Laxus grumbled to himself, crossing his arms as little sparks of electricity would come off of him. He turned to an innocent tree that was near the road before punching it once, making it practically explode into little pieces.
"Ahem. I didn't know you liked to let your anger out on trees"
Laxus turned before seeing his grandfather frowning up at him. Laxus growled, turning from his grandfather.
"Would you stop being a spoiled brat and sit with me!? Or are you too good for that?" Makarov sat where the tree was burned down before Laxus shuffled next to him, sitting down ungracefully.
It was silent for a few moments as a breeze passed by the two.
"I'm angry," Laxus whispered as his grandfather hmm'd before nodding.
"I hate the fact that Ivan would go so far to hurt Freed just for the family name. That isn't family. That's cruelty. He's only ever been narcissistic. Why did this have to happen!? Why do I feel relief and sadness? I'm sorry gramps. I killed your son. I don't understand what I should do, what I should feel" Laxus placed his face in his hands as he let out an agitated sigh. Makarov gently placed his hand on Laxus' shoulder before hugging his grand son. Laxus was surprised by the action before hugging his grandpa back.
"Ivan somehow grew a lust for power and his need for control could never be waivered. Not by anyone. Not even your mother. It is hard for a parent to lose a child and it is hard for a child to lose a parent. I think this is the sadness you and I are both feeling. But what Ivan did was unforgivable. You are right. What he was going to do to someone in our family isn't forgivable. No one does something like that for family, only for themselves. Even though most of the Fairy Tail members were on the Blue Pegasus while you rampaged through the ship, everyone heard that roar you gave Laxus. It was pained and so angry. I fear that if you hadn't killed Ivan, then he would have continued until he was successful. Though what you did was right, doesn't mean it wasn't hard. I forgive you even though there is nothing really to forgive."
Laxus gave a huge sniff, rubbing his eyes, before smiling gently at his grandpa who already started crying anyway.
"Thanks gramps. I really needed to hear that."
"Of course. Besides, we still have each other. Even if I die one day, I know that the world will still be safe with you in it."
"Man gramps, why did you have to ruin the mood when talking about your death? Geez. Old geezer" Laxus huffed, crossing his arms.
"What was that you brat!?" Makarov yelled, hitting Laxus on the back of the head. Laxus rubbed his head before sighing.
"You heading back?" Makarov asked as he and Laxus started walking back towards the main part of town.
"Yeah" Laxus shuffled some of his hair, "I kind of fought with Freed about coming to talk to you."
"I'm sure if you just talk with him that things will be okay" Makarov tried comforting his grandson who sighed loudly.
"I'm starting to doubt that he'd want to marry me gramps. You've seen how I am," Laxus said sadly, kicking the dirt below his feet.
"Laxus Drayer" Makarov stopped, pointing up at his grandson, "Freed has seen how you are too. Might I remind you that you've known each other for at least eleven years. The last year you two started dating and I know for a fact that he has never stopped loving you. Maybe he'll actually be excited when you ask him since he'll think you're being serious for once."
Makarov chuckled at his grandson who growled at him.
"I'm always serious with Freed old man!" Laxus huffed before stomping to his apartment making Makarov chuckle at his hardheaded grandson before heading towards the guild.
Freed had been waiting for Laxus to come back home before a sinking feeling in his stomach made him think that Laxus wasn't going to come back home for the night. Freed crawled into bed unhappily before curling himself into a ball, tears hitting his pillow.
If only he knew what my father was really like, he wouldn't have said that. He'd know I understand how he feels considering my father is just like Ivan; in his own way though.
Freed sniffed hard before forcing himself to fall asleep.
When Laxus walked into the apartment, headed for the bedroom, he didn't see the light on in the room. Slightly worried that Freed left the apartment, he quickly and silently opened the door before seeing Freed in the bed. Laxus let out a sigh before heading over to Freed before standing next to the greenette. He bent down to kiss his boyfriend before stopping immediately seeing tear stains down Freed's cheeks.
Laxus' heart squeezed in his chest painfully, knowing he was the one who probably caused that. He sighed sadly, moving some of Freed's hair away from his face before heading towards the couch; his bed for the evening.
When Freed woke up, he stretched his hand out towards the blonde that was usually next to him before sitting up quickly. He looked around the room before remembering that Laxus really wasn't going to be coming back home. Freed's heart tightened painfully in sadness before getting up to shower.
After the shower, which Freed had made too cold and was now shivering and pale, he got his clothes on quickly not feeling hungry.
He left the room quickly, wanting to get out of the depressing atmosphere that was floating in the apartment. As he crossed through the living room to get to the front door, he hardly noticed anything around him until a large warm hand landed on his shoulder.
Freed stopped in his tracks surprised before turning slowly to see Laxus looking sadly at him.
"I talked to gramps," Laxus blurted out making Freed blink at him before nodding.
Laxus frowned at Freed as he slowly reached up to move some of Freed's bangs behind his ear again. Freed looked away from him sadly before Laxus ducked his head under Freed's to give him a gentle but quick kiss.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not listening to you and for being an overall ass."
Freed looked surprised at Laxus since he was apologizing before glancing down to his shoes in embarrassment, his cheeks tinting pink.
"I… hate it when I make you sad. Or cry" Laxus whispered the last word but Freed heard it anyway, making him blush even more.
That would mean that Laxus did come home last night and probably saw his flushed cheeks and tear stains if he had to guess. This made Freed really happy though he didn't want to get his hopes up in case Laxus was guessing.
"You… came home last night?" Freed whispered curiously as he finally made eye contact with Laxus who relaxed under the gaze.
"Yeah. I kind of took some anger out on an innocent tree before gramps came over. We talked a little and I'm better. I'm sorry I worried you. I'm also sorry about saying those things about your father" Freed could hear the sorrow in Laxus' voice practically hearing the man's brain going 'I hurt Freed again. How can he love me?' I mean, Freed could practically see those words written on his face.
Freed slowly hugged Laxus who happily and quickly hugged him back, nuzzling his nose in the damp sweet smelling green hair.
"It's alright Laxus. I understood you needed to cool off. I think you just had to figure out how to let it out or something. Nothing to be sorry about. Besides, " Freed looked up at Laxus who looked curiously down at the greenette, "I love you."
Laxus' eyes sparked in happiness, Freed joyously noted, before Laxus kissed him long and hard needing to convey how happy and sorry he was to his lover. Freed happily wrapped his arms around Laxus neck trying to keep up with the blondes' passionate pace. When the need for oxygen became too much, they separated the intense lip lock, leaving them both panting and with slightly swollen lips. Laxus suddenly grabbed Freed's hand bringing him to the kitchen. Freed gaped at the abundance of foods on the table.
"I felt really bad so I was going to make you lots of stuff for breakfast. I know I'm not that good of a cook at all, and most of this was store bought, but I hope its okay" Laxus looked nervously at Freed who smiled happily. Freed practically jumped on Laxus giving him little kisses on his face making Laxus laugh.
"Let's eat then" Laxus pecked Freed quickly before they dug into their food. Once they finished their breakfast, the couple left the apartment wanting to go talk and clarify things with their friends. Especially hang out with their friends.
On their way to the guild though, something was nagging Laxus that he really wanted to ask Freed, nervous for the answer. Laxus stopped suddenly making Freed look at him curiously.
"Freed… you've never talked about your family before you know? I mean your biological family and all" Laxus said softly noticing how Freed's features darkened before he looked away sadly.
"When you said that you knew it was hard for me to show my emotions for killing my father, I said that you couldn't possibly understand that. But I get the feeling that you do. Am I wrong?" Laxus tried moving his head so that he could make eye contact with Freed who looked rather uncomfortable at the moment.
"You weren't the one that made me cry last night Laxus" Freed said embarrassed, "I just remembered my own…parents."
Laxus noticed that Freed said the word 'parents' as though it were a bad taste in his mouth. This was cause for concern alone.
"I'm sorry. Whatever happened to make you so sad about your parents, must have been terrible."
Freed shook his head harshly before sighing angrily.
"I hate them. They're alive and well from what I've last heard. The farther they are away from me, from us, the happier I'll be" Freed said aggressively, worrying and making Laxus curious.
"Freed?" Laxus cradled Freed's cheek in his hand wondering what had made the greenette so angry with his parents.
"I don't want to talk about them Laxus, please. It hurts too much" Freed whispered before muscular arms hugged him tightly, Freed's face gently resting in the crook of Laxus' neck. He smelled so wonderful.
"I hope you'll talk to me about it someday. If not that's okay. I know that some people don't like to be reminded of their past," as Laxus remembered his own and how mean he had been to everyone, especially Freed.
"Stop those thoughts right now Laxus Drayer" Freed kissed him passionately, breaking the kiss apart before it could get too deep, looking into calm gray eyes.
"Our past makes us stronger even if we don't like remembering it. It makes us who we are today and to learn from it, okay? One day… maybe, I'll tell you about my parents."
Laxus nodded, smiling at his adorable Freed as they kissed gently once more, headed for the guild and their friends.
At the Guild
Freed and Laxus were at a table with Ever and Bicks just catching up with their friends. What was exciting though was that Gajeel and Levi were now mates as well. In fact they were true mates also! Levi had a gray dragon mark on her neck that seemed to be made out of her iron script writing. Gajeel had a similar one, which was a multitude of colors and also made out of script writing. The marks were the same size as Freed's and Laxus'. Of course everyone was being perverted towards the two which ended up with a huge brawl early in the morning; inevitably annoying gramps.
Laxus explained to Ever and Bickslow what had happened on the ship and that Freed was really okay. Of course the minute they entered the guildhall the two pounced on Freed as he was slowly being suffocated. They finally made it to a table so everything could be explained to their best friends.
"I'm just glad everything is somewhat back to normal now" Ever was currently eating a late breakfast, sitting across from Laxus.
"No kidding. I'm glad I got to kick some butt so Laxus could get to you. I felt so useless" Bicks waved his arms around as his tikis flew in circles above him.
"You were very helpful Bickslow. Everyone was. I'm glad everyone was there for Laxus too. I was really worried at what would happen to him. Thanks for looking out for him. For us" Freed said shyly making Ever and Bicks smile happily at him.
"I was fine Freed" Laxus rolled his eyes while secretly slipping his hand into Freed's, squeezing it tightly. Freed smiled at him before kissing him on the cheek making Laxus huff at him.
"Gah, could you two be any more lovey dovey? I can practically see the glitter coming off of you two" Bicks opened his mouth pretending to gag.
"Glitter!"
"Glitter!"
"I thought I already saw some sparkles rolling off the two like in those romance manga" Ever giggled making Laxus and Freed growl at her.
"Well I think there will be actual sparkles and hearts in their eyes when Laxus finally asks Freed to-" Ever slapped her hand over Bicks' mouth as a hard kick simultaneously hit his shin thanks to Laxus.
Freed looked between the three people at the table, becoming suspicious. Laxus and Ever were glaring hard at Bickslow who looked like he wanted to die at the moment.
"When Laxus finally asks me what?" Freed asked curiously making Laxus freeze next to him.
"Uh… its nothing. He's just making things up," Laxus said nervously, glancing everywhere around the guildhall.
"Yeah! Just finish your drink Freed" Ever waved her hand in an up and down motion.
"Bickslow?" Freed asked, glaring suspiciously at the mage who tried to make himself very small at the moment.
"Uh… I ruined the surprise?" Bicks tried sounding convincing as Freed lifted an eyebrow up at him. Laxus and Ever were glaring hard at Bickslow silently asking for him to shut his mouth at the moment.
"And that surprise would be?" Freed said.
"It's nothing Freed" Laxus said tightly, silently telling his mate to stop asking questions.
"Well it obviously wouldn't be nothing since all three of you think its something" Freed said crossly, crossing his arms over his chest.
"Laxus wanted to take you out to lunch at new restaurant that just opened!" Bickslow burst out making Freed, Laxus and Ever blink owlishly at him.
"Oh!" Freed said happily, moving some bangs behind his ear.
"You could have just told me Laxus. Although I guess a surprise would have been fun. I'll go change okay?" Freed said happily, pecking Laxus on the lips before leaving he guild.
All of the Fairy Tail members breathed out a sigh of relief, their hearts practically leaping out of their chests. Bickslow wasn't exactly a quiet talker.
"Sorry about that man. I really didn't mean to. I was just so excited I-"
"It's okay Bicks. Just… try to contain the excitement till I actually ask Freed to marry me okay?"
BIcks nodded as Laxus patted his shoulder.
"Now where the hell am I going to find a restaurant that just opened?" Laxus asked as all the members thought hard about the question since they were sure Laxus was going to castrate Bicks for almost blurting out something very important.
Good ol' Bicks ;) Anyway this probably seemed like a filler but oh well! Review and keep being awesome readers! All of your support makes me so happy *little tear* thanks everyone!
